It Took Neal Brennan 18 Months to Recover From His DMT Trip
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JRE #2135 w/Neal Brennan
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Neal looks like it would take him 18 months to recover from 3 push-ups.
Roasted
😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
you probably look like it would take you 3 seconds to recover from hitting your wife
😂😂😂
Lmfao nice
Psilocybin mushrooms saved my life honestly. They helped me see the pure beauty in life, and made me realize how dumb it would be to take myself out.
I've been looking to try some recently, but I can't find anywhere to get them, anyone?
doc.jeanne is your guy. Got all kinds of psychedelics stuff. Guided me through my first ever experience
Is on Instgram?
Yessss
I just had my first experience with golden teachers, it was really great! I loved it.
I had a psychedelic experience once that sent me to eternity and meeting the creator. My ego dissolved yet I was physically terrified. It was so magical and so full of love, changed my life for good. In the most positive way possible.
Everybody is struggling with mental health and could benefit from careful therapeutic use of substances like these. Wanna try, but keep being told I can't do it alone for the first time.
I do respect and believe in psychedelics as treatment, yet I’m reluctant about using them personally. Not sure about how “good” it may do to someone
Since I tired psychedelics for the first time, I’ve been trying to describe the experience to others so there can try it as well, but i couldn’t find the right words to describe it.
I find it funny if there's any psychedelic therapy there online
Of course , he is dr.martyshroom. Psychedelic vision is reality to me and always was".
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporessss I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporessss
This is a guy you meet at the bar, and you get into a really deep conversation that you can’t politely remove yourself from.
I 100 percent feel attacked by this comment….that is EXACTLY who I am….shit
Na not really. Because you are on here listening to him. What would u rather watch? Love Island?
Lmaooooo
Ironic that you're willingly listening to it
@@thewildrangers5070 maybe he made the comment and stopped watching the video. In person some people have a hard time walking away from a conversation, especially if the other person is doing most of the talking.
For anyone considering their first psychedelic trip, PLEASE don't let shitty friends talk you into doing something insane, like taking 5 or more grams of shrooms. These substances are no joke, so start small. If you are the shitty friend doing this to others, please stop.
Start small? How about not starting at all? You can trigger serious conditions taking these substances. Conditions like HPPD
Start with alot
I ate 2.5 grams of shrooms today. Life altering experience (for the better)
@@tristarperfecta1061 if you want to end up like this ^^
This. I think its best for people to dip their toes to see if its for them
The “aimed for god but missed the stop” part is pretty on point. Most of my early trips were spiritual in nature / I felt guided, most of the later ones were exactly like he described.
This resonates with me quite a bit. Especially about the OS update part. Thank you!
Neal: "I understood what 700,000 years felt like. Joe: "ok, but what was like the negative aspect?"
Nice likes
Jamie why'd I have this guy on again? I have to describe his own trips for him
based
Lmao
700,000 years isnt that long as far as the universe is concerned. If he star gazed and realised what billions of years felt like i would be concerned. But ofcourse the hallucinations u get from the drugs arent real so its fine
I don’t understand all the hate here. First time I’ve encountered this guy. He’s simply sharing his experiences. I found it very interesting and he seems nice.
He’s got a pretty pretentious and self absorbed way of explaining his own experiences. That’s what people don’t like.
People project. A lot. Meaning things they dislike in themselves, they are irritated when witnessing in others. I see no reason to hate him. I dislike sensitive people and I'm extremely sensitive bordering not being able to deal with the world. So...
You can’t say anything bad about psychedelics online or you’re just “weak minded”. That’s what I think it’s coming from lol
@@johnmiller4895 ahhh I see. You might be right there!
He’s a self absorbed dusche which explains why he and other like him think the constant need to take so many different is the answer to unhappiness
That’s so funny but true when Neal says he could innerstand how old the mountains he was looking at were. I’ve had a similar experience where a thought creeped in that the form of mountains are just waves suspended in time. The form of things becomes more profound and universal and it makes you question everything you see with new eyes which can be both liberating and also alienating
Very alienating. I had a spiritual intense 6 day trip (I know crazy) 8 fucking years ago and I’m still twisted I can never unsee everything
Now I feel permanently in another or other realms and I have no true identity
Mountains also get pulled by the moon. They are wave like!
@Bizarrebarbie - we need more details!
Ego death is a rough pill to swallow for people that only think of their "mental health" for 20 houts a day.
I've heard of Ego Death, but i've never seen anybody without an ego.
The hardest thing about taking DMT or wearing barefoot shoes is resisting the urge to tell others about it
Thats with everything. Look at the zyn weirdos who push it on non nicotine users lol
Dude's a Fed
I don’t understand that though, it’s an experience not a lot of people have, I’m so interested in their stories lol. But thats just me
No bro, they tell us all the time. We have to hear this shit in mental institutions all across America
Hahaha man the barefoot shoes thing is real 😂😂😂
When he said "I would have killed myself but I knew I would be going into more of it." I've had that exact thing happen before on a really intense acid trip. I took too much and went way too far into that world and I thought I was never coming out of it and I actually considered offing myself as a solution but then was convinced that if I did that I would still be tripping.
Felt the exact same way many times! 800ug trips are all fun and games till suddenly it ain’t 😅 fucked my brain for a solid year and a half, finally feel like I’m back to normal but still not the same. I used to get visuals just staring at something for 10 seconds and my internal dialogue/voices were gettin freaky.. glad that’s stopped. I was in a bad psychosis for quite a while
i’ve felt this way after a shroom trip, i felt like i became too aware of everything around me. my mind became too open & it wasn’t something i was prepared for i guess. it scared me & i got anxiety because i felt like the shrooms fucked me up permanently so i had thoughts of ending myself.. it took me a couple of months to accept it & fully recover from that mindset.
