My psychosis, a different reality | Jeroen Zwaal | TEDxEindhoven
We asked Jeroen Zwaal to share his ideas on the relation between physical and mental well-being and how we can use technology to better our care and understanding. In his talk he shares his own experiences and story, starting from initially being the subject of a news article about a ‘confused person’ to becoming a person helping countless other people in making sense of their lives and experiences. Coach, editor, artist and today’s speaker on mental health. Jeroen’s experiences became the basis for a Virtual Reality experience produced by KRO-NCRV (a dutch public broadcasting organisation) that allows the user to live through a psychotic episode. This talk was given at a TEDx event using the TED conference format but independently organized by a local community. Learn more at www.ted.com/tedx
Having a psychosis was the best thing that happened to me. I was so depressed and very anxious and had problems with drugs. Then I had a phycosis, it broke me down then allowed me to restart. Synchronicity was a big part of it.
What made you snap back to reality or feeling ok
@@adiamalem9246 just trying to stay positive. That's a hard question to answer really. I was honestly crippled with depression and anxiety afterwards but a big part of that was the wrong medication I had to try a few to see which worked. Also I forced myself to go for a walk everyday then started the gym and running but just do whatever makes you feel good! It took about a year to get back to some sort of reality. Staying away from drugs too obviously.
@@adiamalem9246 psychosis is actually so common so many people go through it but it's not talked about because I guess people are ashamed. But I met a lot of people who have been through it. I hope you can get through it because I know how hard it is. Stay STRONG BE POSITIVE!!
i recently had a drug induced psychosis where i ruined a lot of friendships and lost the trust of my family members. i feel lucid now but the guilt and trauma of what i experienced still weighs me down. i've been desperate to talk to people that understand but i have yet to find anyone- thank you for your comment
@@lexigordon7071 bless you it's so hard. Leading up to my phycosis I was awful to my friends and family but during my phycosis I felt that guilt so hard and I apologised to who I needed to and resolved most of it. I hope you resolve yours too but it does take time I suppose.
I like this man. Because he is honest. That's the healing.
Cannabis has been shown to be the most dangerous of all substances in relation to psychosis and schizophrenia. A 2017 study showed that if you experience a cannabis induced psychosis, you have a roughly 1 in 2 chance of being diagnosed with schizophrenia within 20 years. That is the highest conversion rate to schizophrenia of all drugs, even more than meth psychosis (which is roughly 1 in 3). And if you smoke cannabis daily, particularly as a teenager, your risk of experiencing psychosis goes up 5 times. There needs to be far more awareness of this. To put in perspective, a study showed that up to 50% of those diagnosed with schizophrenia in Amsterdam could have avoided the illness had cannabis not been consumed.
How to create this awareness ? Cannabis is the cheapest, most accessible substance available to people, mostly young students who consume too much. By the time they realize, the damage is already done
thanks for raising awareness about the dangers of THC. Hower this can't possibly be proven: "up to 50% of those diagnosed with schizophrenia in Amsterdam could have avoided the illness had cannabis not been consumed."
Loss. Trauma. Sensitivity. Reality is actually crazy. Break from reality is actually like taking a break from stressful reality.
Definitely
Psychosis is not a break from a stressful day. Stop romanticizing mental illness
Love this guys humor. The people who have seen the darkest things tend to have the best hunor at least in my opinion
I often feel like I'm in a personalized Cosmic Psych Ward and i have to prove my "Normalcy" in sone kind of interdimensional court judging my soul. So happy i have found others who endure such thinking, the mind really tries to convince us we are special or alone in this thinking and it further isolates us. Thank you for sharing.
"Stay awkward, brave, and kind."--Brene Brown
My psychosis was hyper connected with everything, I was “God”.
Thats lit
I had a similar experience when I was in psychosis. The first time I believed I was humanity’s savior much like Christ, the second time I believed that I was a god, however one of many. I have taken away from my psychosis a spiritual world of metaphors. Just because all your thoughts in psychosis cannot be taken as “truths” in the literal sense, the very fact that you experienced another reality is innately spiritual and profound and people should not be forced to lose touch with that, in my opinion. Just my take on it, it’s always cool to hear about other people’s experiences and what they’ve gotten out of them :)
Corey Lynne I’m very openminded to the idea of spiritual dimensions so rant on if you want, it’s fascinating I think :) I see shadow people and experience auditory hallucinations when sleep deprived. Other than that I’ve had DP/DR from weed and experimented with psychedelics. What triggered your psychosis and was did it feel good or bad?
Bro I too had psychosis and thought God himself came to my house. Hope you are doing better, you will learn something from the experience, get well soon!
@@corasmith8531 I experienced similar in my psychosis. It's remarkable what the brain can do. I saw full people in front of me talking to me and people I have known for my entire life looked different . I know it wasn't all "real". But I try to take what I can from it.
