you’re writing love letters in an ancient library during autumn [ dark academia playlist ]
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I have never in my life lifted a pen to write a poem, or never have I felt the urge to move to a rhythm never have I had the thought nor the talent to not a golden sunset, not a blue sky not even my lover, whom I love so dearly made me want to write a few pretty words and make it rhyme not the best singers nor the smoothest symphonies made me want to twirl around in a white gown until today, I heard you play this beautiful melody and I realized I too am a poet and I too can dance only nothing ever made me want to until you.
this is si perfect
Amazing
It's wonderful~
Absolutely magnificent! 🤍
like this poem
11 years since we broke up, I saw her with her child .. we just smiled and kept walking.
your comment just so wholesome. I love it.
i'm sorry. the past is a beautiful and painful thing, but not nearly as much as what comes after it. wish you both the best
Past is always such a beautiful dream hiding the scars in ourselves
That's the reason why I always read KZhead comments. It's incredible how people can share so many feelings with just a couple of words. That's kind of poetry. I could write an entire story about the imagination that this comment generated in my mind.
When i was 6 i had this guy friend who was my friends cousin. We'd hang around the whole summer together, play together, bicker together, laugh together. 10 summers went like that in a split second. I was 16 he was 18 we were still as close and as goofy as ever, but i had noticed that my feelings for him were growing and when i finally had the guts to confess he told me that he liked our mutual friend. I remember going back home crying so much to a point where i couldn't get out of bed for days. After that we had spoken a few times but drifted away due to my circumstances. I was heavily sick for a few months while he was preparing to go to a different country for college. I had heard from mutual friends that he wanted to meet up for the last time but i couldn't really make it. I still think about him and what he has been up to. So many questions to ask yet no one to answer. I never understood when people would say right person wrong time, because for me i always thought if you really loved that person you would've done anything to make it happen. But now id say it was love that was never meant to be. The type of love where admiring that person from a far is enough for you to be happy. I always thought that he'd be my life long mission to pursue not a lesson to be learned, but life has its own turns and twists. The matter of untangling is ours to decide. To whoever reading this i'd like to say do what is true to you, life is too short for regrets. Say that you love him/her or them, express yourself freely. To live without regrets is a life well lived. Hope my little story would push you to be a little courageous than yesterday.
❤ I’m glad I read this. This has happened to me and being the most vulnerable with someone is the most hurtful things you can do. But also the most important things you can do for yourself.
i'm so happy i got the maturity to understand how beautiful classical music is.
the girl who wrote to her crush you are a massive inspiration & no doubt you have beautiful feelings for this world. Wish you the best. I hope we can all one day find the courage to make things happen like she did. ❤
To the lover I have yet to meet, Will We ever experience the type of love that will make music sound like magic and rain feel like home? Where us slow dancing isn’t only a figment of my imagination ? Can we be the couple thats in their 80s having people look at us saying ” I want what they have” ?
this is beautiful
I cry thinking about that one person i havent even met. Where are u come to me already
I honestly think people who create playlists like these are artists in their own world making u experience something magnificent. Loved the playlist!!!❤
Thank you so much! I actually also composed some of the pieces I put in my playlists as well! :)
Anyone that can reach into oneself and extract something they feel in their soul, and to offer it for others to experience, is an artist. This person had a feeling in them, and thought that a set of songs would materialize it; this person successfully did what makes an artist be.
@@helderboutens No way!!! Thats acc so cool
No but fr. It's like a soundtrack
Not me listening to this playlist while studying while everyone else writing a loved one😅
Good luck with your studies!
@@helderboutens thank you so much^^
Perfect for writing my confession letter to a guy I’ve known for 5 years ❤️💌 thank you for this splendid playlist 👌💕 (EDIT: update on how it went with the guy!! Check the comments 🌙🩵)
Thank you so much for supporting the playlist! Feel free to let me know how it ended up going, I wish you all the best!!
HOW DID IT GOOOO?
I wanna know what happened too \^^/
Update?
Updatteeee?❤😊
I hope dearly and wholeheartedly that everyone of us finds the kind of love which allows you to say "this is it"
My partner and I are studying to this, I wanted to leave a comment sharing my appreciation of this selection. we are enchanted. thank you.
Thank you so much!!!
I can't believe i focused for 50 minutes on MATH listening to this, thank you Helder !
