I Survived Sensory Deprivation

There's nothing to be ashamed about crying over a loss. I lost my brother in a car accident and I cry about it all the time. I know what it feels like.

dude I almost teared up when you were talking about your grandmother. that’s such a warm memory, you don’t have to feel embarrassed of it.

I was almost about to cry when you cried while talking about your memory with your grandma. It’s not embarrassing, you showed your emotions like that is incredible. I don’t know how it feels, because i never stayed a long time with my grandma, and i barely know her much. But, to those who loved theirs, im sorry for your loss. I

loved how brave and genuine you are, there’s nothing to be embarrassed about 🍃

Tom: "Being glued to a screen increases your suffering" Me glued to this video: 👁👄👁

“Don’t judge me for this” Ryan I used to do the same thing, it’s hard thinking about someone you love completely gone. We’re here for you!

Ngl I started crying and now I can’t stop, Ryan is the sweetest most beautiful and amazing person on KZhead.and I’m grateful to see that KZhead still has its sweet hearts.we love you Ryan and rest in peace for your grandma you’re the best

"I don't have an ex" Man is so perfect and genuine he's only had one relationship that has held like super glue you are an inspiration in many ways. I look forward to the day your video brings you to Wisconsin totally hit me up I'll show you the best and worst spots for everything.

I love how you trust us to talk to us about your memory about your grandmother. It's obvious that she meant alot to you. You don't have to be embarrassed, we all have that one person who has had a huge impact in our lives.

Ryan, that moment was amazing, not embarrassing. We as men must embrace that we, too, can and should feel without shame. It was great to see you visit such a distant memory through a genuine experience.

5:44 It's okay Ryan. Everyone cries. No one can stay strong forever. I could have cry when just right when there is no light. Your stonger than me. Good job Ryan.

It’s not embarrassing, it was needed. It's a good thing to let these emotions come up and out. Thank you for sharing this experience! I want to try one of those sens dep tanks myself some day.

When he cried over his grandma, I cried too. No weakness or embarrassment there. Strength. Strength and love.

It’s not embarrassing it’s beautiful. and the fact that you kept it in the video shows how brave you are, and now you have motivated me to try this for my self to connect with my memories both good and bad

Ryan, you did a great job on that visual. I loved it

i actually felt rlly bad 4 u when u were crying and i felt like crying too no need to feel ashamed about ur emotions! Great content as always :) Keep it up ❤

Honestly this sounds so relaxing. No noise, no visual, no gravity. Only issue is I would get bored rather quickly with no way to write down what goes down in my head and likely would sleep through most of it.

The beautiful story of your grandma touches me. No need to be embarrassed for the tears. It shows the human side.

I feel you with the story of your grandmother and you when you were younger, you’re lucky you had her even through your childhood, I lost mine at age 8, then just a few months ago, my second grandmother passed away from a blood clot. Memories of your past always exist not matter what happens to them.

WOW RYAN! NICE JOB! I LOVE UR EDITING! :D

Respect for showing that crying is actually okay. Even as a man.

I love how ryan managed to made us feel like we're watching a documentary but in youtube style !

Me and my granddaughter were watching this video and we can totally relate to your grandmaa experience. 😅 Sienna is my granddaughter’s name and we love your videos. God bless. ❤️

I lost my grandma too, I feel u man, it ain’t embarrassing, it’s happy to have someone to have the same feeling as me. Sometimes we will have to move on.

5:43 NOT embarrassing. This is a beautiful moment of sentiment and vulnerability. Thank you for keeping this in the video.

That wasn't embarrassing that was amazing

That wasn’t embarrassing at all. That was absolutely beautiful Ryan.

"Why are there so many ducks?" Me being addicted to hazbin hotel: *lucifer's house.*

Ryan can literally make floating in a pool entertaining lol. He has some of the best storytelling on the platform.

this feels like a literal documentary, insane work ryan!

