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"The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked" . That fucking hit man
Deep, my friend
@Brannon Williams OMG 😢How are you now? Definitely a hard hit to your soul.
@Brannon Williams I’m hoping everything is going good for you now. It’s not easy to be brave to stay alive, but you were given a second chance and one can only hope you have the strength now to keep fighting ❤️
Dude The whole fucking song hit. especially when its relatable, listening to the lyrics hit like a truck.
FACTS
Some people say that lyrics about suicide encourage those feelings. For me, it made me feel like I wasn't alone and the struggle I was going through was valid. This song honestly helped me a lot. Suicide is a huge problem that needs to be talked about. It's only a problem when shows like the one that lists 13 reasons why suicide is a good idea capitalize off of glorifying the act for drama. To whoever's reading this, you're not alone, people care about you and there is a light at the end of the tunnel; depression is just a cloth over your eyes that keeps you from seeing it.
Friend i could not agree more!!
Exactly, people that say that probably aren't depressed.Fight fire with fire, a sad song is a great way for the artist to vent or help others and for the audience to relate.
That's the problem! Avoid stuff! My father beat me, suicide looked good. I supported him to the age of 38! What a weak geek! He said he would kill my mother an sister if I left! He died 17 years ago! Terrible thing it is that u are glad your fathers dead! But I have been free for the past 17 years! My point is don't give up! That's why I am still alive!
When he sang "I had nothing to write about" I knew I wasn't alone. Someone else understands what it's like having everything on your mind but nothing to say. Please pull through. Maybe you don't believe this but I want you to know Jesus loves you. You're not alone and I hope everything turns out good for you.
Ghost helps with coping..they saved many a people...
"I am afraid that all the blood escaping me won't end the pain and I'll be haunting all the lives that care for me" is basically what keeps me around.
Same.
In the old days we were taught to cope with trauma and knew life wasn't fair. I believe it's the idea that bad wasn't ment to happen and is only bad. Some things nobody should experience but the rest are how we become our best selves. If I'd been born these days I'd have green hair and cut my thing off for sure cause I pushed the limits back than but in time I learned to handle things and to not ever expect anyone to care more about me than me. Hope you feel better cause feelings can't be controlled really. Those without are so lucky but also the problem the rest of us struggle with. Your worthy and someone's favorite person no matter who you are.
@@donaldhitman6724 exactly!! Please watch What is a Woman! and also watch anything about Mind control.... we are under a group of evil people who want us sick and hurting!
I'm glad your still around🤘
I feel this completely!
The lyric, "This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one", hits me so hard
Might not be a next one
@@johnwilliams1186 for me, it'd be oh well.
Sometimes same here.
Same 🧡
Same here @chloemccain8900
“maybe I’m alive cause I didn’t really wanna’ die..” it’s been almost two years since my battle and I still relate to this...
No matter how dark the night, the sun always comes up. Dont waste your short time here:)
❤️so glad you’re still here
Keep fighting, you’re important ❤️
shane brady that reminds me of the Shinedown quote from The Sound of Madness “ the darkest hours never come in the night “
"You may say you don't want to live, but when tossed in the ocean, you struggle for the surface."
"Nothing very special ever happens in my life" and "This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one". I feel both those lyrics with every fiber of my being
Hey, hope you're ok.
@@quotidian5077 thank you! Just taking it day by day to 💕
:(
@@dylanfitch2997 keep on keeping on!
Everyday of my life
Every line of this song is genius.
"the cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked". Felt that
There are a few lines from this song they're too Heavy Hitters. That's definitely one of them.
Waited there forever and no one even looked up. This line hits a nerve with me.
me tio
We see you brother.
Your comment sounds like you are an attention hound he is just sing a song I doubt he actually tried to kill himself he is just trying to make a statement about the way the world is going
@@rnk0716 Shut the fuck up. You probably don't understand what it's like to feel the pain of suicide, and how hard those couple of words hit you when you hear them. They are fucking soul-crushing. They hurt. Now get the fuck off of the internet. We don't need people like you making everybody's lives harder and more painful. Go fuck yourself while you're at it.
Yes. Bc so sad but true.
"I should have told my mother that I loved her, I'm a bad son." It just hits like lightning into my soul.
I know what you mean
Never past decisions don’t make u. Regrets are just learning experiences to show us to love harder and more truer. Love from MGK
i could say it, but i know they dont think it back
The only reason I'm still here.
"I should've loved you like a good son
My son took his life 3/29/21. He wrote out 4 lines from this song to me 10 months before that. This is "his song" when I hear it. "I should have told my mom, mom I love you like a good son, but this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one"
Unfortunately, I've felt that way since I was 7 and I've tried more times than I can count. I'll be 51 this year. I'm so sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry for you loss. I instantly started crying after I read your comment. I cannot imagine what you are going through and I will pray that you find peace, or some facsimile
I'm sorry for your loss! Can't imagine losing a child. That same line hits me hard. My mother was dying from cancer in Michigan and my dad who lived near me in Florida passed suddenly of liver failure. Wish I could have been there for my mom. She was 61 and my dad was 60. If it wasn't for my brother I would have taken my life by now. I was 26 when my parents passed and almost lost my brother to fentanyl 6 weeks later. Truly I'm sorry for the loss of your son!
