it's getting worse again. (a slowed playlist + rain)

The worst thing about having mental illnesses is, that when you think you finally have it under control it comes back even worse... you can't know how and when it comes back and you wonder if it's worth the hope of it someday going away.. it makes you feel helpless and lonely and angry and stupid... it makes you too weak to live a normal life but too strong to give up

The fact that you’re there for everyone and nobody is there for you is what hurts

Has anyone else been so happy?.... then just completely lost motivation to live?

it's sad how many of us here most likely had a really fucked up childhood now we are searching so hard for peace. this music is the only peace we will ever find in this life. I love you

Gotta love those moments when you are deep in the feels and then all of a sudden you hear a shampoo ad out of nowhere

It’s always right as you think: “hey, i think i’m finally okay with this and where i am in life” is when everything starts to fall apart again

Let go of the idea that you always have to have your emotions under control. Get comfortable with being uncomfortable.

POV: you’ve been recovering but your overthinking/friends bad decisions are making it come back. You ask for help but nobody answers yet the people who do are too busy for your time. You just want to end it all but don’t have the courage to kick the chair because you don’t want more pain than you already have. You don’t want to live but you don’t want to die either. You’re just tired.

I find it ridiculous, that even deep down, I still have hope that this will all get better someday.

I love just scrolling though these comments and just thinking, wow, i can really relate to these random strangers on the internet

POV: You're having a rough time, you're struggling to mantain alive and nobody is there to lend you a hand. All the people who say they care won't even text back more than a couple polite words when you attempt to reach them. You're so tired and desperate all at once. All you can do is despair and try to find anything to hold on before it drowns you.

it's funny that I have more trust in complete strangers than my own family

To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)

you know things are getting bad again when you start listening to these playlists on repeat.

To anyone who might see this, you’ve done well up until this point. Youve tried your best and did what you could. Whatever you’re going through is NOT your fault. Even if it feels like the world is caving in, keep going. Believe it or not, you are strong and you will get through this. It gets better but you’ll only see the light on the other side if you keep going. I’m proud of you, who you are now, and who you will grow to become.❤️

"Its not that I miss being a little kid, its just that I miss being happy.."

it is so embarrassing having a breakdown and having to wipe my eyes and collect myself to skip the ad to resume my breakdown

i've never had any help, i was never able to tell how i feel to anyone, all of my emotions is just one big "but what if im just overreacting?". I'm slowly starting to accept the fact that it will never get better

It's been so long since I've been deep down in loneliness full of anxiety and depression that I have already forgotten what it is to be happy😕

I rlly hope everyone who commented or relates finally gets happy y´all deserve it.

The moment when you realize that one day everything has become so bland and you have no idea why and you ask yourself "Why can't I be happy, I don't even know why or how I lost the thing that brings me joy."

“It’s just myself, talking to myself, about myself.”

I'm a boy, somewhere from the corner of this world and i want to confess that I have been feeling sadness and loneliness through almost every moment of my life which i had spent in past, wherever I go as I'm ageing and time passes all i want to find a way to escape all the things happening in my life and also tired of pretending to be okay everyday and crying at nights.

i have no one. i’m convinced i can never be truly loved. i have no one. people say they’re there, but they’re not. i know they’re not. i can feel it. i watched myself slowly die just to be kind to the people who used me again, and again. i’ll never meet someone like myself. i’ve lost myself.

The first song made me cry. Not cuz it's sad, cuz a feeling of nostalgia hit me harder than I had ever felt.

I promise it will get better. As someone who cried their heart out to these playlists I know how it feels. You feel suffocated by emotions and have no hope that you’ll ever be happy again. Eventually someone came into my life and helped me survive and someone will save you too. Don’t give up hope because someone in this world loves you, you may not know that or believe it but it’s the truth.

