you're dancing with someone that doesn't exist [ dark academia playlist ]
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Just made a Discord server for the channel! Feel free to join here: discord.gg/JgwuB25sUE
it doesn't work for me):
hey, i was hopeing i could get the name of the first song, hopeing to put it on a playlist
@@Caden-km2pv It's December Nostalgic, by Ramus Thompson.
The link hasn't worked for me either, I would like to join the server and also suggest making a new invite link (if you want ofc) and changing the settings. You can change it from a wk to a month to never, and the number of ppl who can use said link. Hope this helps!
@@guardian_down23 Thank you so much! I'm pretty new to this stuff so I didn't know how it worked exactly, should be fine now!
I once kissed a guy in my dream, no idea who he was. I still think about him lol
it was me
@@LAFFEN MaAaAario!
@@LAFFEN plot twist its a guy
@@slickbrick6969 just makes it better
no way i did the same thing!! I'm officially in love with him and I don't even have a clear picture of his face in my mind XD
2 minutes ago i officially turned 19 and I already feel like everything is falling apart. I know the KZhead comments aren’t a place to vent and who’s to say anyone will see this or even comment on it but I’m just gonna put it out there cause why not, but I just want to go back to Malaysia. I want to be an 8 year old kid again, and I want my dad to see me grow up and become a better version of myself with him by my side, I want to have better friends to rely on, and a lifelong partner to love, I know I’m still young and I know things will get better but it’s just the how and when of it all, all I can do for now is to wait and see, i know that but the thought about waiting until my life gets better is unfortunately an exhausting thought, even though i’m aware that’s the best solution for now.
I can tell you from experience that even the darkest places can be once again illuminated. And I wish you the best, your hopes are achievable your dreams are reachable and happiness is just around the corner.
Hey n.n happy belated birthday. If it's okay, I'll share my thoughts about what you're going through right now from the perspective of a little bit older person. Yes, waiting for things to get better is exhausting. I know it is hard but maybe try to focus on the present moment and attempt to do the things that get you the closest to where you want to be. Call your dad, even if he can't see you, tell him everything that's going on, share your feelings and routine. And remember being apart is temporary, he is still a text or a phone call away. As for friends, people come and go. You will know when you meet the people that truly connect with you. Treasure real, healthy bonds and don't waste a tear on any other kind of relationships. I hope some time from now you remember that you wrote this and feel better. Circumstances change all the time, take care of yourself.
It sucks to miss home and family. Don't wait around to live your life though. "Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines! Sail away from safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover!" -Unknown
Hey there, luv. Like the cliché says, the only way out is through. Each day is a step away from the familiarity of childhood, sure, but it’s also a step towards building that life you’re seeking and becoming the person you want to be. We are all works in progress. Those relationships are out there, you’ll find them. In the meantime, don’t lose heart. ❤
Ommggg stawwwpppp because 2 minutes ago, i officially turned 20 😭😭😭 AND THE FACT I CAME TO THIS VIDEO AND SAW YOUR COMMENT🥴
The worst part is not being able to define an image for the one you’re dancing with.. you are left with how they make you feel and that is going to be very hard to replicate in real life. For all who are deemed lost, I hope you find them. I sure haven’t
Those are my dreams as well, no face but the emotions feel so real in the moment.
@@Omardelatorr1 exactly....the connection , the feeling is so deep yet the face is blurred ...it like reading a book where there is no definite image just some characteristics and emotions
I feel that anytime I think of being with someone bit it reminds me of a dream I've had with a girl before anytime I think of me having a partner (I've never had one) it's a weird and sad realization.
Dreaming of being with someone you've never met but somehow being able to connect on a deep level is crazy. The feeling it leaves you with after waking up is weird too. Nice playlist btw!
Thanks for the kind words!
😂😂😂
You make me cry, thanks
I understand completely this feeling. I'm in love with someone who no longer exist with an idea, with an illusion I was given. I even dream with him still but when I wake up he doesn't exist. And this nostalgia comes back until I'm asleep once again.
I once dreamed I had a best friend (she doesn't exist, I've never seen her irl), and we were childhood friends. She was always here for me and we would go everywhere together. Suddenly, as we walked towards my in-dream-house, I was like, this is a dream, isn't it? You're not real. She started crying and said she wasn't, but she loved me and didn't want me to leave her, she begged me to stay. I did stay, but she disappeared and I forgot her right away, forgot I was in a dream too - with dream logic. When I did wake up from the dream, I felt like I had betrayed a friend I never had. I kinda miss her still.
This is what it feels like when everyone you know has found love and you're just alone but wishing you could find someone who loves and understands you too.
I'm almost 20 and all I want to do is dance in a vintage dress in an old palace. I'm so burned out.
Me too...
I feel you so much lol
I cant agree more, not the dress part :) , I try to enjoy the little moments and forget the working ones
I'm only 13 and I'm alrdy desiring something like that. Is it concerning?
wanna do it together?
I just turned 23 and I've never had a boyfriend, I've only had one-sided romantic experiences... but I'm a hopeless romantic, so I keep falling in love, but with a boy who only exists in my dreams...
You're not alone missy, I too suffer from the same thing
Don't worry, you will one day have a love that isn't one-sided. But just remember, even two-sided loves can be tragic. :(
me too... i just experienced that last night
Trust me miss, I'm in a very similar boat.
I love the quote by Kurt Vonnegut: ”Tiger got to hunt, bird got to fly. Man got to sit and wonder ’why,why,why’. Tiger got to sleep, bird got to land; Man got to tell himself he understand” Because in this quote it implies that we might not actually understand and we are just saying so to make ourselves feel more at ease. So anytime you feel alone with your thoughts or feel a bit fatalistic about the world just remember that its human to want to understand. Its just as natural as the fact that tigers sleep and birds land. Yet it is okay not to. You can just say that you do. I dunno just love this quote so much and wanted to share it somewhere to someone else Who too can maybe find at least some comfort from it.
Yo this is beautiful
It's insane how much that quote has actually put things into perspective for me. I first heard it like a week or two ago from an essay by John Green on Tuberculosis, and the more I think of it, I just feel like everything makes more sense. I dunno, I guess it's just helped me to let go of wanting to know things a bit.
