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Imagine an SA victim becomes suicidal and goes to a mental hospital, just to be held down by multiple men after being stripped naked. You should never be stripped naked, that is a complete violation.
This is exactly what I was thinking of. If that happened to me on a good mental health day I would end up a complete mess. Thinking about that happening at the peak of a breakdown.... I would not survive it unless multiple new alters formed to make me forget it happened (I have DID)
💯 messed me UP during my active trauma years
I went to a mental hospital and yelled at all the nurses to not let the men touch me while they looked at me like I was stupid while the women just stood around and let the men strap me down
And then when that incident triggered me (more than ever) and I was completely out of myself, I get diagnosed with schizophrenia. Even though I was already diagnosed with PTSD and it should be obvious I was triggered. Now it has almost been 2 years of me trying to remove that diagnose of my diagnoses list and it’s finally almost ending. 2 years. Because it took them some few hours of a meltdown to diagnose me with something I do not have, but years to believe every argument I have to explain that: I do not have schizophrenia, your staff triggered me.
As an SA victim I can confirm, especially since I was 15 when I was admitted. It was a complete violation of my privacy to be stripped down like that, and there were several other instances that occurred during my stay as well. Still, mine wasn't nearly as bad as the speakers' experiences. I can't imagine going through something like what Lauren went through.
The scary part about some mental hospitals isn’t even the patients, it’s the staff
This 100%
THIS!!!
Have you guys even been inside Psychiatric wards? Lmfao
That's the true story for about every job ever .. there is one guy holding everything together and just new people filtered in while the higher ups just yell at them on how us to be better.
This genuinely sounds like youve never been in one- I work in one and the staff overextend themself for each and every patient
Her poem and the way she read it was exactly like how I experienced my psych ward admissions.
Feel so bad 4 u Hope u r better ❤
Thats how I felt when I went to the psych ward
same was a horrible experience
I saw her poem on button poetry
It’s so pretty
Anita: she/her Laura: she/they David: David
Omg bro that was the first thing I noticed when I started watching 😂
David
Imagine you just can't call him by any pronouns.
😂😂😂
@@urfrend01 wdym david has pronouns david’s pronouns are david.Are you invalidating david’s pronouns?
That woman deserves multiple awards for that poem
For realll
ALIE
The line “But she does now” seriously hit
true that
No seriously
Her poem is deep as hell and her emotions she put into it. On how a psych ward is actually build to make you crazy then help you
They want you to act out to see what label they can put on you
@@hannahwillis9838 and honestly that in my opinion is the worst kind of method (or way of doing it [sorry my english sucks] )
@@Elena-in3mk your English is perfectly fine. Don’t apologize for knowing more than one language ❤️
I agree.
Not true at all
I work in a hospital with a ward but we call it behavioral health. It’s scary because the staff has a rule to not trust the patient and I’ve talked to some of them, and one of them cried because she said she just wanted to go home. She said she was she came in for PPD but she felt fine after realizing she missed her hubby and new family. But no one will listen to her😔
tgen help her out of there
@@itsthat1jerk387 it’s not that easy as the patients health is on record plus she has to be discharged by her doctor which clearly the doctor won’t let her out. They have high security so they can’t exactly sneak out.
Some practices are harsh but the procedures are there to keep people safe. When I was being treated for mental health, a patient tried to hang herself in the admittance area with her bra. I have mixed feelings about being strip searched. They check on patients every 15 minutes at night sleep in these places are impossible, because you can strangle yourself with sheets. Mental illness effects people differently and they don't know what an individual is going to do. The place I was at didn't have toilet paper on a roll, because I guessed you can make a noose our of it. It was dispensed like tissues incase you were wondering.
@Raine whispers I agree with this, but these places lack the resources and the staff. I was lucky to have a doctor who knew my background and sent me to a facility that had these resources. My doctor actually checked on my status and even came to visit when I was in the hospital. A lot of people treat mental illness as a weakness and taboo. Until people start accepting it as any other illness like diabetes or heart disease people are going to be mistreated.
awe poor thing 🥺
Her poem really summed up my stay as well. If someone mentioned wanting to die they would immediately send you to the isolation room. Which was your mattress (that they dragged from your room) and one thin blanket on the floor. They didn’t even treat us like human beings, I felt like a dog being trained to be good.
im so sorry you had to go thru that :(
@@ExistingSmiles Thank you 🙏Luckily i’m doing much better now :)
there aren't many people who deserve to die but the people who work at those places do
Who treats dogs like this? Its wrong to treat anything like that
As bad as the hospital stays were, jail is infinitely worse. I got brought in manic and in a state of psychosis. They locked me in the drunk tank with the lights on 24/7 , completely naked, nothing but a mat, no blankets pillows or toilet paper. Just a thin mat and a shoebox size hole in the floor as a bathroom. They ended up leaving me there for 6 days straight which felt like an eternity in the state I was in/ never knowing what time of day it was. I would bang on the door and yell so they would just constantly ask me what drugs I was on and I told them nothing but nicotine, caffeine, and marijuana but they wouldn't believe me. They know nothing about mental health and just assume if someone is acting different it's because of drugs. I was brought in on a friday after the doctor had already left and they don't come in on the weekends so I begged for the 2 meds I had been taking for 3 days straight before the Doc finally came in on monday. They then gave me all 7 different meds that had been previously tried on me over the previous 6 months and with the state I was in I just took them. Taking all those meds finally went far past sedating me and to the point where I couldn't chew or swallow food and couldn't even lift myself off the mat. It wasn't until I had not moved in 2 days straight that they finally decided I needed to go to the hospital.. I had plenty of rough and depressing times in the hospitals but, my god, those 6 days are the only true trauma I have ever experienced and it's upsetting knowing that there are thousands of people in America alone that are being treated the same way when all they need is help.. Hope you're doing better now.
*the poem was SOOO powerful. It should be in a movie or sth.*
Nah it was cringe
@@musicimpact7120 how. Tell me.
@@musicimpact7120 k marley💀
@@musicimpact7120 ur embarrassing
It was SO good
I really appreciate how accepting Anthony is with everyone and he doesn't make them uncomfortable
always has been
he really treats everyone as equals, it makes my heart so happy
yeah I know how some people could make topics weird but Anthony makes them comfortable
Right!? I'm hoping/trying to learn to present myself in the similar manner he has to make people comfortable talking about uncomfortable things. He has an amazing skill at it!
@@Audhumbla005 for sure i'd say showing your emotions and tones is what helped me feel better while asked personal questions!
our mental health system is fucked and needs to be fixed. these people need help and to be heard not terrified and antagonized.
Aren’t some of them fuzzed beyond repair
@@googlegmail9888 Um... No they're not.. And even if they're in your words "fuzzed beyond repair" that doesn't warrant or excuse the incredibly inhumane treatment that these normal innocent people just in need of actual support and help should be receiving. It's like you didn't even watch the video or understand the message? The whole point is to humanize people struggling with mental illnesses and not let the abuse and cruelty in Pyhsic Wards go unnoticed and unexcused. Have some empathy good lord.