I almost cried when you told me about how your grandma raised you and how you miss her I could really feel your pain and love for her

That memory was soooo wholesome and I can totally relate to that stillness. It’s so awesome that this experience evoked that memory. Not embarrassing at all!

Man that's not embarrassing, it's relatable. I lost my grandmother about 3 months ago and memories are really all I have. Being able to tap into them and experience moments with loved ones who are gone is a gift.

No need to feel embarrassed about your emotions Ryan. We all have people we miss 👊

Ryan suffering: “I feel like a butterfly 🦋 😊” caught me off guard bro😂

When you see Ryan happy and just having a good time, you know it’s gonna be a normal day But once you see Ryan crying…… Oh yeah….. That’s when you should cry too…

Naw man, nothing to be ashamed of. Glad you were able to remember something that was formative in your life. I'm sure if I did this I would be sobbing remembering crazy shit my Mom and I did, or my friends who took their lives. We all have things we need to process. No shame, thank you for sharing this.

That memory of his grandma made me feel such pure and innocent things I haven't felt since my own childhood. Crying is the most normal thing, man! It's what it means to be human!

That grandma part... I'm actually crying it's not embarrassing I feel you

Ryan is one of my favorite KZheadrs keep it up you make amazing content

I was watching this with my family and when you started talking about your grandmother, we all fell silent. Just listening to your words. Thinking about our own grandma, and how we would fair if we were to do this ourselves. Great content dude!

Right I’m just gonna flat out say this. Ryan you say “don’t judge me” but no we won’t because there is no issue in bringing back memories from the past and being upset about it, society has made it so men shouldn’t cry or show emotions, but you can! We should all be able to show and express our emotions freely without being embarrassed. 🥰

as a retail worker it would be nice to hear nothing! No complaining, no drama, no beep beep beep, no exptations, just relaxing! I wish I could afford something like this. I've been learning outside of work just to deal with work. Thanks for coming to my ted talk

Im so sorry for your loss dude, there is nothing wrong eith being sad about losing a loved one, like im still sad about my dad who died 4 years ago and i almost cried when i heard you getting upset About her not being there for you😭😭😭😭

Watching him progressively get sadder and try to fight it then just breaking down was so sad to watch

I really want to try this now... Looks oddly relaxing

Ryan don’t feel embarrassed I’m impressed bc I can’t even tell my secrets bc I’m always embarrassed and nervous u just conquered my biggest fear ❤❤❤❤

2:16 GREAT JOB RYAN U DID BEST ANIMATION I EVER SAW

I honestly would love to try something like this. Just absolutely disconnected from the physical world, feeling like I’m literally inside of my own thoughts

Do not be embarrassed at all about your memory! That was beautiful! Your emotions were so raw! It made me stop and think about my grandparents who practically raised me as well! It’s a lot of feelings !

there is nothing wrong with crying because of moment you miss or cant experience anymore ryan. we love you and you did a great job ❤

That made my eyes tear up when you were talking about your grandma😢 I'm sad now😢😢😢

Nobody should make fun of you for having emotional nostalgia sometimes it's unavoidable

Dude, don't be embarrased. That was perfectly normal and incredibly heartwarming. If i'll be honest i'm tearing up myself, heheh.

WOW NICE JOB RYAN THAT VISUAL WAS GREAT

I love your edit of salt good job

you shouldn’t be embarrassed to show us your emotions, you’re human too and we totally understand that you have experiences and memories of your own! thank you for telling us about your grandma and your moment with her

The memory with your grandmother is really special-don’t be embarrassed over shed tears. She obviously means a great deal to you. Thank you for choosing to share that moment with us. Edit: It’s really encouraging to see so many other people who have hearts for their families (and for humanity in general). I hope this conversation (minus the bots) has encouraged some of you as well!

Omg that presentation was so good!!

Dude I'm sorry about your grandma I felt that before❤

As someone who has trouble with sensory overload, this looks like heaven (currently sitting in a dark room with noise-canceling headphones on so that I can't hear anything but my own heartbeat). But it also looks like straight up torture because any sort of stagnation causes me anxiety. I'm just now realizing I might have some issues.