Glad you be of help! Thanks for the kind words!! :)
بالرغم انني، طالبة عربية واشك بانك ستفهمين ما أقول لكنني كسولة كثيرا لترجمه هذا للغة الأنجليزي، ولكن بحق لقد اعجبت بهده القائمة وكنت ادرس رياضيات أيضاً يالها من صدفة رائعة وجميلة
because even though i’ve been born in autumn my soul rests finally in its belonging winter because even though i revived today my mind flies endlessly in its hopeful future of tomorrow some time from now i might remorse or regret or remember today but it is not until that day arrives that i stop performing onstage the agonies of the present i am a withering passionfruit, the rain that sets near the horizon but never drowns the sun the morning mist that enters dawnbreak like a portal to the forest where miracles are met with tales from the simmering darkness of the night in which we cannot blink.
To myself, Falling in love with you was hard, a journey, an adventure, a good time. I was hopeless, knowing loving anyone is hard.. until i found you. You were always there, but i didn't care enough to look for you. When i noticed that you started to fade away, i looked at you for the first time, with a sense of great regret. Everyone can leave me except you. You are my muse, my strengh, the greatest beauty on earth...in my eyes. ...
this is beautiful
@istigma3706 That's really nice of you thank you a lot. I appreciate it ♡
@@QueenBee-hr3cq your welcome
this made me shed a tear. as someone that has a very conflicting relationship with my body and mind, this made me hopeful - for the first time in a long time.
@@archidearest I understand how you feel. Yk when you start searching for yourself you will feel like there is a black spot in your heart, you don't know what the cause of this is. Its a long and hard Journal but in the end the hole in your heart will be filled with flowers. You just have to believe that you are still there and no one can steal that away from you. It all starts with a small glance, one little Step into understand You not the "You" that People see and want you to be.
It feels like I’ve cut someone off so now I’m realising they never deserved me in the first place and that there’s so much more in life then them
Maybe one day I can put my thoughts into beautiful words
maybe you already are doing so
This makes me like I'm going through a city and through lives. Like watching the life of someone as they fall in love.
I find myself more in these playlists than ever with people or places. Thank you, Helder.
Thank you for the kind words!!
These playlist makes me feel that Life can be pretty good while struggling to do modern physics questions as well
Thank you so much, I wish you all the luck in the world with your future studies!
Lorel is true... jinglebells!😢🎉❤😅🎉😂😢😅😢😂
lmao is everyone solving physics questions here including me?
writing lab reports
and here i am trying to do one last revision before my JEE attempt, though ive known this since the start i chose to acknowledge now that this is not what i want .
this playlist makes me question my back 18 yrs especially last 2 year... as like F. Dostoyevky said; “I swear to you that to think too much is a disease, a real, actual disease.”
This playlist feels like a friend soothing my pain.
or touching your googoo
lmao what!? haha @@raccoon874
Although I don’t have anything to write about my crush, this playlist is and will always be the one I choose as a revising playlist. Thank you for the amazing playlist and keep it up! ❤ It’s really helping me through the upcoming exams 🥹
The Love I had for you led me to do things I never imagined possible- and it is felt still, my Eternal Beloved.
"My dear diary, the day finally became warmer but dirtier because spring is in the air. I planned all my day and was ready to do what i will have to do. From early morning to darker night. If we could imagine that my day is full of entire darkness then the playlist of impressive classic music that i heared today from this channel youtube would be the a blinding ray of sunshine into the cave of everyday life" This playlist made very great.
best classical music channel 💖🌸 I loved it, I'll listen to it every day
Thank you so much for listening! Currently working on a new list to hopefully upload soon! ❤️
this is my absolute favorite one of these videos! I love the music and the overall aesthetic of it. I don't know how many times I've come back and re-listened to this, but, I thank you deeply.
Wow, thank you so much!!
She used to write long letters to me enclosed in old envelopes from advertisements. Those letters and envelopes are some of the things that I hold most dear to me.
I LOVE Medival stuff and this helps me write songs, poems, stories, or just thinking about it
HOLY HELL!! Thank you so much! This playlist is the only one I've found that truly helps me stay calm and focus on my college work with no distractions
Thank you!!
This is wonderful! Really helped transport me to another world away from the stress of reality
Who wants study or relax listening to witchy music, I invite to join my channell
Listening to this while reading "tout le bleu du ciel" 🤧🥺💘j it's so soothing,i love it
god i never finished that book...