One day I'll wake up an old man in an empty bed realizing its too late for young love
Same. i fear that i'll be an old cat lady lol
Worse is when the realization happens to you when you're wide awake, staring at a message on a phone, listening to a sad playlist on KZhead...
they do exist, yet not in our reality but in our minds
I see so many people in the comments of this lovely video hungry for love, for connection. I remember that feeling. I want to take you each in my arms and brush your cheek with my thumb and say, "it gets better." There is connection. Keep looking, keep trying, keep working on yourself and making yourself into the person you want to be. For yourself, for whoever you're looking for. And one day you will be in someone's arms and look up and the face you saw in your dreams will be clearly in front of you, no longer shrouded in mystery and longing. I love you. Be strong.
Dang, thanks for this. I'm in my first year of college, studying all the time to keep up with my classes and earn good grades, though I find myself, occasionally, just wanting to be with someone. My friends are great ofc but I'd just really love to be with a guy and feel completely loved and safe with him. A healthy relationship where we make each other happy, esp since all throughout my childhood, my parents had such a toxic relationship and it made all of us unhappy. There's been some guys that have went up to me (usually when I'm studying lol), we would chat and I'd get excited, exchange info, but none of them have really worked out. I hate how strong the desire gets to be with someone. I'm finally out on my own and this is the first time for me that the desire is just so strong. I look around and see so many of my classmates have partners and I just get jealous, wondering why can't I have that? I'm scared, what if I don't end up finding someone? I know I'm still so young but I feel like I'm missing out, especially since I never dated anyone in hs. Rn, my classload doesn't allow me much free time unfortunately, so I just need to remember to focus on my schooling and like you said, hopefully I'll end up finding the right person for me at the right time. Sorry for venting. I guess I'm feeling kind of emotional and your comment struck me pretty deep haha. Think I'll return back to this comment when I feel lonely again
@@graceMaximus Woah! It feels like talking to a younger version of myself. I completely commiserate. Given that I feel I've been given a time machine, here's the best advice I can give you. Take as much as helps! Warning, long reply. When you find love, it will not be confusing. You will not doubt you are loved. There may come concerns and nitty gritty, awkward moments and mistakes where you hurt each other, but someone who loves you will LEARN from those mistakes, will LAUGH through the awkward moments, will WORK to bridge the nitty gritty, and will hear out your concerns. Before I met my (soon to be) husband, I did not know love wasn't supposed to hurt. For reference: It's not. It's supposed to feel like building a brick house to put a fire inside. It's supposed to feel like coming home. When I started college, I made a vow to myself that I would never put a boy before school. I relate hard to having lots of people approach, but not having it go anywhere substantial. Right now, you will be exposed to a greater number of people your age interested in dating than any other time in your life, so it's VERY okay to let a lot of candidates slip by. Throw away the good enough to get the good for you. That vow I made turned out to work in my favor, as it turns out The One was someone who loved me for ME, not for my flawless persona. When you have downtime, focus on becoming yourself. You have a passion for theater? Go audition. Painting? Why not? Never skied before but suddenly have a chance to? Sure. Just take it one step- er, slope at a time. Fail now so you can grow. Fail now=be awesome later. The right person will look at the vase in your museum and marvel at the broken pots it took to get there. On the subject of parents. I feel for you. I have spent a lot of time learning what NOT to do. Just remember, it's OKAY to have an argument or to disagree with your partner. You don't have to keep the peace, and every conflict doesn't have to be a breakup. I remember the day I looked up from a tough conversation with shock, realizing we had ARGUED and WORKED THINGS OUT????! It was revolutionary. It's a really good idea to get to know your partner when their angry. Any way a person talks about someone, they're capable of talking about you. This is broad advice for friendships, but is VITAL in a relationship. How do they talk about the fast food worker who got their order wrong? How do they talk about their roommates? Their family? If their family are legitimately awful, do they know why? Do they condemn them? How much of an argument with anyone is their fault? How much is the other person's? You don't have to pass a moral judgement, just remember that someday, even someone you love can get on your bad side, and you theirs. I would love to get personal on this, but as it is the internet I'll simply say: trust me. I don't envy you, @graceMaximus. You have the hard part of the journey ahead. I promise you, let time take its course and trust the process. My future husband and I met on a blind date. My dear friend managed to find their wonderful long-term partner on Hinge (I'm still not sure how, and am a bit impressed myself). Feel free to come back to this whenever you need, and good luck with school! Sorry for the uninvited advice haha
@@margaretlines65 Thank you for this, genuinely. You didn't have to respond or use your time on writing this all up for me, some random YT commenter on a study playlist video, but you did. I _really_ appreciate that. This is so motivating, I love how engaging and beautifully descriptive your writing is, it just feels so comforting like you're an older sister or something haha. I don't really have much family to give me this type of advice, really only my mom, but she's still in an extremely toxic relationship with my dad. I wish I had some like you to just give me this type of random life advice, i'm like tempted to ask for your discord but completely understand if you don't want to. Sorry again, with this music playing as I read your reply, it's making me feel emotional again (swear I don't get this deep/personal in random internet comments all the time lol). And I will definitely be coming back to this. :) "Right now, you will be exposed to a greater number of people your age interested in dating than any other time in your life, so it's VERY okay to let a lot of candidates slip by. Throw away the good enough to get the good for you," - wow, never thought about it like that. I'm going to really try to keep that in mind "It's a really good idea to get to know your partner when their angry." - Yepp, that is one thing that I've learned very well from a young age to watch out for. It's nice to hear how much you relate to how I'm feeling, though I'm so happy that you found the right guy for you. I wish you two all the best and hope the wedding goes well! Haha, I do hope this ends up feeling like a time machine someday, where what you have now, is what I'll have later. No need to say sorry, grateful I decided to sort by the newest comments
@@graceMaximus @margaretlines65 this thread is so heartwarming
"We danced in a field in the rain together alone no one watching for the last time...."
❤
wait no that's so sad...
dance alone is better than dancing with someone that'd always step on your feet.
I am really moved by this comment section. It is beautiful how people are true not only to themselves but also to strangers. I love how everything here is deprived from hate and assesments. Thank you all for your delightful stories, for all those emotions muffled in the soothing peace. I am really glad that KZhead algorithm invited me to be part of this magnificent experience.
Thank you for the kind words! I really love how I gathered this little community of people being able to share their stories without being judged by others!
Reading all the comments while listening really sets a surreal mood.