I had a similar experience after the trip. I was fine the next day but gradually over the next 6 months or so I started disassociating more and more. And then I had a bad reaction to the COVID vaccine which triggered a really bad disassociation over a couple of weeks. There was one particular day where I felt like I was on an acid trip when I was completely sober. It's like I became acutely aware that everything is made of tiny molecules and atoms and it was like I could see that in everything and it became I sensory overload. I really thought I was going legitimately insane and was pretty scared for a bit.
mushrooms showed me a glimpse of what i thought was the afterlife & it seemed like a pleasant ocean of infinite energy, so i'm not afraid of death. i am however afraid of suicide because of the catholic idea of going to Hell, which becomes a paradox -- when I want to escape the Hell of life by suicide I can't because I'll end up in Eternal Hell. I guess that's a good move by the Catholics because it's kept me alive & life is not eternal Hell but fluctuates. better than Eternal
Mine was actually just doing a small amount of shrroms after a heavy roll on MDMA that night, it’s so hard to describe but that line stuck with me too, haha
Totally felt and understood the come and go and the flashbacks.. took me about 6 months to come back. Microdosing mushrooms helped bring me back!
Happened to me when I took too much acid far too young. Took years to come back to this plane of existence… Hallucinogen Persisting Perception Disorder (HPPD), felt like the acid never wore off and if I smoked weed at all it would send me to other dimensions. Profound deep thoughts would flood my mind and I was constantly aware of the “big picture”. Sounds cool but it was honestly very debilitating and hard to deal with, as a teen nonetheless. Glad I grew out of it and found my flow again.
its not a disorder lol it literally opens up different neurological pathways in your brain
Amen ❤🎉❤welcome back no to drugs ❤🎉❤
How long did it take you to recover? Do you have any lasting side effects?
Same exact thing happened to me. I still struggle 30 years later. Was there anything you did to help you recover.... anything you took, or did you stop taking everything?
Taking psychedelics as a teen is fucking stupid.
No more drugs for me. No more alcohol for me. The mind is fragile.
Amen. Same
I wish I knew that before I destroyed my pancreas
@@FluxFreemandon’t you mean liver? Pancreas is for sugar and shit
Sober since 08/2013 and best decision I ever made.
Dmt is in your brain already. It’s produced by the brain.
last thing. No one benifits from constantly thinking about themselves. That is a great way to be misarable.
Facts
I've been having interesting conversations with myself for the past 2 years and I approve what you said brother
So true man
@@tbcgbvcb*interesting is definitely one way to look at the conversations I have with myself lol
"I don't believe that one should devote his life to morbid self-attention. I believe that someone should become a person like other people." - Travis Bickle, Taxi Driver.
Psychedelics completely derailed my life. 12 years on and of with 6 long psychotic episodes. It's scary to see so many people recommending dmt or shrooms. They have no idea what kind of damage these substances can do. Don't go down the rabbithole of psychedelics. Life is special as is. Appreciate soberness.
*I'll refer you to this mycologist who has been my guide on my journey on DMT,dude also got all kinds of psychedelic stuffs in his store and ship discreetly to any location*
They're on telegram or Instagram as,
@PHARMCLAN
I believe the reason people push psychedelics like they do is that one coping mechanism that a lot of people use after an intense psychedelic experience is to try to convince themselves and everyone else that they aren’t on the verge of a psychotic break. It gets a lot of people through that but it can also drag a lot of people into that same struggle.
Thank you for sharing. If at some point you end up writing a little more about what happened to you, I'd be very eager to read it. Best wishes.
I’m always fascinated by these dmt stories
They’re true.
Yup. The more you learn the more you realise we know nothing. Literally nothing... But that's ok too.
Ace many ppl all report seeing machine elves or dmt jesters. This is not a coincidence. When you do DMT you access yourself to the spirit & can communicate with demons. Just like the shamans of old did.
@@adamwindle2572 I had the same experience. Watching Jeopardy.
Unless you meditate, are serious about self betterment, are deeply curious about the nature of reality and consciousness, and have a high level of self awareness and the ability to accept things and not react emotionally stay the fuck away from psychedelics. It is not for fun nor is it a way to skip the hard work it takes to spiritually progress. It is a powerful tool that will bring any issues in your life or things you have suppressed to the forefront and will make you face them. Most people who have bad trips is because they weren’t ready to face those things and resisted instead of accepted. New perspectives can be challenging for some people.
Thank you for this comment 👍🏼
Thank you👌
This is the most grounded comment on the video.
thank you!
Yess ! Very well said 👏🏼💯💯
I took DMT once, it was BY FAR the most powerful psychedelic experience of my life. LSD times a million, and I went there and back within about 20 minutes. After seeing that place once, I never need to go back there. ZERO desire to do it again.
That place melted your brain?
What was it like
Terrifying
Do you think it was hell? From what I’ve heard, that place is timeless and infinitely more overstimulating than this reality.
Don’t scare people away. Also don’t hold yourself back. Not all trips are like that.
I personally really look forward to Neils updates and find it fascinating
This is kind of what I go through without the trip first... And the only thing that helps me out this moment... Is constantly making music.... 🥀🥀🥀🌹🥀🥀🥀
When Neal meets with friend, he greets them with: “Hey, how am I?”
Lol I don’t get why this guy is always in the edge of the cliff talking himself out of jumping. I guess he really is just so stuck in his own head. Thanks for the laugh
I am you
We are all one energy, divided into fractals experiencing ourselves.
😂
😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 .
Good to see that some of the negative sides of psychedelics get attention as well. People often think about psychedelics as something that can only help you and increase your knowledge. However, a lot of people don't realize that a psychedelic trip can f*ck you up as well. In very bad cases, forever.
Thats no the psychedelics problem, thats on the users frame of mind. Anything can be negative if you approach it from a negative position. If you actually look at any moment from a positive perspective, then you will have a positive experience. You get back what you put out. Its why happy go lucky people always luck in, because they are maintaining a positive mind frame regardless of the moment they are in. Reality is completely subjective.
@@D1str1ctno , it’s not promised, saying “you will” is not productive for the conversation , whatever side ur on
@@uranussmasher what do you mean its not promised? What isnt promised?