Some people need help but psychiatry is just not help at all. Horrifyingly and sadly. 👎🏼
It's bad in Australia too but better than nothing :(
Having bounced between 8 different hospital stays in 5 different hospitals over the course of about half a year, I can without a doubt confirm that this is not an isolated issue. Some hospitals are certainly better than others and believe it or not, the only State run hospital was a thousand times better than the 4 private run hospitals were.
Psych wards can turn people who are normal into crazy people because of how much the doctors gas light you into thinking youre ill. The first girl's poem described it so accurate.
that poem was INCREDIBLE. the delivery, the pacing, the rawness, wow.
I’m scared
It was amazing. 🧡
As someone who's been to one it was very accurate
im high asf i really wasn’t prepared for alldat
Thank you!
her poem was SO POWERFUL. literally i just got the strongest chills
same
It was creepily chilling. In a good way tho.
Her poem was so good
Could go in a horror movie already!
Same!
I ended up being severely traumatized from a mental hospital. The place that was supposed to help me ending up scarring me for life. To this day it makes it hard for me to ask for help out of fear they’ll send me back.
Same
Me too i was so scared i didn’t talk the whole time
I’d rather go anything than go back
Same.
Me as well.
People who strip SA victims down and strap them down like that deserve the death penalty like how does that help someone? You’re putting them through the same trauma they’re being admitted for, don’t take clothes off people! Like wtf
Defintiely not the death penalty. Stop overreacting, it isn't helping anyone. They're just doing their jobs, they have their own lives, families to raise.
@@UraWrld I'd be mentally ill, so my brain literally wouldn't be functioning properly.
@@UraWrld okie dokie
@@shinypooka i agree, not the death penalty, but it deffo shouldnt be legal and i also think that prison systems are bad so ive created a dilema in my head
as someone who has been in these hellholes, they dont give a fuck usually. SA is so common in acutes
That poem was accurate. I lost my sister after she had a long battle with mental health. I truly think the hospitals she was in made her worse. A different one every time.
I’m so sorry for your lost
I’m so sorry. God bless her soul.
God bless
💙💙💙
I went on one and tbh it only made things worse. I'm so sorry for your lose and I hope you and your family gets better soon
Anita's poem was extremely powerful. She's very talented!
It was cringe
@@musicimpact7120 are u gonna reply this every comment she was expressing her feelings
@@musicimpact7120 you’re embarrassing
@@musicimpact7120 You're sad
@@musicimpact7120 don’t embarrass yourself
Anita's poem made me tear up and gave me chills. I felt that. So wonderfully written. You're not alone. I've been in many psychiatric hospitals. I was 12 the first time I was placed in one for being defiant. During restraining a 7 year old, they murdered that child. I saw it. I heard him scream, cry, and moan until the silence. Then all the staff freaking out. I was placed in so many psych wards as a pre-teen and teenager. I've been in 3 times for suicide attempts as an adult. There's no shame in getting help. I do believe many people experience more harm in many institutions. We see you and you matter.
May you know the peace of the LORD Jesus Christ, God bless you and keep you!
im sorry that happened to you :(
Holy fuck. They killed that child, what the hell is wrong with people
wow that is so terrible. They KILLED A GOD DAMN SEVEN YEAR OLD. people are so so terrible.
One kid had his head cracked open while everyone was eating lunch I still remember them holding a towel under his head until the ambulance arrived
When I was 13 I was put into a psych ward hospital, it was very traumatizing for me. I still get uneasy about a simple trip to the hospital. I remember screaming and crying to my mother for her to help me, only to see her look down on me in shame. I remember the loneliness I felt and how cold my bed was when I went to sleep. I remember sobbing and sobbing, begging to go home. I remember how uneasy I felt around the nurses, I remember them shoving pills in my face. I remember faking how I felt so I could leave early. I remember how much I hurt from it. Her poem hit so close to home. But after I left, my mother treated me like I’m crazy. My whole world crumbled into pieces after I left, the psych ward did not help me, it made me feel worse.
I'm sorry for what you went through. You are definitely very smart and worthy. Power and peace to you.
So sorry for what you had to experience, it sounds completely horrible 😢🖤
I am genuinely so so sorry for that. This is an evil world. I’ve been there . But our existence is a rebellion and self care is our biggest act of defiance. Hospitals like that thrive off of vulnerable people to make a profit. Take care of yourself and take care of anyone who’s at risk of ending up in a place like that. I wish you peace of mind, you’re loved and you deserve all the respect In the world.
jesus that poem gave me goosebumps. she's incredible
I saw her perform her poem before (not in person, I saw it on social media) in front of a audience on a stage!
Yeah I was a bit scared but mostly shocked like the pause turning into creepy smile and then the chilling sentences.
That poem is truth.
Thank you !
Same-
I went voluntarily to a mental hospital because I was extremely depressed. I was raped by an orderly. I was suddenly described as autistic according to my medical records because I started avoiding eye contact with the male staff. In my medical records, the autism was supported by the fact that I had asked a doctor for a hearing test 10 years earlier and they now decided what I really meant is that I don't understand people, and also that I'm an engineer and enjoy sci-fi as a female which is apparently an autism symptom? They changed my stay to involuntary to observe me for this "autism" but did not inform me of the reason (I only found out from my medical records later). Then they also suddenly determined me to have "paranoia" because I didn't want to take their anti-depressants and "calming" medications anymore and because I put my arms across my chest to prevent a male doctor from putting his hand down my shirt to check my heart. A week later I saw the head doctor. All he wanted to talk about was whether I would go to the police. I assured him that I wouldn't, and I was immediately released. He wrote in my medical record that I had suffered a breakdown after being dumped, which was a complete fabrication. Two separate nurses told me they had heard from several patients that they had "slept with" staff (like we have a choice when we're trapped in a room with staff who can do whatever they want with us). These two nurses seemed to find this mildly concerning, but they mostly seemed to accept it as just what happens in psychiatric hospitals. I want to ask the world to stop giving mental health professionals the power to lock people up, rape them, and then use psychiatric diagnoses to cover it up.
I wish you peace, love, and growth after your experience💕
God that's horrible, I hope you are doing better now and that you have found peace.
@Saying N*igro Makes KZhead Cry They'll just say I'm crazy and the police will believe them. If the police were likely to do anything, then they never would have done it in the first place. They already changed my voluntary stay to involuntary when they found out about it. What would they do if I went to the police?
WOW THAT must of been SHIT lots of love and hugs
@@lalala-lt8fe that is so ture but it so fucked up at the same time and the fact that today mental health is still rising no one is really doing jack shit about and I know that it Austraila for sure - yes I live in Austraila
I am absolutely shocked by some of these stories, and I’ve been admitted to these places multiple times it was horrifying and traumatizing, but not to this extent. In the facilities I got better it was in the emergency room where I was really traumatized and treated like an animal.
