pov; you’re a disappointment [a vent playlist]
2022 ж. 18 Нау.
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Fun fact: *My emotions are based off what kind of music I listen to*
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Fun fact: It all ends so u might as well do whatever tf u wanna do with your life
ppl r controling my life and making me feel like a puppet i cant do whaever i want....
real
@@WafflesBooboo i am sorry for u
true, but if you do whatever you want with your life it'll only end quicker. if you take care of yourself, you will have a longer happier (guaranteed) life.
Like die?
Music is like a person i can talk to without feeling judged
Comments on vent Playlists are more reliable and relatable than people irl
True that's one of the reasons why I write songs
not a person..
Yes relatable
i feel bad for all the 1,4 million people who clicked on this playlist i hope we're all gonna feel better one day
i hope
Not with my step dad and sisters I be stuck with them until I go to college, I have such a toxic sister and step dad
I hope we all get therapy
@@g.blosom669 I hope too cause I need it bad
Yes. I hope.
"I only talk to dogs because they don’t understand me" - literally me:)
"nobody ever understands me but atleast my cat gives me cuddles and hugs aswell"- literally me
@@girlartist1105 i had my parrot as my only happiness and now hes gone to heaven
@@behappy3829 im not gonna give you the basic sentimental shit that ppl usually give because im 100% not qualified to give that but i can say that everything eventually dies and while it is sad sometimes we game from it
"would you like a little better if they were white like yours?" - couldn't be me
Same but cats
"I dont even know why you cry." "Your life is litterally fine" "Dont be so ungrateful" "My life is worse then yours and im not crying" "Stop trying to get attention" Humanity is so fucking disgusting.
You forgot the “There is someone else who has it worse than you”
Ok but this is so true
I hope it'll get better for you all, i really do...
I’ve been told all of these things-
the only people telling me these things are made up in my mind and that feels even worse.
I explain all my anxiousness to people, but they say “Just think positive!”
Same 😂😂😂🙃
You don't have to think positive or be a positive person. Just be yourself. There will be people who will like you who you are.
that's all i here every day over and over and over again and thos word do more damage then help
"You try feeling like your dying and someone saying, "" tHiNk PoSiTiVe""
@@natalieschroeder4816 my daily life ^^
Worst feeling is you wanna bawl your eyes out,but nothing wont come out.
fr.
me righ now but i cant cry my family is around and i have to finish my homework
Yeppers
@minkevisser7245 this happens to me so much too 😭
"Does it even matter how hard I try?... Do my good grades matter? Does me being patient, me being calm and collected, me working so hard, trying so hard to get your attention that I feel like I'm dying... even matter?"
It feels like no matter what you do someone else is doing it better
@@ellensun6229 Yes, it's someone else who suddenly gets better, even though your the one who wants and needs to feel ok and get better
Sometimes. Your never going to be good enough. And it fucking crushes you. Because you can't get this person out of your life. And you can't help but try to be everything they want.
I don't think it does everyone only sees your mistakes
Hey... I know it's hard, but I just want to let you know that I'm proud of your mistakes and achivements. I am proud of you because you are still here
Pov: you can only lie about your feelings and how you look on the outside but inside you are slowly fading away and crippling into a darkness that is hard to get out of…
Pov: you relate to most of these pov comments and it makes you realize how fucked up we all are.. (including myself)
@@EltonLovesPeople this makes life worth living
yeah
Relatable
True. I think I found my kind of species :)
Fun fact about me : I listen to sad music and test my limits so i can stop crying everywhere
Same
Me too, but I also try to avoid listening to things that make me feel emotions
fun fact about me too : IU'm verbally abused by my parnets but i can't call for help at all cuz they monitor my every move (i hacked my pc to reomv that monitoring) and can't use my phone cuz monitoring so no help and if i got any tmy parents woudl lei to them
Animals are my comfort zone... they don't control me, they don't tell me what to do, i feel loved when they let me touch them, i get my happiness from them, They don't make my depression and anxiety worse.
they don’t judge. they just chillin
thats me but with my plushies and my cat, they just are comforting and never judge us
the onyl living being that conforted me when i needed it the msot was my beloved cat, now she's gone and i jsut cry while my parents talk shit about me downstairs. . .
I love my dogs I need them In I need them alot
“You make everyone uncomfortable.” one of my close “friends” said to me on my birthday when I was being “too loud” at dinner. *to this day realising that everything I do and say always makes someone uncomfortable, accidentally or not*
and then they say "why have you gone so quiet"
you have my love and full support, i wish you have a wonderful rest of your life with many happy days and love
Lindsay, I agree with you on that, whenever I speak I always think to my self "Man everyone thinks I sound like an idiot because of my voice and the way I act." After the conversation that's what goes on in my head, and I feel guilty afterwards that they had to deal with me.
And when you look sad, they tell you you're acting emo. Like WHAT????
I feel the same only, people tell me to stop showing emotions cause it makes my face look dumb or weird. Luckily my family doesn't say that.
POV : You are tired of everything in life, but you don't know what your tired of, you have friends, family, a house, & food on the table, your not being abused by anyone, or ever, just tired, but scared of dying, afraid of pain. to anyone here, i'm so proud of you for being you, even if you only lied on your bed, nothing else, watching youtube, listening to music, i'm super proud of you
thank you. i really needed that
Defined my life im so grateful for this underrated comment thank you💙
Im pretty sure ur overworked + emotionally exhausted. Go take a day off
Thank you very much
I'm sad cause no one cares about me. and when I mean no one I mean NO ONE!!!!! But it's okay it is not your fault.
No matter what I do, if it's my grades or my social life, or anything I fail. No matter how hard try. I wasn't born with intelligence or nice looks. All I got are disabilities and trauma that stay with me forever. I can tell all of my friends don't truly care about me. They just want someone to be around, not their problems. Even though my mom seems like she cares, I can tell she doesn't. All I am is extra weight to carry. My therapist doesn't care, she's just doing it for the money. I have lost my cat, my dog, my dad, my brother. And yet that's not enough for life, so they take my happiness, my passion, my talent, my motivation. No one wants to truly help me. No one likes me, everyone just talks about me behind my back. I've done nothing to deserve this. Yet when I try to end it all I'm stopped. Nothing I do is good enough for anyone. I can't physically do anything because of my health issues. I am just a burden. And yet I have to go through punishment for trying to free myself from this hell. I barely talk to anyone and those who I do talk to don't care. To them, I am just an object, a joke, a nobody. No one cares about how I feel, when I try to talk to them about it they just act like I don't exist and make it about them. I should have just jumped in front of that car when I had the chance.
You gotta play the cards you've been dealt, same as everyone else. You're right that most people don't care. They are too focused on their own cards to worry about cards that aren't theirs. It's difficult but make the most of it, there is always someone playing with a worse hand of cards than you. Pay attention to others, try to be the person who notices and cares.