The sound of rain even makes it more peaceful 🤍💫

I just want to be happy

i’m am so sorry for these people in the comments struggling rn, i love you and please reach out to someone for help! even if it’s a stranger like me, i always here don’t be scared. you can do this and i’m so proud of you my loves

I honestly don't know if I'm sad or depressed, I've told that I am but I don't believe I am bc I haven't been diagnosed with it by a doctor bc I'm too scared to tell my mom, she'd just tell me I'm dramatic, I feel like I have to keep my feelings hidden away bc she is afraid to deal with what I have going on, I'm glad you put this on here, it helps me breath when listing ❤

music is the only way I can escape this world when i'm going through something, music comforts me in a way no one can, just know that it ok ur not alone.

You know when it’s bad again when you start listening to these to fall asleep..

im writing this comment in a really bad state and i can't stop crying i hope when i someday return to this comment by chance i'll be happy more than before and everyone who read this i hope u guys be happy too we deserve hapiness😔😔🤍🤍

The fact that all my friends can act so perfectly fine, and yet im crying myself to sleep to sad playlists knowing that I’m hopeless

00:00 Bon Iver - Rosyln 05:22 Cigarettes after sex - Apocalypse 10:48 Lauren Spencer Smith - fingers crossed 14:06 Novo amor - anchor 18:55 Novo amor - ontario 22:35 Novo amor - euphor 27:05 Tom Rosenthal - go solo 29:50 The Neighborhood - beach house 35:48 The Neighborhood - you get me so high

I'm proud of all of you

it's been a long time since i cry. and today, i cry a lot. its not because i don't have problem before this but i ignore them, i don't even have time to think about my feelings. i finally reach my limits today, my whole body was shaking, i cant even say a word. my chest hurt so bad till one point its hard to breathe. i tried to ask for help but no one here for it. they keep destroying me slowly w/o me realizing.

I'm having an addiction and i can't get over it. Everytime I tried to become better I fall back to my bad habits harder than ever. I have exams ahead and I can't concentrate on my studies and books. I don't have anyone I can openly share my struggles to so I came here. Let's pray for each other and hope for the best.

sitting on the roof while staring at the stars admiring their beauty in the silence of the world seeing how peaceful they all look as you notice them over time slowly turning around the earth just to vanish again into the day light as the comfort soon settle onto you

To everyone who is doing homework, leave the chat, breathe slowly, take a sip of water, and focus To everyone who is trying to sleep, leave the chat, grab a blanket, and get the rest you deserve To everyone who is feeling sad, grab a snack, get some water, get a blanket, and write down your thoughts. When you're done, lay down and get some rest, no matter the time. To everyone who is creating, you got this. Your art is amazing. Remain in your flow and get stuff done! These are not my words, but spread these these words too someone who may need it!