Hope u r better
@@notwerkinginthishouse8634 so much better honestly
What lead you up to that point? The curly hair lady seemed crazy
my experience in the emergency room was the only moment of peace to be honest. i was just laid in a bed with my father next to me. the psych ward itself was horrible. i was a voluntary patient too
@@googlegmail9888no way you're serious rn
"We didnt cause your social anxiety. We only heightened what was already there." I havent been in a mental institution myself, but i need to say, this line is making me cry. i dont know, this hits a really big cord with me; maybe i had past trauma or im feeling for everyone who had to go through this. thank you
The poem is scary accurate. Everyone was given diazapam to keep us emotionless and I barely saw the doctor.
To think I begged to be in one of these places but my parents refused.
I'm so sorry that this happened to you. I hope you're doing better now and that you'll never have to even think about going back to that place
seriously, the only time I saw the doctor was after I got booty juiced and the only thing I remember is her asking me how much and the last time I pooped. I still think about that like how did she even know what medicine to give me.
I’m stingy with the benzodiazepines. If I can calm someone down without it, I always go for that method first. I know some nurses go straight for the as-needed psych meds, though. Not me. The best yet: Patient yelled, “I’m leaving, and you can’t stop me.” I came up started talking a little, and then I said, “You know what? I got some apple juice today. You want some?” He went from 😡 to 😁 … No drugs needed.
Yup. When I was there, I saw the psychiatrist once and he prescribed me 4 new pills, on top of the one I was already taking. I couldn't stay awake during the day at all and later found out that all 4 were sedatives.
That poem was fantastic. You can hear the pain and power in her voice. She’s amazing.
The intense talking to the small sweet talk parents give us when we tell them something happened.
So powerfully worded. You could hear every little detail in her voice. Personally I was sitting on the edge of my seat and I’m sure I’m not the only one. Much love 💝
And it’s extremely, true
My jaw was slowly going to the floor during the entire poem
although a lot of it wasnt my experience of a psych ward, some of it really hit home with me and the kind of cheery attitude is really eery and reminded me of how some of the staff acted.
The strip search was the hardest part for me. I just remember crying and being forced into a corner trying to cover myself with my hands. In a room with no doors. All the other patients could see. I laid on my plastic mattress for the whole first day just crying. This was only a year ago. It's still really fresh in my mind. Next time I wont let anyone know.
💜 I’m so sorry this happened to you bud You deserve so much more respect
Psychs are seggual abusers. You can be sure its the pervs who came up with the strip search rule.
I'm sorry that happened
That's terrible
you never deserved that. nobody deserves to be treated like that. i’m so sorry i wish i could give you a big hug.
I was in the psych ward when I was 15. I was SAed and harassed by nurses. The system needs improvement,
I'm really sorry for you. Are you doing much better now? ?
You are not alone 😔
😢
Nurses are supposed to help not hurt I swear our mental health system is so messed up. People who hurt their patients need to be locked up
I’m a psychiatric nurse and the way these people were treated breaks my heart. I’m in Australia so it might be different in my hospital but I hope that I never make anyone feel this way
I don’t know about psychiatric hospitals in Australia but the U.S has a extremely long history of psychiatric hospitals being dangerous, traumatic, and corrupt. There are many horror stories. Old facilities used to do experiments on patients with forced concent and a majority of facilities now are not healing to the patients and cause much more trauma.
Im not that surprised duo to past of psychiatric but im surprised it still goes on this day forward where we understand human mind and we need to occupy it by being productive and not just put in a locked room. I am a nurse i was in psychiatric hospital and yes there are closed sections for ones that harm others or themselves but with cruicial evidence of them doing that. But usually the people i worked with the patie ts were happy we went to walk with them outside on the sun let them smoke their cigarete as it calmed them down if they were really good behaved and get better than previous week on Sunday they even got coffe or cake for a reward. So i guess it really depends on a lot of stuff.
I’m in Australia too and I’ve never heard of them being like this. I guess it’s one more thing that America does “better”
I been in there they are worse than prdin at the Gold coast the police used the eea authority to toutre me
@@maddijasnyy nop they like this to just we have privacy laws that America doesn't
I love how respectful he is no matter the guest and no matter the topic
He should be. Set the standard.
@Bruh Bruh u say that like gay is a bad thing pff clown
@Bruh Bruh ur 14 right?
@Bruh Bruh me thinking i’m funny 😩😩
@@thottusthottusxoxo pretty sure the guy is joking
I was in a psych ward recently. It’s an oxymoron. You go there to prevent yourself from ending your life, But end up wanting to end your life even more the longer youre there.
That’s sad
True
I spent 6 weeks at a psych ward when I was 13 or 14, and the only saving grace was the fact that I was in a children’s ward where I met some incredible people who were also suffering. But I will forever be haunted by some of those past experiences
* Lauren’s camera quality is better than my eyes*
Her poem literally embodies everything I’ve ever wanted to say ! When she was done, I felt relief
I was thinking the same thing hearing it!! It was very validating hearing someone put my feelings of being in the psych ward into such a beautifully written and performed poem.
felt the same exact way
Same
😂
so anyone wondering, ECT is when shocks are administered to your brain as an attempt to help you, but it has a small chance of wiping out large chucks of memory and you can even forget who people are like your friends or parents.
@@UraWrld yeah, its still legal
ECT is a safe and effective treatment for patients. Stop spreading fear and misinformation.
@@brookewilson1950 its a side effect. "Brain Manipulation Therapy." I'm going based off of my knowledge in psychology. Memory loss is a side effect that can last either a short amount of time or years.
thats inhumane and beyond anything that even sounds like the word compassion. i feel for you and everyone. i would expect those "doctors" to try to help by giving space, love, time, and a really caring therapist. you/anyone who got that and everyone who went through what these inspiring beautiful ladies and gentlemen didnt deserve any pain they caused. you deserve everything good and love and affection like hugs and stuff :)
I don’t think that’s correct. It’s not a 50/50 chance. There’s a chance of it not working but not forgetting everything unless that’s what happened when it first came out? Because that’s not how it is now. I think that might be old information
I’ve been put in a psych ward twice when I was younger. Once when I was 10, and another time when I was 12. I was not happy there. There’s a lot of trauma I accumulated from my time there. The intake process was terrifying. Asking me for details about the abuse I endured as a kid was horrible. Then the whole strip search was even worse. They checked every inch of my body and screamed at me when I tried to cover myself up. It was horrifying. It’s scary being there. It’s a lot like prison. It’s not a place for children especially children like me who were just misunderstood and depressed. Edit: I feel so bad for everybody who has a bad experience in a psych ward. Just know you’re not alone
That is horrible and you were 10 and 12 being stripped! That is causing trauma and screaming when they were naked. I hoped you are better.😟🥺
Her poem was incrediable also you can tell how strongly she feels about this in her voice
Seriously! I felt everything she was saying. It wasn’t even just the words but the inflections she placed on the words, ramping up the energy until the listener is gripping at their seat and then all of a sudden just cutting it, giving you a second to breathe and starts ramping up a again. It’s seriously was all so well done
@@sean_mccadden YES!