Bro, it's really terrible. The terrible thing is that you live through it, the terrible thing is that no one cares about you. I can't say whether you're right or wrong, I just believe what you said. I really feel sorry for you and really want to support you. You're not a problem or a burden, if you were like that, you wouldn't be here anymore. Everything you do is not in vain, it will come back to you, I hope that there will be those people who will truly care and love you. What about your mother... I think she loves you.
It's just that you're also a child, like everyone else, you're her child. So don't be discouraged. Everything will get better if you find people to your liking. I would like to communicate with you, whoever you are, because you are also a person
Fun fact: music understands u better then your parents
Pov: people comfort you a lot but it still doesn’t help. Does anyone else feel happy when their just balling out tears 🤡 Are you guys okay? I didn’t mean for this comment to be THAT serious.. Edit: You really think I was gonna say “ThANK YoU FOr ThE LIKeS”? I’m not one of *THOSE* kids 👀
Exactly.
Yes.
Yes
i have anger issues and throw fits im 14 and people try to comfort me it doesnt help i just hate myself
or you help them but they dont help back
Pov: Your the one friend everyone goes to for help and advice but none of them are ever there for you…
I can relate because I am this person. I just won't speak up for myself not anymore
you're*
Wtf ..
Bro we have the same name
@@goddiepon9307 it doesn't rlly matter if they get the spelling wrong
0:01 = Aliens blues - vundabar 💖 2:35 = Freaks - alt-J 💖 8:48 = i cant handle change - Roar 💖 12:07 = unfair - the neighbourhood 💖 15:07 = Blackout Days - Phantogram 💖 18:25 = Dark red - stevey lacy 💝 20:54 = Washing mashine heart 💖 23:01 = Hey kids - molina 💖 24:11 = Fallen down slowed 💖 Y O U R W E L C O M E ! ! 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖
Tysmmmm❤🎉
What's Alt-J? Freaks is by Surf Curse :/
“Nothing I do is ever good… Nothing I do is ever good enough… Nothing I do is ever good…” Relatable.
Tysm
Thank you very much your the best never forget that 😊😊
You know it’s a perfect playlist when you don’t have to skip any song and that you shed a tear.
you KNOW a vent playlist is shit when the first song is literally alien blues
Nostalgia run: Remember how you used to hang upside down on your chair? legs where your back would go, back where your legs would be, and your head hanging off the edge as you watched the world move around you upside down. Remember when you could run and play for days? Not a care in the world? Remember when you could sit in a cardboard box and imagine it was whatever you wanted it to be? A car, a spaceship, the options were limitless really... Remember how you used to pour soda into the cap and pretend you were big like the adults? Drinking with the fancy little shots, heh... that was fun. You used to tape your mouth shut, poked holes in your eraser with a pencil, or used the smaller erasers as puppets once they started to break, you also used to put yes or no onto your eraser and ask it questions, you may remember snack time at daycare or home, playing with your animal crackers. You would play with your voice in the fan or have pillow fights with friends and family. There was flappy bird, school trips to the zoo or other places, book fairs, and cartoons, maybe even running under a parachute at the gym. All of this was important in our life at some point, wasn't it? It was always so... thrilling, wasn't it? I miss all those carefree days of being a kid, and I'm sure you might as well, but take care now friends. It will get better soon, trust me. From a trusting cat.
love this comment so much-
he really just ran my childhood
Im still in my chidhood but it always feels like im more grown up then im supposed to be. It feels like my childhood ended some days, others i feel like it has'nt, those are the best days. It feels like yesterday i was nine going into 4th grade but now im turning twelve and going into middle school. now its summer and my freinds are starting to not respond and i can never find complete silence. My dad is always ranting about something and my mom is irritated at everything i do. They are always working (they work from home) the only person i realy have right now is my sister. My scetchbook it starting to become a vent book. Im getting less sleep. My adhd it probably alot more active right now. Im seeing apparitions. I wish i could go back to being a little kid. I hate this.
i practically forgot all of these memories and you unlockd them, thank you
aww thank you, you are a sweet cat _pets cat_
I never knew that not being allowed to lock your room/bathroom door isn't normal until recently. Thanks, mom.
I hope you feel better
WAIT ITS NOT?!?! 😃🫠
its not??
I thought it was just a safety thing??
why is this so relatable
To whoever reads this, i love you
U deserve the whole happiness itw ngl
Can we be friend please?
Ty but I don't think someone will love me ✌️
Thank you thank you thank you
i Love you back Happy New years Ml Btw !
Pov: you are the friend that is always here for people and understand they feelings but when it you nobody here for you
0:00 alien blues - vundabar 2:35 freaks - surf curse 4:59 breezeblocks - alt-J 8:48 i cant handle change - roar 12:07 unfair - the neighbourhood 15:07 blackout days - phantogram 18:25 dark red - stevey lacy 20:54 washing machine heart - mitski 23:01 hey kids - molina 24:11 fallen down - toby fox
Thanks:)
Why thank you sir
What you see on outside 😂vs what’s on the inside 😢 is it bad that I know each and every one of those songs
Ty
ThX
Hello my fellow disappointments :) I just wanna let you all know you aren’t alone out there and we are all here to help :)
ALASTOR?!!
@William Afton 👺 lol
Ooo I heard people like you soo uh Yea thanks I'm not alone :)
bro lend me some crack 😒😩
You may be there, but you’re not real.
Came straight here after having a fight with my brother which led to my mom yelling at me. And me cursing the living out of them and now my throat hurts.
This really says something when you know all the songs
“I wanna cry but nothing is coming out.” Relatable. Or maybe, “I don’t wanna cry but they keep coming out of the dark.” That’s..relatable too. Very. Or maybe, “I simply can’t express emotions.” Or even, “I express too much.” But whatever the phrase, you all are amazing, you’re okay. Everyone deserves a life, That’s why you’re here. Do what you love. Don’t give up.
I can't stop crying even when I am having a good time for once I can't stop and everyone sees and it embarrassing
I can’t express myself right and I just end up disappointing everyone
Vent : 👱🏼♀️🤤❤️🗣🖕🤮👋👋😞😢😔💭☠️👍🥲
Same
both of them are my phrase though most of the time i feel like i express too much but sometimes i cant express my emotions i feel like im in between of being emotionless and a crybaby
POV: you want to be a kid again because years ago, you were an innocent, kind and a kid that didnt know about the real world,You didn't know what the future holds for you. Now your probably grade 6 and above im 19 and listening to vent playlists makes you feel.. Better. Also reading the comments from positive people or people who experienced something you experienced too. I get that so like vent playlists are like my thing. I cant be without music. Oh how i miss being a kid. You get presents, Your parents love you, Your friends with a lot of people. What about now? You probably have depression, anxiety, panic attacks or other stuff OR maybe all 3. You wanna be a kid again because you were a happy kid. So remember now that your older. Your a girl? you can cry Your a boy? you can cry Your non-binary? you can cry Your genderfluid? you can cry if your others? you can cry Human? you can cry LGBTQ? you are valid. From earth? you are worth it. If you feel NO ONE loves you, I do i may be the only person that loves you but thats enough okay? if you wanna end it NO if you think no one will miss you? I WILL okay? stay hydrated, stay safe, stay healthy
Thank you thank you so much.