101 reasons to stay alive list: 1. you'll never eat your favorite food again 2. you'll never drink your favorite drink again 3. you might one day meet your idol 4. people who care about you will miss you 5. laughing so hard your stomach hurts 6. crying to let it all out and feeling better 7. sitting by a slightly opened window and listening to music with some breeze flowing in is the best thing ever, bonus points if it's raining 8. you'll never wear your favorite clothes again 9. sleeping in 10. reading your favorite book 11. you'll never grow up with your friends 12. flopping onto your bed our couch after an exhausting day 13. trampolines 14. cookies 15. coffee or tea (your preference) 16. getting something new and that feeling of happiness 17. rewards for doing good on something 18. your favorite show 19. your favorite game 20. singing in the shower 21. dancing when you're alone and laughing about it 22. the moon 23. the stars 24. activities that entertain you even if you're not very good at it 25. your favorite scent 26. listening to a song on loop for hours 27. staring into nothingness and thinking about a bunch of nothing 28. the warmth you feel when someone hugs you 29. turning on the ac/fan/getting under the shade in the hot weather 30. cuddling under a blanket in the cold weather 31. dancing when to music when you're alone 32. sunsets 33. sunrises 34. snow 35. rain 36. your favorite song 37. you'll miss out on memes 38. watch corona disappear 39. long bus/train/car rides 40. road trips 41. going to the bathroom after holding it in for hours 42. that satisfying feeling when you so much drink water when you're thirsty to the point you're full 43. trying out new things 44. hearing birds chirp early in the morning 45. really special events like graduations, weddings, anniversaries, etc. 46. giving gifts 47. receiving gifts 48. when you're eating butter popcorn and one of them is a lot saltier than any of most of them (same with fries) 49. fireplaces 50. roasting marshmallows 51. s'mores 52. chocolates 53. finding stray animals 54. listening to a new artist and instantly getting hooked to their songs 55. when you're vacuuming and you hit an extra dusty spot and it makes that crinkling noise 56. eating so much food to the point you feel like you're about to throw up 57. free things 58. that happiness you feel when you overcome a problem 59. the sigh of relief you do when you guess on a test answer and it ends up being right 60. holidays 61. that funny moment when you keep telling yourself "one more chapter" 62. when you procrastinate something but you're like "that was easy" when you end up finishing it 63. amusement parks 64. candies 65. when you're bored and you do absolutely random useless things like trying to get the same side magnets to touch each other 66. learning random useless facts that somehow entertain you 67. that feeling when your heart skips a beat from thinking about something exciting 68. aesthetic things 69. hugging things 70. seeing rainbows after it rains 71. when wind blows in your face and it's annoying but you find it funny at the same time 72. when you lay down and you instantly feel tired and feel like you're falling asleep after a long day 73. trying to stay up but you end up failing and you're mad at first but you laugh about it later on 74. falling leaves 75. cherry blossom trees 76. your favorite animal 77. that scary feeling when you find a spider in your bed and you're about to catch it but it disappears 78. doing embarrassing things when you're alone 79. cringing at weird things 80. trying to learn a new culture 81. feeling better about yourself when you find out you're better than someone at something 82. you weren't born to entertain people 83. saying witty comebacks (sometimes backfiring but it's funny in the end) 84. arguing with 8 year old kids 85. those disgusting yet funny moments when you accidentally swallow a bug 86. new technologies 87. feeling nostalgic when you remember old things 88. when you look back at your younger self and realize how much you've grown and changed 89. cringing at old things you've said and done 90. money 91. random shower thoughts 92. asking yourself extremely random questions like "how many ants are there in the world" 93. when you think you're failing at something but in the end everything ends up being alright 94. that weird funky smell from new items 95. how hard it is to hold in a smile when your parents embarrass you and they go there's that smile 96. beautiful artworks that sometimes don't make sense 97. feeling happy for other people 98. cute animals 99. flowers 100. laughing at your own stupidity 101. you just remember when you feel at your lowest, someone can and will always be there for you. you may not know it at the moment, but there is. someone believes in you and someone loves you. never give up, shine bright.

What really hurts is when you try to forget the past or that someone and you just randomly think about the happiness it gave you then you think about how it ended and it just hurts your heart so bad you can feel it in your throat and you cant do nothing but sit there.

Ik everyone always says that it will get better but i don’t ever think it will. Anxiety and depression’s hitting me like a ton of bricks right now

I can honestly say I think I'm getting better I cut off toxic ppl besides my family I don't cut myself or think about suicide I got more outfits that aren't just oversized hoodies and sweat pants but I still am insecure about my body and I don't cry at night it took about 2 or 3 years but I'm getting better I'm so proud of myself

Who are you in love with?’ Asked Heartbreak. ‘Oh, darling, I’m in love with writing. Nothing you could take from me. If not people, if not lovers, I have pages and I have ink. If not pages nor ink, I have my mind and my voice. I need not move a single heart. I shall move souls; thousands,” the Poet replied. Heartbreak took her leave, ‘such a pitiful thing,’ she said. ‘So broken, so unloved, so hurt.’ ‘If put like that, I says to you: I use my blood-the life-that leaves me from pain of any sort as ink to scratch the page upon which I write in sacrifice for my art!’ The Poet triumphed. A laugh escaped the Poet as youth rushed through his veins. He had long since tasted victory. From afar, the Poet noticed Love’s unfamiliar smile. ‘Oh. Oh no. More ink,’ the Poet whispered as his eyes welled up with tears.

School started.. it was already pretty bad..