The tree shed it's another leaf as a peaceful wind pass by. Autumn show us the beauty of letting go. Choosing a spot in the library where no one often visits, you used to sat beside a window and love writing the love letters to yourself because of being introvert, you don't have anyone to write a letter to, you chose to admire yourself with the words you wanted to listen from someone else, you like being alone but never know why there was a hidden longing for something. Being transferred to a new boarding school and getting along with new teachers was kind of tough but the most scary thing happened to you was creepy voices, sometines in your dormitory, you can heard the laughing sound of a child. Sometimes at evening, you can heard a piano which surprisingly no one in the hostel plays. Sometimes you heard the crying voices of a child. It was all strange, it's like only you can heard it. To deal with the matter you started to find a book in the library which may have answer of your question. You had a professor who teaches about physcic things and astral world. Once he mentioned the name of a book which he himself wrote, no one actually pay much attention to his class because they think it's most about thesis and thesis only. You were finding that book standing on an old chair, going through the name of every book. "Urban legends, urban legends, urban legends" you were continuesly murmuring. Suddenly the chair lost the balanced and you fall down but suddenly your eyes came across a green leather book, urban legend it reads. you fastly leafed through the pages to find a topic in which the cause of listening strange voices were discussed. When you finally found the page, you got shiver down to your spine. It was saying that, the voices you listen may be of someone you know but is no more in the world or it could be because you unconsciously connect yourself to astral energies. You breath out a deep sigh. Don't know what to do and think. You were thinking about this so much that even your dream was very magical and mysteryful. Possibly all the real voices you heard , your mind incorporated them in your dream. Next day When you was combing your hair, some muffling voices were coming from your wardrobe, instantly you turn around and walked towards it. You can't believe, there is a........ (I wrote what came to my mind when I listened this ✨ Edit: i came again, now solving some physics questions, this playlist is providing me such a relief, i was not feeling alright but this tunes had put my mind at ease. Thank you very much Regards.💜)
This was intriguing
Jeez way the end on a cliff hanger lol. Phenomenal writing tho!
Thank you for such a lovely comment and for the support on the playlist! ❤
Loved this 🫶🏾
The moment I first laid eyes on him, it was as if love had enveloped me in its warm embrace. Words can scarcely capture the intensity of that feeling; it's something you'll only understand once you've experienced it yourself. But for me, it was an instant knowing. It's in the way he laughs, so effortlessly contagious, filling the air with joy. His smile is a radiant beacon that illuminates even the darkest corners of my heart. And when he speaks, every word dances with a melody that resonates deeply within me. Every aspect of him, every nuance, feels divinely crafted. I adore the way his big, voluminous curls cascade around his face, framing his stunning eyes. Those eyes, captivating and full of depth, draw me in like a moth to a flame. And when he smiles, revealing those adorable braces, it's as if the whole world lights up with him. In his presence, time seems to stand still, and every moment is painted with love colors. He is my muse, my inspiration, my everything. And with each passing day, my love for him grows stronger, deeper, and more profound.
really soothing, thank you
Glad you enjoyed it!
thank the songs make me feel better for life
And how i love eric's pieces !!❤️
Somehow the first to comment, but I just cant help myself: thank you for all these beautiful playlists, each one fits the theme perfectly and helps me with studying as well as easing my stress at least for some time. Thank you for creating a safe place for those who need rest, feel lost or need time to sort reflect upon themselves, you have enriched and brightened the life of countless, without even being aware of the influence and place you hold in their lives- and ultimately their heart. Thank you for your immeasurable kindness An unknown subscriber
Thank you so much for your kind words! I strive to keep this channel a safe place for everyone to rest and perhaps even share their emotions and thoughts. The first music piece in this video is actually a piece I composed myself by the way :)
@@helderboutensdid you really make this up yourself?? You are very talented!!｡:ﾟ(;´∩`;)ﾟ:｡
@@helderboutens Would you please send me the sheets of this masterpiece?..
@@user-bq8ng2qt8u of course! May I have your email address?
@@helderboutenssorry, did you receive my e-mail or youtube just deleted it?
This is really beautiful...loved this playlist it help me a lot.... Ø:thank you.
Thank you for your lovely comment as well!
Who wants study or relax listening to witchy music, I invite to join my channela
this has been go to playlist for the past 2 weeks
Thank you so much!!