@@shinobukocho9769 your welcome :)
I tell pl its okay when I know its not. I tell pl I can protect them when I cant do The same with my self. i tell pl violince isent The answer even tho thats all I know. i tell pl to hold back untill somone else is there to help when I couldent do The same. I tell pl to eat even tho I never do .i say "its okay to cry" even tho I hate when otheres say that. I say ill do anything for them when I didnt even try for "her".. Im just a hypocritical bitch thinking I can fix it all. Idont know any better then them.
Thanks for the words but they all feel hollow
I would wanna be a kid again, if THEY. didn’t appear..
“AM I JUST A KNICKKNACK TO YOU?!” “I’M NOT YOUR FUCKING TOY/PUPPET.” “STOP PULLING MY STRINGS, I’M NOT YOUR PERSONAL PUPPET.” “I’M NOT YOUR SLAVE, STOP CONTROLLING ME.” “GO AWAY.” “I SAID GO AWAY”
“I can do it I promise” That’s a lie we tell ourselves to keep going
sometimes you just need to listen to these songs in your car at 6 am and scream. this is the beginning of my villain arch lmao.
Genuinely made me smile, ty
Made me laugh genuinely for the first time in a bit, thanks :D
Made me smile and laugh, thanks
That made me smile thank you ❤ I needed that. :)
this made me feel better
While listening to this, it made me realize how much I am actually hurting inside. Cursing out my reflection, calling myself a baby, hitting myself when I cry, stabbing holes into walls for comfort, staying up until 3 AM listening to my fan, scratching my dresser all to hell. It makes me realize just how shitty life is to me, how much I resent my own existence. When I was 1 I watched my mom and dad's final argument behind a kitchen chair, when I was 3 I was starved for days on end, having to sneak food to keep my pale, skeleton of a body alive. All because of that damn man... dealing with a suicidal mother, my sister was so depressed she couldn't wake up, my house was rotting, I snapped my arm when I was 3 1/2, I would scrap my limbs for fun, I was hit on at 8, mentally abused in 3rd grade at a shitty school, hit, beaten. No matter how loud I yelled, no matter how blood curdling my screams were no one heard me. Heck, I tried to kill myself when I was 9! I HATE MYSELF. SO MUCH, I WANNA LEAVE THIS DAMN PLANET!!!! LET ME GO, I WANNA BE FREE!!! I HATE THIS, I HATE EVERYONE! WHY!? I DON'T GET IT. I WAS KIND, POLITE, I would behave... but then life would reward me with a hard, stab in the back. What a wonderful life I have, huh? I'm sorry to all of you who read this. I just needed to get my emotions out.
DON'T WORRY!!!!!! YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE WITH THAT LIFE!!!! I GET HOW YOU FEEL!!!!!! But our life is a little different but the words you say sound just like me. But I despised myself. AND NOW YOUR NOW MY NEW FRIEND!!!!! Wanna see each other on the other side of this fucked up planet that was supposed to be peaceful and beautiful?
I hate this life too But , somehow, I hope it will be okay for both of us. I don't know...I really hate myself. It's just that everything feels like it's my fault. I can never please someone no matter how hard I try. And, although the didn't say it, I know that they really hate me, but they are just pretending to like me
I get it.. we’ll that’s what most people say but I just wanna let you know that I love you and that if you need anything I am here for you. I get the suicidal feeling. I recently lost a very good friend of mine to drugs and if any of you are struggling this bad I’m here for you to vent too. I love you all and I want you to be safe.
dont worry same
Hugggg! It’s a hug for you! :D
I love how at the end its sort of like a relaxing song to relax you after the pain you were just thinking of
to everyone, who reads this: Well done! You`re so strong. You can handle everything. You`re really a wonderful person.
strong? no the only way i call myself strong is for holding back every thought ive ever had
This made me smile. /gen
Apparently my parents don't,all they want me to do is chores all day and I'm super sheltered from the outside world....I called cps on them but clearly that wasn't enough ....
Do you remember those sweet memories of ours? Do you remember the park where we used to play? The ducks we'd see? Those lovely orange trees? I was always slower than you, when we raced there. You kept on running. You did not care. And when you beat me, we laughed instead. Because it didn't matter if you were ahead. We felt alive, we were not dead. Did you hear me? We were not dead. "..." I remember the trees. I remember the skies, the clouds. We'd stay until night before we would depart. You said you did not want to leave, every time. Every day and every night. Because It broke your heart. Which was funny to me, Because every morning and afternoon You knew where I’d be, we would be back soon. We would be back soon… “...." ...Did you know, we would be here? Stuck here in this room? While I’m in this chair, waiting here for you? To open those eyes one last time. To laugh like we used to? ...you should have told me you were running out of time. I’m so angry at you. I'm pissed. I hate you. I don’t want to have to miss you. I don’t want to one day forget, Those memories we shared. "..." I won't remember everything. On my own, without you here, To share those memories, we hold so dear. Please don’t let me forget you. I don't want to forget. I don't want to die and meet you there, At those trees, To turn to me and say, "Do you remember those sweet memories of ours?"
this actually brings back memories of someone that I used to know 😭 tysm, that was beautiful
this is , bewitching .
Thank you…. For making me smile
*We are not dead.* That hits hard man..
This is so nostalgic. It fits my old childhood friend group. I miss them.
Things I always hear (might end up as a vent) : “You are so emotional” “You're such a crybaby” “Crocodile tears” “Why are you “depressed”?” “All you do is think about death” “Why are you so interested in death” “You were so extroverted when you were young, what happened?” “Why don't you socialize?” I don't know, I never knew what happened to me. I don't know what hit me so hard that I can't talk to people. I don't know what made me have such a hard time to socialize. I don't know why I'm so emotional, why I'm such a crybaby. I wish I could stop being so emotional, or even start socializing but it's so hard. I want to stop, but I don't know how. If I ask their help for these issues, they always push it away. I wish I knew. I really wish I did.
I wish I wasn't the way I am and was different But i am what I loathe
PureMarz Same
lmfao u can put onion skin( balat sibuyas in tagalog) meaning ur like an onion a lil peel will make u cry
... *You hugs them so tightly and pet their head
Don't worry, you can cry all you want. I always cry, and never miss a day, year, or month to not crying. And it is okay to be emotional, I just put on a happy face and wear makeup to cover up some marks and my face, and then ACTION, put on a show that I'm fine and live a happy life but I'm not😁😁. Everyone believed it so easily, and people just hate me. SO DON'T WORRY!!!!!!!! I'M HERE!!!