To anyone who sees this, Tell me about something in the replies. Anything. Things you need to get off your chest, things you wanna say to other people but can't, things you want to vent about, things you enjoy, music you like, theories about things, headcanons from your fandoms, opinions you have, anything. Sometimes it really helps to talk about anything and everything, and anything I can do to help someone out is an absolute treasure. I would love to hear people talking about things they're passionate about, even if it's something that's not going well, it makes me glad that someone would have somewhere to talk about it. You're all amazing, and if anyone needs a safe, judgement-free place to talk, I'm here

not these comments making me cry more but also feel better at the same time. you are all beautiful and amazing people ❤️

I would never commit because of the guilt but if there was a car going as fast as it could towards me I won't move

POV:dear self I know you been through a lot but don't worry you still have yourself who love you the most even thought no one care about you or love you.i just one to say that you the strong person and u deserve anything in this world keep going what ever you want to do don't give up and don't think to end your life . I know you have bad lifestyle in this world it is because no one want care about you but I just want to you remember that I have u even we can see each other in this world I still can support you and always helping you whatever you need me

Everyone who has clicked on this video , I pray that all feeling of sadness will go away , I pray that all suicidal thoughts or actions will be no more , I pray that all feelings of anxiety and hopelessness will flee in Jesus mighty name I pray that whoever is reading this will be blessed , healed , and delivered!! In Jesus name amen all depression go

They say depression is a myth but why do I have to fake my feelings to be happy and then when you think it’s gone it’s still there and it hurts

POV: you have basically never had felt love, and you are just alone, constantly searching for a relationship, but you've had no luck whatsoever in the past 6 years. Your whole life is just mentally and psychologically recovering from constant bullshit. feeling trapped, depressed, alone, and melancholy, getting way too stressed out, but always trying to be positive, when the clouds of negativity rain upon you. Literally could be me lol

If you need a friend, please let me help.❤

I’m been having the worst month. Crying everyday and no one has noticed how lonely I’ve been feeling. I could barely get out of bed. Jesus please help me I’m tired of this feeling I have insude

Why can’t it get good for once? I’m dying here.

Hey if your reading this, just remember that this pain is temporary and will not last forever, and while your going through it your not alone we are all in this together doing the best we can, I'm proud of you for still being here fighting everyday, cus it's really not easy but you still strong enough to not give up, know that I care about you and I'm glad your here, your feelings are valid and I believe you'll get to a better place with time. I hope this helps, you don't have to accept my comment or like it but I just did it for the people who needs it. Remember to drink water get some rest and check on your loved ones❤️.

Life isn’t always fair, but as long as you keep going forward everything will be okay ❤

I feel like listening to this helps me just think because I always feel like I'm doing something wrong and music just helps me feel my emotions for once instead of trying to hide them from everyone else all the time):

♡Hey! I understand all of us r breaking down missing lovers,friends...we all hurt but understand we all will get through it...and u wanna just jump....but no keep ur heads up understand ur loved and want to be happy, we all try but gets harder...so u think sad music will help...but its its not going to...alrighty lets get to this people!♡ ♡Ur loved ok?♡ ♡Dont starve yourself u deserve food and water♡ ♡If u wanna cry u dont gotta hold them back let it all out dont be scared about crying..♡ ♡And if ur lover is always "BUSY" hes/shes probably not the right one for u...♡ ♡AND UR NOT WORTHLESS!! HEARD ME!?!♡ ♡I love u wonderful people

The best song on here was fingers crossed it hit so hard i love it sm and thank you for making this play list i love the vibe it has and how calming everything is i love get lost in music and it so loud i can hear anything makes me feel serenity