I'm so so sorry for your loss, my heart aches for you, I too have a son with the Angels ❤
sorry to hear that. it's tough, some times things just happen so fast and its been hard enough to just live on your own, it becomes easy to overlook subtle hints. only after when things fully set in do the signs become clearer sadly
I remember when I first heard this song I had to pull over because I burst into tears. If you struggle with depression like I do just know that you are not alone. It gets better I promise.
Timothy Daly happens to me all the time this song hits a piece of my core I can’t explain
I've struggled with suicidal thoughts and tendencies for years and even now I'm in a good place I have a beautiful pregnant girlfriend who loves me and an amazing mom and sister and her boyfriend is amazing too so are his kids just don't want them to find me dead in the bathroom
When??
it gets better ive had that gun to my head many times it wasnt until i sobered up till i recognized how precious and short this life really is i have severe panic attacks whenever i pass a cemetary or funeral today i am scared to die im not ready to meet my maker
Sure it does...
The last line... makes me cry. “This life is overwhelming and I’m ready for the next one”
Imagining there is a next life with different possibilities is what kept me from ending it. Takes the pressure off of yourself, because so many believe they only have one shot at being happy. I guess the imagined idea of there being other worlds just keeps my mind in wonder more than angst. Of course, others will have different reasons to live, but mine is just weird, and I can accept that.
There's a line from an A Perfect Circle that you should connote with this song as well, then. "What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die"
jasmin2847 yeah.......I so relate to it!
memillionthdoot interesting reason! You’re right that everyone has different reasons whether it’s longing for death & surviving this life & healing from past traumas. I used to think I was too chicken to kill myself......the love for my boys kept me here. Then two years later I lost one of them. It’s been a rough journey though the pain.
Johnny Bobcat excellent band!
Knew him back in kindergarten/early elementary. So excited to see him and his band are having such success!!
this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🐺 🎹
quit lying!
5yrs later and this song still makes me want to cry.
Now the band Ghost needs to release a song called Badflower.
Marco Havok, Lol, I heard this on the radio today for the first time. The text thing said “Ghost” and “Badflower” and I thought it was a new Ghost song (with a better singer). This song rocks, though. Ghost is pretty lame.
I thought the same thing @Beach Girl. Ghost is lame tho
Lol
Yes!!!
(Cutting) gives me perspective on how close I was!! 6yrs down? Fucken have to forgive yourself! I love myself, do you?
Wow, I am an older rock guy who doesn't really like new music (get off my lawn) but I heard this on the radio and I was blown away. Fucking incredible song.
Clint Davis Guitar same
Clint Davis Guitar Old heads hanging with new guys huh?
No
Patrick Greear Okay buddy
I randomly heard this on spotify
"This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one" , "the cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked" - these fucking hit home
Fr
This song helped me through a hard ass time..... I'm forever a fan. You saved me.... Michigan
This is so good but you must hear “The Wave” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘🤘🤘
I’m in Michigan too. We should meet up for a meal sometime. New friends are always good and I’m not a weirdo just saying
This song has really hit home for me. My husband and I lost or daughter to suicide 7 months ago. Everyday I sit and think about my baby girl. I think about the last month of her life. What did I miss? Was she trying to tell me something and I just didn't listen. Did something happen and I didn't pay attention. Did I not talk to her enough...hug her enough? Laugh with her enough? Question get aboutwhat was happening I her life enough? Show her I care enough...love her enough?!!! I go crazy thinking about what I did to make her want to leave. She said good night and I love you too...went up to bed and was gone the next morning. No note no words of the pain my baby was obviously feeling. This song is the closest thing to What I imagine my daughter was feeling. It acc scares the shit out of me to think about how many kids and adults feel like they have no hope. That ending that beautiful life is the only way to make the pain go away. Most mornings I can barely get out of bed. I have no more tears left. My husband children and I hurt so bad and miss Krystine so much but we go on. For her and each other. I know I'm going on when everyone is just trying to listen to a song. Most won't careabout my story but I beg that if one person is reading this and thinking about taking their life just know that it does get better and there are people who love and care for you and can't imagine life without you in it. You can get help even if you have to scream at the top of your lungs to get someoneto listen. I'm a mother who lost her child. I would trade my life for hers in a second but I can't. I'm left here with the pain and questions. Please don't leave your mom or dad or family with that pain. Ask for help.
My brother committed suicide 7 years ago and there's literally not a single day that goes by without hearing about him or thinking about him. My heart goes out to you and your husband. The process of recovery is long and hard, and you're likely to be without anwsers for the rest of your life wondering what could have been done to stop this. Sometimes you don't get answers. I'm incredibly sorry for your loss. Having been to the point of self-harm myself when I was much younger, ive only come to realize that suicide is the most devastating way to lose someone. You're not alone in this. You've got my heart right now and I know you'll make it through this.
I'm so sorry for y'alls loss, from the bottom of my heart
God Bless Your Daughter! My prayers and heart are with you and your husband and family during this very rough period! God Bless All of You!