I met a guy once in a bus. I liked the way he was dressed and his friendly face. But there was my stop, so I stepped out and looked away just to realise that he was out too. I smiled and moved to a place where I needed to meet my friends. There was a big space with a fountain in centre. I just walked around with my headphones on, thinking about how lovely this day was, until it got even more lovely, cause that guy again happened to be nearby me. It's possible that he also was going to meet someone, he looked on his phone, and I secretly peeked at him. I wasn't the only one. And when our eyes were staring together, he smiled the most cute smile I think I've seen, so I had to turn around to not show my awkwardness. He moved a little closer and even tried to talk, but I... I pretended I didn't hear him cause of my headphones and walked away as fast as I could. He stopped right there and continued to chill around the fountain while I tried to calm myself down. Soon I saw my friends, so we went together but our way lead us through that place again. My gaze caught him last time and this time I was seeking an opportunity to speak to him. Sadly he was too long to reach and we seemed to go in different directions. My eyes followed him until I finally lost his sight... I fell in love so quickly as always but that time was and actually still is special. I don't know anything about him, even his name, yet still it felt like we were just perfect for each other. And I acted like a coward, I ruined it. Again and again I hoped that we will see each other soon everytime I was in that same area. But we didn't ever meet again. Maybe it wasn't mean to be, I just can't stop myself from remembering this guy and regretting...
You might feel like you missed out on the love of your life, but matter of fact is, you didn't know anything about him. Imagine, you end up in a relationship with him and he turns out to be abusive. Then it was good you walked away "like a coward", right? What I am trying to say is, you don't know how things would have turned out. So stop thinking things like "it felt like we were just perfect for each other" because you simply can't know that. It's a thought that only causes you to feel regret.
@@hlm-po9zt I know, I know, I shouldn't regretting about guy I didn't even know, but that's exactly why I'm regretting, cause there was completely unknown way, which I will never know. I don't regret dating wrong persons even after all the terrible issues, but I will always regret about things I didn't experience when there was a chance. But anyway thanks for your concern, it was sweet of you
@@chaotic_ginger I can imagine how you feel thinking about the what-ifs. Its a cute story
Sometimes it's appropriate to tell yourself "fuck it and fuck you" and then jump into action without a second thought lol. Its helped me in nerve wrecking situations multiple times and I've always come out better for it.
Lowkey if I was you id put up a sign looking for him LMAO
"There are times when I would wish they were real, but then I would get reminded that the dance, and the memories that came along with it, felt the way it did because they didn't exist in the first place. Even so, those moments affected how I perceive reality. Whether it's a good thing or a bad thing, I do not know. Nonetheless, I find myself unwilling to let them go, the dance and the one I danced with."
This one is for all of us who lay awake at night, second guessing everything and overthinking the chaos that surrounds us. This is for the people who are going through changes in their lives, alone, realizing that the world they've created isn't the one they wanted. This is for the people who are waking up, realizing that someone or something in their lives is no longer good for them and that they need to break free for their own good. This is for all of us who spend those midnight hours, laying in bed alone, feeling the weight of the sadness pushing on their chests, knowing what the next move is that they have to make, but not knowing how to get there because they know they're going to lose something along the way, even if deep down they know they're losing something toxic. This is for all of us who really could use a genuine hug, or a long embrace, from someone they feel completely safe with. There is beauty in everything, even in those moments where you feel like you're on an island, stranded, and unreachable by others. Especially in those moments. If you're going through Hell, just keep going. It will get better. And you're not alone.
thank u
thank you
Thank you
That one, blonde and kind man from my dream please, come back. It's been two years since our first and last meeting, I miss you
The young lady watched everyone dance before her, entwined with each other. She stood awkwardly, aching for a chance, for just one opportunity to be on the dance floor like everyone else. Suddenly, a tall man with the most piercing eyes walks towards her. Her breath hitched as she looked around her, wondering who he was walking towards, only to find that the one he was looking at was her. Finally, he stopped right before her, a few inches away. He reached out his hand to her. "Would you give me your company in this dance, darling?" His voice was so low and husky that it resonated in her ears as his words repeated in her head. She stood there almost speechless as she nodded, not able to say a single word out of her lips. She took his hand, and he pulled her gently, leading her to the dance floor. It felt like the world around them disappeared for that one moment. She felt as he placed his free hand on her waist, the other still entwined with hers. She didn't know the first thing about dancing - But she did her best. They twirled and swayed. It almost felt like he led her, just with the look in his eyes and how he guided her subtly. Her heart raced in her chest. It beat so loudly that she wondered if the handsome man could hear it. The smell of his perfume and the way his cold peculiar touch etched in her memory was something she would never forget. As the song ended, he led her back to where he had found her, bowing as he departed. She wanted to go after him, wondering who he was, but when she tried to take a few steps towards the direction he had left, hoping to reach him. He was gone, lost in the crowd. Almost like he was a ghost, she never saw him again, but the night would stay permanently etched in her memory.
I once dreamt the love of my life died. For a reason I do not know, we had to keep our relationship a secret. I had to break into his apartment to clear it of any remnants of me before his friends and family came to collect his belongings. A mutual friend (that did not know of the shared connection) had asked me to accompany them to help clear out the apartment after I had already done my initial sweep. There was some off handed remark about what a shame I’d never made the acquaintance. All while I was dying holding back tears and mentally cursing everyone for being so callous and careless with his home. I woke up with grief sitting heavily on my chest for a man I felt vehement love for, but did not know.
dreams are great. dreams are terrible. dreams are... powerful and strange. when i was a child i once dreamed that i stumbled upon a purple girl from space and i was going to help her go home, but time traveled fast in space, and i had to chose between checking if my grandmother was gonna be okay (shes canonically doing fine irl) and helping the alien. when i was grown i once dreamed that newegg had wd blue 3.5" 5tb drives on sale for about 70 dollars, but PETA had a discount code that would let me get them for 55$. when i was young i once dreamed i had a girlfriend who loved me dearly, we were driving somewhere, that pre-sunset golden light blanketing the land. you know what i mean. she surprised me with a hot air balloon ride, i felt complete. waking up from that one hurt me deeply, though i did not truly understand why/how until more recently. (im stopping that train of thought where it lays, lest this post triple in size.)
No offense Quantum but you will never get a girlfriend because women today only want friends.
@@user-nd9vd5vw2e quantum and I were just sharing dreams in which we had significant others and how we they made us feel. Your comment here is completely irrelevant to the current conversation, I encourage you to find an appropriate place to vent these frustrations you seem to hold. I hope you find happiness in your own company and stay well.