This is quality content. Even if he is trying to joke around or anything, he is making us laugh even when he is scared. This man deserves an award.

“Why so many ducks.” My immediate thought was is this Lucifer’s house from hazbin hotel yep that’s all goooood bye

There’s no need to be embarrassed. Everyone always has a flood of memories and breakdowns sometimes. When I was younger my mom would take me to my grandparents house for the summers. I use to play with them all the time. Me and my brother would play with toys outside and run around in their grass instead of just watching television. Imagination was just our thing. When we had school my grandma would be waiting for me to get off the bus. The bus didn’t go to our road. I would sneak up to my grandpa. He was usually in his room when I git back from school. When he was sleeping I would draw on the floor and go, “boo!” and pop out of no where. When he was watching TV I would do the same thing but sneak around his wheel chair. One day when I got back he wasn’t there. Turns out that he had to stay in the hospital. My mom wouldn’t come home until late at night when we were all sleeping because she would be in hospital looking out for him. One day we headed towards a church I had never been too. And that’s when I saw him laying down. That was when I understood what “our time” was. It heart-broke me. I didn’t show up to school for 2 weeks. We would always sing songs, dance, wait for the ice cream man outside. He was one of the best singers I have ever heard, he was also really good at guitar. We have a picture of him in our living room. What’s funny is that even though we have that picture of him, I’m the only person in our house that has a unique picture of him in my room. My mom tells me how he visits her in her dreams. The time he visited me a couple of months agoI was overwhelmed with tears to speak, he told me “don’t cry Bonita.” He died when I was six but I still feel him watching over me. Still memories are hard but you should never be embarrassed. It’s a part of life that we all just have to except. Don’t feel bad

That was really thought provoking Ryan, extremely interesting to see how you reacted to your senses being taken away. I bet it could be a really good memory trigger for people, don’t be embarrassed about which ones come up and how you feel about them, the story about your grandma was really powerful. I would love to try this - but I worry about how I would react to it, I think my anxiety might get too bad unfortunately! surely!

That was really thought provoking Ryan, extremely interesting to see how you reacted to your senses being taken away. I bet it could be a really good memory trigger for people, don’t be embarrassed about which ones come up and how you feel about them, the story about your grandma was really powerful. I would love to try this - but I worry about how I would react to it, I think my anxiety might get too bad unfortunately!

WOW RYAN NICE JOB!!! 💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽

i love how ryan does these crazy things like for example this video to give us entertainment ............... i love your videos ryan

It’s so sad that the world has recognized crying as “embarrassing”! Ryan, never feel embarrassed about feeling that way! 💗

When he talked about his grandma.. I literally started to tears up a bit. Im very scared to loose my grandmother, I love her so much bc she always loved me and helped me...

amazing job on visual effects

it is not shame cry for memory of loved one!!!!!!

5:50 Not at all embarrassing, bro. This world we've built, with all of its sound/light pollution, has majorly disconnected us from what's actually going on inside of us. We are rarely in-touch with our authentic and internal selves, which is why you feel embarrassment for crying in the first place. This is a beautiful moment and I really hope you have a million more authentic moments like this to connect with the deeper parts of yourself.

It's alright man I cry over my grandma and she's not even dead yet it's just the thought of it that makes me cry it's okay we understand what it's like you don't have to be embarrassed or ashamed of it

I lost my grandpa and Cried 😢 sooo it’s. Not embarrassing and I cried to when you talked about your grandma hope she is in peace

That looks really interesting. I really want to give this a shot somehow as this can probably clear my thoughts up.