Im sorry for your loss i cant imagine the real pain you feel but i felt the emotion in your words
Kristi Fy my sister committed suicide in 2011 and its haunted every part of me every memory of her that I've ever had has been replaced by seeing her there lifeless and gone I'd trade with her in an instant I think about taking my life almost every single day the only reason I'm still here now are my two daughters if not for them I would've self destructed long ago
"Maybe i'm alive cause i didn't really wanna die" gives me goosebumps every single time...
Thought about my friends and the way I didn’t give enough gets me
@@lordhelmit1499 my guyyyy I don't even know you and I care. I know that probably doesn't mean anything to you (and honestly i'd understand that) but i really hope you'll get better and find something worth staying alive for idk also if somehow possible pls get help and if you already got a therapist or something and they don't help try getting a new one if possible (talking from experience there, getting kicked out by your therapist ain't fun yikes xD)
Yep. I've said those words to myself too many times.
FRRR
Its how it is at least for me. And I'd like to think that its that way for most others too. Its not that you want to die, you just want the pressure to stop. The expectations, the disappointment, the pain no matter how large or small. Its just the desire to escape the pressure, but not knowing how to accomplish that. Everyone has their escapes but unfortunately some times your escapes end up losing their intended effect. But to those of you that stay and push through, I'm proud of each and every one of you.
This song literally saved my life
This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹
@@beezybeez7231I’ll check it out! Thanks!
To my younger self, I'm glad you were strong. I know things were so hard. You are so strong now and so happy. Thank you for hanging on. The pain goes away, I promise. Keep going. Keep going! ❤
This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🎧🔥🎸
This is the comment I never knew I needed to read❤
there is no 20 years for me, only hate.
My brother sent me this song last month, 2 weeks before he died! This song is his life, exactly what he felt. RIP Christopher Neel, I love u brother!
🙏🏽 May he RIP, something similar happened to my brother in law his ex wife had a daughter that wasn’t his own but she looked at him as her Daddy, little did we know she took the divorce real hard and this was a song she listened too a lot.
Rest in peace. I lost my brother 8y ago
R.I.P I lost my father to suicide a few years ago
WOW. I just lost my brother Feb 18. When you say this is how he felt, I can understand what you think/feel. " This life is overwhelming but I'm ready for the next one" no more pain. R.I.P Josh G.
My brother also named Christopher told me this song reminded him of himself and 2 months later we lost him. I will always remember this song! I miss my lil bro so much, i dream about him alot. Life just isn't the same and i dont feel it ever will be. Its been 2 1/2 years and i still struggle every day. Damn i miss him and wish he was here! He didn't go by suicide directly but substance abuse, depression and just lifes bullshit took him from us . He had a cardiac arrest at 35 years old which is 19 years younger than me so i practically raised him! My best friend! I love and miss him every single day and always will! Fuck!
This song speaks to me in ways I cannot begin to explain.
this song explains exactly how i felt when i attempted. my dad cut me down and sat with me in the hospital asking me to explain when i couldnt speak yet. thats when i wrote my letter. first time i ever saw him cry and those tears are the only reason i stayed long enough to have my daughter. i wish i knew this song then
This one made me cry in class.
@@aleenamarie9274 good news though. it got so much better for me. now im getting married in April to a man who sits with me in the dark when i cant find the light even when he doesnt understand, im pregnant with another little girl due in 3 weeks,my first is about to start school, i graduated with valedictory honors, i just bought a new car, and i moved away from the place that destroyed me as a child. it does get better and im more thankful than ive ever been that i was found in time. it took years of hard work but living was the bravest thing i ever did. so if you relate to this song, just know that it wont get better all at once. the biggest likelyhood is that you wont even notice it getting better as its happening. but a day will come where you wake up and look back and feel a sense of "its going to be ok". life has a way of working itself out, even when you think it wont or you dont see a path. keep breathing and the life that youll be living one day will make the hyperventilating you do now absolutely worth it. ❤
@@julia.carr1129 I never struggled with this thought. I did lose 2 good friends tho. I must say you are the bravest person! Your words are coming from the heart. I admire you
@@lynnmartiens5754 im so sorry for your loss. and thank you!
I don’t know you, but I’m so glad you here
In high school, music like this made me feel less alone, in quarentine music like this is getting me through again
Hold your head up, brother!
Yep
I miss music like this. The crap that's playing now is sad. 15-20 years ago was the best time for rock fans. But, really people complaining about social distancing and being lonely are kinda lil bitches.
Same
*pets face*
I don't think the band realized exactly what they created with this song. This is probably one of the most raw songs I've ever heard in my life. Damn.
Oh, I think they know
I would say that they cut open their heart and spilled every word onto the page.
i think they knew exactly what they made here...
I. Hate. This. Song.
@@CallMeCamuran Because. I. Went. Through. This. Shit.
My best friend Jordan passed recently. We met in rehab and he showed me this incredible song. It's very emotional to listen to now since after his overdose it has a whole new meaning to me. RIP JORDAN ROBERTS 08/03/2023.