@@user-nd9vd5vw2e That... Is the silliest thing I've ever read. It sounds like you're hurt that the women you have reached out to don't want to date you. Don't push that pain onto others. Don't push your expectations onto others either. Maybe a woman doesn't want to date you, but you could be great friends?? If you're taking that as a punishment or "friendzone" then I feel sorry for you missing out on all the cool people you could have had in your life. :( I found love from being friends with others, and I certainly wouldn't be with my husband if we wouldn't have been friends first. Not all friendship turns into romance, but all romantic relationships should be friends at least on some level.
@@user-nd9vd5vw2e That hasn't been the case in my experience; maybe you're just talking to the wrong women...
She still exists and, as long as I breath, our memories together will not fade away.
TITLE: Wish to Exist "tell me about him'" they ask well he's sweet and kind and I know deep down he is a good person but he is in pain and no matter what I do i can't help him he's scared biting the hand that feeds and I love him but he did not love me today was goodbye but I still look at him and cry what a beautiful soul he is to be in so much pain he's beautiful Even Mother Nature praises his name but to him I am only some game used for my body I was told it was a temple my body an empire you tried to conquer my love I was only a pawn in your sad game of chess when in my eyes I was a King I loved you even though our time ran out but I have to keep dancing the music doesn't stop pausing momentarily to breathe but never resting forever i shall waltz I watch as my lover slowly fades into oblivion fading into ash soon the wind will swiftly carry you away I watch my lover held in my arms we shared a few dances but now as he has returned to the stars of my imagination where forever I shall hold him I am now dacing with a figment of my mind dancing with a ghost I so desperately wish to simply exist.
That was so beautiful and amazing.❤❤❤❤🎉🎉🎉🎉😊😊😊😊
So beautiful ❤
this is so nice
I cried💔
In seventh grade, I felt like everything was a confusing mess. But then there was him. In the middle of all the loud and unbearable crowd, he stood out like a ray of sunshine. He wasn't just cute, with a smile that could light up a room, but he also had this kindness about him that made me feel like he'd give the best hugs ever. Back then, I wasn't exactly bursting with confidence. I worried about how I looked, how I acted, everything. But when he looked at me, it felt different. It felt like I was okay, just the way I was. Our first chat started with a silly lie. He pretended to be a year younger than me, just to be funny. I totally fell for it, though, and I kept trying to help him out with stuff for our club, like a worried big brother. I guess I went a little overboard explaining everything. One day, he pulled me aside with a half-grin. "Hey," he said, "actually we're the same age. But listen," he winked, "your help is cool, just maybe ease up on the explaining part, okay?" My cheeks turned bright red - butterflies erupted in my stomach like a swarm of bees. Not only did I find out he wasn't younger, but I realized he'd just wanted an excuse to talk to me! Those middle school years were filled with him being the nicest guy around. Every time I saw him, or even just heard him talk, I liked him more and more. I wanted to tell him how I felt, but he was straight and I was scared. What if my confession ruined our whole friendship? Then came high school. It was tough watching him make new friends and have girlfriends. There were moments that stuck with me forever - like the time I wanted to celebrate a win with him, but he hung out with his other friends instead. It stung, but it also made me realize things had to change. So I changed. I found new friends, new hobbies, even picked out the college I wanted to go to. I started feeling like myself again. And guess what? Right when I was ready to move on, he popped back into my life. He was still as charming as ever, and we bonded over a video game we both loved. We played every day, he invited me to things - it felt amazing having him around again. But then I found out he liked my best friend (who is a girl - don't worry, that's a story for another time). That crushed me. But, it also made me realize it was time to finally come clean. On New Year's Eve, I poured my heart out in a message. I told him everything I loved about him, not because I thought he'd suddenly like me back, but because I needed to get it all out in the open. He was surprised, but really nice about it. He said he didn't feel the same way, but still wanted to be friends. And here we are, still friends. Putting this whole story down on paper feels like a weight lifting off my shoulders. Even though you'll probably never see this, H, I just wanted you to know - a part of me will always have a soft spot for you. But with each day, that feeling gets easier to handle. I know I'll find happiness someday, and I hope you find yours too.
your little story made my night easer to sleep
I’m really glad that he understood you guys are still friends. Even though it didn’t work out the way you might have wanted to I’m glad you also understood the situation and continued to grow.
this is so sweet and lovely goddamn--i hope you can be happy and stay friends long into the future, though even if you don't i hope you're both still left with dear and joyful memories of each other
When I started listening to this melody my eyes started to tear up, I guess I came across this video on the perfect timing. That's what life is all about after all, letting things come and go
Thank you so much for the kind words!!
Every night I dream vivid dreams, and it always hurts to wake up. My dreams play out like scenes from a book, where someone keeps rereading the same few pages before moving on to the next book. The stories and people change, but one thing stays the same. I am never myself, and always seem to embody someone I’ve never known. The people around me have their faces obscured but I know I wouldn’t recognize them even if I could see them. The only one I can see is my own, yet it constantly changes. I’ve never felt happier than in my dreams, no matter how dark the stories become. It’s still comforting to be someone else, and to feel real love with someone even if they never existed
I know this feeling! I dream so vividly that i can feel the things that happend when I wake up. And sadly i often feel Empty inside when the world i dreamt of is gone. The people that I "Play" are never the same and often there are Vampires and other Fantasy Creatures. And beautiful romance and sometime such sad things that i have the urge to cry. I love dreaming and feeling these thing, but waking up is the most cruel thing happening to me!
I felt this and have experienced this as well. I hate waking up from those dreams...
I wanna thank everyone here for sharing their touching stories, makes me smile and also makes me cry, but at the end of the day, when I go to bed with my cat, I feel less alone because I always fall asleep with this music and often go on dreaming from one of your story!
In my dreams he's always with me, i wonder if someday i will met him and be loved by him, in my dreams i'm always happy, he tells me not to worry about waking up because we are destinated to meet.
We danced around the hall. We complemented every movement and every breath in harmony. The high vaults, the rigid, cold stone pillars built just for this single dance. We wouldn't need music. Our bodies wrote the song. A composition of passion, of love. I did not need to see him and he did not need to see me. So I closed my eyes and led him and he led me. A dance that never seemed to end. The light of the candles, which made the hall appear heavenly, warmed our skin with their glow. Had I forgotten what a powerful feeling hate was? He had me where he wanted me. He held me prisoner in his bonds of dance, Like a gust of wind the feather of a swan. We danced faster and faster, wilder and wilder. Until suddenly the sound of our footsteps stopped. The ceiling of the hall began to crumble. The building shook off its components like a Oath that can no longer hold its needles. Then he let go of my hand, looked at me and his eyes gave me a promise that we would meet again. An angel who danced with the devil in heaven. He was gone and I opened my eyes to the gray, lonely ceiling of my room. The candlelight had gone out and the dance was over, the song had gone silent.