Gather 'round, here come the timestamps: 00:00 Camille's Waltz - Helder Boutens 02:56 Valse de l'Adieu - Eric Christian 05:51 Watching You in the Morning - Waltzin 07:55 Twilight - Holly Jones 09:49 The Scent of Petrichor - Franz Gordon 12:22 Sous l'Ombre du Chêne - Tom Merrall & Antonin Fourrier 15:32 Sonder - Niall Byrne 17:49 Dreamland - Robert Gromotka 20:00 Clair de Lune - Claude Debussy (interpreted here by Ave Maria) 25:26 Stories of the Street - Adam Specter 27:50 Reflection - Jonas Hain 29:58 Rainy Day (solo piano) - Emiliano Branda (only Spotify seems to have this one, and even then it looks like the whole album is not available?) 34:00 Love Poem - Imaginary Poet 36:30 Lei Sogna di Noi - Zeppi 38:30 La Vérité - Mano Vecina 40:58 Golden Moment - De Maynes 43:43 Delusions: III. Délicat avec Passion - Eric Christian 46:31 Breakfast with Chopin - Louis Mercier 48:37 Between my Lines - Brackwhit 50:47 A Letter from Her Majesty - Ophelia Wilde 52:58 Saman - Olin Wils (or Ólafur Arnalds? Are they one and the same? Who knows.) I reckon these should be correct, however do let me know if not! Also taking this opportunity to tell you to be kind to yourself and to treasure the little things 🌼
tysm!!!!! ^^
Thankyou dear ! ❤❤
@@shivangigautam1112 Happy to help! 💛
@@Tanjiros_right_toe You're welcome 🐣
A week from today is the opening night of my performance as the lead, Maria, in The Sound of Music. This is my first lead, so of course I'm buzzing with excitement and nerves, but I've also been battling the realization that the show will be over soon. I'm writing a personal letter to every single person in my cast and on the production team to show my gratitude. These past few months of working with them have felt like a dream. We are such a close-knit community and I'm going to miss them all dearly. This playlist provides the perfect atmosphere to do my writing and reminisce. :) Thank you.
I had concentration problems till I found this playlist... then it vanished!! Thank you so much ♡
Thank you so much!! I’m happy you enjoyed listening ❤️
Tomorrow is my history exam...this playlist is perfect for preparing
I wish you lots of luck with your exam tomorrow, thank you for listening! ❤️
I wrote a short story while I listened to this… here it is. Night fell over the village, the only visible light being the lamps and candles of townspeople who hadn’t yet gone to bed. As I watched clouds roll over the star covered moonlit sky, a tear fell down my cheek as I sat on the rooftop facing the reality of my situation and looking into the black abyss of night for an answer, a reason why. Eventually, most of the lamps went out and my soft cry had become more intense. What seemed like a milllion years ago, I met a wonderful lady who told me she was Scarlett, she was a time traveler and had met me while exploring what for her was the future. And after a while, I grew fond of her and she did too. I loved her, in fact. When I told tales of her and how desperately I wanted her to stay in the future with me, I was often mocked and laughed at, the townspeople chalked all my tales of her up to me being crazy somehow, but in reality I knew that she was real, Scarlett was real and I loved her, but although Scarlett explored through time, she could never really stay with me, for a reason she never explained, But no matter what I would always head to the rooftop of this one abandoned building and she would always be waiting for me, smiling and ready to tell me all her stories and secrets. I wished with every piece of me that she’d give in and come live in my time forever, but Scarlett refused. But even that wasnt why I was staring into the night sky crying my eyes out tonight, it was because she stopped showing up, and after days of worrying myself sick she left me a note at our meeting spot, explaining how she wouldn’t be returning as she wanted to explore more eras and locations, find the answer for questions that were left unanswered. When I read the last bit of her beautifully handwritten note, I realized she had never felt the same, and no matter what I did, she never noticed how I felt and I couldn’t explain now as she was long gone, I kept the note, and every time I look at it I think about how I never told her how I felt, and how we never said goodbye, and that to her, I was just the friendly man she met while on one of her adventures. So now I sat up top a rooftop, on a stormy night, wondering if Scarlett would ever return, what happened to her after she left, and still looking into the black abyss for the answer to my question, the answer to why she left me all alone with little to no warning. But after all, I meant nothing more to her than a friend you would meet on a vacation, just a stranger who you’d never see again.
I love the story so much, the feeling that you love from your heart and making a stories in your head about her smile and face but there's no feelings from another side or any care when I face this feeling in story I feel like I touch it and make my heart broken, I know it just a story but the feelings there was a true for some people in the world
@@ghadeeralkhateeb7808 I actually rewrote this an made it better, should I post it?
@@starwafflez YESS!
In this entire vastness of the universe, yes, your existence matters. So chin up soldier.