I’m so sorry that happened to him and you, loosing someone is always a hard thing to cope with, I hope your feeling okay! ❤️❤️
Songs like these are proof that EVERYONE struggles, gets depressed, etc. Depression isn't picky, it'll catch anyone it can. Musicians that write songs, such as this amazing song, are beyond brave and honest for writing lyrics about their struggles, suicidal thoughts, etc. This song truly does hit home for me. In a way it's nice to know that even some of my favorite musicians relate to how I feel, but sad at the same time because they're struggling with depression as well.
I lost my beautiful teenage son to suicide. I was driving to the cemetery this morning to visit him, something I do a few times a day, when this song came on the radio. I have never heard this song before, but it hit home with me... I didn't get a letter, all I got was unanswered questions, a broken heart, and a shattered life that will never be the same. I will never heal or understand why this happened. I had no hints, I had no clue. I woke up to find that my son had decided he was ready for his next life. A day I will never forget... If anybody ever needs to reach out, do it. You do matter to several people. Please reach out!
I'm so sorry for your loss and pain. 😞
fuck, i’m so sorry. so very sorry. i hope you can find some semblance of peace and healing. so much love to you.
That has to be the worst thing possible 😢. I pray that God will touch you deep inside and ease your pain. And give you some answers that will help you deal with it and a deep wisdom that will rise from inside you.
@@joeelder4385 Thank you. It is the worst. No parent should have to bury their child.
I really feel for you.
“Suicide doesn’t end the possibility of life getting worse. It eliminates the possibility of it ever getting any better.” -Unknown
Sebastian Cortes I was always told that (when pointing my fingers at my chin and pretending to blow my brains out) “its a permanent solution to a temporary problem”. I’ve been lucky to have numerous mentors in my 46 years, and their guidance always came when i needed a push in the right direction of thinking. Now I return the favor when I have a coworker or family member that needs to be educated.
That’s deep and well....very true
Thank you. I needed this so much.
Goodnight randoms
But who really cares about the "possibility" of getting better when you can just have eternal peace? Life is suffering. Birth is a gateway to torture. Yeah, we've all heard about the suicide is a permanent solution yada yada platitude, but no - life is a permanent problem, in at least as far as it can be permanent. Permanent problems would require permanent solutions. Medication, therapy, food, drugs, games, etc -those are pretty temporary, if they work at all. The last thing I want to see is another damn medical health professional and all their bullshit. Or another of those callous-ass hotlines flung out as quickly as pills.
My son is the reason I breathe every day. He is now 21. Thank you for this song. It has kept me alive. 💜
My son will be 5 in April and I 100% agree. No matter the pain I’m here for him to make sure he never feels that pain. He is my angel
So good but you must hear “Live Not Survive” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘🔥🐺
@marychapman7295 Coming from a woman who can't have kids its very nice to hear a mother talk like that about their child. I become enraged when I hear people complain or they lose their kids to CPS and dont even try to get them back..because people don't know how lucky they are to have children. Good on you mom ❤
Could u buy me a phone for gaming...I'm really sad without one
@@Dragox-mh8fb Wtf?
This Band is in a category of their own. As I see them, real talent from real souls. Eventually, most good bands will die out. I feel fortunate to have lived in the era of Badflower. Thank you for sharing your emotional song with us.
This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹
man that face when he 1st gets in the car is brutal. Its not "sad", its like this calculated cold - but somewhat content look and it depicts depression painfully accurately. Its fucked.
It's the kind of exhausted I wouldn't wish on anyone. It's the face of being done.
@@dylanleger8863 Don't give up. Been there off and on for about 16 years but you have to take the little glimpses of happiness to get you through it. It can get better.
Just that cold feeling of acceptance and relief.
@@dylanleger8863 you ok bud?
@@jimjones7272 it's why I picked the most dangerous job I could. It was accepting that this will pay me enough to get away from everything one way or another. But there's nothing like accepting your death is probable but knowing someone else is in danger that wants to live motivates you to stay alive.
I lost my son to suicide 7 years ago. He was almost 29 years old. I didnt know he was so depressed. It still hurts so much. I just heard this song today and thought I would cry. But I didnt. For some reason it makes me understand more that he just didnt want to be here anymore. I love and miss you Brandon. SO MUCH.
ur gonna meet him again, stay strong
Its today that I lost him, now 8 years ago. Thank you so much. I needed this comment.
@@rhondaharrison2764 Wow im speechless. I found this song suddenly and just got a urge to scroll the comments and reply to you. It being the same time as your sons day of passing is crazy. I truely believe it is a sign from your son. This life we live, has its share of joy, sadness, frustration and every possible range of emotion a human can feel. It is easy to get overwhelmed with pain. But I know once its our time to move on, we will be reunited with our loved ones. Your son is watching down on you with pride, keep living and make the most of the time we have left. One day its all going to make sense for all of us.
I thought the same thing, I also heard this song on my way to work that day. Thank you for your comforting words..