Can I just say how much I love this! I really just want to be in this sort of love
I love this so much , I felt it deeply 😢❤
This is everything
Perfect.
had a dream like this once, so surreal. But sadly its one of the dreams i cant seem to repeat.
I once dream about me having lovely wife and sweet daughter...but in that dream they don't have a face
funny i find this right now. i had a dream last night i was in love with a beautiful woman, i dont know her name nor do i remember her face. all i know is she was there for me when none of the other dream people were, she held my hand and comforted me. whoever she is, i miss her.
maybe in another time i was dancing with someone in a room full of dresses and happiness
I fell in love with some guy in my dream once. It was so sweet, so loving. I woke up and almost sobbed.
Laying here at almost 2 am crying to this, not because I will never know him because I already do, but because he’ll never truly love me as much as he says it I know he doesn’t mean it. I can see it in his eyes I’m just the women he got pregnant. I’m the safe choice. The one who is already here but never the one he will truly love. My dreams are filled with him. Our life. Our memories, dancing late at night in the middle of our room as the kids are asleep as he whispers “ I love you” In my ear. It’s so close I can almost touch it, but I never will. He’ll never truly love me. This is the closest I’ll get to that feeling.
Wow you wrote it so beautifuly
Same 🎉
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My god... I would never wish this on my greatest enemy.
Why do you think he'll never truly love you?
The touch of a loved one is something that is taken for granted when their, and missed whole heartedly when not. It feels so long since I’ve felt a touch like that, a connection. It gentleness, with a kind intention. The feeling of not being alone. I miss it, yet I’ve never had it. Adios and vaya con Dios, my friends.
There is beauty in meeting a stranger who is unbelievably compatible with you, only for that single moment to last for a short while. A lesson comes with each stranger, a kind smile or a gentle push from the universe to keep going.
I remember one time I dreamt of this man, no idea seek he was or what he looked like. All I knew he was perfect in every way I could ever imagine. In this dream we feel in love dated, married. Had the most perfect life one could ever imagine with a partner. I never got to see his face, only that he was well built but slim, tall, handsome, and he had skin like a warm caramel. I never felt so loved, so happy. Only to wake up, alone in my bed, saddened that all of that was a dream, I never felt so alone. So sad that the man who I somehow loved and cherished with all my heart and soul was not real. After that night I never dreamt of him again. But I will always remember him as the man I will never have, the man who I will never see or dream. I hope I'm not the only one who dreamt about this
Perfect music for dreaming of an alternate reality where I'm a beautiful princess missing my beloved etc etc
Valentine’s special playlist of delulus
I miss my bestfriend. The one person I truly trusted with my whole heart.😔
May I ask what happened?
To be re-living the same moment, in the background, in the foreground, being trapped in the same unbelievable moment this seems to have endless conclusions, endless beginnings, not knowing where you are going or may end up.... how blissful a thought.
when i daydream about what could have been, this is what i hear. it has been such a tough time lately but i am glad i found this so that i can imagine the life i wanted. thank you :)
Don’t imagine keep hustling till you make it reality, never give up
make it a reallity bro,, wishing u the best!
Past decision and lost lovers
"Not being enough is less about what you are and more about what you could have been" ~ a quote from poem of a youtuber - illness So don't feel you were limited or are limited, it was just a part of you not you💗
Had a dream once that I was getting married to some handsome gentleman with blue eyes and blonde hair. He was dreamy. Didn’t know who he was , still think about him and that dream..
Lately my life´s been a bunch of unfortunated events and chaos, my carreer is ending with me. just existing, feeling empty sorrounded by all this solitude and majestic music.
at night i close my eyes and think of my life ahead of me. my career and success is mainly what consumes my mind, but sometimes i do think of love. i’ve struggled with that concept for more than half my life due to some certain aspects of my childhood and lack of parental presence, but i dream of it, so often. I sometimes believe I’ll never find it; that i’ll die alone with only my loneliness by my side. Do I want too much? Do I want things that don’t exist? A love so rare that it borders the line of soulmate and twin flame; something inescapable and inevitably beautiful and destructive all in the same. I want everything, all of it. The beauty, the dark, the ugly, especially the ugly. Is it too much to ask for a love that conquers and devours? A love that moves the ground beneath us and changes the tides as does the moon. I’ll die alone. And that’s okay. It will be okay.
Was kinda like you, found everything I could ask for (one minor problem 3000km). Work on yourself, go meet new people and you'll find it
Close my eyes then i saw my other souls waiting for me to reach his hand..its the best feeling.. even it made me cry cause i know he already flew high to heaven.
я один тут слушаю эту музыку от нечего делать а не от любви?
Sometimes I just wish I was a novel character 🍂
Dancing with someone with passion, tenderness and happiness. It' s nice to take a rest of everything in our mind and open hearts together in a deep hug. 😻😻
"No matter where you go - you'll never find her You may still feel her touch but eyes never lie Exploring the darkest, isolated and afar places for years yet still being nowhere close to reuniting with her Because she didn't, doesn't and never will exist"
Thinking about two of my characters from a book I'm writing while listening to this. I feel so deeply connected with these two and this playlist just makes them come alive in my mind.
no because, this was a long while ago, i had a dream where i was in my school’s cafeteria for some reason and i was going up and getting ready to dance and i was just dancing and dancing, feeling myself then this dude comes up and dances with me. we dance in sync and i even maybe got butterflies. if i remember correctly, he even reached his hand out for me, i still remember what he wore, it was like a beige-orange turtleneck long sleeve top with black pants, his shoulders were broad… his face was blurry tho, i couldn’t pinpoint who it was, then i think he went and walked away only for me to wake up right after. to see him again in my dreams.. he made those short few seconds feel so romantic and magical 🥹
this is how love is supposed to feel. ive wanted smth like this my entire life but i just dont think im capable of feeling this way for someone else and its soul crushing
When out in nature, we often feel so small, dwarfed by the grand sweep of the stars, the oceans, and the mountains. And yet we are still part of it all - connected to the miracle of the first flower to emerge from the soil, awed by the iridescent flash of wings in mid-flight, the feeling of a raindrop rolling down the face, or the spiralling song of a bird up above.