POV: you cry to playlists like this and cry because some of these songs are so true and u can’t vent to anyone else because no one else understands you so you might as well cry instead of being with someone who makes u cry.
“Your life is perfect I would die for your life any day” would u now?
"Now quit crying, that won't work on me." I've been told this so many times by my grandparents and still told it to this day. They used to tell me to "quit being so sensitive" or they'd cheer me up.
0:01 Aliens blues - vundabar 2:35 Freaks - Surf Curse Breezeblocks - alt-J 8:48 i cant handle change - Roar 12:07 unfair - the neighbourhood 15:07 Blackout Days - Phantogram 18:25 Dark red - stevey lacy 20:54 Washing mashine heart 23:01 Hey kids - molina 24:11 Fallen down slowed
ty
Thx
Thanks you man 😁😁😁
Here's the timestamp for breezeblocks 5:00
Thanks bro u a life saver
"your a disappointment" "coward" "shameful" "disgusting" "useless" ....it's too loud in my head....too many voices....too many alters....
Uhhhhh....please ;_; can i vent to you????
@@rollypolly9784 go for it
“Go away, you only cause trouble, why are you so stressed no one did anything your just being sensitive, you should go, stop being like this, your so dramatic, life isn’t even that hard, be more grateful” -my parents
I’m so so sorry! parents are supposed to be loving and kind! not rude! I just want you to know that you did nothing wrong to deserve this, they’re just not good people, and don’t want to parent the beautiful soul you are. you’re so unique, and you did NOTHING to deserve this… I promise ❤️
is it sad I find this relatable?
Woo, it’s vent time! I went to a therapist recently, and apparently there is a reason for why I can’t seem to accomplish anything anymore. The social and general anxiety is crippling at this point. I can’t handle school or even ordering or buying things in person because it feels like I can’t breathe and can’t speak. I pretty much shut down in fear of doing something wrong, and I have no idea why this issue came into my life (nothing really happened). The anxiety is teaming up with a strong dose of depression that keeps me in bed all day. I can’t build up the will to draw, paint, read a book (my hobbies), or even just brush my teeth. I cut off all my friends. I haven’t spoken to any friends or acquaintances since around January (like 6 months ago?). I have no friends anymore, and I’m so damn lonely. I just can’t function anymore, and am falling behind. My grades have dropped from 90s to 70 and 50s, and grade 12 is my last year that has to go well. I have not genuinely looked forward to something in years, I always dread anything to come, be it good or bad. I would say one good thing to happen is that I stopped hurting myself (hitting my arms until they were cover elbow to wrist in dark purple bruises and welts that last weeks), but the only reason I seem to have stopped is because I feel like I don’t have the energy to do it anymore. Seems like I can’t even get that right. I really am just the embodiment of a disappointment. My parents had such high hopes for me, being the only child of three to glide through school and be academic, but I’m failing in that (the only thing I had going for me). Just to add to the bullshittery, my cat (best friend I had since I was five) died a couple months ago, because of fucking cancer, which we treated her for and she was getting better. Then after that (which caused me to spiral into a more depressed state), my great grandmother died, and she was basically just our grandmother because she practically raised my mom. It all just sucks, and I really don’t know what to do anymore. I’m miserable. But I can’t even seem to wallow in my misery because I feel like I’m just too tired to care anymore. I can’t seem to care about myself. Offing myself has been on the table for years and I’ve thought out plans (with a friend that I’ve now cut off, it was a pact in a way, wait til we’re 18), but I’ve never been able to go through with them. I can’t just abandon my pets like that, who would take care of them? My mom wouldn’t be able to handle that either, she would probably try to go with me. If it didn’t hurt my family or my animals then I would probably be dead by now. For now, I guess I’ll just wait until I mess up enough for them to not miss me anymore, and quietly take my leave. Sorry this is written so poorly, normally I’m more eloquent, but I just can’t be bothered.
Are you okay now op?
I'm really sorry for you, I know how you feel and I hope you get better:(
damn gl bro
Damn. I really hope you're ok and continue to get better. I wouldn't know anything since I'm a 13 yr old boy, but- I know this world is cruel, and unforgiving. It's not you that's the problem, it's the world we live in. None of us are perfect. I hope you get through this. I can't even imagine the pain you are going through. But I hope you can escape that pain, and find self care and happiness. I don't know who you are, but you weren't just born for nothing.
This world is cruel. I really hope you can get better❤ You deserve anything and everything you want because even though I am a stranger I can see that you have a heart of gold. Sorry for this being short and sending love, A Friend
“I NEVER FUCKING LOVED YOU” “YOU NEVER SHUT UP DO YOU?” “I WISH I NEVER MET YOU.” Those words, everything they said…i wish i never existed.
Hey, don't say that you being here and born is a blessing believe it or not. I may not know you but it's very nice that your out here living even if it's a struggle, you'll be able to surpass this pain that's happening to you, and to those people who hurt you with those words forget them and try focusing on yourself more and you'll eventually value yourself and figure out those people are missing out on a wonderful person, I hope you have a marvelous day if possible
@@white6874 thank you so much.
@@beccithelovergirlxx No problem! I hope you're doing much better
Who said that to you who ever they are their a #itch and f#ck them them deserve to suffer does no one realize girls are not #ucking crybaby it just we are told so much shit and we feel like disappointments and I' know not just girls feel like disappointments boy do to so stop it's not cool or funny people have feelings a emotion of the human body YOU ARE NOT A DISAPPOINTMENT U R AWESOME
We all have been there :(
listening to this at 11pm after having the biggest mental breakdown while scrolling on the disney fandoms page, making a oc based off of yourself, and having school in the morning hits different.
Do you know what's best to see? how people from different countries, continents, regions and states listen to the same music. We are getting closer. I'm Russian, for example, and I write through an interpreter. and I'm happy to see some people write their concerns here to get support.
как же тут много иностранцев, но все мы слушаем одно и то же, и это круто, музыка сплочает нас всех. для меня музыка это моя жизнь, без наушников никуда, какая бы музыка там ни была, музыка это то, чем я дышу, спасибо за все, что вы все ещё держитесь, и за почтение❤️
Ох понимаю тебя, держись тоже 🫂
Согласна😽😽
Я согластна с вами , но возможность всегда брать с собой наушники проподает , но ничего страшного . Удачи вам !
спасибо добрый незнакомец
I dont speak your language so I translated your comment. I completely agree with you! You most likely cannot understand this, unless of course you translate, but you’re speaking complete facts, my guy.
To everyone who reads this. Ur enough, don’t push urself on something u can’t do. U will only get hurt even more.
dude, this is my normal playlist, it has all the songs i listen to on repeat on here, and the picture is to relatable
POV : Ayou feel like all you ever do just go’s down the drain when all you have ever wanted is recognition from one of the few people who you look up to. Yet you never get it. . .