@@D1str1ctI think he means that if you start from a positive perspective, you won’t necessarily have a positive experience, which is completely true. It’s a good rule of thumb that having a positive outlook leads to good things, but it isn’t certain. Life would be extremely boring if that was the case.
@@D1str1ctnah bro i used to say this same shit tripped probably 60 time plus and all it took was that one trip and it fucked with me for months. I had intense anxiety. Every waking moment. I said all that to say that you can definitely have lasting negative effects from psychedelics. You don’t think i tried the ol “just go to your happy place trick” 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
I got some insane ecstasy back in the early 2000s and I felt my brain unlock. I was thinking at a broader scoup than i ever had before. It was like something unlocked in my head. It probably lasted a couple months. I chased that feeling for years after to no avail. Ended up killing way too much of my short term memory and going broke.
Love these stories and I believe them.. I’ve had a burning bush moment now a few times in my life and each one changed the core of who I am .. I kinda can relate to what he is talking about… but then again I don’t if it’s healthy this side of the curtain to hang out on the other side for too long .. but who knows … we are deeply loved though.
I have too many real world responsibilities to attempt any of this shit
Lol I was thinking the same thing.
Same
Sucks to be you
You guys could only be talking about kids. A babysitter works
@TheGfesg some weirdos prefer keeping their sanity
This dude always going through something!
Aren't we all doe ??
Yep! More not funny guys using the now JRE as free advertising.
.. over and over ..
We all are
@@digitalsamurai42 that’s actually a fact
Congratulations Neil. You are officially a multidimensional human being. You're describing most days of my life since 2005. No DMT or Ayahuasca necessary. It often felt like being on the verge of a psychotic episode in the beginning, although it's rare these days.
As much as I enjoy DMT, I’ve had numerous trips where it took me days to months to recover from it. There’s parts of my psyche that never came back and something else came back in its place. There’s 100% permanent psychological scaring and certain sensory stimuli and thoughts that will trigger aspects of past trip experiences to come up again- and they’re not always pleasant. It feels as if I’ve been cosmically and interdimentionally raped. That being said, you’ll never make any progress in life without taking risks. Creatively, DMT has helped me and continues to be a positive influence in my life. Have a nice trip and see you on the other side!
Dmt an other psychs are easily accessible from this psych store i cop from. They’re super reliable an ship discreetly locally an overseas
They’re also accessible over telegram & instagram as
*@Mycoteyri7_ ##*
Yes, it's called demonic possession.
The most important thing after trips in general. To change something. Behaviors, how you walk trough live. If not it was just a experience. And yes you‘re absolutely right, if you not taking risk and just play safe, you will not make much progress.
I just listened to that whole testimony. It sounded like I was listening to a stroke victim. I think I'll just stick to my 2 cups of coffee.
It makes more sense if you've been there. Hard to explain things like that with just words, it's more of a feeling.
Yep. Cool good for you. Stay boring. this guy is half responsible for chappelles show and is a touring comedian on rogan. I’m sure he will be really upset that someone as exciting as you didn’t like what he said. or anyone for that matter
@@chadgrovlol but ironically you seem kinda upset about their comment. this stuff isn’t for everyone, and if they already appreciate their life and feel no need to “look behind the veil”… that’s okay. why use insults like “boring”?
he says he can experience "time a lot more". wow. what plebs we are. I wish I could get out of my entropy proof box too. what a lucky guy.
@@chadgrov And what are you responsible for? Being a boring nobody on KZhead? You're not this guy. Taking DMT doesn't make you this guy or make you not boring.
Joe: “Everyone should try DMT … oh wait. There’s this dude…..”. 😅
The best part is half of this comment section understands what he said and knows it would not be worth the risk, the other half is trying to put him down so they can feel good about themselves for taking that risk. Just a little microcosm of most people in one group 😄
@@aclaylambisabirdman6324 What's your take?
Hey, you can still blast off from the vape.
Joe, tell me what LSD feels like, I swear I did it, just want you to tell me
he’s a jackass
Thanks for sharing Neal, you're the first person I hear talking about this kind of experience and I can relate. Good luck to humanity and to nature. We are in this together (saying this loudly helps me calm my mind)!
This stuff gets you away from the truth. Wake up. Your in Satans Matrix, Jesus is real and the world wants to do everything to convince you not to follow him. THINK ABOUT IT IM NOT WRONG. Wake up!!!!
While i truly don't want to disquiet your mind, we are certainly not in this together at all. I've been trying to get together with people, actually trying, and it isn't working at all. We are against each other. Of course complete indifference is the norm, thankfully. Most people are very alone, especially now. We pretend we're together through illusions, like this video of two people talking who don't know or care who you and i are. It would be better if we stopped pretending things were real that are not. And examining our own navels, as my grandma used to say. We're almost entirely neglecting what's real and what could exist.
I live in the state hes saying he had to come back from. It's odd to think that some folks find it overwhelming. I greatly enjoy the expanded awareness.
*[Mycoteyri7]* «« is a psych store that Dispense Mdma, ket, Lsd, dmt, 2cb, shrooms, exotics an other psychs safely 2 ur location. Been coping for like a year now, Very reliable an ship discreetly anywhere
They’re also accessible through telegram & instagram
Some people are 1000x more sensitive to foreign substances
I agree and am one of those people. I attended 32 Dead Shows in the late 80s and early 90s but have never done hallucinogens. Good thing , because it turns out that I’m on the Autism Spectrum … just found out at 47 years old. 😅
I think it's much simpler than that I think he's on the Joe Rogan show and he needs a great story
@@skeetlejuice522hahaha there's that too
apperently some people are 10,000 times more sensitive
Its not actually foreign. Its in our pineal gland.
It took me 18 months to recover from Neal's stand up.
😂😂😂
On a similar note, it took me 18 seconds to turn it off
Who's what???
😂
lol 😊
seeing Neal smiling like that is great!
I love his description of his journey, he's great with his words.