that's beautiful
Wrote a freestyle poem to this wonderful playlist (I'm no professional so bare with me ❤) Delulu (Story of a hopeless romantic) I don’t believe that my vision is beyond sanity. I have a scene, a life that plays in my head. A dream of what could be. I can feel its warmth and heartache just as sun on skin. It comes with pain yet my desire grows The lens of rose, absent against others' beliefs. The heartache, the pain, the challenge, I want it all Yet, growth and love I desire, molded through blazing fire. I feel a hand comforting my own until dawn breaks. The story of life and pain, now hollow. Alone once more I wake to dream Could that hand hold mine whilst sun remains? I live to one day create this story, hopeless or not, I don’t believe my vision is beyond sanity. (I love all you amazing people so much! Thank you for reading)
30:25 My favorite
It's strange how in dreams you feel love like you'll never experience in real life. In real life you have lost hope and interest but it's fascinating how dream comes with the characters that are so comfy and it feels like i know them completely from ages. Sometimes he is supporting, sometimes generous and kind, and sometimes intriguing and challenging. They have their own universe inside my subconscious . i love how i admire him even when i don't what he looks like...
Here we are, thousands of strangers never likely to see each other again, but for any of you who happen upon it, this is for you. Space may travel the infinite flow of Time, but so does Love. It will find you, you will be happy, love just takes time.
23:30 is always my favourite... there's so much emotion in it.
Her beautiful white gown spun and twirled as she danced across the extravagant ball room floor, her mask hiding her exquisite features other than her red lips and bright blue eyes. And as the music played, thousands came to watch as she danced with a ghost. The ghost of the man she once knew. Their bodies intertwined in another as they swirled around the dance floor aimlessly together, knowing this would certainly be their last dance till they met in death together. She couldn't help but let her eyes well up with tears, her chest rising and falling rapidly as his spirit slowly dissipated as the pair were enjoying this last bitter sweet moment together. Bystanders watching as she crumbled to her knees once the mist was gone, listening as her sobs drowned out the beautiful music. Never again would they meet, for she waits for him life time after life time. The immortal woman, heart broken once more.
Playlist like this always inspire me to write, often I find myself making short stories like this to these playlists. This being one of the many, please enjoy.
Thank you so much, it’s beautiful!!
@@helderboutens no, thank *you* for giving me inspiration to keep my writing going :)
I ended my relationship with the love of my life to put my life back to the rails. And oh boy, how I miss her, I don't know if I will be capable of solving my misery life now that I'm on my own, but we were just tangling our problems together. Since I broke up with her, she is living way better, healthier, happier, a lot mor productive, at least I could put her life back to the tracks instead o drowning her with me. Every time I close my eyes, I just want all my problems to go away... and to feel her close to me again, I just can't lay on my bed without thinking of her smell and her body heat, I just can't sit on my kitchen without missing her comments about the food. She used to pass most of her time on our bed, working on her laptop, my computer is in the same room, now that she is not here, to turn my head back is so lonely and meaningless.
I'm OBSESSED WITH ALL OF YOUR PLAYLISTSSSS THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SUCH GREAT PLAYLIST AND FOR BEING MY COMFORT PLACE🥹🥹🥹🥹💓💓💓💓🩵
Thank you so much!!
He`s tall(but not uncomfortably so),wears dark clothes,has deep blue eyes,one dimple and a beautiful smile. I remember his scent as I`ve hugged him twice. He smelled clean,as if being embraced by a cloud on a spring morning. We talked about our favorite movies:His was `The Umbrellas of Cherbourg`. Brought me flowers,they were entirely too colorful and chaotic. I loved them. We passed by buildings,never stopped talking. He laughed at my jokes. I laughed at his clumsiness as he almost tripped. Was probably a year older than me,but again maybe not. Long fingers. Told me he worked as a police officer. We hugged again,he offered me a smile and left. Don`t remember his name. And I woke up.
I fell in love with a guy who never fought for me and left me alone like we didn't share our dreams with each other. I know I have flaws and so did he. I always tried to make him feel better and in contrary he made me feel better without even trying. It's been weeks with no contact and I think of him everyday. Wish I would've saved the relationship but it never meant anything to him. I tell myself it was for the best. Even though I think about him everyday and everyday less. I just wish we both find happiness and true love we found within those few days of meeting. I loved him and I will love myself the same and more. I deserve it. If anyone reading this feels some what related. I know we won't find something like it anymore however, we will find someone and something better. I just wish him, you and I all the happiness possible.
If you often find yourself dancing alone & wishing you had someone to dance with, you'll find someone new if you keep looking long enough, & they might even make for a good partner. But remember, the Perfect dancing partner is already in your life. The curse of being human is that the things we think will make us happy are rarely what will make us truly happy, & we miss out on the best things by chasing what we mistakenly think are better. Sometimes we're lucky enough to stumble on who we really need, but if you're not, look at those around you with a fresh perspective. If you rarely find yourself dancing alone, but you're alone today, then maybe the partner you really ought to be getting to know better is yourself. It's okay to dance alone for a while. Give it a try, dance alone for longer than what you're used to. It won't be forever, & you'll learn something. When it comes time to find a partner, you'll be more ready.
do you know how difficult this is, to balance life on your shoulders. its... frightening. there is hope; just gotta find it everyday, all over again.
i listen to playlists all the time but this one was one of my favorites, thank you so much for putting it together
This playlist got me. I had never been in a relationship, these music just give me a space to imagine what it might feel... with love. Absolutely blessing. Don't know since when I feel like I am not worthy to have love anymore. Some friends around keep falling in love with someone, live happily out there. Some friends keep sharing on how they are planning to get their love, sounds brave. Seeing people around enjoying love, make me jealous, but I'm not mad. I'm sad, that I get panic with my works. I met someone looks absolutely gorgeous, when I wanna to take a step and chase. I realize I'm not ready, I'm not ready to give a happy life to her, I'm not ready to give my all. I'm not ready to spend everything onto someone... So I stopped, leaving her fades away. Falling in love with a better man. What's left for me is bitter and sour to swallow. Am I overthinking? Am I scared of failure? Or, Am I selfish? No one can tell me the answer since I never express these to anyone around me. Maybe I just need to get off my current situation, and try live freely to find someone who is waiting for me.
Thank you!