Listening while reading “ Believe me “ , I loved ✨
OMG SHATTER ME IS THE BEST BOOK SERIES IVE EVER READ 😢😢😢
OMG SHATTER ME IS THE BEST BOOK SERIES IVE EVER READ 😢😢😢
i wish i had someone to write me physical love letters
Oh I LIKE THIS
I wrote this just now while listening to this playlist. I havent shared much of my writings for the past year because im compiling it into a book. But i wanted to share with everyone 🫶🏻 The ends will always be loose. Even if i tried to tie it up with the tightest of sailors knots, or wrap it in the nicest wrapping paper and bows. It will always come undone. And so long as it comes undone So long as my heart cries for you there will always be more poems Like the flowers budding in the dawn of spring. everywhere I turn, you will continue to be one of my muses. The inspiration will always flow with the beat of my heart. But for now, this is where this book will end. Just know my dear, not a day goes by that I don't cry. And I don't care if that's not what you would have wanted. It's ok that I miss you Your jokes Your empathy Your hugs Your love. I'll stop missing you when I see you again, some sunny day.
Beautifully written, thanks for sharing!!
two drops of water fell from the sky on an electric wire sparking my eye reciting Ghalib’s ghazals each couplet a sigh they chased one another i don’t know why dripping wire to wire each leap a silent cry until they fell to the earth and grew into a single butterfly . . somewhere else it rained as two drops of water fell from one I
this is so beautiful
@@weaversong7021 thank you!
just so clever that they named this season as fall, but if it had to be a person you'd be the best autumn of all.
this is wonderful..last night I found your channel and was pleasantly surprised. I spent the whole night reading and fell asleep at 6🐡.. thanks for your playlists, it's very nice to listen to! I wish you and your channel good luck💓
Thank you so much!! I'm really happy you enjoyed the playlists and could read to them!!
tysm for this, i was so into studying that i didnt even realise that it got finished.
Thank you for listening!!
Crumbs. The crumbs in my bed, Poking and proding at my skin despite brushing them away. I know what must be done, Simple in solution but i cant. I'll miss them. The meal they came from, The comfort of when i ate it, The ignorance of eating sloppily allowing them to join me in bed. They scratch and pinch my skin no matter how my body moves to avoid them. I crush them smaller and smaller till they coat my sheets, Enough. In raged ripping blankets and pillows from the bed. I grip the sheet tight, pull it from the mattress and allow for the crumbs to fall to the floor. Remake the bed, there are no more crumbs. I can sleep peacefully without poking proding scratching and pinching. Yet when i leave my bed they stick to the soles of my feet keeping me company.
Well done
To everyone who's studying with this music: Checklist: • A bottle of water, at least 1liter. Your brain works better if it has enough water and drinking helps you to concentrate • Your charger. You sometimes don't even notice that your device's battery is going down, so better have it plugged in all the time • Your headphones. You will be able to focus more with headphones, because it blocks background noises. Also, if it's a late night study session, you won't wake up anyone • a tea or coffee. Coffee keeps you awake, green or black tea can make you feel more awake as well. • Your study/work stuff: your laptop/tablet/phone , a few pens, paper or whatever you need. •Anything else you could need, what about a heat pad, a blanket, a good lamp, your pet so you have a study buddy Reminder: After an hour, you should stand up and walk a bit around. Better stop the music or put on different music for the break. Open your window, even if it's cold outside. Fresh air will make it better, trust me. You could also lay your head down on your desk for ten minutes and listen to a podcast. Or, if you have to read a book, listen to the audiobook of it. You can also listen to the audiobook while doing another thing, that's even better than listening to music while reading the book. I hope y'all had a good day, if not, that's okay too. Remember to take care of yourself and try to get some sleep tonight DISCLAMER: I did not create this, I found it on other playlists. I still wanna help people out and get them through any stress (:
lovely !
Thank you so much!!
This heavily reminds me of the carnival series. ❤
Almonds are here or throat lozenges and is true love here like trying to see into the fog.
You are an entire lifetime, drifting just beyond the reach of my most daring, most foolish finger. Darling, we are not in Love; Not together.
I can listen to this for a long time without getting bored :')
Thank you so much!
life sometimes has strange, unexpected, ways of letting you meet someone. So random that it feels like the universe is very much testing you. Amongst them all, the one I despise the most is Right People Wrong Timing. There's nothing you can do except imagine how things would have gone if it weren't now, not now when there isn't room for them to let themselves in. It's truly hard to keep a nice of memory of these kind of encounters as your heart aches of something that never happened, solely because of timing.
I just read all the comments lol, and i can say that this playlist is the best one i've heard so far.
Wow, thank you!!