Honestly, it's so heartbreaking and scary to hear these stories of these survivors- there really needs to be a reevaluation of patient advocacy, and understanding of mental health- the biggest thing that all these stories had was a lack of sympathy from the staff which in turn can make some mental illnesses worst as my anxiety rised just hearing about it so I couldn't imagine dealing with it first hand was like. There is not enough thanks I can give to the guests on today's episode for being so courageous and brave to talk about their experiences while also keeping an open mind that not everyone endured the same treatment they did
Sun Tzu agrees
As a survivor myself, I totally agree. I remember having a panic attack at a psych ward, not knowing what it was and scared I was having a heart attack, and a nurse scoffed at me and told me it was just a panic attack and to drink some water. One of the patients tried to help but the nurses kept telling her to be quiet. I would never wish what I've been through even for my worst enemies. My experiences have traumatized me to the point I don't want to see a therapist in fear of being put in the same situation even though I know I really should.
@@raynsmith6759 I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Hugs from an internet stranger.
@@raynsmith6759 Joining on the internet hugs
@@Nom1fan Yeah, the other sad part is I live in the US and can't afford a therapist. Not like I have much time anyways for one where most of my days are at work or taking care of myself, my home, and my loved ones. 😅 I really appreciate the advice and sentiment though. 💕
My dad actually studied to be a psychiatric nurse, he said once he saw how bad the conditions were he quit and became a teacher trainer for developing counties. Hes been to Kazakhstan, spent 4 months in Bangladesh extra
Omg I'm from Kazakhstan!
Reading all the comments and watching the video, i just want to say to all the victims who've been admitted and traumatized: I'm so sorry. I cry reading and/or hearing about your stories. You should have never been treated as cruely as you were. I hope you will at least somewhat recover, if you can't ever fully do that. I just want you to know you are loved. You are important and don't let them treat you bad.
thank you so much :) i have been doing a lot better and im glad there is ppl like you in this world.
"Reach your full potential as a patient" I... no. that gave me chills
It is so crazy to me that what would be considered sexual assault in every other setting is okay at institutions like this??? (talking about the stripping)
I think that happens in jail too
@@gracelewis4016 You strip yourself in jail unless you object. From what I’ve heard, you get pinned down in mental hospitals. And you get yourself in jail by your own fault but people can’t influence their mental health… Also unless I’m wrong, you are examined by guards of the same gender😅 neither is ideal but the stripping in mental hospitals sounds so brutal😅 I felt especially bad for the girl who just got locked in a room with a sindow without any clothes🥺
I have never experienced anything other than the typical shit everyone feminine pretty much goes through (catcalling, a stranger grabbed my ass once) and yet I would've straight up broken down, like full-on fuckin dissociation I would be _gone,_ especially because I'm nonbinary so having to also just look at my body and have other people look at body would make me want to vomit can't fuckin imagine how awful it would be for someone who has trauma due to abuse/assault, especially with how they're held down and tied up
@@crowsoto9612 I cannot even imagine. Why is it so brutal though??? Especially if somebody wants and agrees to getting admitted... I would be scared for my life if I went to a mental hospital to get help and then without warning was sexually assaulted... It's so cruel. Many people experience body dismorphia, have eating disorders, 1 out of 5 (or three, I can't remember rn) women have been a victim of sexual assault or rape, what about people who have PTSD from any sort of an attack? This must be so hurtful, humiliating and scary for them. This must be hurtful, humiliating and scary for anyone who has to go through this but these people especially...
Jail is kind of different though although I still don’t think it’s appropriate that situation either. Most people in hospital are innocent, they never did anything to deserve being stripped down. It’s just horrible.
That poem was incredible, such raw emotion in her voice, deserves an Oscar 🏆
I don’t know about an Oscar as that’s for acting Maybe a Noble Prize 🪙
the reason it was good was because it was real, not acting
I could recite her poem when i was in a psych ward myself, translated it into german and the other patients used it to get a voice for themselves. It was a psych ward for kids in the age range from 10 to 17 and it was exactky the same as the movies. I was in there for over three months, there were others that were there for 4 years and they all became dull, i had friends that were there too. And they all came back changed, we talked about all of that, no one got therapy, most of the things they did back then became worse. The hospital kitchen gave us all tape worms but nothing happened, if they didn't wanted to deal with you, they used that to throw you out with the explanation "we dont have any solidary rooms." I was in a room with six other people that just came in that week while i was in "quarantine" for two weeks bc of the tape worms. Nurses made fun about us. One had bulemia in my room, so the bathroom was locked at all times. There was a guest bathroom down the hall but we werent alloed to use it, so they let me sit there for two weeks without a bathroom or a shower. I cant be with more than one person, if its more i often pass out bc of the panic, can't go with much noises, cant be too bright.. never had a minute for myself in those three and a half months. Tbh all of the stuff that i had before coming there just got worse, plus they got me more problems. I was there for so long and multiple times, but they never diagnosed me with anything. But a therapist that a youtuber put me through diagnosed me with several things in just six weeks of talking on the phone. So psych wards, mental hospitals.. they dont want to help you, they dont want to give you a diagnosis, they dont want to give you things to make it easier for you. They just dont give a damn.
Also when they found out that i wanted to be a psychologist, they just screamed at me bc i am too dumb, i would never make it, wouldnt even get the chance. If the staff just found one thing that you're aspiring, they just tried to crush that down, to keep you quiet.
that’s horrible, i’m sorry to hear that
It's REALLY scary. You can have all the "normal" responses of a person, but once they label you as "crazy", all your actions become a motif. It's insane. It's like there is always a closed path for all the possible solutions you can think of.
That's what Catch 22 was all about
History is written by the victors, and it's the same case here but with regards to who is normal or who is insane. Just because they are the ones in power, they are the ones able to label everyone, and force their narrative down on "normal people."
@@revolverjesus98 then i guess im a victor because i told the apa what i know and threatened a lawsuit if so much as one of their psychiatrists so much as touches me, and now they are legally scared to even see me, thing is just give threats of lawsuits and prove you will do it and they will avoid you like the plague, i feel more people need to know this
True I felt like I didn't know how to "act"
Sad but true
“Because sometimes existing is exhausting” - Anthony Padillia 2021
Period
That’s true
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I had a pleasant experience and they had a bunch of therapy classes, some patients were worse then others so they had to make it safe for the other patients that weren't so hostile. They only put the active suicidal/homicidal people in padded rooms and if they freak out they get a much needed sedative. It saved my life!
Watching this in the psych ward currently. I’m grateful my experience isn’t like this. Although someone in the room next to me is currently screaming
You still have your phone? Nice
In this book I read it talked about because of the broad unchecked powers they have people's experiences are so variable because it just comes down to the culture of each hospital. Some have a culture of extreme abuse and neglect, and some don't. The ones that do have no oversight or safeguards for the patients. So you're just rolling the dice you don't get tortured. So heartbreaking.