Very good video presentation. Helps people feel okay with their own mental and emotional confusion and turmoil. It's something we as a society need to learn to be more open about. Bottling up mental health issues isn't healthy, at all. It leads to more toxic experiences and feelings. Like anger and rage or bitterness or resentment or social isolation and alienation. If we can open up about mental illness we can be honest about it, with one another. I have Schizophrenia so I know what it's like. It took me many years to gain the control back over my mind that I know I now have. My first psychosis was 1996 and I was 18. I'm now 42. But I got there... Just as you did. Keep up the good work! We need more stories about it and more social workers with lived experience. It will help minimise the stigma.
Amazing! I believe I am just getting over a trauma/psychosis phase. I used to be so scared and thinking I was watching demons plan the ending of my life. Being with family and anxiety meds helps me a lot!
Godbless you and your family. You are a true empath, you have a true gift of healing. You glow with the universe within you.
Thank you for sharing your story. It’s healing to hear♥️
Brave man, I salute you.
Reading your comments , all resonate with my experience 5 years ago . I thought I was here to save the world , save someone from something bad happening , I thought I had met Jesus . The metaphors too! Like all of a sudden everything small and minute had huge meaning . It all made sense to me , but of course confused everyone around me . The colors were also out of this world , like a glow I’ll never forget . It’s too bad that I couldn’t feel seen or supported by my family and they had me to go to the hospital and behavioral center ... that is another story
I had almost identical experience. I even reached oneness where you feel the universe or God
I had the exact same experience too lol, it was extremely beautiful and profound but I ended up suffering from a lot of trauma due to how those in my immediate environment reacted.
i had this same thing! i thought i needed to sacrifice myself for the world like Jesus did, not thinking i was as important as him- but i just thought God was telling me that in order to be Christ like i had to prove myself through works.
@@Bluewizard35728 i would love to make a support group or something out of these chats, i think its insane and meaningful that we all had almost identical experiences
I wonder why this is such a common thing? This has happened to myself as well in a few extreme cases when I took too much psychedelics.
I had psychosis and I had a lot of synchronicities I can't explain that...
Like a synchronistic explosion of synchronicities? 🥳
@@frozenlime yes
Like I everything made sense even things that don’t make sense like dividing by 0
@@danntbeltran after that yes. It was like meeting my fears and dreams...
I had the same. I was connecting dots at lighting speed
I never had a schizophrenic episode in my life until some guy bought me a drink and hours later I started seeing things and could not sleep, I would see scary looking things in walls like demons and in people.. when I would scratch my arm the feeling would be delayed and wouldn't show up until seconds later and when people would talk the words would be delayed with their mouths. The tv would also talk to me and this was literally after I had a drink from some stranger. ( first time it wasn’t even alcohol it was a regular drink ) This “episode“happened for months until my parents realized they couldn’t do anything. I called the police the same night and they tested my blood for drugs and said nothing was found in my system, I was just paranoid. Then, eventually I had to go to the mental hospital because I couldn't sleep for months even when I tried to. This happened in 2018, no schizophrenics in my family or nothing. Now in 2020 back in June the same thing happened some guy bought me a drink , my friend drank out of it as well and nothing happened to her ( I swear I had felt a pill ) and I had another episode and had to go to the mental institution because I wasn't in my right mind, seeing and hearing things. They said I had psychosis and schizophrenia, is it my mind playing tricks on me making me think they did something to my drink or am I actually schizophrenic because I never experienced this ever, the first time it happened I was 19. Now I am 22.
Did you go through synchronicities as well? Did you feel as if something was going to take you?
@@josedeluna1080 yep
@@HairdresserOrActor we’ll be okay🥺❤️
I just had a psychotic break from a Marijauna high. I’m going to go get seen by a mental health institution as well. The psychotic break I experienced was the scariest thing I ever experienced, derealization of reality. I’m better now. You will be okay. Be strong and persevere. @@HairdresserOrActor
@@ricardobernal2810 yea I read somewhere that weed can make it more likely to have psychosis and schizophrenia but I just got back to smokin it bc I feel like wats more to lose lol if I have another breakout I do , can’t stop it when it happens but I guess prevent it by not smokin and drinking bc my doctors said alcohol can play a big part in psychosis and schizophrenia too for those who already have it
Mine is like I can see everything and hear and do everything but non of it is real to me has anyone else felt like this?
I feel like this a lot when I’m in big crowds of people mine is usually triggered in huge social situations it’s so scary to me it feels like I’m dying everything feels so fake it last for weeks
yes i have that when it is a new situation especially. feels like it is virtual video game or something. the good thing is it means you're a genuine human and in touch with yourself! dont worry just roll with it.
You may be suffering from depersonalisation as it’s called but that’s only a lil guess. Cheers.
I think I know what you are taking about!
I heard a voice say ‘bitter’ in a whisper at 49. I thinks it was a German saying Thanks- but threw me for a moment!
What if everyone else is hallucinating this life, but the schizophrenics are the ones who escape the hallucinations? Would that make schizophrenics more realist than normal humans?