It's not interesting but I always liked to dream. Dreaming of another world where absolutely everything is possible. Meeting someone you didn't know before, share a moment with people you know but who are no longer around you, or who have voluntarily decided to no longer be part of your life. Falling in love with someone whose face we no longer even remember but just the tenderness of his gestures and the affection he showed us better than anyone on Earth. Meeting fictional characters that don't even exist, but adds comfort in seeing them. Relive a moment in your life that is no longer possible today. Having sensations that you can never really know, like superpowers, or simply flying. And also experience moments that we would really like to really happen. I really like dreams, it's also a kind of escape in a way. I relive moments from my childhood, with people who are no longer by my side now, by choice or not. I experience moments with people I don't know but to whom I immediately become attached in the space of a dream. It's comforting to feel absolutely everything. Smells, touch, sounds, taste. Can we talk about the incredible universe that transports us certain nights? Have you ever felt the comfort of a hug in a dream? Or a kiss? Comfort may be more fleeting than reality but honestly, it's also sweet, especially coming from someone with whom things are difficult. I always believed that dreams had meaning. And every time I wake up, I think about what I need to learn from this dream. Whether abstract or not, I always have some details that matter to me. Dreams can be beautiful or frightening. But even being scary, there is still beauty behind it. We live as in a film, a game, an incarnation in another universe. And it's the only place where you never think too much, where everything seems real even if it becomes too beautiful. We will never think about anything negative, just, we live in another strange world. It's so realistic that it fascinates me. How can the simple act of sleeping lead us to create an entire world? People ? A story ? Places ? Dialogues?... Yes I love dreaming but sometimes waking up is really complicated. Just waking up from a too-perfect dream and immediately being in denial. What a horrible feeling. But for the past few days, my dreams have mostly reminded me of the hurtful things that are happening to me in my life at the moment. Things that happen, that I would like to happen that way, or even moments that I would like to relive and that I miss. This comment is surely unnecessary but I wanted to express myself on the beauty of dreams which is not highlighted enough. Have a good evening, take care of yourself
Such a soothing melancholy, a love felt so deep... to hug the shadows of someone who would never be
This playlist... The exact feeling... Thank u
A few months ago I had a dream I was in love… I never saw his face tho. He held my hand and gave me a piggyback ride and all I remember is the feeling of being complete and the absolute love I felt towards him. The only physical features I remember was him being tall and having slightly fluffy brown hair. I think about him sometimes and I hope I never forget him or that feeling
i love music Idk how this made me think about so many things, make me feels emotions like sadness, sorrow and yet happiness and something else i can't name right now... perhaps paranoia?
I love this playlist. Im going through a breakup at the moment and it just calms me so much
I hope it gets better soon for you! Thank you for the kind words!
"Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?" - Albus Dumbledore. I knew I chose my favorite character well when I was 11-years-old.
I love this line. So much happens in my head that could never exist in this world, but to me it's real. I feel it, and that's enough. And no one can take it away from me.
@@themisfitowl2595 With you, sister... Right there with you...
The weight of the air after a heavy storm Petrichor Dark and beautiful and a comfort to my heart My heart, which has been thundering for months. My delightful, most favored weather. Every raindrop that slid down my cheek was a kiss which you laid upon me Shivering Where my skin would burn with how they harmed me, there was you To soothe the blistering and the bruising with the delicate embrace of your wind Your voice, the rolling thunder overhead Your smile, the curve of the horizon- which is held loose in the cascading rainbow which your light created I'm lost in the flooding warmth of your gaze, yet I will never drown. You're everything I want. And will never have.
This is truly the most beautiful poetic comment I've read in a very long time
First painting: "Slow Dance" by Coloradan artist Ron Hicks, b. 1965 4th (the thumbnail) is by Irish artist Lorraine Christie, b. 1967
A lovely waltz With my passion a vault The seal of which to be broken For, I thought of you as a token But you were just a figment Of my shattered memories
i love this sm
You picture him in your head. He seems so real, and yet so surreal. You feel like you know him, but at the same time, not really because you've never met him. But he lives inside your head, so he just perfectly belongs there. He's just this perfect stranger that you've known all your life. He's a part of you, but you don't really know him. And you don't even know if you ever will.
Every night yt would recommend me these kind of peaceful playlist... really help me sleep
thannk you for the upload. You are my new go to when I need music while reading/writing.
Beautiful playlist, though I am 20 I just got out of my first real relationship that only lasted 3 months. I put a lot of trust into her and she completely used me, I told her about my trust and abandonment issues and told her if she loses feelings for me thats ok just dont lead me on and dont give me any false hope. She did the complete opposite, she kisses me, which was my first kiss and then breaks up with me within the week. On top of that she then starts seeing another guy 2 weeks later. She clearly never actually cared about me and just used me for her emotional needs, yet I still care, I still fucking hope shes happy for some reason. Love is something I value more than anything in this world yet its the one thing that feels out of reach and thats what this playlist makes me think. To everyone or anyone reading this, whatever you value in this world, go get it no matter how far out of reach it feels. Just don't give up no matter how hopeless everything feels. Hope someone read this and actually gained something from it who knows
I appreciate you sharing. I recently went through a similar experience with a partner of only 3 months as well. I felt we had trust, a deep connection and he was the perfect guy. However I ignored some red flags and gave everything to him. Long story short, he was dealing with his own issues and not ready for a relationship, while not feeling all the ways I felt for him. When he left I was devastated, but that is what it took for me to realize all of the crappy things he did to me. The selfish ways he used me and treated me, which paralleled the wonderful things he did too. What hurt the most though is he gave me hope. Talked about the grandiose plans he had for the future. I'm finally realizing though the future I want is not with him. I will work hard to achieve my goals, and do all of the things he never had faith in me to do. So I agree, let's keep our hope
It's been about like a total of two years since I've dreamed of this guy, it felt incredibly realistic and still has left an impression on me until now. I had a total of two dreams with him, I saw what he wore and what he did, how he spoke but never his face. The dream made me feel what I never really felt before, warm and secure, like I was enveloped in a warm and nice hug. I think about that dream on many days, hoping that it comes true in real life.
again masterpiece thankyou HELDER
Thank you so much for the support as always!
This is gaining likes as im listening to it, deserved. 💗
Thank you so much for the kind words!!
Helder, your playlists are the only way I can get through the terrible books assigned to my students by my state English curriculum.
Thank you so much!!