As someone who's been in a psych ward for kids and teenagers being restrained at 10 years old is the most terrifying experience I've ever had. Being pinned down by several adult men and even though I'm screaming for someone to help me because I don't know what's going on no one gives it a second thought. I didnt even know what the meds I was being given were and to this day I've never been told. I'm 15 now and I've been admitted a total of 7 times, all against my will because they never helped me, they traumatized me. Thankyou Anthony for handling such a sensitive topic so well, you're amazing Edit: I'm doing far better than I have been. Thankyou for all your words of support kind internet people. I still deal with the memory of what happened there but I'm beginning to recover
that is absoulutely terrifying, i'm so glad you are out of there and wish you the best
I’m so sorry you had to experience that, sending you all the good vibes and positivity. Don’t forget that you’re loved and people care about you, keep your chin up 💕
I'm sorry you went through that.
I am wishing you with all my heart to stay safe and to fully heal.
I have Autism. I have been to to a special needs school. I have been “Physically helped” and I was screaming and crying until I apologize, they didn’t stop.
I wanted to be a psychiatric doctor for a long time. But after meeting my late step mom, I realized how much I didn’t want to. She was a paranoid schizophrenic, she was the most gorgeous woman on the planet. She would never hurt anyone. Before I met her, she had already gone to a psychiatric hospital and absolutely never wanted to go back. After she started getting really bad, talking about people in the walls, talking about “eyes” following her, getting paranoid that the cops were following her, we realized she was not longer taking her meds. After we talked to her about the medication, she got extremely paranoid about being sent back to the ward. It didn’t help that her daughters were threatening to send her back. She took matters into her own hands and took her life. I will never stop thinking about the fact that she would rather die than go back.
Iam sorry to hear that i wish I could help.
I’m actually surprised that no one talking about some staff and doctors, not everyone but some really strange in a way of not having a soul , primitive , zombies , very heartless to the point it’s scary . One doctor was looking at me smiling but his eyes were black. Honestly I think there is more going on than we remember , especially after giving a shot. I tried my best to forget and thought I was. Imagining things but after 3,5 years of healing and meditation, living a normal life it came back to me thru meditation , I started crying uncontrollably . I’m more than fine now after I left USA, but I’ve been told thru meditation that it’s very dark, I went thru that,because I chose it, I remember everything for a reason. I mean there is normal human nurses and staff ,but some of them are not .
Better dead than in psych ward! She's no longer in pain or worried! I don't blame her ONE BIT! 🙅🏽♀️🙅🏽♀️🙅🏽♀️🙅🏽♀️
Better dead than in psych ward! She's no longer in pain or worried! I don't blame her ONE BIT! 🙅🏽♀️🙅🏽♀️🙅🏽♀️🙅🏽♀️
@@raziyadamenova4921 Where do you live now since leaving the USA??? Do they lock people away like they do here??? I agree with about the nurses and staff! They're ALL evil! I'll NEEEVVVEEERRR have respect for them! Hell, I'd pay money just to watch them die in front of me! I HATE healthcare workers of ALL kind! ALWAYS WILL!!!
I've heard the poem before, it always gives me chills. I've been in 3 different psych units 7 times. this is excruciatingly accurate. especially the weekends not counting as days spent in the hospital.
The poem was ON POINT. Honeestly i felt less safe in psych wards. Went in for ptsd and suicidal ideation... Some dude tried to kill me. Ended up having the worst panic attack of my life and screaming and kicking at people. Staff needs to be a lot better. There are some amazing staff but so many who let so many bad things happen to mentally vulnerable people.
Anita's poem, specifically the verse surrounding "we didn't cause your social anxiety. We only heightened what was already there," reminds me a lot of the Wraith episode from Supernatural, which ironically happened in a psych ward. Except the wraith didn't feed on social anxiety, it fed on fear and made you go crazy
Social anxiety is traumagenic, so social anxiety is fear. I fear people's eyes. I've grown to associate them with people hurting me
@@saragarofano6471 I never thought of it that way but I'm sorry to hear about that
@@saragarofano6471 Same! nearly all my abusers used to tell me to "look into my eyes when I'm speaking to you!" The fact that I'm autistic makes me hate eye contact even more.
So true, good analogy!
Yes! I agree that's a very smart comparison to point out😄
my psych ward that i went to was amazing. i just got discharged yesterday, and i finally feel somewhat mentally stable for the first time since 7th grade. it felt like a huge weight that i was holding on my shoulders for multiple years was just lifted
I’m so happy you’re doing better!
i’m so happy for you!!
Yay! Good job, remember to live your best life
Wow! Thats great! Would you mind saying what it was like?
nice, man
These psych ward stories that I've heard everywhere sound like the most torturous and unpleasant experience someone can have. It makes me really want to avoid taking therapy or talking out about the things that are inside of my brain. If I wasn't already scared enough because of anxiety, just the thought of being trapped in a jail type of setting really tilts that tower over the last bit.
Do not seek psychiatry.... there are so many other avenues of effective help. My favourite is elders and anyone with actual lived experiences of the same kinds of trauma.
Hot tip: if you do go to a psych, RECORD THEM SECRETLY!!! It's legal in a lot of states and in Canada. And bring someone you trust who is the opposite sex who appears "stable". Do not oppose the psych. Do not put a target on your back and get a permanent diagnosis on your file that ruins your life. These (usually) guys are here to lord over drugged out people who are traumatized and make money off each head. I was admin at a business all the psychs and politicians on my province use. They all live in mansions.
These psych wards will make the anxiety infinitely worse.
Omgoodness, the poem! 100%… the chills I got hearing it 💔 the accuracy is disturbing
That Poem had me SPEECHLESS. Her delivery hit me like a boulder. Jesus.
Wow...the bit in Anita's poem about 'this is one of the GOOD psych wards' really hit home. I was in one summer 2020 (voluntary. I bailed after 4 hours; even getting out as a voluntary patient is difficult, slow, & dependant on having a safe home/people to live with. It's very Cuckoo's Nest - I could've gone in voluntary and never made it out...), & while the place was AWFUL, no psychiatric care provided at all, women screaming and sobbing all over the place (usually it was patients tending to other distressed patients, not the staff!), there was this one beautiful young-ish girl there (most women were in their 40s) who came up and said to me, 'You'll be ok here, it's one of the good ones'. She was very clear and coherent, but you could see in her eyes that she was either over-medicated or somewhat dissociated, & I just thought...shit, what are the other wards round here like?! What've you been through? But I just wanted to get out - I didn't chat with her. I would love now to have heard her stories... Overall it left me with a terror of ever, ever being in a crisis state again, because I know I can't hack those places - if I stayed I would've been driven legitimately crazy and never gotten out, I truly believe that. Huge sympathies to these people & all other psych ward survivors...
oh hello there! I recognise you! xD
Yooo it's you-! Dude, you're pretty awsome. Love your content :D
Thanks for sharing it made me understand what my daughter must feel when she’s been hospitalized even more 😪
Hey I watch your videos and I’m happy to see you here
ur videos are the best! cool to see you in this comment section
That woman’s poem was AMAZING! If anyone who was in this video or anyone who has been admitted into a Psychiatric Hospital in their life is reading this, I can’t even begin to describe how STRONG and BRAVE you are. You deserve so much love and support for what you have gone through! Thank you Anthony for making videos like this, it’s great to see people talking about their struggles in front of millions of people to spread awareness and help others feel more accepted ❤
I’ve never cried so hard after hearing a poem holy shit it’s like she was there with me when I was wrongfully admitted against my will What I really don’t understand is why our society is pushing mental health awareness and telling people to reach out for help but then when you do you are treated like a literal criminal
Being at a psych ward was probably one of the most traumatic things I’ve experienced because of the staff but the patients the patients really helped
I can totally relate to this.