"Dark and quiet music has the power to touch the depths of our souls, like a gentle whisper in a silent night." - Unknown
Unrelated to the title - I was searching for instrumental playlists to play while doing my homework. I enjoy them because they make me feel like Featherstonhaugh from Maurice (1987). Lo and behold, that is the EXACT scene and character you chose for the thumbnail!! It’s a sign. Lol.
I suppose it must've been a sign indeed!
No love letters here, but I’m starting an online Librarian course. So I guess I’ll write a love letter to libraries. 🥰 💛📚📖✨
Lovely moment
Thank you for supporting!! ❤️
I miss you in the same way the sun and moon miss each other but never fully in the presence of one another I yearn for your eyes, those eyes, damn those eyes Your touch, soft skin, please just allow me to wrap myself up within every inch of your body, your soul Like the sun I burn for you And just like moon I am magnetized by your existence I see you in my future, as I look in your eyes I see us In this moment I need you always, just stay close Please I won’t ever forget what we have shared, one of kind You and me Tu y yo Always and forever Siempre y para siempre -to my baba. I love you so much and you cross my mind every moment of the day, you have my heart in yours even from a distance I know we are tethered in unexplainable ways
“Every letter unsent, is simply a page ripped out of the novel about you in my mind.” - Anonymous
this comment section is my theraphy ❤
when is it gonna be my turn? when will someone buy me flowers? when will someone take my hand and lead me to dance in the rain? when will someone smile when I'm laughing just because they like the sound of it? when will someone write a poem about me? when will someo love me? like truly love me
Im currently wrapping up a poetry book. And i just love to see all the poetic writers in the comments
One wonders if your writing them to one or to many? If only in my imagination that had all been real, that my strength could hold that feeling in that moment in the highest highs, the lowest lows. Magnetic energies dictate flow, infinite possibilities neither here nor there. The movement of the Tibetan prayer wheel flailing back and forth through time. Fleeting moments catching the truth of loves demise.
In times of adversity, it's easy to feel like giving up and throwing in the towel. However, it's important to remember that challenges and setbacks are an inevitable part of life's journey. Instead of allowing them to defeat you, use them as opportunities for growth and self-improvement. Embrace the lessons they teach you, and allow them to make you stronger and more resilient. Remember, you have the power to overcome any obstacle that comes your way. With determination, perseverance, and a positive mindset, you can achieve greatness beyond your wildest dreams.
[Turkish Ver] Geceler geçer kokun kalır yastığımda Sahi en son ne zaman koydun o güzel kırmızı saçlarını yastığıma? Özlüyorum, öylesine özlüyorum anlatamam. Birçok göz gördüm ömrü hayatım boyunca, Bir tek senin gözlerin hatırlattı bana o çok sevdiğim deniz kokusunu. Dalgalar çığlık atarken kulaklarım duymuyordu. Öyle odaklanamıyordum ki senden başka şeye. Hele seninle o kumlarda yürürken sen hariç her şey yok oluyordu dünyamda. Sahi benim dünyamda senden başka ne vardı? Sahi sen benim dünyam değil de neyimdin? Sesini bile duyamamak beni kırmıyordu, sesini duymama izin vermemendi benim derdim. Sahi ben neydim sensiz? Ne anlamı vardı adımdaki a harfinin senin dudaklarından duyulmadıktan sonra. Kendimi hapsederdim ben sadece senin içinde olduğun düşüncelerime. Kendimi hapsederdim ben eğer seni göremeyeceksem ben. Kendimi hapsederdim ben... ...sen istesen. Hiç tanımadın beni. Tanıdıysan da tanımadın. Kırmızı saçlarına her dokunduğumda ya kelebeklerin ateşte yandığı gibi yanarsa diye korktum. Kelebek gider hep ateşe, sıcağa, onu öldürecek olana aşık olurdu. Mumun etrafında dönerken vücudu kavrulur tutkusundan uzaklaşamazdı. Muma yaklaştıkça yanar, ölürdü. Mumda kendini suçlar kendini eritirdi. İki aşık yine yok olurdu. Dedim ki ya yok olursak? Ya birbirimize doyamadan gidersek? Ki doymamız imkansızdı. Sahi aşıklar birbirlerine doyabilir miydi? Hayır eğer doyarlarsa bitmişti ortada aşık olamazdı. Benim bildiğim hissettiğim aşk yok olamazdı. O yüzden korktum ya ölümüm senin yok oluşuna sebep olursa diye. Kaçtım. Kal demedin. Arkama baktım. Geri bakmadın. Sana döndüm ve yanına geri geldim. Elini tuttum. Tutmadın. Olsun, belki budur senin için olması gereken. Belki de gerçekten biz bir olmamalıyız, olamayız. Olsun, ben seni hep seveceğim. Saçma bir heyecan değil bende ki. Bendeki nefes. Seninle alınan, seninle verilen bir nefes. Şimdi biliyorsun hislerimi, tanıyorsun beni artık. Geleceksen gelme, gelmeyeceksen gel. İnan istedin diye fikirlerinde dahil dünyaları bile değiştiririm. Sadece gel benim ol. Ben zaten seninim... Ben zaten seninim... Ben zaten senim... [English Ver] The nights pass, your scent remains on my