*I'll refer you to this mycologist who has been my guide on my journey on DMT,,DMT save me from depression and anxiety....dude also got all kinds of psychedelic stuffs in his store and ship discreetly to any location*
They're on telegram or Instagram as
@PHARMCLAN
This guy makes me happy I only smoked weed during my experimenting days. IMO, no drugs, working hard, eating real whole food, fasting, is the way to go.
Sounds pretty mundane lame and tame
If you added micro-ing mushrooms and yoga to that list you would take it next level.
Yea mushrooms arnt a drug they are a vitamin. If ur happy hey fuck it no need then. Ignorance is bliss but being awakened and still happy is real bliss.
Should have also added save and invest in high quality stocks and yoga/gym.
@@shelbycorzine8674 when you're dialed in and making good decisions, that feeling is better than any drug/ quick fix. However, 10 years ago I would have said the same thing as you. Best wishes.
I’m just going to stick with not doing drugs
It’s very wise to learn from the mistakes of others. Good call!
Good call. No need to cheat, all of the different states of mind can be achieved naturally and without the damage done by high concentrations of chemicals.
Your brain creates this naturally? You will do dmt. Haha as you die.
Me too!
Pfft. Never forget kids .. rehab is for quitters 😂
DMT is the strongest stuff out there you can take! It can be so intense and overwhelming, people really can't prepare themselves for the experience at hand, because is personal and understanding everyone's experience with it can feel like another dimension! Sometimes people can't even explain what they have experienced, because words cannot describe it! DMT pulls you apart, I should say your brain taken to different dimensions all at once, this is why is so overwhelming and difficult to explain, sometimes! Psychonauts like this dude, can talk about it and his personal experience, but can't give you the real picture until you personally go and do it!
Salvia is way more potent...and a real BAD trip.
Not in the same stratosphere
What he explains is what i think daily but sober. I think thats the whole point of life to figure out answers to all those un answered questions, i think it starts within but also ends without
Funny that he mentions forgiveness at the very end of this clip... Forgiveness is the key to everything.
To error is human. To forgive is divine.
Jesus!!!
Joe cant handle the mere suggestion that dmt might not be a great thing lol
Sounds like he just handled all ten minutes of this with just questions. Not sure what you were watching.
It's because it can have such a profoundly beautiful effect that it's sad when people don't have that experience, or at least don't react to the same experience in positive way.
Lol thought the same thing
Glad to hear someone else speak of this type of experience people do have. I did it with shamans and it was pure and ceremonial with intention and prayer but it wrecked me up bad. I was a seasoned tripper with all other psychedelics. Days after I started reliving the trip and having severe panic attacks that required hospitalization and drugs. Took 2 years to recover. Please be careful ❤️❤❤
Yeah man It took me 2 years to recover from a bad weed trip and im still affected to this day with PTSD from the trip i still get triggers of panic attack and its been 5 years.
@@myfruitybeatsparadis3925 did you smoke or eat? I had edibles. Thankfully not a full blown bad trip but definitely an induced panic attack. Rattled me for weeks.
I didn't think anyone else had this, thank you
*I'll refer you to this mycologist who has been my guide on my journey on DMT dude also got, all kinds of psychedelic stuffs in his store and ship discreetly to any location*
They're on telegram or Instagram as
@PHARMCLAN ¿¿
@@mitchellmiguel7847 tried all three cid, shrooms, wait for peak then dmt.. I asked to see the meaning and god said ok, time stops we talked questions answered.. but it changed all my thoughts and ways of thinking for 6 hours peoples faces were shattered, it was 10 years ago haven't tripped since, I have what I call the god complex, all is one..
This story about the DMT-3emo made me follow Neal on every podcast appearance he ever did to follow it.. it's somehow amazing
I used acid too much in highschool and I completely understand where he’s coming from. “What is this?” Where am I?” Who am I? What’s the fuck are emotions and where do they come from within my mind? What’s this ineffable substance that we call consciousness that I cannot escape?” All questions that of which I had never pondered before, it went deeper but this is merely a comment. It took me two years to be relatively back to normal. I continue to this day to be obsessed with knowledge. I also continue to try to understand the breadth and richness of the inner world I experienced back then, during and after those awakening trips. I’ll leave of with this: I remember thinking during the trip that “I will never be the same after this, I am fractured.” I haven’t ever been the same person, but I’m incredibly more wise and intelligent than the child that I was.
I'm not denying the ethereal, divine, spiritual, mystical, and other attributes of your experience and perceptions, but I think some of what you experienced can be explained as neuroplasticity induced by the hallucinogens, and at the time when you were really questioning everything in a fixation beyond the typical philosophic and paradigm altering experience of adolescence and entering adulthood you were most likely experiencing some HPPD from overuse of the substances. There's a fatigue going on in the inhibitory function of a brain to prevent the mind from being purely in a dream or uncontrolled hallucinatory state 24/7 and basically somewhat "grounded". This is relaxed during dreams and similar functionality of relaxing the inhibitory system causes hallucinations to occur when under the influence or under stress or during sensory depravation. In short, what you describe is somewhat scientifically understood from a physiological/neurological standpoint, and also at the very least categorized by a psychological/psychiatric / cognitive scientific perspective. The drugs induce a state of neuroplasticity that allows your brain to rewire to a certain extent, so you technically are different. My suggestion would be to try to look at the positives from your rewiring as a sort of enlightenment and to avoid fixating on any negative outcomes from it. I'm typing this out not just for you but everyone else that might read this and resonate with their own experiences. What has happened has occurred and there's very little chance of going back, but you were also given special perceptual powers that you can utilize to your benefit. If anyone is still experiencing distress or contemplating things as discussed in this interview, seek out help from medical professionals. Find out if HPPD is occurring, or if other conditions are what you are experiencing. There are some treatments and therapies that might work, and talking about it and categorizing it with labels will help in processing the distress.