I'm so sorry for your loss. 😞
RIP brother. you were loved and maybe u didn't know that. I miss you so damn much it hurts. RiP Christopher
I listen to this song both when I'm truly considering it...And when I know I don't have the strength to follow through. Omg are the lyrics ever accurate to many who have attempted before. But life gets better. I love badflower for the true emotional honesty in this song. You've helped more than you will every know
Right there.... been on repeat for the last hour, crying and singing feeling ridiculous but it's what I need rn
where the hell did this band come from with pieces of my soul
Teresa Ayers exactly!
Right!? I cant even explain how this song makes me feel when i listen to it.
Fr..
My soul right here
ironically my band is called pieces of me...
I lost my brother last night. Heroin overdose. This song will always be apart of me
I'm sorry Kenneth. You tried. Adam The Harvest Angel kzhead.info/sun/hrJud86EpYlohpE/bejne.html
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So sorry
Sorry man ...may he find peace
I had same thing happen to my brother at 26 years old i feel all your pain
Hey if you're reading this and hurting, know I am too. You arnt alone. We got this.
Your music helped save my life, Badflower. I'm only 13 and I'm glad I lived to be a teenager. I'm going to your concert on Wednesday 4/27/22 Thank you so much
It was awesome
13? Listen kid I'm 40. I've been dealing with the bummers since I was like 8! So what? Move forward dude. You should check out the song just wait by blues traveler
Hey that's awesome keep holding on to the music it's what makes life life worth it in some cases. Hope you have fun
hang in there, kiddo. it gets better. you’re gonna be okay. stick around for us, please. you’re important.
@@jacobmaslin5481 I feel bad for you I go through it to bro
As a suicide survivor, I do not think I have ever heard a song that so accurately encapsulates what goes through your head and heart during those most overpowering and dark moments where you feel compelled on to act on your pain.
Darthsikk true that!
I love how towards the end when it starts to layer the lyrics, really shows how negative thoughts compound and end up consuming your entire mind in these moments. Screaming at yourself to just stop. Very powerful use of the medium, really hits me hard.
I agree...
me to.
Same man, can tell it is written with insight. He has already attempted suicide or knows someone.
At first I didn’t notice the lyrics, just liked the song. Then I saw this video and listened a few more times. Chills. Just chills.
Same
Just got them again man heard this over last summer and it feels like im hearing it for the first time all over!
Same for me
For real though.
Same here I heard this song maybe the first couple of times I didn't even hear what he was saying Sad but great song
what a message at the beginning. "suicide doesn't end the chances of life getting worse, it eliminates the possibility of it ever getting any better." I heard recently from someone battling addiction and how they made 10+ years was that all they tried to do was survive one more day and not worry about the rest. just survive one more day fighting for that goal and keep doing it. eventually you'll find another reason to fight for happiness.
Bands like this, Evanescence, Iprevail don't glorify our feelings of suicide, they make us feel like we're not alone, that maybe someone understands what we are going through
This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🎧
He should be an actor. His expressions are on point. Drives the lyrics home. I wonder if there is any personal experience behind this song.
I really think there is. You don't write a song like this just because.
If i remember it right he said in an article that he had panic attacks every night after the shows whilst touring and was thinking about self harm. He played out the whole scenario in his head and wrote it down. So yes, I'd say it is from personal experience! Link: loudwire.com/badflower-interview-ghost/
@@angelav3386 you can't*
i’m pretty sure there is personal experience
I'm sure theres personal experience. Only those who've been through this coul be able to express ot that well.
Lost my brother jeremy 10 years to suicide ....all I know he's in a better place now....thanks to who cares
Brandon Butler Hope you’re doing well man, so sorry to hear that.
I care! I hear you!
Sorry to see that man. I care and hope you and your loved ones eventually found some sort of peace and happiness again.
I'm so sorry for you loss.... I lost my brother the same
I feel you man, lost my best friend as well. Sorry for your lose man.
I cried the first time I heard this. This is how I feel today. This life is overwhelming and I’m ready for the next one
you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🎧🔥🎸 life saving !!!
"This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one." Truer words have never been sung! And yet, they're also the most inspiring to live the best, most authentic, life I can live.
This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🎧
i tried to OD when i was 14 just to get away from my parents, the neighbor found me, i woke up in the hospital 5 months later my father nearly beat me to death, broken jaw, factured skull, black eye, concussion, dislocated shoulder, broken arm, multiple broken ribs, internal bleeding, i spent a few months in a medically induced coma because i was too small to give enough painkillers to keep me from screaming. but i survived, and met a man, a US Army soldier, who could never get a date because He had scars all over and now we're married, He's the kindest person in the world, He doesnt care if people are afraid of Him, because im there next to Him, clinging to Him because Hes my teddy bear never give up, the universe has a plan for everyone, but sometimes you need to go through hell to find where you belong
Ok....
Omg! I am so very sorry for all your pain & suffering! I cant imagine the the damage in faith ,trust, you must of went through.no child should ever have to go through those type of injuries.. im so glad the neighbors found you,bless her hesrt!
tiny so sorry to hear that
It's odd, but having gone through hell is one of those things we would never want to part with. Edit: not saying that some of us wouldn't want to forget a traumatic experience, just that we wouldn't want to forget why it's wrong, to simplify things.