pillow When was the last time you put those beautiful red hairs of yours on my pillow? I miss you, I miss you so much I can't explain. I have seen many eyes throughout my life, Only your eyes reminded me of the smell of the sea that I love so much. While the waves were screaming, my ears couldn't hear them. I couldn't focus on anything but you. Especially when I was walking on those sands with you, everything was disappearing in my world except you. Really, what else was there in my world besides you? Really, what were you if not my world? Not even being able to hear your voice didn't hurt me, My problem was that you didn't let me hear your voice. Really, what was I without you? What was the meaning of the letter a in my name if it wasn't heard from your lips? I would imprison myself in my thoughts that only had you in them. I would imprison myself if I couldn't see you. I would imprison myself... ...if you wish. You never knew me. Even if you recognized it, you didn't recognize it. Every time I touched your red hair, I was afraid that it would burn like butterflies burn on fire. The butterfly always fell in love with fire, heat, and the one who would kill it. While it was spinning around the candle, it body was scorching and it couldn't move away from it passion. As the butterfly approached the candle, it would burn and die. The candle would blame himself and melt by itself Two lovers would perish again. I said what if we perish? What if we leave without having enough of each other? It was impossible for us to get enough. Could lovers really get enough of each other? No, if they got enough, it was over, he couldn't fall in love. The love I knew and felt could not disappear. That's why I was afraid that my death would cause your destruction. I ran away. You didn't say stay. I looked behind me. You didn't look back. I turned to you and came back to you. I held his hand. You didn't catch it. Okay, maybe this is what should happen for you. Maybe we really shouldn't be one, we can't be. No matter, I will always love you. It's not a ridiculous excitement for me. My breath. A breath taken with you, a breath exhaled with you. Now you know my feelings, you know me now. If you're going to come, don't come, if you're not coming, come. Believe me, I can even change the world, including your ideas, if you want. Just come be mine I'm yours already... I'm already yours... I am already you...
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I'm writing a love letter to my younger self who wanted to be a doctor. It starts like "Thank you, your expactations have ruined my life. I wanna sleep at weekends and maybe watch Succession for a hundred times but I have to study cause we have to most hard exams in here. -Also I hate biochemistry but you can still love chemistry and biology in a seperated way, they're harmless... until they unite."
if the solarstorm DOES happen this gonna be us soon
I loved her with all my strangth, yeah, I loved. And even she no longer love me as I still love her, I will love her for the rest of my live, don't matter how long I will live, I'm sure that I will lover her.
To whom I shall love dearly, be prepared…
this helps me romanticize studying for chemistry
Just a few months ago I decided to write a “confession” letter to my crush, but never directly say that “I like you” in the letter. I originally thought the letter would send a message of encouragement and admiration, but in the end I realized my feelings still slipped through. Some might say I was a fool, others might celebrate me as a warrior. A part of me regrets deeply of what I decided to do (as it wasn’t wise because I was not ready for a relationship) but another part of me perhaps selfishly congratulates myself because of the attention I’ve gain from him. I feel horrible for the second part… Oh, the foolish things feelings cause us to do. “I just want to be loved.” “That’s not the same thing as loving.” -Little Women After the confession letter, every time I glance toward his way, his eyes seemed already ready to meet mine. Every eye contact felt more intimate than any hand holdings. Something about his eyes… the depth of them… the way they changed-turned soft and almost vulnerable for me. Of course, this could all be my imaginations, but I could have sworn, there was something special about our eye contact compared to our usual social ones. This might sound terribly strange, but I never spoke more than two words to him because of our language barrier, but somehow I already fell in love with who he is… I pray that it’s not just a version that I’ve created in my mind. But some days I felt the boldness to just say-I loved him. Maybe not with the best love that I should have (the selfless kind), but I adored him for who he is. If any of you actually took the time to read a piece of my heart here, I thank you and ask that you treat it kindly please. ❤ we all have this corner of our heart that seemed so intimate and yet beautiful at the same time.