@@Hexnilium Great comment. Thank you.
same here
This is funny because I recently found out that I'm autistic. I've lived with these questions every second of every day. I ponder the details of everything
@@SabrinaDHenson I think I also came to the conclusion after this
Great 👍 content.. love hearing different peoples perspectives on these topics
*I'll refer you to this mycologist who has been my guide on my journey on DMT dude also got all kinds of psychedelic stuffs in his store and ship discreetly to any location*
They're on telegram or Instagram as,
@PHARMCLAN ¿¿
I have felt a lot of the feelings, but not from DMT or any drugs of that nature. I deal with a depersonalization disorder that generates a lot of these exact same thoughts when you’re in it and out of it. I would often wake up with a nocturnal panic attack and obsesses over a strange thought for days or weeks until eventually forgotten about it. It’s hard to explain, but I think some people with depersonalization disorder will get where I’m coming from. That feeling of crippling fear & disconnection from reality. To the point where you are at your breaking point. You either think, I don’t wanna live with this anymore OR I am losing my sanity and will eventually be in an asylum.
Yes I had this triggered from DMT and then I was diagnosed layer with CPTSD, luckily don’t dissociate as much or depersonalise but it’s scary when it does happen. ❤
How did this happen to you? What's your story?
Haha.. " What is steps.. " 😂😂 I know exactly what he meant by this. It's exhausting A.F. not being able to comprehend your own capacity or your surrounding enviroment. Glad that he's finally come back to earth and has embraced this experience to enrich his life. 😌
I know this is uncalled for but those are the kind of thoughts I have all the time maybe Ive been on dmt all my life
I had that since i was a little kid. Looking at my hands thinking about wtf is all this? What am i? @@ryckarduhryckarduh180
i remember tripping on shrooms and looking at the little green clock on the microwave, and the numbers were just 88:88 😂 blew my mind
Its like… you lose your positionality… i’d also get this feeling like everywhere i looked i was looking at myself… like i couldn’t get away from “this”
I understand it because I'm autistic. I've lived my entire life like that lol
I used to take acid A LOT and when I stopped I still had residual mental effects for years, like it took a lot to get me stressed or angry for a long time, psychedelic are incredible I wish I had a guy for them again.
acid is nice to have around
I grew up in a neighborhood filled with drug addicts and can tell you....some people never ever recover. I was on the Q60 in queens and in walked in my old friend who I used to trip balls with for years but this time he was different. He sat down next to me and tells me he is living in and out of an insane asylum. I still vividly remember that he had a 3 liter Pepsi with him which he was drinking like it was a 16oz(before the 20oz became the norm). Some people lose their minds and never recover folks so just cause Rogan says DMT is the gateway into the universe doesn't mean everyone should start taking this stuff willy nilly!
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It took me around a year to get over the trauma from an intense mushroom trip. I won't be touching them for a very long time, if ever. I highly recommend not using psychedelics unless you're in a good place mentally and you have a sitter or someone experienced with you. You do not want to turn into Syd Barrett folks. But your brain can recover. Whole food, clean diet, meditation, and time.
That happened to me as well, I thought that when the trip was over it all was over but the fear I get from the helpless state I was in still gives me chills.
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Had a similar experience seeking God without drugs that was so intense I’m still recovering. Just so you know. It can be done without drugs.
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Far too many people don't approach psychedelics with enough caution. They're no joke, and they certainly aren't for everyone. A HUGE part of the problem is immature young men who goad their friends into taking WAY too much, usually because they think it's funny.
I stared at the stars for a long time one night and I started to understand the vastness. It gave me a panic attack. Our minds are not supposed to grasp that scale.
I personally hate hearing about bad trips, imo we are given a gift to tap into something we dont respect most of the time and the universe tests us with bad moments to see if you REALLY want to be there, you have to respect it. You want a gift with no struggle.
I did it 20 years ago when I was 19 and I can safely say, the door was never there in the first place...
Never was and never will be …
I experienced a similar thing with the ayahuasca/dmt door. I was opened up too much too, especially for first few weeks. Very anxious, felt just very “visible” to things, like vulnerable, like it could all see me for awhile. And there were a couple that were too interested in me, in a spooky way. Eventually, after some months, and about a year in total later, i dont feel like they can really see me anymore. My regular guy, human brain filter is nice and thick again. It was hard, and i thought id have to get help for awhile there. But im better for it, i understand anxiety A LOT better now, in an empathetic way that’s helped me connect with struggling people better. Anyway, i shared something similar.
Ayahuasca had the same effect on me. I was way too open to the other side and felt like they were going to take me back at any moment. Very dark energies. It was awful. I was afraid to fall asleep because I would dream I was in the trip again.
Don't often comment on these but I had an experience where the mind had a door open that's not closed since 2006. Hearing Neil's experience its nice that he got better from it. 😂 the door was seeing people only by their influences and inspirations. It's helpful for seeing through most people's bs though, I've never complained about it
Would you please expound in your before and after experience please? I'm just not understanding what you are saying about people.
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Sounds like my daily experiences for the last five years. Can hardly focus on more than one thing at a time because of constant existential thoughts and questions. Never did any psychedelics it was all just a sudden onset and has been giving me anxiety and panic disorder now for literal years. Right now I’m constantly on a long half life benzo 24/7 to keep maybe this at bay by about 50%
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I was going through this. I eventually got better. There’s a great lady on KZhead who discusses techniques for recovering. I really hope you feel better. I still get off days but never on the level I was at before. I really hope you recover.
This is the kind of description of DMT I’ve been waiting for ever since it was popularised People mostly only talk about the moment of taking it
Had some not very nice intense times but always found the afterglow to be sublime.
For me, the most profound benefit I have seen from psychedelics has been a broadened perspective. I find it easier to relate to others, understand their perspectives, understand myself, and I feel a stronger connection to the world around me. I also feel things more intensely. Like if emotions were colors, they are more vivid colors now than before. My experiences have included psilocybin and lsd a handful of times spread out over long periods of time. After my first experience about 19 years ago, I had the exact same feeling about my experience as they described in this episode. The experience was like reformatting my hard drive and installing a fresh/clean OS. I went sky diving for the first time in 2022. The experiences of sky diving and taking psychedelics to me feels similar in approach. You can imagine what either experience is like, but unless you actually do it, you will never truly comprehend....not even close. They both have possible risks participants must consider and weigh beforehand but the experiences are unlike anything else. I feel anxiousness and excitement leading up to a psychedelic trip similar to how I would feel before jumping out of a plane. They are both very intense experiences. But, unlike the 5 minutes journey back to earth skydiving, these psychedelics will take you on a wild 8-12 hour ride within yourself while stepping at least one foot outside of your previously normal standard perception of reality.