Ikr it's the same for the child psych wards.
All the fellow patients were so nice!! The nurses and doctors however....
same some the sweetest people ever i met there no one deserves the way we get treated by staff tho i only ever had one nice nurse and she wasn’t even nice she just didn’t treat us like animals
me too
as a psych ward survivor myself, i can’t wait to watch. never considered myself a ‘survivor’ though
Elaborate please 🤔
@@sodium_ i’ve been to wards 3 times but just never considered myself as a ‘psych ward survivor’ i’ve never heard anyone else refer to themselves as that either so this is just a new perspective
I'm sorry
@@deleteforevr mmm
Same honestly
When I was locked in a psychward I remember thinking how lucky I was that I wasn't actually experiencing any mental distress, because you have to be extremely mentally strong to endure the psychological torture they put you through. I can't imagine going through that and being extremely mentally distressed at the same time. Just awful.
I just subscribed. The way this guy does this is so heart warming. Actually listening to people giving them an voice for other to hear. I wish more people gave others an voice just like Anthony. Best wishes from Scotland.
As someone who’s been admitted to a pysch ward, I’m so shocked about these experiences! Maybe every ward is different but for me staying there, I felt the best I had in a long time and I was connected with a free professional support team post discharge. I live in Australia btw. It’s horrible that these people were treated like that. I feel like I would leave even more traumatised 😥
Oh yeah, just seeing little snippets of videos from psych wards outside the US it's immediately apparent that they are WAY better. Like, oh my God, the staff cares?? :0
The entire mental health system in America is about as broken as the prison and health system mixed, I'm glad from the comments it's apparently better other places
In America, psych patients barely have any rights. They are supposed to be hospitals, but they're really just prisons.
so many people are making it seem like it's the worst thing ever in America and whatnot and just saying all these stories but like- I've been to three and all these stories literally just sound like the stereotypes and in all reality it's nothing like that
@@sapphe3784 I'm guessing it depends a ton on the place you go, like statewise even, because there would be different standards and regulations
David seems like such a fun and interesting person to talk to! And Anita's poem was just so impressive.
yea
Youre just saying that about David because of his disability
@@abbskebabs6288 bruh what's wrong with you?
@@RoyHoy poem: A verbal composition designed to convey experiences, ideas, or emotions in a vivid and imaginative way. no, no it's definitely a poem.
Hmmmm
4:40 I have about 10 types of anxiety, and are close to being put in a ward, this poem is giving me serious chills. Good job!
Her poem is so powerful. I’ve seen it spoken by many teens and adults across the world on tik tok and other social media. I’m so glad this video helped me find the original writer and her story. It’s very powerful and speaks many truths and words. ❤❤❤
I was admitted to a psych ward by force over a panic attack in a therapy session. It was only made worse when the police threatened to arrest me if I fought back. I was 16, off my medication at the moment, sleep deprived, and genuinely terrified. I witnessed horrible things in the ward. I made a friend, just to watch her get into physical fights with the nurses because they didn’t properly help her with her feelings. She was told to “stop it” and “behave, or we’ll give you the shot”. She always got the shot. I had another friend, who was sexually assaulted when they put a young man in our group. They blamed her, and moved him to the guy’s group.
over a panic attack?!? wow im so sorry. i haven't even been admitted for trying to kill someone. the system is so fucked oh my god. i really hope youre healing♡♡
@@loserfrom_loserville u tried to kill someone ? 😭
@@sofiaaa3120 yep, i was going through a terrible schizophrenic episode and was screaming and crying for help and tried to kill my mom. not fun, and i didnt end up getting help either way. the system is so shitty.
@@loserfrom_loserville i really hope you find the happiness you deserve, panic attacks suck so much. Really wish they change the system
@@loserfrom_loserville that so scary I’m sorry you had to go through that 🙁
Hey Anthony, maybe you could do “I spent a day with Deaf and Hard of Hearing people”, so they could tell us about what it’s like to be a deaf person, and talk about the Deaf and Hard of Hearing community.
Yeah, I'd love to see that! And he could have people on were born that way, or who lost their hearing later on, etc
@@qa377 let’s not forget that the Deaf and Hard of Hearing community is extremely small, so it’d be nice if it got more attention.
As a hoh person I can tell you that KZhead closed captions are trash
@@Hannacalebclark oh 100% agreed. The auto generated ones are not accurate for a video.
@@GhostKnight2021 yup. I have no idea what David said in this video
This video finally made me feel heard and valued as a survivor thank you💕 I was emitted by force when I was 12 for an attempt and I spent 3 years in the Psych ward till I was 16 I went through so much terrible trauma I went through everything described in this video and I am so appreciative of people speaking up about this and sharing there story’s💖 currently I’m 17 and doing alright but everything this video said was true and it was even worse being a minor I will never truly recover but it honestly makes me hopeful for my future seeing other survivors doing well and feeling recovered, I hope one day to share my story💖
That poem and the delivery of it was just amazing absolutely on point
i hope one day, schools possibly would be able to use these interviews as a way to make people aware and have little quizzes at the end. i would pay attention a lot more.
Agreed.
@Bruh Bruh whatever you say dude! 👍👍
I was first placed in a children's psyche ward in Pembroke, MA in the 80's when I was 11. I was actually suicidal, but placing a child in a locked ward, putting them in restraints and medicating them to the point where they can barely stay awake is not help. I too only saw my doctor once a week, and I spent the rest trying to stay awake and participate in the schedule they made us go through every day- which had little to do with actual help. Sleeping in the outfield did nothing for me except give me a sunburn- especially with the medication they had me on: Thorazine and Stelazine. It took months to wean off that shit when I got out after the weeklong stay that turned into months. Being in a psyche ward taught me that there are things I can't say to certain authority figures.
I'm so sorry to hear that. I hope you're feeling better these present days. :/
I'm so sorry you went though that. Pembroke is still one of the more terrible wards in MA now, I can't imagine the 80s. I participated in a partial program there, and I have friends who did full residential who had terrible experiences as well within the past 3 or 4 years.
I’ve been to Pembroke,the worst hospitals ever.
@@theressalafaille9304 ya it is very bad
This is exactly what happened to me earlier this year at 15, its sad to see that things haven’t changed
wow, david has sure been through alot, my heart goes out to him, and the other guests on this wonderful and insightful episode. I really hope David has a happy and peaceful future and is showed love and kindness by the people around him, i hope this for every guest. I have been sectioned { put into a pshyc ward } in the u.k and it was a unpleasent experiance, extremely lonely and iscolating, i am getting better now and i hope anyone dealing with depression or any other mental health gets the help they need to find their peace and remembers, nothing last forever, things do and will get better, but you have to put some of the work in too, meditation helps alot.