I just want to say a couple words. To say something into the void of unknown so maybe you could find a little leverage in this path you are walking along. Whether you are lost, wondering, or set straight does not matter. You have not found what you are looking for yet because you have not looked deeply enough in yourself. You are who you need, not anyone else. With you, comes the gift of everlasting love. Treat yourself as someone you loved with every ounce in your being. See what difference it makes. You do not have to change to be who need. You can work to be someone stronger. You can work to be smarter. You can work on yourself to be better. But you are never less than. You are stong. And you are enough. You are already enough just how you are. It does not matter your age, that does not dictate what you can and should feel. It does not matter your race, that does not change what your heart shows and feels. It does not matter your size, that does not change how you love. It does not matter where you live, for everything you have been given is enough for you to shine like the star you are. It does not matter what you may see in the reflection of your mirror, for your eyes deceive you into believing a monster is looking back at you. The photos can never show you the true beauty that lies behind your smile when you speak of the things you love. You do not see how your eyes light up when you think and talk about what interests you. You do not see the beauty that hides within you. Everyone has their own beauty to them, even the cruel. Sometimes all we need is just a little love, or someone to understand, or just someone to listen. Every person has a coping mechanism they use. Some are harmful, but we are all just trying to get by. We lose sight of ourselves and our actions. You are stronger than you know, never underestimate yourself. Pain has a way of making one feel they are alone and lost. Pain has a way of haunting someone. No matter how much you run, it is always there. Pain is an unforgiving wave of emotion that is impossible to escape. But I promise it does not last forever. It can last a very long time sometimes, yes. But when you have reached rock bottom, there is always a way up, because that is the only way left to go. And don’t worry about rushing up, take your time. Heal. Live. Cherish the little moments of joy. You deserve a break, and you deserve the freeing feeling of being able to breathe without your lungs becoming cold. Feel the weight be lifted. I know you can feel relief if you just wait. I cannot tell you how long it will take, it might take a while, but I know it will be worth it. You can find yourself living again, instead of the empty shell you have become, you can really live. Time. Time is what it will take. Time and patience. Please do not give up on this world yet, because this world is not ready for you to leave yet. The world needs your smile. Others will need your smile. You can smile at someone randomly, someday, does not matter when or where, just who. You can change their whole day. Your smile can cause someone to look on the brighter side. It just takes one smile. Be that smile. I know you are scared of happiness. After happiness only comes pain again, I know how you feel. But giving up would only prove those who said you couldn’t right. Be who they said you could never, and prove your better than you had ever dreamed. Because you, my dear, are one in a million. Actually, you are just one of a kind. There is no one else quite like you, so cherish your differences, because it is impossible to “fit in” a place where you were born to be different. You have a gift. Never forget that. Don’t let others take that gift away from you. Stay true to yourself and love yourself because you are who you need when no one else sees. You are amazing, and I see it. I see your strength, and your love, and your beauty, and you pain. But most importantly, I see you, just you. And you are the most wonderful thing I have ever seen. Who you are truly. I love you and I am so proud. Until another day. Sincerely yours -B

The fact that you trust everyone around you and in the end they're just using you

Seeing all these comments. Man it’s sad to think It was just me in this position I now realise so many others are struggling I just want everyone to know you are loved. People love you. It took me a bit to realise it but in the end you’ll get through whatever you are going through I promise things will get better everything takes time.

I want to be able to cry again.

To anyone reading this, it'll be okay. No matter what you're going through, whether it feels small or overwhelming, you'll get through it. Someone will help you if you need it. Maybe not now, but when you need it most there'll be that one person that you can trust with your life. Whether you know them or they're just a stranger who shows some kindness. I hope it all works out for you in the end. We love you, don't give up

I hope the one reading this finds peace and is set free from all the problems that you don't talk about.🥰

anyone else hittin the 🍃 n thinking ab life while listening to this or is it jus me ? 🥲

Not even sure why I’m here, I’m happy during the day, but when night settles in I just become…empty. I’ve started to cry more, and I don’t know why, but a bittersweet part of me is just glad I can cry again at all

Tbh I’m a gym rat and yes i listen to this music to sleep and to get a relaxing vibe, but maybe I can help y’all out if anything, a lot of y’all are insecure about yourself, bullied, relationship problems, family problems, anything negative well tbh this life you have is short! You only live once! Look past the negativity and appreciate the things you have your alive and on this earth for a reason find out what you goal is and live like it’s going be your last day! Find freinds and things that fuel that flame inside you! But get rid of the things that Douces it out. One last thing for a pick me up is to look at the kids n teens that have cancer or disability’s in third world country’s what would they do if y’all swapped places you know. Anyways stay strong and believe in yourself cheers mates!🫡

I am losing hope.. Im so TIRED

I'm writing right now about man who lost his brother and this playlist is helping me to feel his mood right now. So sad but athmospheric...