I'm so sorry you had to go through that but I'm glad you found someone to spend your life with😊
His face reactions are so fuckin accurate that I don't even care if he's acting! I can literally feel the fuckin lyrics and they fuckin hurt my soul because of how relatable it is...
I come back to this song around the same time of year RIP fallen brothers. This song has a very powerful message and reminds me why i have to fight the fight everyday.
Is this Austin hall from Harrisburg? If so I know you homie, respect
@@UndergroundSmoke no im from mo
Never ever give up. I don't care if you read this comment within the next week or within the next 20 years. We are one human family and we need to have each other's backs.
@@ErikStehlar i appreciate that man
Every time I listen, I hear something different: Take the BLAME away from me. Take the BLADE away from me. Take the SHAME away from me. Take the PAIN away from me. The sad thing is that they all can apply to the song. No one should ever feel like that.
I am the same, and it always seems to come directly to the mindset I am in that causes the corresponding words to come thru for it.
" But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one. " I know exactly how this feels.
"I couldn't tell my mother that I love her, I'm a bad son." When i was planning to overdose i remember visiting my mom at work. I smiled, hugged her, told her i loved her and left feeling like a horrible son for the way i lied to her. This lyric hits me really deep.
Oh
Don't know you. But glad you're still here.
I'm so happy that you're still alive to tell the story. Please keep fighting, I know it's not easy.
I love my son more than the air I breathe and I know your mother loves you the same. I’m so glad you’re here!
It makes sense for averyone who has a mom
I am beyond ready for this life to be over.
You’d do that, even knowing how much pain your death would release into the world?
My friend showed me this song in rehab awhile ago and ever since he overdosed this song has such a special meaning to me
This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹
I wanna hug that guy. He seems to have been through some shit irl 😭😭😭
Great music. But you seem so depressed 😟🙃🙃
This life is overwhelming and im ready for the next one. Ooof preach.
100%
The part that says ( I waited there forever but nobody ever looked up) is my life with the ones I keep around me. The ones I had that understood me are gone they have passed away. I put this song on repeat so I can feel like I at least have one person there, and no judgement casted.
This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘
I saw these guys live in 2017 and the energy and fun was out of this world. This song is a extreme stark reminder to me that life is to damn short. As a 2 time survivor myself, this is always at the top of my playlist.
This is so good but you must hear “The Wave” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘🎸🤘🎸🤘
"Maybe i'm alive cause didn't really want to die." Some massively deep lyrics that make me think of a line that Brent Smith once delivered: "the will to live will always be stronger than the ability to die"
Is that from a Shinedown song or literally a Brent Smith quote?
@@ALP-nr8kx quote
Lyrics I tried it once before but I didn't get too far I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up I tried it once before and I think I might have messed up I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough But maybe I'm alive because I didn't really wanna die But nothing very special ever happens in my life Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough And I should have told my mother, "Mom, I love you" like a good son But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah I tried it once again and I think I might black out I should've left a letter but I had nothing to write about My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be I tried it once again and I think I went too far The man that I was meant to be I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart The man that I was meant to be I couldn't tell my mother, "Mom, I love you", I'm a bad son This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one
a few years ago they played together with the same concert shinedown did. Had a rain out so bad flower lost a song, but shinedown gave them his time so he could come Back out to play this song! Us bad flower fans was so Happy! Shinedown rocks! My first concert and it was Amazing! Seeing shinedown and Papa Roach in a few days in Bangor Maine can't wait!
For some.. this is a reminder, as we all deal our pains an pass, it reminds us to keep our selfs goin... because we must heal, even of we have to keep our pains forever...
So many comments about being suicidal, knowing someone who has committed suicide, etc. It is truly sad how normal it has become. It is truly sad how many people really struggle with depression and other mental illnesses. I want all of you other survivors to know, i am happy you are still here and that you are never truly alone!
"But I waited there forever and nobody ever looked up" Imagine standing on a ledge a couple hundred feet above the concrete. All you want is someone to look up and acknowledge your existence, for someone other than yourself telling you "itll be ok" To anyone that has that feeling in their heart I can say, Calm down, Come down, Itll be ok.
I find comfort in this n i have already accepted emptiness in the end
Music like this is exactly what keeps people alive. Thank you for your vulnerability 💙
I miss you, the love of my life, my husband, my lover, my best friend, Jonah. 8/7/67-9/19/11. 😢❤️
God bless you in your journey; so sorry for your loss my dear.
My condolences🌹
Phoebe Rhoades I’m sorry for your loss
i hope you found solace in the fact that your husband loved you as much as you loved him. find the happiness he left you.
Whoever directed this should be immensly proud. Such a good music video.
The Duke Of Dorks yup, that part
Welcome to my world
I absolutely agree
The message behind the song is real
If this song had been around 10 years ago it might have changed a few things I did. For those still struggling, it DOES get better. I'm living proof. Happily engaged with our 2nd child on the way. Stay strong, fight. Happiness does find its way to everyone eventually.