Thank you so much for talking about this subject!! The only time I’ve been able to talk about my experience is usually when my family talk about how much it’s affected them. They’ve never asked me what it was like for me, it was extremely traumatic for me so even though I’ve validated their experiences I think it would help me heal from that if I were able to openly talk to them about it.
I was put in a psych ward when I was 13 which was 2 years ago. They still do all these things even to the kids. I left 10x more suicidal than I was before. We got asked the same questions over and over. One of the doctors full on body shamed me when I said I was insecure. There was barely any therapy at all instead me and the other patients relied on each other for ranting and opening up. They were extremely transphobic- they told all the trans people it was just a phase and they would force them to go to the day room of the gender they were born as (there was a male and female day room). If you harmed yourself even if it was an obvious accident they would put you on 24/7 watch. They would watch you sleep, use the bathroom, and even watch you shower. If you refused to take your meds or refused to behave they would give you booty juice (yes ik the name is weird). It was mentioned in this video. It made you woozy and then they would force the pill down your throat while you were in the woozy state or passed out.
Holy shit that sounds HORRIBLE! I really hope you're okay now 🤍💞 tell me if you ever need someone to talk! Im not forcing you or someone its just i feel soo bad hearing your story
I had a VERY similar experience when I was a teen. I was 17 when I was admitted. See comment above. I hope you’re doing well now.
Most people don't know that psych wards are actual prisons, suicide/attempts are illegal in the US
The tranquilizer was called the same thing at where I was admitted when 13
UPDATE: around a month ago I ended up in a phych ward again. I'm happy to say this one was genuinely helpful and respectful. They didn't use booty juice or anything. Hell they even had good food. The day room was gender neutral which means any gender can hang out in there. They actually had a lot of therapy every day. Such as multiple groups a day and the wrap up before we go to bed. They would ask you what your interests are and use that as a way to get you into a therapy group that you would genuinely enjoy. And if you were on watch they wouldn't watch you sleep, shower, or use the bathroom. You could just close the door while a nurse stays outside your room and checks up on you every 10 minutes or so. (Also a lot of the nurses and doctors there were kinda hot-)
this honestly makes me realize just how lucky my experience was. My admissions were both voluntary and i even wanted to go, but regardless, My personal experiences were extremely positive. I was about 11 and 12 the times i went so that may have contributed but its still amazing that i was able to receive help in the necessary way i needed.
same, I had that same kind of experience. I wanted to go, I was 15, 16, and 17 I believe. The worst experience was when I was 17 and I was in the ER for 11 days, but once I got onto the unit it was okay.
The poem was amazing. As someone who’s been to a mental hospital TWICE this poem made me remember my experience, it perfectly describes my stay there.
There was one student I really liked she was so kind. And i could tell genuineally loved her studies, everyone was nice to her cause she was super nice.
This is why one of my DREAM jobs is a psych ward. I want to make a difference. I want to help people...I'm not super stable myself but Def. Have become stable enough to know I'd like this for someone else, for someone to reach a point where they too feel at least okay:)
I hope you will get your dream job. You're probably gonna be amazing.
@@joannevanderhoeven thank you, I'm in college right now as a psych major. And I can't wait to just show some kindness to someone that I know really needs it. I've been there, and sometimes that's all we need man.
@@Layra151301 I really hope you get the job and make that difference❤️
Yo best of wishes and luck to you! ✨🤙
i thought the same thing and i went and got a job in a psych ward (i live in the uk). it was hell, i couldnt help anybody because everything has to be so done by the book. i couldnt just help or chat or hang out with them, i couldnt make the difference i wanted because of the structure of the hospital. everything was done hour by hour and so many tasks were menial. i dont want to put you off but it was nothing like they made it out to be. the patients werent the issue AT ALL, i made friends with them all so quickly. the staff were the problem, they had been working there for so long they didnt care about the patients anymore. it was hard hearing the staff bitch about the patients and mock them. its not an environment you can thrive in if you want to help people. it feels like you make them worse working there. i watched people go more insane being in the ward. and we wondered why the same people would come back over and over.
Being forced to do ANYTHING when you're in an emotionally vulnerable place is traumatizing. I can't even imagine being restrained and injected with something even if I wasn't emotionally vulnerable. That's terrifying to think about.
I went to one of those places and you were forced to share everything about how you got there and what’s wrong with you while everyone looking at you and sharing those things didn’t help me recover at all and the only reason i shared is because you can’t get out otherwise and i had extreeme social anxiety i wouldnt talk otherwise it was terrifying
I was in a psych ward when I was about 10 years old for a su1c1d3 attempt, and I am very grateful for how nice and caring the staff were. I live in Iowa, and the hospitals and clinics here are some of the best in the USA, but I have complete sympathy for those who aren't able to get the help they truly need, and instead are faced by people who look down on them and treat them as monsters.
That poem was phenomenal 👏🏾 I definitely wanted to hear more about her experience.
David seems like such a cool guy, hope he's doing well
He needs no pronouns, he is simply David
@@ryant6434 david/david just david
11:43 she is so right. when you’re in that situation and you show any normal human emotional response you’re seen as “crazy” and “in need of help.” i remember crying until like physically had no tears left at a psychiatric ward waiting to be transferred to another and regular patients were walking by and many nurses looked at me as though i was crazy when i was just a 14 year old alone in a psych unit on christmas eve.
THIS!!! They are SO inhumane and we are often there due to being insanely gaslit from people with just as little empathy and jus as much desire to hurt people for pleasure and to feel powerful over them
14!? I feel so sorry for you I hope you’re better now ❤
I find it a little "funny" that that would be me. I hope you're doing better now
Don't you let that break you. Your more than that
THIS MUST STOP IM BEING SERIOUS WE NEED TO PROTEST
I’ve been forcefully taken to a. Psyche hospital and there’s nothing more dehumanizing than that. The forceful nature of all of it made me PISSED. Just because someone suspected you to be a threat you immediately lose your rights.
That poem made me sob. I don’t think anyone has ever put my experience into words in a more beautiful way.