I've been reading some of these comments, it's really sickening what some parents do to their kid, they should have known that it would be a lot of work, yet they neglect/ abuse them, it's so sad and I wish that upon no one, everyone should be loved and respected, if you've experienced any kind of abuse or your parents neglect you, please talk to someone, I love you
HEY SAME THAT'S WHAT IM SAYING TOO
I want to talk to people abt how the fact my parents neglect and bodyshame me and put things into my head that i'm trying not to believe are true and honestly school isn't even my safe place anymore. I can't even be safe in my own room.
@@Starb3rr13s__ I'm so sorry this is happening to you, just remember that none of this is your fault and that you're perfect just the way you are, no matter what people say, it'll get better, I love you
6:25 yes she hit right on a dime
S o true 6:25
"Im a disappointment,I stay up till sunrise and not even the sun wants to shine bright at me,I hide I over-think, i look behind and turn around in terror. The rain spits at me even the clouds hide the sun from me anyway."
I hoped this would be the first song of the playlist
@@alinakondratyev1844 lol
I try so hard to get better and everytime I try i end up here after days weeks months of trying not to be suicidal or depressed shit...but they say u will fail u won't win i don't care but somewhere i side it still hurts...
@@alinakondratyev1844 what song?
@@junoo6420 oh damn. I didn't read the full comment. I meant the song that starts with: "I'm a disappointment I stay up, take drugs and miss appointments..." My bad 😁
Listening to these kinds of music makes me feel like the time stopped and while listening im thinking about my problems and how to fix them , it's like it gives me time to think and process what is happening around me and it just comforts me so much
When i was younger i was told that crying is for the weak and it's disgusting. Now i'm older and crying is like a relief for me. But sadly i can't cry when people are around since i still believe those past words. Deep down i always wanted someone to comfort me but never got it. This is why i cry alone in my room and that's what i'm not scared of. Just sometimes life pressures too much and you need to let it out. I get too emotional over some videos with sad music and grey filters. How fucked am i?
Pretty fucked up, BUT I am too... Trauma from people happens.
Yep I can relate.
bro i cry hopig sum1 would hear me but the only tjing they hear is some ugly species making their daily noise
I’m sorry! Crying doesn’t mean your weak, it means you have been strong for too long. I’m so sorry about what they said, but.. just know it’s not true and you did nothing to deserve it! :)
@@liz--zil8113 yeah, it can't be avoided, sadly. Hope you are doing better
since this seems like a venting space, i hope you don’t mind… TW: mentions of sa from the young age of 2, my father got thrown in jail, leaving my mother alone. during that time, she gave me and my brother all her time… it was nice and comforting , i felt loved. but everything changed when she met my stepfather. she started becoming only more interested in him.. effectively abandoning me and my brother- emotionally. she got so distant to the point that.. she didn’t even realise that i got fucking raped by my stepfathers son .. AT THE AGE OF 10-12. it really shows how much concern she had for me. later on when i was 13, i gained consciousness of the situation and started maturing… eventually realising that what happened to me wasn’t normal, and that started the downfall of my fucking sanity dissipating. my mother became more demanding.. stayed put by my stepfathers word,, like she’s his dog or smth. i dislike it so much… he judges me for literally everything… the way i look.. the way i walk.. the way i even look at things. she seems his judgement as correct. swayed by his judgement and his hate for me, during the first covid lockdown, she took every electronic device away, and the internet. this genuinely made me want to cry, i resorted to attempting to shift into different realities, i was going insane due to the silent 9 hours that i had to stay at nyhouse every day , wait it until my mother came home. regardless, it’s gotten to the point where for the past few months i’ve been realising that i’ve been so fucking manipulated by my mother during the time that my stepfather moved in with it, always fucking prioritising him . all that i’m used for is just … cleaning. she doesn’t talk to me, just shouts at me to go be useful. the thing that’s making it unbearable at the moment.. i’m currently in my exam season. she has no fucking empathy, i’ve been struggling with this shitty mood (i have suspicions of depression but i don’t want to self diagnose) and my energy levels have gone past rock bottom… yet she expects me to clean half the house with such little energy and during exam season. i don’t even have the fucking energy to get out of bed and eat or brush my teeth. it requires do muchcefffort, i just want to be loved, i want to be accepted.
From what I'm hearing you're a strong warrior ,and Other people will accept and love you more than your mother ever will. I hope this comforts you
Im sorry but hope things get better for you sending love❤️❤️❤️❤️
I am so sorry you are living all this i hope one day you will get out of that house and be happy
I'm so sorry :'(
i’m so incredibly sorry that you’re going through that, as soon as you’re of age i advise you to get out of your house as quickly as possible. it sounds like it’s incredibly draining for your mental health and nobody deserves that. i hope your family comes to realize what they’ve done. you’re incredibly strong for going through this. you are loved♡︎♡︎
*fun fact* I'm a middle child and generally feel like this 24/7 but with 'so' and 'whatever' I'm practically depended on hiding my sadness Edit: also creator you made me cry listening to 1/4 of my playlist in this video so thanks (that was meant in a good-ish way)
I'm an only child an I feel like that
Mira, eres increíble en todos los sentidos y no puedes rendirte. Tus calificaciones no te definen, tu apariencia no te define y Dios te ama. Así que no te rindas. Incluso si las cosas no van bien en este momento, está bien. Te quiero tal y como eres. Translate that. >3
Coming from an emotionally abusive home.. this playlist really helps.. especially with my mental health so thank you
I said jsut a fews comemtn up that i would like to meet someoen i nthe same sitaution as me but i wish they don't have that kind of life and yo uhave it. Ifeel so ssorry for you, seriusouly if i say what my aprens had done to me, i could be banned for omse of them
I’m just going to vent… TW: suicidal thoughts Ever since I was little, my parents always expected me to be perfect. They just threw me in whatever activity they wanted me to do and expected me to be perfect at it. They say everything that I actually want to do in stupid and that what they want me to do will make me a better person. At school, my friends just use me and after they are done, they just walk away and don’t talk anymore. I felt like I wanted to kill myself but was scared too tell my parents about it. So as an alternative, I started cutting my wrist. I still have my plan of either overdosing or jumping in my head and the only thing stopping me is the very faint glimmer of hope that someone will accept me. People are constantly blaming me for all of their problems even though none of them has to do with me, making me feel even worse about myself and that I am the cause of the misery of everyone around me. I developed a habit of saying sorry for everything that goes wrong as it is a habit that I never broke out of. Even now I still feel those thoughts and feel like I can never be happy. …thank you for listening to my shit of a story
@@itsana6794_ thank you so much. I really appreciate you helping me, a random stranger
I hope ur ok i feel bad for saying this but I feel the same and I don’t know I long I can handle it anymore I’ve lost everyone that was keeping me alive they all left and turned against me btw this doesn’t make u any less important xx
Im sorry for this :( Don't give up! This fake friends didn't deserve you. I am your friend now and will scare these people in dreams who are bothering you. I had a similar situation. I did everything what she wanted. And at the end she left me. My familiy abuse me and say that is all my fault. You are not alone! We go together trough this, yea?! ❤️ A tip: Make small steps, e.g drink a cup water or eat a delicious red apple uuum :3 And whenever you feel tired take a rest. You are allowed to feel tired, you are a human tho! I give you many hugs, so much you need. You are beautiful and loved. I love youu and I believe in you! Everything will be ok! Good night ❤️
Hey I really hope you didn’t go through with your plan, are you doing okay?