Brings this hardened Marine to tears to see the Love posted on this page. Reach out and help each other. Some of the strongest people I've known in my life, needed help and didn't get it. 20 years and Marine Corps Ambulance Division taught me that everyone needs a little help sometime in their lives!! People who swear they don't? Look out for them the most, because they DO need help. They just have a little trouble seeing it. Never any shame in needing help. Be that person, to step up and help! Take that step to make this world just a little better. It's simple and it's just as easy as showing up! That's a great first step! Be there, and listen.
this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🎹🐺
I listen to this song every morning when I wake up to remind myself that suicide isn’t the right choice. The fact that y’all made a song that is so fucking relatable is insane to me. Thank you for saving a life.
I think of my son... RIP my Angel Jon 1/19/2017
Rest easy❤
Rest peacefully. ❤
I'm sorry for your loss,sir. May he rest in peace.
This band is so great and underrated. That drum fill at 2:35 is so amazingly simple but sounds sooo good
Great track from Badflower!!
This is so good but you must hear “The Wave” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘🤘🤘
Makes me feel at home. Suicidal thoughts cross my mind alot. PTSD is no joke.
Embrace the suck
@@revengesweetness2520 i have. It is the fact i have a wife and 3 amazing kids that show me life is worth holding on to
Facts
The sheer amount of loving people who are reaching out to those in need in this comment section restores my faith in humanity. It is struggles such as these that seem to be bringing us together. It brings tears to my eyes hearing about other peoples struggles and just seeing how many people, despite not knowing them personally, care enough to let them know that they ARE worth it and they should survive. Seeing people just being loving and caring for each other to this extent is part of the reason I love the rock community so much. It just makes me so so happy to see that people care. People do care. You are all lovely people and deserve the world.
Just Boosterz I may deserve it but I won’t get shit
Ja Boi why?
Just Boosterz I won’t be sane for long enough
Ja Boi not with that attitude you won't my friend... Change your attitude, and change your life... Your the only one who can. No one else will do it for you! Get off your ass and on your feet!!
glenn george changing my attitude won’t get rid of a fucking brain disorder
These scars of mine fade everyday 🤘👩🎤🤘 Rock on!!!
Best new band I have listened to for years! Epic and quickly becoming one of my favorites. Seems to have honest energy and passion in their music !
this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🐺 🎹
"I couldn't tell my mother that I loved her like a good son" 😢😢😢
Daniel Gibeault 😭
Single deepest song i’ve heard. Theres so much power and emotions.. so raw and real.. shit hits home on so many fronts.. man this song is gonna be around for a long long time
Listen to Hate Me by Blue October. Amazing song. This song is right up there with it.
One of my favorites songs I've ever listened to in 28 years of constant song listening.
This is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “The Wave Acoustic” by SLT 🤘🐺🔥
@@beezybeez7231bot
Depression blows this song rocks R.I.P MARKY
this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🐺 🎹
Kinda crazy,that feeling.. it's like your stuck screaming for help without asking for it. It's very subtle and no one even blinks an eye...
No shame in having/sharing that feeling, I'm glad you did. You just have to find a way to cope. I eventually reached out and got some therapy and did some meditation on my own which helped a great deal. We are all responsible for our own well being and I came to understand that my anxiety, and associated depression, was a force inside myself and not some external force acting upon me from work, family, etc. Once I realized it was me, doing this to me, I was able to slowly push back the tsunami of anxiety and depression and work my way back to some semblance of normality. Will I ever be the care free person I was before all this started, well no, but I can come out a stronger person for it. Reach out to me through my profile if you'd like to talk it over and if not, you can get through the tough times you are having, just don't be afraid to ask for assistance. Apologies for the long post but your post struck a nerve with me, I've been there brother/sister.
It always sneaks up on you. For me it comes when I start to smile..then everything starts to feel wrong and it’s like I’ve been thrown into a tar pit. It’s impossible.. but we’re still going.
I overdosed September 14th 2014 and God gave me another chance so this song really helps me remember why I'm so greatful to still be alive.
This song is such a amazing expression of some bottled up feelings
this is so good but you must hear “Whispering Wolf” or “Live Not Survive” by SLT 🤘🐺 🎹
I liked not feeling alone as well
Who's listening to this banger in 2024?! Can't believe it's been 5 years this month since this dropped ❤❤
One of the best bands in the world. Without a doubt!
I wish I could love this song without crying every time I hear it
SAAAAAAAAME
its such an incredible song and i wish i was strong enough to listen to it more often, but sadly it destroys me every single time. just listened to it again for the first time in a year or two and i hope ill be able to listen to it more often now
Me 2
Same
After reading several comments, and taking a few minutes dry the tears and focus my eyes I've surmised that the band should probably work a deal with a tissue manufacture before they tour, and they should probably bring 2 extra busses and a small army of counselors. I'm sure many of you will try to catch their show, if you do, just take a wide look around the theater and KNOW that you are NOT alone. There are tens, even 100's of thousands of you needing someone to hear them. To grab hold of them when they reach out. YOU ARE NOT ALONE brothers and sisters.
Titan_363 You, my friend, have a shining soul. Thank you.
I saw them last night in Westbrook maine.they did a acoustic version,and let me tell you..It was freaking amazing.