Try sky diving while tripping off 250ugs of LSD and 3.5 of shrooms .2MDMA and a hit from the bong.
I saw another comment that put it quite simply; you are pretty much rolling the dice with psychosis purely for a bit more perspective on existence. I feel like my perspective has widened just about enough from smoking weed for 9 years since I was 17. I used to want to do LSD and psilocybin, but realised after a few bad nights from smoking too much weed around a year into it, and the effects on my thoughts for days afterwards, that I cannot handle the potential of fucking my mind up just for a bit more perspective. Perspective is one thing, but the actual tangible quality of a sound mind is worth more, in my humble opinion. I still smoke weed now. Why? I don't know. Just out of habit, I suppose. But I'm not gonna pretend that with the reality of probably getting engaged and hopefully married to my girlfriend soon, and having a secure job that I need to do well in to make a good life for myself, I'm not gonna bullshit myself into thinking that broadening my mind more is a good thing, or continuing to get stoned for no reason is a good thing. The really ironic thing is that it was Joe and Eddie's long conversations on the podcast years ago discussing smoking weed and doing psychadelics that got me in the mindset of "I wanna try this". Thankfully I just stopped at weed and went no further, and I'm realising now that the weed has run it's course for me. I could probably do with the occasional hit every now and again, but not 3 joints every evening for no reason. I guess what I'm tryna say here is don't disregard your sanity and hold on what you know matters, as that is more valuable than experimenting with the unknown and broadening your perspective.
@@Charlie.c19good for you man seriously. Dont listen to these fried ass dudes in the comments seriously. Ive been there done ALL of it and you dont need any of that stuff to gain a better perspective. It can help, but you definitely dont need it, and i i think its severely irresponsible to give it to/recommend it to people without informing them of what that stuff can do beforehand. People need to do their research and not take that stuff lightly. I dont regret doing any of it, but there were better times than others.
Whew. TMI.
My therapist was having me take fluoxetine and Seroquel together, and i was getting pretty similar experiences. Was like my mind was so far out of my skull like i can't even explain. Bad anxiety symptoms with triggers from smells/colors/taste/and lighting. Would feel very out of body, for example i would see a certain color and feel like i was in a TV show i watched as a kid and nothing in reality felt real. I felt like i was completely alone, and i remember constantly looking out my window seeing people walk around and they felt fake. I'd have to force myself to sleep to recoup my brain. And about an hour later it would build back up. Constantly made me rethink reality
You basically had derealization from meds
Been there. Best/craziest 2 weeks of my life
Dmt took me to the end of interstellar falling through the parallel universes. It was like an elevator ride from top floor to bottom floor w/ the doors wide open. 100+ mph free fall and every "floor" was another realm? Or parallel universe. When I stopped I was looking straight at the Sphinx on a sunny day. No online photo is the angle I was viewing. No explanation. None needed. Massive tension ran up my spine.. Take backs is I live every second of every moment in life too tense. I need to relax my entire soul. Its a work in progress. I no longer need a psychedelic as nothing will beat the first break through. Amazing substance.
Took me 18 Min to recuperate. 18 months? He must support JoeyB
Elevator? For me it was a Rollercoaster ride
@vrod9803 yes I was in what seemed like a colorful freefalling elevator (doors open) and stopped in Egypt haha.
This is rad, and he definitely sounds like a supporter of the sniffer.
I know the feeling he is explaining. Similar things happened to me, while experiencing a spontaneous "kundalini awakening" (I was told that's what it was called) and it was the most incredible experience of my life. For weeks, I was coming down from it. The feeling of it, everything is connected, every single atom, feeling anything and everything, look at or see it online, then: put yourself there and you are. Its absolutely incredible.. still wish I knew someone I could talk to in person about it who has more knowledge about all things involved. No joke. I like to think that THAT day, I was reborn. 100% - and I will never go back, never forget. I get what he says it's hard to do, yes. You go from knowing or feeling all you've ever known, to KNOWING ALL things at every time always. I think neurons were definitely firing anew. Lol.
omfg this is great!
Very interesting Neil Brennon. Your experience is my joy (and warning to never go there with those drugs - I can wait to find out when I die), but I sure enjoy hearing about your experiences and thoughts on taking them.
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At 6:40 Neil describes pretty much exactly what I went through after a series of 5 g mushroom trips. I did several years ago. After the final 7 g trip, I had what can only be described as a religious experience where my psyche reverted to how I used to be before I let the world change me. I was “pre-psychotic” for a month and felt very touch and go with what I could handle on a day to day basis. But as my psyche healed slowly, as the months went on, I became effortlessly more generous and conscious of how my actions and intention affected everyone around me. I felt true curiosity and wonder again after years of being comparatively dead inside, love felt sweet again, my own company was good to be in after a decade and change of hating myself. I put myself through the ringer with all of those trips with the intention of trimming the spiritual and emotional fat around my psyche, intuitively I knew that I had to put myself through this ordeal to become a better version of myself. Lord oh Lord, did it kick my ass, but it was worth it.
That's the point man, MUSHROOMS/Ayuausca is supposed to "HEAL" you in many different ways & sort of "clean" the dirt & junk out of your mind so you can think, feel, & be creative again. Its really a very remarkable thing to be able to do, using just a medium dose of magic mushrooms! Pure, 100% natural, organic medicine. No need for junk pills & poisonous drugs from the pharmacies, to be taken every day. All you need is ONE dose of mushrooms or other semi-safe & natural psychedelic & you will have long-lasting effects for months & sometimes even years afterwards. Stay safe, & have a great day friend. ❤😅
The fact that there is a large group of people that would read what you just wrote and agree with you is terrifying to me. What you just said is some of the most ridiculous BS I may have ever heard.