17:50
ive been longing to find the name of the song at 36:51 because it has inspired me so much and let my inner creativity flow, and nostalgia coming back to me even if i before thought those memories were pain and were only there to leave me scarred, but as i grew up, i realized the past is a mixture of your bad and good times of life, creating memories just for you to look back at how your life has been when the times are finally gone..
Hi! It's called lei sogna di noi, by Zeppi.
@@yugenalgiz Thank you soo much!!!!
@@mirabelmadrigal6130 Happy to help 💛
This is the last time I'm writing about you never thought I would say this but it is true now I know that If I die You wont be the one standing in a black tux, with flowers counting on us with the tears in your eye Now your eyes don't glisten when they see me so embark on my presence as I set our promises free for you, we weren't even a thing but for me, you were who my heart had crowned as the king here I am standing in the empty hallways with a glass of whiskey because I imagined you as a guy who would promise to keep me happy even in my late fifties I pity myself for letting you become my weakness because now when you're not here, the people I told you about look at me with cheapness no, I don't think missing you will ever end because even today, your eyes and your lips are something I cannot comprehend you've hurt me so much that even my enemies asked me, 'Are you okay, love?' You made me suffer so much that my brain and heart started war but for everyone else looking at me, I turned out to be the whore at last, i would just say that even if we never end up talking again I would still fight against the entire world if anyone dared to called you insane but just know that this might not be the final goodbye because even when my tears had dried up you gave me one more reason to cry -J
me encanta
To the guy that didnt wanna ruin it, I guess by speaking to me: You have made me feel very flustered and happy once I realised what you meant, my friend had to explain it to me. I truly wish however, that you ruin it one day, or your “wingman“ that couldve destroyed something that only laid in your imagination, or even myself. Because knowing that you liked the look of me, even though you and I we’re total strangers, made me feel better than I have ever felt. I really wanna talk with you one day.
A broken heart man. "My dear Elizabeth, i told i love you right? I wanted to you be mine forever, but you aren't along with me anymore, oh my dear... I loved you so! Why did you did that with me?! This make me go into peaces, just littles and broken peaces, you must lived... You must be alive. But now you're dead, and is all your fault... Or mine. From your love; Derick J."
dear people, i wish you all love, happiness and peace in your lives. if i meet this special person in summer, i’ll come back here as soon as possible.
I am sending luck to find this desired person of yours in summer🍀🙏😊
@@melodyal3357 thank you! stay safe❤️
@@chocolateslanka01 😊😉🙏🍀💛
what genre of music is this? I found a new interest 🤎🤍
So, There is this guy whom i have known for almost 3 years now , he is an army brat and i feel like he hates me because we practically had an argument in the first week of our session we were in grade 9th back then and he didn't have any friends back then , and now he thinks that i hate him to but ohh I wish someone could tell him how I feel when he looks at me even for a second, it feels oddly weird something which i have never felt , i don't know why but whenever i look at him and find him laughing at what his friend said or playing basketball ( which he is really good it) this song summertime sadness i feel like it starts playing , knowing the fact that i will be leaving soon and then he will just be in my memories, i soo wish i could tell him how he much he means and how he is always there in every poem i write , i might deny the fact that my poems aren't towards anyone but i know deep down how well i describe him in my poems and quotes . This thing shocks me quite a bit that we have been classmates for 3 years and yet we never even shared a word with eachother even when the teacher once assigned us a task together we both did it and cordinate without even sharing a word with each other (me because i was too shy to do so and him , well i dont know..) , i sometimes soo wish i could tell him that all those paintings were about him , but i guess i can never because i messed up in the very beginning even befor we could become friends, i soo wish that i could know what he thinks about me I SWEAR ONE-SIDED LOVE IS THE MOST PAINFUL
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12:22 27:51 38:34
What a man I was.
26:10 best part
What song is it
fav parts : 17:51 28:08 25:43 30:00
A certain amnesia, I think, has fell upon me You, then before I cannot recite Aimlessly navigating since my first sight on you Before I never been in love Before I never met you You have shown me a new Perhaps never again
great playlist!! does anyone know the title of the piece that plays at 20:02 ? thanks!
Clair de lune by Debussy
how i wish i was the muse, yet i am not the poet, the artist, nor the composer.
Sometimes I feel like I will never receive back all the love I share. I want to experience romance, I would be so caring and loving. I want to love someone, for that someone to love me back. I don't know what i'm doing wrong, I am genuinely caring and nice to others. I understand that I don't need love to live but wouldn't it be nice to be loved back?
I wish something...........cometrue