Titan , your right , those like myself are not alone , but the thoughts and feelings are hard to deal with . When you try to talk to someone , it gets to the point where you get tired of hearing " just get over it" You have a good heart sir , but PTSD and depression are truly a hard thing to deal with.
The crisis of boys and men...every 18 minutes. I, too, have found myself caught in the introspection, rumination, and contemplation. At the age of 25, I checked myself into a hospital of my own volition, sought newfound clarity, and hindsight is 20/20. Put on the suit and tie, go about the day listlessly, and hoping to one day ring the freedom bell for peace of mind. Have yet to do so...
This is so good but you must hear “ The Wave Acoustic” or “Whispering Wolf” by SLT 🤘
I feel that there's a very powerful message to this. As a society, we need to see that there are a lot of people that struggle with this on a daily basis. I have never struggled with it myself, but I feel like, maybe I should be doing something more, to maybe help someone else get through a hard time and show them that there are people who care! Anyone reading this and is maybe having a bad day, just know that I care! If I can help in some way, I am willing to do it!
I love when random songs come on by bands that I've never heard of and I end up discovering a new band that I like. KZhead has been doing that a lot for me lately and it just did it again.
danman6669 I just heard this in my Uber car. It sounded like 2000’s pop rock but the lyrics instantly told me to listen.
Yep kind of how I found Nothing More
Yes sir 👍
@@dustinl.7825 Heck yea me to brother.....This is the time
I think it's so refreshing to have a sonf about suicide that doesn't use cutesie words and metaphors for suicide. This song spells it out straight up. It seems from personal experience, that when you are depressed for a great deal of time (more often than not), people, even those closest to you will become desensitized to it and eventually, as the song says, "no one even looked up." My family barely cares, if at all anymore because they've seen me so depressed for so long (including hospitalizations and plenty of scars on my wrists and marks on my face) that it has become normal for them. They've no idea the level of seriousness of how I feel right now. Maybe if anyone gave a shit they would take notice? Suicidal ideation is beyond difficult. Most people think it's a "cry for help" and all this other bullshit, but there are people in such deep pain out there...it overrides their natural instinct for self-precervation...Keeping yourself alive is one of the strongest instincts we have...can you imagine the pain someone must be feeling to be able to ignore that genetic imperative? I am so sorry to all of you that go through this because I do too. You are CARED ABOUT, at least by this stranger. Love to you all. You're better than you think...
With all of the scars on your arms, it's certain that self-preservation did prevail. We've all been through horrible pain, you are not the first and you won't be the last. It may feel like no one knows, but there are a lot out there who have been through much worse and not only survived but thrived. The pain you feel will only be amplified by those who still care if you succeed. They can't help you until you are willing to help yourself. Pick yourself up and ask for help.
I'm sorry I'm going through something extremely similar. You are not alone
As a school counselor I sometimes tell my students that a depressed student once said, "It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when all around you is darkness". Sometimes I tell them that student was me. This is the one time I believe it is right to say All lives matter. Hang in there. People do care.
Wish all of you had someone like my mom. She went through everything with me and even though she’s gone now she never let anyone struggling down. We are not alone! Someone out there will care!
Thx for that... Care about u too ♥️
This song is gonna be great forever! The way I see it- lyrics about suicide do NOT cause suicide, period. Listening to this unbelievably great song, can help people who are really down on life, people who think they have no reason to go on💪💪😢🙏! I feel these lyrics straight through my heart, it speaks to my feelings 😭😭...I have never actually tried to commit suicide, but have wished I was no longer alive- hundreds of thousands times.. to me, this song and other similar songs are therapeutic. Badflower is a terrific group, and their song writing is brilliant- thank you guys!
If you listened from beginning to end and you're feeling suicidal, the song very well could have added a few minutes to your life, or covered the few minutes you would have spent taking it. Keep listening, get it all off your chest.
This song makes "The Playlist!"
"Ghost" I tried it once before but I didn't get too far I felt a lot of pain but it didn't stop my heart And all I really wanted was someone to give a little fuck But I waited there forever and nobody even looked up I tried it once before and I think I might've messed up I struggled with the veins and I guess I didn't bleed enough But maybe I'm alive 'cause I didn't really wanna die But nothing very special ever happens in my life Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be I tried it like before and this time I made a deep cut I thought about my friends and the way I didn't give enough And I should've told my mother 'mom, I love you' like a good son But this life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be, yeah I tried it once again and I think I might black out I should've left a letter but I had nothing to write about My blood is all around me, I get dizzy if I stand up The cutting part was easy but regretting it is so fucked Take the blade away from me I am a freak, I am afraid that All the blood escaping me won't end the pain And I'll be haunting all the lives that cared for me I died to be the white ghost Of the man that I was meant to be I tried it once again and I think I went too far The man that I was meant to be I cut a little deeper and the pressure stopped my heart The man that I was meant to be I could've told my mother that I love her, I'm a bad son This life is overwhelming and I'm ready for the next one
I should've left a letter but I had nothing to write about. Too many words to say, but in the end, none of them will change anything, so why bother? The white ghost of the man that I was meant to be. That's just too close to home.
Thanks for the lyrics.
Shit hits different when you're a survivor and so is your child.