Hey i hope you are doing okay. I can relate to ur comment as it literally is what is happening every single day of my life and what not even my teachers dislike me
Everyone tells me I'm not a disappointment, but I feel like I am.
Hi there @Horrorfan123! I know what it feel like, people place high hope on you and when you fail, you happen to feel miserable and find it hard to get over those mistake. I have been through this and I was so scare to tell anyone especially my family that I fail in the most important part of my life. But when instead of tearing me even deeper they help hands and try to find solution, I feel like I didn't deserve so much love and support but that what people do when they love you, they help. Hope this little message and show you that you are not alone.
For anyone who needs it *virtual hug*♥️
thanks, but i didn't feel something anyways
The reason why I looked for this playlist is because if you have a bad day, nobody there to help you, Strangers can just make your day in a few minutes. Edit: Hi everyone! I hope you have a lovely day, feel free to vent out in the replies I'll be here for uu ♡♡♡♡
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irl friends are not here for you, virtual friends are, why?
@@cut3coree_ fr duh
I don't have virtual friends either lol
that's the only fucking reason why I am still alive. I listen to playlists like this because music helps me to deal with all that shit. But when I read the comments I feel worthy. Strangers in the comment section make me cry in a good way and my "friends" never achieved such thing. I just love the community of these playlists, because we help each other without knowing what the fuck everyone is going through.
Just a few days ago I tried to end it but if my girlfriend wasn't there I probably would have, that showed me people care about Remember that you guys, girls, non-binary, etc. you are loved no matter what so don't end it please
the same goes for you, I'm really happy your girlfriend had helped you, please never end it I'm here for you
Yeah I don't want to end it now. I need to reach my 30 checkmark! That is the last one
why u tryna end it while u have a gf bro dont leave em behind
This goes to prove how cruel yet kind humanity can be.
My head was a mess before listening to this, it still is but the music slayed my life! It worked for like 10 minutes of my life
This playlist makes me feel I’m not ✨crazy✨
[Vent] Topic contains sexual harassment I was recently sexually harassed and drugged in the process this week on Wednesday, my closest friends were able to track and find me and since then they’ve told my family to keep me locked up for 4 days, I’ve felt so disgusted and uncomfortable in my body that I hate looking at myself even for a sec, many of those who I thought were my friends blamed me for what happened and some have even called me a whore and slut shammed me, I feel like ending it all, I hate the disgusting feeling inside of me and I don’t feel like I can be considered a “victim”…idk how I’ll be able to face reality again..it just feels so embarrassing being around people knowing what happened, it was all such a terrifying experience that I’ll never forget..thank you for listening.
i get your feeling. as an sa survivor at such a young age. that feeling of disgust is very relatable or people victim shaming (or family/friends not believing and finding as a joke/dream). the pain and trauma doesnt go away after time (though it does get better) but just know there are others who also experienced the same things. you are not alone
I am so sorry that you went through all that. No one deserves to harassed in any way and I hate it when people think its ok to do it. Another thing, I’m also sorry that all I’m texting right now is an apology. It’s all I can reply with in this state, since I don’t really know how to properly comfort people. But I hope you are doing ok and I hope things are getting better for you
Hey, it is hard getting over this, I was too sexually harassed. It is not easy but you will get better over time. A thing that helped me a lot was going to therapy, being able to talk to someone who is not judging you and wants to help is very helpful. You are going to be okay, I believe in you. You are strong and capable, do not let that situacion ruin you. Remember that you are the victim, you did not want any of that to happen, it is not your fault. Do not let others opinion take the best of you, do not listen to them, they did not went through what you did so they do not have the right to judge you. You are strong and you will get out of that horrible situacion, just believe in yourself and remember: asking for help is okay, crying is okay, being sick of everything is okay, you will feel better, you are a victim, but you are strong. Do not let others determine how you should feel. I hope you get better, I know you will. I support you, and many will. Take care and have a good life, you deserve a happy and beautiful life
same but it's almost every day, hang in there!
My mom was recently put through a very similar situation by someone she thought she could trust. Just keep hanging in there, just remember that you have the support of at least one random stranger on the internet.
They expect you to act like what you look like. They don't know how that makes YOU feel. Whether your gay,bi,pan whatever if your family thinks down on you for your gender or for who you love, don't listen to them. Love who you love and be who you want to be
this playlist just hit me like a bus with the first song, too accurate
Alien Blues will do that
Pov : you overthink about what you will do once you get a job, and grow up and life sooner turns way harder than you expected.
To everyone who sees this. You're doing great :) ( i know its really hard for you guys but please keep trying
I wish i was doing great but i can only lie about my feelings
@@anaa7512 i feel u, same
your pfp is my google bg
@@ihatemymom.1383 ok
@@ihatemymom.1383 I hate my mom too
I tried telling my mom that I was super depressed. I was literally having a breakdown. She just looked disgusted the whole time and said “grow up.” I realized she really doesn’t care
I'm so sorry. I hope you have someone there for you..❤ it will get better. I promise just keep going..❤
"there is something suffocating in my heart, feels like my heart is being squeezed and i want to let it all out by crying but no tears came"
"Why am i never GOOD ENOUGH?! I DID WHAT YOU ASKED, I CLEANED THE WHOLE DAMN HOUSE, AM I NOT DOING IT RIGHT? Just tell me what i did wrong so i can get better... Or leave me alone."