Anita's story was spot on. I struggle with PTSD, anxiety, and severe depression. I have been involuntarily hospitalized twice. The first time I was feeling suicidal and reached out for help. I was placed under a 72hr hold against my will receiving ZERO mental health care & was ignored by staff. I attempted to explain my situation to several nurses & techs and that I was just seeking outpatient care for suicidal thoughts and was being held against my will. Every single one of them either flat out ignored me or just told me the doctor would be there to see me in 3 days. They even took away my phone privilege's (which all patients are supposed to have) and wouldn't let me call my mom. It was the only time I've ever pulled a "karen" and demanded they let me talk to my mom under the threat of suing. ... But yeah, legal kidnapping is what this is. The 2nd time I was hospitalized was an actual attempt to take my own life. This time the staff were a lot nicer, however, I still received ZERO mental health care. There's also nothing to do in the psych ward aside from laying in bed, coloring, or joining group "therapy" sessions which mostly consisted of playing board games with the other patients and not actually receiving any therapy. Also, one of the nurses did threaten that if I didn't attend the group sessions that they would keep me there longer. To get out you really do have to act the right kind of way & be the right amount of social despite how you may be feeling. (I also have severe social anxiety so the group sessions were a nightmare especially when all of the attention was on me). And once they decide you are going to be admitted you can forget seeing any friends/ family/ any emotional & mental support you may have in your life for at least a few days if not weeks. Aside from phone calls to my emergency contact (my mom) I was not allowed to contact anyone. They strip you of all your electronics & personal items (including shoes). I also wore the same outfit for 3 days because I had no one available to bring me a change of clothes. If you have responsibilities (school, work, children, pets) to take care of.. they will not contact anyone to let them know you are hospitalized. If you don't have anyone in your life that can take care of these things for you then you just have to pray that your prof will let you retake that exam, that you won't be fired for missing work without notice, that your children won't be taken away from you, or that Fluffy won't die of starvation. Our system here in the U.S. is truly awful & mental health continues to be ignored and mishandled. P.S. This psych ward was one of the good ones
This sounds so awful! I have never been to a psych ward not do I live in America but I hope you are okay now!
You literally just summed up the hell that I have gone through in this abusive system that should be outlawed. I suffer tremendously to this day from going through the exact things you talked about and even more, and having been told I was being “helped”. I would always say, the only “help” I got was being more depressed and anxious, etc. I have learned to keep my problems to myself and I would never go back to “therapy” or anything like that ever again in my life. I’d rather just struggle. I am glad I am not alone in my perspective of this outright abusive, evil and manipulative system and I wouldn’t wish this on anyone.
That was one of the good ones?! I'd hate to see what the bad ones are like! I hope you're doing better now.
I’m sorry you went through this but the one thing I want to say to you is: demanding to have a basic right does not make you a Karen. My mom told me I was being a Karen after being sexually assaulted and being completely traumatised. Sorry I just had to tell you that
@@residentevil2142 That's terrible, hope you get justice 😢
I am 28 and have been hospitalized over 30 times since I was 13. Some of the experiences were like what they said, but some of them really saved my life and I wouldn’t be here today if I wasn’t there. Some places abuse their ability to restrain people but that place was shut down. Most places only do that if someone is being violent and it’s absolutely necessary. If you need help and you’re thinking of going to a psych ward, try talking to the staff other than the doctors because they can listen and be helpful. Also talking to the other patients can give you a sense you’re not alone although take everything they say with a grain of salt. Make a list of what you want to say to the doctor. These places can be scary but if you need help, I would go
I should also note that every time I was admitted was voluntary and out of 30+ I’ve been hospitalized, I was never once restrained
This comment only got 40 likes, while the trauma poor has amassed thousands of interactions. I think we know what message people came away with and that makes me so so sad. :(
I have been in about 10 different hospitals numerous times and I agree with you. Getting help can be a good thing. Not all hospitals are bad. Most are a mix of good, bad and everything in between. Some staff are nice some are mean. Same thing goes for the patients. If you are a danger to yourself it is worth taking a chance and getting help.
From my 2 experiences at different wards… honestly my experience with patients was significantly better than with any staff. I guess the big problem is both of them don’t allow you to have any way to find the other people on the outside (for obvious HIPAA and safety reasons) which can make depression from loneliness worse.
@@ThatDevMatOfficial I found this to be the case at some places but not all. Esp in children’s units they don’t allow you to exchange contact information but when I was younger we usually found a way to exchange info secretly but in adult wards I’ve been to they allow you to exchange information but encourage you to focus on yourself
Nice to see Lauren on here, she's a wonderfully genuine person, always has been ❤
The poem was so powerful. The way she read that too! Incredible
I went to a psych ward earlier this year for the first time because I was suicidal. They told me they would help me, but they put me in the disabled ward because there wasn’t any other beds, drugged me to make me sleep all day, and the one “therapy” session I had was a group church lecture to make me feel bad for being depressed. Finally they left me with a 10,000 bill for a 5 day stay were I was forced with pills down my throat, little food, and other patients who tried to harm me because I was a new comer.
i’m so sorry this happened to you! the hurt you must have felt being in that place is unimaginable. i feel so lucky to have had the courage to talk to my mother and her send me to a therapist when i started having suicidal thoughts. i honestly remember my therapist as a saint. even thought i cannot remember her face (this was when i was around 9 years old). i genuinely hope you are doing much better now and if not i send all my love that you feel and live better soon. ❤️
This is why people don't get help. I wouldn't pay a cent of that bill either
👏👏👏👏👏👏💉💉💉💉💉💉 these ARE PRISONS!!!!!! the food is much worse than prison
I was involuntarily committed to a psych ward as a teenager, and that poem was spot on. I was kept there for a month, and never received therapy. I saw the attending psychiatrist only when I was admitted. I left with significantly more issues than when I arrived. It's been nearly 10 years and I'm still dealing with those issues every single day
Damn man that’s crazy
Never related to a comment more, same here. I was put away for 10 and a 1/2 months. I wonder if He has done any videos about these "rehabilitation houses" for young adults yet. I was in Island View.. so glad it's been shut down.
I need to know what happened
my god, her poem was absolutely phenomenal. Brought me tears, all of their tortes brought me to tears.makes me happy to think that I didn’t have to go trough this.
that poem was beautiful. i got chills.
I was admitted to a psych ward when I was 13 for severe depression and anxiety, and that poem hit hard. I was woken up before sunrise every morning by a doctor sitting beside my bed, shining a light in my face, and questioning me over and over on how I felt and if I still wanted to kill myself. My windows were locked and sealed yet the door to my room was a curtain that other patients I didn't even know regularly wandered through to talk to me. They took away the sentimental rounded, dull necklace I wore as a reminder to be strong "in case I tried to cut my wrists with it", yet left posters in my room hung by tacs and nails, and gave me papers with sharp metal clips on them. I asked for my necklace over and over which only earned me punishments, such as being placed in a room where one of the walls was completely glass for them to watch through. They withheld shampoo, toothbrushes, soap, and denied me basic hygiene rights. I had my period and bled in my underwear, yet I was offered no new undergarments or nor tampons/pads for my entire stay. The pajamas they gave me to wear had dried blood all down the legs and arms before I even put them on, like they were stained or unwashed from the previous patient. I was told if I didn't get better fast enough, I would be flown to a different city and put in an asylum. They cut me off from my best friend and family, put me in solitary confinement with nothing but a pen and notepad, and told me to "work it out" by myself.
I hope ur doing okay!
How is that legal?
THAT'S SO STUPID, THEY SHOULDN'T BE ALLOWED TO DO THAT!
What you went through was odious! You deserved none of that lady
Wtf that can’t be legal
Her poem was so powerful. I loved it so much, she's a true poet.
Her poem was amazing and powerful :o I'm sorry for the abuse that patients may undergo, and hope that the system is optimized to guard the patients' rights.