Sorry if it ruins the mood but... Sometimes im not sad or depressed, i just like to come to these moxes and they make me feel happy. Idk maybe i have a mental illness or something but these mixes make me feel happy and calm inside and i understand if you don't or do feel like me. Idk this probably doesn't make any sense to anyone but i just tried to put my feelings into words.

My bsf of 7 years died this week and even tho I’m always there for everyone when they need me I feel so alone going thru this by myself and my own family don’t see that I’m slowly dying away and won’t be here much longer

i wish i could cry again

See here's the thing that alot of my friends don't understand. If you give me a compliment to try to make me feel better, it only makes things worse. For example, if I'm not doing so well and I say something, my friends will be like don't say that you deserve everything and U are perfect. Things like that only makes things worse and here's why. If ur someone like me who has depression and other mental illnesses, hearing something as simple as a compliment, makes me feel so much more worse. I also overthink alot, so therefore, hearing something like that makes me think that my friend is lying and that I deserve so much less. Just keep that in mind.

This is a poem I had written a few months ago. It always makes me cry because I wish I could have been told the things in this poem... Letting Go TW: Trauma, self-image, insecurity, depression “Let today be the day you finally release yourself from the imprisonment of past grudges and anger. Simplify your life. Let go of the poisonous past and live the abundantly beautiful present today.” - Dr. Steve Maraboli. Please try to breathe as this will not be easy. You don’t have to share how or why you got them, but don’t be afraid to share your burdens with others. We know it isn’t your fault, and you didn’t deserve it. You don’t have to pretend to be okay. Share the weights on your chest, and let go. Let go of your pain, please let us share it with you. Talk to us, we will listen. If you don’t want us to comment, we won’t. Please don’t hide. Let go of the problems that others threw onto you. Let go of your insecurities and sensitivities. You are loved. You are appreciated. You are human. You are allowed to have issues. You are allowed to make mistakes. You are allowed to be mad, to be sad, to be glad. You are allowed to be stressed, depressed, a mess. You are not a mistake. You are not a burden. You are not unwanted. You are you. Please try to breathe. Let everything out with an exhale. Please try to breathe, And let go.

I just want to cry nonstop and get out all the bad and painful things I have inside of me....💔

The feeling I’ve been battling with most is how much you want to be “normal”. How much better your relationships would be, how much better you would look and feel. Feeling so broken, and always begging whatever is listening to just fix you. What if I were better, would I finally have a chance at keeping a job? Getting a car and a license? Finishing school? Would he finally choose me and only me? Would my children have better lives? Would my parents and siblings be happier? Maybe the worst part is not even knowing what’s wrong with you. Just knowing that you’re not like everybody else.

hey. you there. stop crying. there's no need. you don't need to cry. your life is perfect *you* are perfect. so stop. please. don't be like me. don't mess up life. don't stop trying don't give up on your dreams. don't ever put yourself down. just, don't be like me: a failure. persevere. keep going. you got this. i believe in you. and i love you

I hate crying so much until today I haven’t cried in 3 months I hate it but it feels so good to let it out and not bottled in

i was like nah this can’t be too soul crushing. as roslyn is the first to start playing 🧍‍♀️

Depression or whatever this is that I'm (and a lot of other people) going through, it feels like drinking alcohol. At first everything is alright - you feel relaxed, like nothing could go wrong, maybe even happy and glad you're alive at this moment, but the way it wears off so quickly only for you to submerge in complete negativity and nothingness...

I have been doing so much better than what I was a few months ago, but this week has been ROUGH. I’m back in the hole I was in before, but it’s deeper this time. The worst thing is that no one sees that I’m struggling.