It's near impossible to please them
@@-_erebus_-8721 Agreed- thats why im happy i moved out of the mf house and i live with my dad now. People say i shouldnt, but i cant shake this feeling of hate for my mom and older brother because of this
Hows your behavior that's why there still mad if its bad but if its good then I'm not sure just make sure you check how your tone and what way you respond and it might change just trnna help
@@cheynnedanielle1116 they ask me to clean the whole house, I do just that and they proceed to tell me I didn’t do it well enough, then clean the whole place again mumbling about me the whole time
They degrade you to feel powerful and I assure you its not your fault you did nothing wrong i get it and im always here to listen if u need it
I need to tell you, that this playlist is so comfort and I really enjoy it
after a while coming back here feels like a burst of emotions, although to anyone reading this i hope that whatever you all are going through gets better and i wish you all the best
Time lapses Alien Blues (by Vundabar) - 0:00 - 2:34 Freak (by Surf curse) - 2:34 - 4:59 Alt-j (by breezeblocks) - 4:59 - 8:47 I can't handle change (by ROAR) - 8:47 - 12:05 Unfair (by The neighborhood) 12:05 - 15:04 Black out days (speed up) (by Phantogram) - 15:04 - 18:22 Dark red (speed up) (by Steve lancy) - 18:22 - 20:53 Washing machine heart (by Mitski) - 20:53 - 23:00 Hey kids (by be the cowboy) - 23:00 - 24:09 Fallen down (slowed) (by Undertale) 24:09 - 28:56
I wanted to vent so here you go: I lived in a rather broken asian family, my dad got addicted to alcohol and my mom was just there. She was very supportive at first when i was a kid. She taught me everything basically and sometime when i do something wrong, she would yelled at me because thats how i got in line everytime. Due to my dad non stop beating me, my two sisters up, she divorced him and moved on. My dad now remarried again in Germany and have three or four kids (don't know how many). And then everything changed. i hit 18, my mom started to acted strange. She said it was for my own good, so that when i get married or have a job, peoples won't judge me. She changed a lot after my older sis got married, i still remember her crying a lot and yelled at me when i did something wrong that day. I didn't care because she was sad that my sis was gone so i keep my mouth shut and listen to everything she said. She started to ask more and more and to the point where i would cry in a separate room before continue doing what she asked. She would beat me, yelled at me and then one moment later, turn around and give me nice thing. For years, i thought she was just doing her job as a mom and that i was a brat for asking too much. But i never asked her any too much, i would alway stared at the new stuff before moving on and acted like it wasn't there or when i have spare change left, i would buy it and hide it from her. I lived on eggshells around her, like one wrong breath of air from me would make her pissed off and beat me. I was scared, hurt and genuinely lived in constant confusion. For days, i would make sure everything i do is perfect, every place was spotless, hoped that she would leave me alone. There are days she would and days she would find any mistake possible and blame me for it. Now, i'm on the verge of breaking down completely and just give up everything. She smashed my phone and my older sister didn't help me much because she take her side and all i have left is just a small hope of graduate and get the hell out of my house.
Your loved, You matter, life is worth living, your perfect, There is always someone there for you, you just have to find them. Its ok to not be ok.
I support you all the way from the other side of the world you mean so much to everyone here you deserve sm better
my stars that's awful, i hope you find somewhere safe and away from her soon
Ah, I remember. One time in school, I don't know what grade, but I got 2nd place. I didn't get with high honors, and didn't get 1st place. So, my mother screamed at me, hit me, ignored me for most of the time, and even started to degrade me. It lowered my self esteem, so now I am terrefied to get 2nd place, with honors, and failure. Just a small vent.
Im sorry hope things get better for you❤️❤️❤️
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Im so sorry that you got a SHIT PARENT; but, I hope you're in a better place, away from the WITCH.
I’m proud of you for waking up. I’m proud of you for brushing your hair. I’m proud of you for blinking. I’m proud of you for breathing. I’m proud of you for making your bed. I’m proud of you for eating. I’m proud of you for TRYING to eat. I’m proud of you for drinking water. I’m proud of you for being here. I’m proud of you for being you. I’m proud of you for smiling. I’m proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for blinking. I’m proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed. I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for sitting down. I’m proud of you for defending yourself. I’m proud of you for believing in yourself. I’m proud of you for simply trying. I’m proud of you for being alive. IM PROUD OF YOU. ♥
You don't know how bad this made me cry. It's random people on the Internet like you that keeps me going.
Thankyou x
im crying rn i feel like its made for me whoever made this i love u💗
Thanks to all the people leaving these nice compliments and comforting people on the internet like me, yall really do make my whole night when I read them to the point I cry. Thank you. :)
I'm hugging you from the other side of the world, stay safe
virtual hugs man stay safe out here
to anyone seeing this or dealing with depression, you’re doing amazing!
Thank you
@@ashleyhernandez3844 of course!
@@lacey7113 thank you.
I know you typed this comment a month ago but thank you
thank you sm
"wish I never had kids🙄" "Want me to give you a reason to cry??!" "Ungrateful to everything I give you yet you give me this!?" "Stop crying my parents (just makes it Abt themselves)" Having told these my entire. Life was told I was a accident my entire life been physically abused mentally verbally sexually yet I get shot down and made to think it was all my fault how my emotions never mattered
28 minutes of peace, some kind of blue and sad vibe, feeling empty and enjoying. thank u so much:)
I am the disappointment with the best grades in all of my classes. I am the disappointment which has clean room 24/7. I am the disappointment that always respect oldest and youngest ppl. I am the disappointment that always look after herself. I am the disappointment that always next to ppl when they need help. I am the disappointment that cleans all house after everyone else including myself. I am the disappointment that never lied to her parents. I am the disappointment that is always worser than her friends. I am the disappointment....
you just described my life right now. im glad someone could relate to me, fk
I am the exact same way. "Clean the house" "A B is a bad grade" "Try harder" "Respect people better" "Be nice" "You should go on a diet" We try our best but we are never good enough.
I feel the same. I hope it gets better for you and I love you, stay strong❤❤
So there's someone that could be relate to me
me too. I really love how perfectly you described me.
Oh I’m finally crying again..! letting it all out feels good but terrible at the same time :(:)
kinda vent im tryna help i once cried so much i couldnt cry anymore id just look at the screen... broken eyes. and when i did cry i let it all out cause i havent cried in so long until i realized crying made me not cry. so i held my tears back so i could cry when i want to IT WORKED
@@jelly_queen5165 damn bro amazin!
You know it’s gonna be good when you see you’ve already listened to the whole thing
To whoever reads this, i love you i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love your insecurities i love your accomplishments i love your failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you on your sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stresses i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you move i love the way you act i love you when you cry i love you when you're kind i love you when you're mean i love you when you're alone i love you when you can't feel i love you when you feel too much i love you when you can't take life anymore i love you when you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you when you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you when you don't believe in yourself i love you when you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you when you're in pain i love you when you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love your wounds i love your scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you when you lie i love you when you’re excited i love you when you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you when you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you when you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you when you have a headache i love you when you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you need help i love you when you're mature i love you when you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you when life is meh i love you when you're responsible i love you when you're irresponsible i love you when you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love you at your worst i love the little things you do i love the major things you do i love your nose i love your eyes i love your mouth i love your teeth i love your forehead i love your height i love your lips i love your eyebrows i love your body hair i love your chin i love your cheeks i love your eyelashes i love your freckles (or lack of) i love your head i love your body weight i love everything about you as the therapist friend i really hoped this helped all the poor souls that need a hug i wish i knew this sooner but in order to love yourself, you need to stop loving the people that bring you down, as tough as it might be.. i promise.. you‘ll feel a weight fall off your shoulders just so you know, i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪. From the stranger on the internet who loves you :)
Thank you. you brought tears to my eyes, I’ve needed to hear this or to see someone write it. thank you ❤ hope you have an amazing rest of your day please be this kind to yourself
Thank you so much, I really needed this as well. I appreciate you random stranger..❤️ this did bring me to tears as well.
thx this helps alot i just hope that the friend that bring me down understand
Ill never be good enough for them. I just want to be good enough for myself at this point, but they pushed their standards on to me so now I dont even think that I am. Its tough to get over honestly. Growing up to thibk they care, only to find out that one wasnt ready to have kids and isnt the greatest with parenting, and the other is borderline abusive without even realizing. At least things are kinda looking up after becoming an adult, but things never change easily. Finding out all this stuff along with what it could have been like is a lot.