"PRE-PSYCHOTIC?" WHOA MAN! Lay off the Crystal Meth!
@danielmorris7648 can you explain why that's terrifying and why you think that's BS?
Well intelligence right there says don’t do 7g trips, that’s all I needed to hear. But cool story bro
As much as I'd like to try DMT, this is why I won't try it. My luck I'd go crazy.
I thought the same as you. Then I had the chance to, and I took it. It was a very beautiful experience and changed my life.
This guy Neal Brennan is a boring ego maniac. He's too self absorbed too appreciate life.
Like just the idea that molly are Neal’s software updates is so funny to me
I've experienced split screen as well.. more like seeing both versions of reality at the same time but your eyes can't decide which one to present so you get a mix.. plain reality vs the one being created in your mind
plain reality is so boring, yet exactly what we need the reality created in your mind leads to interesting places, but can make you go insane trying to mix the two is an impossible task
Always seems like the type of human who could have the world but never would accept being happy. It's exhausting
Story of my life
It's called depression friend
@@Dobertson that... explains alot about myself
All of his stand up is him begging for us to join him into staring up his own @sshole. If he's depressed, it doesn't entitle him to force it on us in the guise of 'comedy'.
You sound like able to complain the world out of orbit
I had a dmt flashback just rubbing my eyes really hard. It was pretty wild. Just looked like flashing lights and shapes forming from a faded shade of light gradually increasing focus into a sharp looking kind of shattered glass and the lines forming like a sort of electricity
Yea I use to do that as a kid. It’s just eye pressure u can push on ur eyes while closed not long it’s not good lol but u see crazy shapes and colors. Since I been doing shrooms the visuals are crazier but it’s normal u can do that anytime. I’m not sure u can call it a flash back. When you look at the bright sky and see things flying around with open eyes sober that’s a flash back lol.
@@LitPenguin713 good for you hope that makes you feel better about yourself.
Man i can relate. I thought i was going crazy after my bad dmt trip. I would have the flashbacks of it. Like i was back on dmt.
Microdosing shrooms helped me in so many ways. Still not ready to fully trip or do dmt and thats ok. ❤
Part of why a sound meditative practice is essential to both, well meditation, some powerful spiritual practices and some of the osychedelic ones. You learn to be able to observe calmly, stay rather impartial and understand that even unbearable is bearable step at a time, since you're bearing it. Highly recommend at least a simple meditation protocole and breathing exercises, either the simple brrath focus or some more advandec brrsth work like Wim Hof's or even some more traditional Buddhist or Hindu practice.
My best friend started dropping acid almost a decade ago and his personality was immediately and permanently changed. I’ll never touch psychedelics.
I’m curious to experience them, but that’s the sole reason I’m never touching them. I do not want to permanently change myself because of some drug that I try one time.
7 years ago I got depersonalization disorder for 2 years after a bad ayahuasca trip. These substances really can make you go insane if you're not careful. I'll never touch them again.
I tripped on 5-10 grams twice a week for like 2 months, and I had a few ego deaths. I'm pretty much the same but now heavily into Buddhist philosophy and now a lot less pessimistic, but I already had a solid foundation on what reality was which was very fatalistic (no free will, we are completely powerless to our genetics and environment) and the Buddhist philosophy I looked at while tripping all day put it in a perspective that still allowed my fatalistic world view but with a happy spin on it to make my world view not completely depressing.
@@oongieboongieyou wouldn’t happen to be a white westerner, would you?
Changed me for the better
I had something like that. I was at work at a bar. I opened the fridge door to grab a glass and it hit me. I could see reality, but I had an overlay of green Lazer shooting through a dance floor with a smoke machine on overdrive. I snapped out of it when the girl I was working with touched my hand and asked if I was okay. I have no clue how long I was there for, but the amazing feel you get from ecstasy and rave dancing persisted for 10 minutes after. I had massive pupils and found it hard to hide it. I've since done E and other stimulants/psychedelics countless times and have never experienced anything like it since (happened 15 years ago)
Don't do drugs kids.
The challenge is integrating the cosmic perspective back into the individual human sense of self/ego so that both can operate together. Too much cosmic, and you won't exist on this plane for too long, one way or another. Too much human ego, and you will suffer with the limitations of the body/mind. I try to strive for a balance which allows me to operate as this individual human ego while not getting too bogged down in the day-to-day milieu.
He said "what is steps" and I burst out laughing. I totally get that.
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30 Years ago I had exactly this self induced...10-15 years of wide open like how he describes...I became telepathic and started having precognition staright after the event....perpetually borderline psychotic and deeply dissociated but determined and active in the world holding it all together. The insights are practically daily and have been a full way of life for 30 years now...with an unfolding pattern of deep change that whole time. The boundaries of self and other were lost, and learning how to manage thsi and turn it into skills took alll these years of continual learning by forcing a deep and intense relationship with every day life. Suicide and madness were continual bedfellows from the begining...because they are the two possible get outs and tragedies simulataneously......it is a literal walk of madness and total fear of what might be. Over time the types of terror morphed and changed and slowly very slowly I tracked every minutiae of detail of chnage that was and has occured. I never talk about this, or only very rarely in small parts....it is beyond imaginable...but is. This is why the real shamanic path is described as being one which can end in madness or death if not submitted to. The submission effectively becomes the comitment to interpret and understnad wht is occuring...which are functions arising from the body, brain and genetics...as well as subtle phenomena...which largely are derived from survival instincts as they tend to be protective in nature...foresight in mind or in dreams for example. Which makes sense of course.