An 11 year old going through depression, working so hard to get good grade and make your family proud. I did work so god damn hard. But math.. I got a C…… Few hours later I was called unsuccessful for not putting my clothes on the hanger and my uniform on the floor like a homeless kid. Wearing/putting bandages everywhere for no reason. We are right now having thunder in Australia. And im scared, no one cares and I don’t think they will ever….

If only i never exist, everything will be better for myself and my family. But even if im gone, there's no one that will cry for me..and it's fine.😊 I was here on this day.

It feels so bad when you give up your happiness for their happiness and they say you are bothering me and don't see my happiness.

Whomever is seeing this, I LOVE YOU!!! YOU ARE LOVED!! I´M PROUD OF YOU! NEVER GIVE UP!!! no matter how hard life gets keep going! ur not alone even if it seems like that, you are loved by so many people! God bless yall, Jesus and god loves yall! never give up loves!

I’ll probably use this as my sleeping playlist thx lmao 💕💕💕

Broke my 6 month clean from sh today.. Things are just way to hard but for anyone who needs it: keep going. We’ll push through

Thank you for making this it means a lot😢

Hi, sorry to vent but I've already lied to my friends and I need to let it out I have mild anxiety and depression, I also have ADHD and I'm fairly certain a case of Trichotillomania, which is a hair pulling disorder, and maladaptive daydreaming. I've been dealing with it through various coping mechanisms and medication. In the past 2 months I've stopped taking my meds and I haven't seen my therapist for longer. The thing is, I dont want those. I dont want to have to see a therapist who I dont like or trust nor do I wanna take meds that make me sleep in class and fail. I tried getting a job over the summer since I'm gonna be a senior this year and I wanted experience before I left school. It was horrible. I worked at Little Caesars and it wasn't that great. The staff were nice but the change of pace bothered and stressed me out. I stopped working and after that it's made me realize I wont survive as an adult. Honestly, I've considered commiting sewer slide after highschool. I dont knoe hoe I'm gonna take care of the stress of the real world once I leave school. My dad will have me either get a job or go to college but I dont know what I want to do. Im stuck. Im in a bad place. My maladaptive daydreaming effect everything I do. I physically act out everything in my head in my room and I could do that for days on end and never get tired of it. Living in my own world as a different person is great. But I know I can't do that irl. I know I cant live in my head. But I can't leave. Im trapped in my brain. I dont know if I want to leave. I'd rather die than have to leave my room or brain. I used to eat several times a day and now I only eat once and maybe a snack. I dont drink water as often. I dont sleep well anymore. I used to go to sleep at 9pm but now I sleep from around 3-5 am. I can't do it anymore. The thought of graduating and having to live as an adult scares me so much. I cant do it. I really can't. Idk if this is my note or not but all I know is I dont know what I'm gonna do after school. I'm stressed enough as it is and I dont want to deal with the real world. To those who made it this far, I dont want words of sympathy, I dont want advice, I just want to vent out everything. Thank you for listening. Goodnight

Why dose it always end up like this ? Why dose it always end with me being hurt and lonely ? I hate it that I’m the one who need them and not the other way around Am I this hopeless and weak ?

I don’t wanna die anymore I just wanna be happy

I was doing so good until i realised i wasnt two days ago. i was at a trampoline park and i was jumping off of a really high platform into a foam pit and i couldnt get myself to jump off because im scared of heights so all i did was close my eyes and think imagine your jumping to your death and i easily jumped off. every since sunday ive relapsed three different times. its way worse this time and idek why.

he always has to come back and break me just a little bit more. sometimes things are best left in the past, no matter how much i wish it was different.

Some day I’m going to be happy, and I’m going to get over whatever this is. But I can’t see it any time soon. I keep thinking I’m better and then it happens all over again like some cruel cycle. I just want whoever is reading this to know that you should hold on even if things are tough. Hold on for those who love you. If you don’t have anyone, hold on for a hopeful future with people who do love you. P.S- props to my pillow for catching all those tears, and the dark for listening to silent screams

being the second choice, the other woman, the last option it hurts man.. having the feeling of not being enough all the time bc of this.. i’m fed up

I didn’t know I needed this until now 😔

This is an amazing playlist