You're enoughh, you're have always been enough. You don't need validation from your parents, you are you. You are already good enough
OOUUUCHHHHH :(( im sorry for that. parents can cause so much pain without even knowing it. im sorry they make you feel this way. i hope you feel better as you grow up. i hope time is good to you, and things get better. pls never give up
@@imnotgaybro3077 thanks
same :) DONT LISTE TO THEM I DONT WANT OTHER PEOPLE TO FEEL WHAT I AM FEELING
To all those who sees this…. I FUCKING LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! AND DONT THINK YOUR A DISAPPOINTMENT, UR NOT!!!! By the way tysm for the likes ❤️
Thank you your not a disappointment either :]
@@Jewels2845 no one is
@@izumi5950 thankyou
Idk though
@@izumi5950 we have the same pfp 😭
" I don't just want to survive, I want to live"- someone important that I can't remember
You know it’s getting bad when music makes you cry
Since everyone is telling their stories, i want to tell mine. A few years ago, i moved to a new city. that was very difficult for me since it would mean abandoning my whole life, my friends and the family that I had in my city. I had a really bad time, to the point of self-harming. It didn't take long for my mom to find out, and she did her best to make me feel better. This year I resorted to the same thing again for other, even more serious reasons. But my mom didn't have the reaction i expected. In fact, it did the complete opposite of what I expected. It hurt me really bad (it wasn't on purpose, but it hurt me a lot). Yesterday I had a very long conversation with her about everything that was happening to me and she reacted badly again. I feel so guilty.
Pls dont feel guilty it is not ur fault and i hope things will get better
I’m so sorry what happen but I learned things can get better with time
IMPORTANT EDIT: Also please please please take care of your marks or injuries and everything else, please. Take care of your scars/burns/cuts/hits. Let the injuries heal, clean them, and let your heart rest for a while. Please fight it, I believe in you, you can do it. Give yourself time, be kind to yourself. I wish you and anyone in a situation like this and their loved the best of things I wrote a really long comment but I thought it'd be better to be direct: you're not a disappointment, it's not your fault, it's NORMAL and even expected to relapse, but you need to fight it, fight the urges, I know youre strong enough, I believe in you. I moved cities a few years ago and never got used to it and self harmed too, I somewhat get you, so I wrote that long comment but I rambled too much. I just want you to know my heart goes out to you and that I wish I could tell you so many things but you surely know it all, I'm sure youre smart enough to know (even if the heart feels the other way around, which is pretty normal too) that it is not your fault, and that your mother loves you but may not know how to help you. And I REALLY want to tell you that probably youll have to find the understanding and compassion you need and deserve INSIDE OF YOU. Youll find it if you look for it, you may find just a speck of it, and of hope that you'll heal and feel and be better (you will, you will, you will, trust me), and build from it, and time will help you heal. Sorry, I started rambling again. I hope Im making sense, english isnt my language but like I said, your comment hit me close
@@fanficker6907 Thank you very very much. I think this is the first time that someone understands my feelings. I can't tell you i'm doing better, in fact, i'm doing worse but i know it's not forever. Hapiness and sadness are just moments.
@@berrakakman8338 It will, thank you very much
over the years I’ve been alive, I’ve been hiding my true emotions from the world. I always put on a smiling face, trying my best to make people happy and smile. but on the inside, I was crying. I never reached out for help, instead I just hid my emotions, I still do till this day. I feel as if I’m a burden to everyone, and if I show my true emotions I’ll be worse than a burden to people. I gained major trust issues over the years, people would always promise they would stay, and then days later, they would leave. people lie so much to me, use me, manipulate me, hurt me, etc. a quote I made up is, “You Never Realize How Lonely You Truly Are Until You Have Friends, And They All Ignore You.” that’s a quote that I will always remember, because it’s true for me, I have so many friends, yet they all seem to not care for me, and ignore me.
Why.. Why is this so true? Like this was part of my life at one point...
I love this playlist it helps me deal with emotions i love music. And my whole life im moving from one place to another
why does all of my favorite songs in this playlist? I love this playlist sm. Nowadays, i listen to this playlist when I feel depressed. Thank you for this
I went through so much, I'm used to degradation, I'm the therapist friend, and when *I* snap, I'm the bad guy. It's not fair. I want to be happy when I'm praised, not scared and assuming my dad's on something. I want paragraphs on why I didn't deserve what happened to me. I wanted memories with my mom and dad when I was younger. I can't handle when people yell at me. I've drank to cure my boredom, but no. I get bored when I drink. I'm used to people leaving me. My dad isn't around, and my mom ain't the best. I'm used to being compared. I hate myself. I'm not scared to die. I go through all of that, and I rant to my friends, and all I get in return is oof. I went through all of that and yet i'm the kind friend who listens to everyone's problems. It's like my problems don't even matter. I'm alone in this busy world. I'm so lucky I have a loving girlfriend who knows what I went through, and makes me feel loved despite my flaws.
“I am just a phase”
To everyone who feel like a disappointment : I’d like to tell you that everything is gonna be okay but most of us are fed up to hear this every single day without any changes. So, what I’m going to say is: nothing is going to be better if you listen to the one telling you that you are a disappointment, either that it’s other, or yourself. You’re enough. You’ve already done all you could and nobody can tell you otherwise. If people tells you that you didn’t did enough, it’s usually because they feel that THEY didn’t and put it on you. You don’t have to listen to them. Every days, repeat yourself : I’m enough. I do everything that I can. Every morning, you’ll wake up and you can’t do anything about it. You have to hold on. You’re not a disappointment ; people just don’t deserve you. If you ever feel down, take a blanket, a paper and some snack. Go in a place where you’re alone. Go in the blanket and write everything you think on the paper. You can shout on people, on yourself, cry by writing everything on the paper. Read it when you’re over and burn it. Then eat a little bit if you can and don’t forget to drink too. If you can’t, it’s not your fault, everything is okay. Just do this every time that you don’t feel okay. If you need to talk to someone, I can listen. ❤