I use this playlist to write Victorian ghost stories and romance
Something that makes me feel better is hoping my soulmate in another universe is thinking of me how I think of him. Him clicking on this video to dwell in his sorrows just the same as me, wishing and hoping we could meet someday outside of our dreams. That he thinks I’m the one who isn’t real, and slips away at thoughts of me the same way I do of him. How he tries and tries again and again but fails to reach me in any possible way. But we both know we’ll never actually meet eachother. That we are only figments of each others fantasies. That’s what truly hurts the most.
A moment i realized im not what girls want, that moment i realize im gonna walk alone .. dance with myself until reincarnation will show, yet somehow our devils, angels, not so deffriend like us, they just behave of other fysik and behavier, time dimension, the can joy and laugh and i have spent many nights with my spiritual beings and lovers and just talk about life and the univers. im ok i gess ... great music
Dancing with someone without a reflection
This hit me more than the other comments. That's so great
i love all of you guys 😭😭😭
The music is beautiful
Lately I have stopped remembering my dreams as often as I used to when I wake up. But I still have a few that I remember as if they are memories. And this one is one I do not think I'll ever forget. It started off with me standing in a field of grass looking at the night sky and then a girl saw me and invited me in her group of friends to hang around. I accepted and then we started spending time together, we did all sorts of fun activities which eventually lead me to get to know more about all of them. I felt a connection with them as if they were real people that I actually spent time with. But then the world began having small random earthquakes which they ignored and I ignored as well at first. It was a mild disturbance, but as time passed they would get more and more powerful. I began to notice that whenever an earthquake would happen, my friends would not get scared but rather be saddened as if they knew something that I did not. And that eventually lead me to confront the girl who asked me to join their group at the start to tell me what is it that they are hiding from me. She had a sad expression on her face when I asked her but also gave me the feeling that she knew that I would eventually ask. She looked towards the others and some of them shook their head, a few nodded, some cried and some were silent and just watched. The decision to tell me everything was left to her. And she decided to do it since she felt like she at least owed me this explanation. She then took me to a bench to sit down and talk and began by telling me that she knew she was in my dream, she knew that I was the cause of this dream even if I was not aware of it. But for her this was not a dream, it was her reality, her world. And it was not just her, everyone knew and felt the same. The reason that they first invited me to their group was so that I would not easily change this dream. To have some sort of control over me which was disguised with distractions by doing all of those activities that we did in the past. But they knew they were stalling the inevitable and the earthquakes were signs of that, signs of me waking up. She knew the consequence of telling me all of this, by making me aware that I was dreaming she accelerated the process of me waking up. And it did, everything began turning white around us. She told me that even though at first all of it was fake, eventually it wasn't. We were all having fun. Towards the end, she was crying and telling me that she was sorry and to not forget them. Then I woke up. I have never hated myself for waking up from a dream. I have regretted waking up from some dreams and wishing I didn't but I think this was my first time I hated myself for waking up. If I could have controlled it I wouldn't have done it that way. All I did was listen, didn't even say goodbye. This dream broke me for a while, spent the whole week processing what happened and now its been over 5 years since then and I still think about it from time to time. Looking back on it now, I also think it is still the only time I had other conscious people in my dream that were aware that everything that was happening was a dream. I've had plenty of lucid dreams but this one was different, I didn't have control over it. And I knew that I couldn't go back to sleep after it ended. I cannot recreate that world and meet those people again. Even if I try I know it is fake.
We dined late into the night, then danced until the wee hours of the mourning, somehow knowing it'd be the last, we would see of one another.
better to have loved with someone fictional than be broken by someone nonfictional
I don’t know but if it’s weird to feel happy and hurt at the same time? Imagine dancing with “someone that doesn’t exist” is happy cuz I knew I love them. They will hold you tight and tell you that “everything will be ok”. But it hurts when you know you can’t have them. They will live forever in your imagination with all the greatest things that they can give you. Just to soothe your lonely heart and sorrow.
This fits my life perfectly 🥰
They say that a lover isn't the answer, that you should only get one once you are content with your life. Maybe they're right, but I don't think I could ever be content, at least within this reality, without a lover to calm me down, to bring balance, to lighten the weight that is the disappointment of life and reality. A lover, so beautiful in the soul. A lover, so pure in the heart. A lover for me, only for me, and I only for them. I want an interconnected flow of energy, soul. The very building blocks that make us up, intertwined ever so delicately, like every string on a handmade piece of cloth, so finely and carefully placed so that we could never feel unsafe around each other, yet so strong that only the shattering of the universe could break us. I want a bond that will last forever. That is, unfortunately, a dream I cannot have. I'm afraid my life wasn't meant for that; yet my soul painstakingly yearns for it. Alone, lost in thoughts. Alone in a world full of eight billion people. Surrounded by others, alone. See, that is the problem. I'm not meant to have a lover. Me, as a whole, needs it, but I cannot have it. So I write. I write stories. I write stories where love is found, love is found everywhere. The kind of love that makes your heart twirl; your smile crease your face; your toes tap and body fill with joy. The kind that makes the world seem small. I write. And I write to me. I write to fill the void that pierces my heart, getting sharper every day. That is because I am a writer. I'm the author, not the hero, not the protagonist or antagonist, I simply write. I dream; they experience. My soul, my dear soul craves validation. My body craves art. Life. (Okay ignore my rant)
Oh my god, the ambience created here is just so marvelous and cozy. And it woke up some true emotions inside me, which made me remember the past that I want to forget. I was loved, at least I thought I was, but the girlfriend that I had left to my best friend. I felt the feeling of betrayal and despair stronger than ever before, because I couldnt have even imagined that this could happen. When I looked back at it I started telling to myself "well maybe she wasn't worth it, and maybe this is destiny's choice". I wanted to stay optimistic, but it was almost impossible. But once it went through I realized that among all this crowd surrounding me, I am the only one standing alone holding my own hand. This realization made me fall deep into the grey monochromatic void of depression. Everything in life started losing sense to me. I was only dreaming of how great it is to have a soul next to you that admires your work, feelings, someone who will lift you up when you fell and the one you would rescue back. I am not concerned that this dream doesn't end, but I am concerned that it doesn't come to reality, and Im afraid that it might never. The time when I felt love bond flew fast, but the time when I am alone feels like an eternity, and still continues to flow. Thank you for creating this channel which brought such a great community together :). And remember, all those people out there that are feeling the same, we shall stay together to prevent us from falling back. I wish all the best to everyone, and hopefully none of us is prescribed to stay in the infinite loneliness.
This is amazing, you should do that for people who wants to fall a sleep,. Just longer video like minimum 3 hours, would be great. You are amazing