Well all of us are actually hallucinating our conscious reality so it is a really interesting thought, i agree.
Ahhhhhhhh no.
indeed my friend!
Read my reply please
@@mandyvanoosten7077 Read my reply
I was Convinced that i was being Hunted by Demons for years, never slept cause if i slept at dark as in during the dark sky there would be a greater chance for them to take me and at Day or when it was light outside almost everything got away for the time being but i was sleep depraved to the point of being Blind, i would walk in the city while technically sleeping or only seeing a light cloudy vision and Whenever the mist came i would hear it hum, it was humming a song. Theres alot more but i'm kinda fine today i don't bow down to the fear but i do feel/see it. Today especially i just feel like crawling out of my skin, i genuinly have that feeling of that i'm probably dying, like a sickness or inner damage, I'm so tired even though i've had my sleep.
Pray to Jesus. He loves you
As he said ”time til half past 2” it was just thinking about how much time I had left until half past 2 for my snackbreak at work
My question to Jeroen? Do you take medication on a regular basis or are you able to function without it?
september
I don't know if this is psychosis but after this period of quarantine sometimes it appends to feel like if I'm the only human on the planet even if I see people around me. It's so scary when it happens. What can I do?
If you have someone to talk to maybe that would help. All we humans struggle with this life and meaning. You are not alone!
@@Beiskraft thank you
It could be various of other things also. However if you only "feel" like that, and don't "think" that it's true, it probably isnt psychosis
@@Zmaqo i don't know anymore
Call a psychologist, talk to a professional
We are all Gods, generator operator destroyer. In the giant play of everything, we are all pieces of God.
I sometimes see stuff and feel but never tell it because I dont want to go back to psyc ward. it was horrible so here is a message if u see and feel stuff dont tell anyone because no one will believe u.
This is sad. I spent many years trying to find support. I became my own advocate and learned about psychology, spirituality (because a lot of the visions of the mentally ill are archetypes of the nature of our creation), I got a bachelor's degree in philosophy, psychology, social science, & native studies so that I could understand more clearly what I was going through. I finally got the help I needed, I have a great support system & am finally ok with my diagnosis & medication. I am looking forward to my life, now. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here. You are not alone and above all, you are Loved and worthy of Love. Thank you, Lori
Why not nobody would say he is hallucinating for fun. Nobody wants schizophrenia bcuz it leaves a mark of disability on a person...
It has taken me 25 years of good solid relationships with 2 psychiatrists over that time (and many years before that with bad ones), to be happy to admit to am having hallucinations for exactly this reason. I still have certain things I wont mention, or will phrase very carefully to avoid hospital
Who is this Howard Gelt (sp?)? he is referring to? Nothing relevant shows up in my searches?
What to do if my psychosis ended but I still have these psychotic thoughts crippling into my mind? My psychosis was about reality not being real and everything being a simulation, and even though I am not in an episode now, the thoughts are still there. The problem is that I cannot prove them wrong (it’s impossible) which makes it so much worse… I just want to be normal again
Look into Vitamin D. Especially if you don't get much sun. Get your blood checked at the Drs
February 2018 was a very weird month for psychosis.
Feb. 2018 was my sons first episode... it is now 2020 and we are still trying to get him help! I myself have not been myself since that time ,searching day and night on how to reach him and bring him back to reality😢😢
Feb 2018 was the start of me and mine too.
@@taeb8731 how are you doing now?
@@bestshortclips18 enlightened and freed thank you
@@mariemay7721 my heart is out for you, I’m 18 bout to be 19 in a month and have had psychosis for about 4 years. It gets better. Respect to you as my mom has done everything she can as well. I pray for your strength and for your sons health. ❤️
Two things, Justin Bieber peed in a bucket at a restaurant and everyone just thought he was annoying. The second thing, I totally understood his #3 Still about his father and the parachute. I don't think I really understand what psychosis is.
What made you guys snap into reality???
The mind is a mystery-machine and it dose what it does for a reason....the rational part might not understand.
I almost blew up my house
Can someone return to normal
Why you guys think so much exaggeration of the Past Lives, and makes yourselves so Get into it, that it's a Biggest Deal? It's a Normal Life, and a Normal Experiences... Be happy and be grateful of the Bad And Good Experiences out from every Peculiar Moments. You Folks must Focusing on what's Bestest for every Situations, as what the Future might gives out from it. See 🙈 how it gives this Man--- Psychosis Illness.
Some people never get out of their psychosis. This man is another perfect example. Stuck in his sense of self importance, stuck in the vague beliefs of "healing". Another delusional manipulator.
@Puggelicious You just asked a man named Moth Monma Poppa Bobba Fett Mane the 3rd to explain his comment Hes a moron just move on
@@biscuffer2518 fair point lol
Yeah i thought so
Did you have to take antipsychotic medication?
I'm currently taking it for my pyschosis
I take olanzapine