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His 18 months are my last 28 years. I took the right (I did know nothing by the time) amount of mushrooms in August 1996 and since then my life has been funny and very intense. Timewise, experience-wise, love-wise etc. Actually it just fixed open my heart and my mind as it used to be until just before the esperience happened. It was hard at the beginning, but then quickly I got used to it. Strict probasketball discipline, wild parties, free travels around the world and loving friends and girlfriend made it possible. Very quickly. This means that now that I'm 50, in this single lifetime I lived various lifetimes and it feels like I'm still a child. By the way I successfully played pro basketball for 20 years, traveled around the world, help to raise two healthy boys, five of their childhood years in India, and still getting surprised by anything, anytime I aloud it to happen...be brave, talk to the plants and stay free
Funny thing, I was on shrooms one time starring at the stars on a cold clear night and kinda realizing how the stars are all in a depth of a field. They weren't just a big dipper one star next to another but appeared as the big dipper from our perspective but that in reality they are all closer and further away. I should say that it's like seeing and knowing something you're whole life but then one day you look at something and see it in a new way . You're way of seeing something you've seen forever becomes different. You pay attention a little more deeply. We filter out so much of the world around us because we must focus our minds on whatever task at hand that the experience with shrooms kinda free your mind from.
You just described an interesting thing everyone does but no one knows they are doing. Perhaps the stars are just there, Or, are they for our viewing?
Yup earths flat.
Stars are just spirits in the firmament theres no space.
cool story! Yeah we blind ourselves often to the beauty and true nature of the Universe and/or Earth life because we are pre occupied with everyday bullshit non stop. Things that dont really matter in the long run but we need for the short term. Its nice to step outside of that fake reality now and then and see through things
I saw that on shrooms too in the desert. Amazing the first time I noticed it. You can see the milky way's structure and depth
This guys is making me rethink drinking this coffee I’m holding
Dmt, LSD and psilocybin containing mushroom are amazing. I could remember several years ago, I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with OCD. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source . I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today
Ive done shrooms last month in my house. It taught me how severely traumatized I was from alcohol. I healed from many mental traumas from my past and was able to forgive, let go. Shrooms to me is a remedy not a vice. I even felt more refreshed the morning after. So no hangovers. No depression mood for days. No anxiety.I now have a more calm mind
How do I find him? Is he on insta
Happy Star Wars Day! Thank you for bringing us along!
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Sounds like my shroom trip after knocking 8 grams. Life changing and it took me 2 years to recover(but not fully) some 23 years ago. Even if I smoke too much weed today, that feeling comes back. And it is quite unbearable. But I always manage thankfully and my creative flux is out there.
I’ve had flashback to shroom trio when I get too high lol
We are all such beautiful creatures and extremely sensitive too more than we realize. Life is beautiful
That questioning "why is this? What even is this?" I've been waiting for more people to talk about. As a kid I would go down and down that train of thought. If I did it enough I'd get a split second jolt of dizziness.
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There is so much we don’t understand about the profound effect that an ego death experience has on the brain. The results from post ego death psychedelic use are fascinating
Weirdest part of DMT for me was how you feel completely sober. When on shrooms, you can tell but DMT you feel more sober than when you’re sober. I can see why people think they died
That first minute come up for me was always my most clear headed mental state ever.
That's really trippy... If you don't get high what is the point?
@@saraniah you don’t take DMT to get high. It’s spiritual and I’m a basic non-spiritual dude. I danced in a sea of souls and met what I perceived as Father Time
@@saraniah DMT feels euphoric sometimes but one's headspace and sense of self usually feels sober, even while experiencing the most alien looking realms imaginable. Neil did 5MEO DMT, which is a different beast.
What he calls dmt flashback is a kundalini awakening.. it's your life force rising and opening you to the point there is no separation. the thing is, in the beginning after these experience is the EGO desperately tries to get grip again. Especially when you are a person who needs to be in control. When u cant fully surrender.. allot of the time it results in ego inflation. Enlightenment is a blessing for the ones who are ready for it but a nightmare for those who resist it and are not. It's peeling layers... until the point you know that the real you is. the all. The collective conciousness..
I understand what you are saying (mostly by amateur researching), some personal experience. For something to be gained, something must be lost. I remember crying for the loss. Spiritual disciplines prepare a person for years through discipline and daily practice. It must be such a sacrifice to allow the Kundalini to rise, one must need to be so ready...
I agree. I felt exactly this when doing bath salts.
Or it could just be psychotic brake there's that also... if it dosnt benefits u to survive better in this life right now and not lose grip on reality u can call it whatever i call it psychosis...EGO is keeping u alive my friend ,woo woo people are demonizing ego too much its not a bad guy its part of u like it or not..
A flashback is not a kundalini awakening. Not at all the same.
The state that he mentions he was in after the trip sounds like depersonalisation/derealisation/dissociation. I myself experienced this for years and definitely at the beginning it was a lot more intense. That feeling of complete disconnect from the world, yourself and everyone around you. Even visually, you’re not hallucinating but you feel like you’re looking at life through a screen, it’s really difficult to describe.. and then all the existential thoughts that come along with it e.g. life’s meaning, the point of all of this and how it’s even possible. I’m out of it now but I can truly say it was a terrifying time and deeply uncomfortable. Just my thoughts and experience
"What is steps"? 🤣 I get the over analysing struggle but still funny, love this guy.
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It took me about 15 years to feel normal, 25 years now and I still feel the presence if I am not careful.
Please elaborate. How did you not "feel normal?" What did it feel like? I kinda know what you mean with shrooms but DMT is a whole different level, or so they say
Jeez buddy. Its intense but you're being a bit dramatic
@@mifegreen5960 Its feels like peeling back the face of reality and seeing what is behind it. If you imagine a painting and you rip the painting off the frame and you see what is behind the painting. Reality feels the same now, I saw what was behind reality and now I can't go back to normal. Nothing feels real anymore, even my own reflection in a mirror makes me trip out.
@@AyatoIlah So how do I make reality go back to normal and stop feeling like I'm an Alien on this planet in the wrong reality?
@@mifegreen5960 Also, I took a bLade and unalivened myself about ten years ago but all that happened is I woke up in a timeline where death didn't occur. It's Quantum immortality everytime and I can see the atoms that make us.