Can we please normalize not being embarrassed about tears? That was such a beautiful memory you shared with us and I love the direction your content is going. Absolutely top tier. Edit: Seems a lot of people are finding humour in the "normalize" term, we get it💀 but the fact that there are also replies with people stating that they're not comfortable crying proves my point lol. We're not obligated to share how we're feeling but trust me, letting go and crying every once in a while can make you feel so much lighter. I think if we try as a collective to be less judgemental of people around us who cry (especially men), you'll find it easier to comfortably grieve or laugh or reminisce with tears. Watch a video of cute puppies, or soldiers coming home, or a sappy movie every now and then if you find it hard to let it out. Try and find time even if it's for 5 minutes to scream into a pillow or bawl your eyes out😂, don't be too hard on yourself, you're loved. It's going to be ok. ❤️

When I went to prison on my first go around, they have a place called, " the box" which is basically the "hole" or solitaire confinement. It's horrible little messed up cell. The brick walls, no window, a big intimidating metal door, a metal framed bed bolted to the ground, a metal toilet with a sink on it. One light on the ceiling that stays on all day, all night. I was sent to the box the first time for a fight, that actually never really happened, with someone that I didn't even know, it's too long of a story but there I was in the cell next to his in the box and the only way to speak to each other was through a heating vent on the ground that ran through both of our cells. We would talk, because other than writing or reading that was the only thing to do. We talked for hours, for days, then weeks, we got pretty close without even ever seeing each other. The box will do something to weird to your mind. The first few days are probably the worst. Time is slow, the light will give you a headache and you'll spend a lot of time just walking back and forth but something happens to a lot of people in there after awhile, time starts passing. You forget all about it and it just kinda speeds up without you noticing it, at this point of being in there, what the hell is time anyways? It doesn't matter. You'll forget what day it is. Then forget the date all together and sometimes when your up really late talking you'll go to bed late, or early depending on how long you talked and then there goes your normal sleeping cycle and if it wasn't for the kind of shit food your getting you wouldn't know if it was day or night and usually at this point you couldn't give less of a fuck. When I said that the box does weird shit to your head I meant that it really twists your shit up because before they we're going to put me back in general population I decided I was just going to refuse. I was going to stay in that little cell for as long as I could or until I paroled and that's what I did. I spent three years in that box. Obviously my neighbor left and over the next few years many came and left and I enjoyed talking to them, getting to know them, getting close to a human with just conversation knowing that I would most likely never see them again, that was a special feeling. I liked the books I read and I got really good at drawing. Increased my drawing skills up to portrait level using covers of books and the occasional magazine. That cell changed me in more ways to count. Some good things and some not. Sorry for rambling it's just that this video reminded me of my little cell in the box.

Don’t be embarrassed about reliving moments of your past Ryan you have every right to cry

Im jealous. Sesory deprivation sounds perfectly amazing. Alone with your thoughts and the horror your mind can produce. I wish i could be completely secluded for hours.

no where near embarrassing, i lost my grandma 5 years ago and still cry about it, we r all here with you

this man is up next. every video is soo good

No but that actually made me tear up :,)

GOOD JOB ON THE VISUAL THINGY AT 2:04 RYANN!!

This. This is science. Not boring science, but practical science. *And he's testing it out with himself* That's worth to see

I had never heard of this before, it looks so scary, I would 100% freak out after 15min, can't imagine doing 3 hours lol. I have to try this one day and conquer some fears. Nice video Ryan, and don't be ashamed that you cryed.

Hey man, don't feel bad because you cried. Everybody cries. Showing emotion is strength, not weakness. I'm sorry about your grandma. I remember when my uncle died, I thought it was my fault, that if I had just talked to him more often he wouldn't have had that heart attack.

I like how Ryan never gets mad in his videos and makes us laugh

Crying is not embarrassing Ryan remember that. I've lost my grandma about 2 years ago and every time I think about all those memories I had with her makes me cry like a baby. Remember we're here with you!

Ryan, my guy it's totally fine to cry and let out your emotions out ! It's not embarrassing that you cried on camera. Just stay positive ! Live in the moment !

We can cry dude ❤ Loss is something that does that.

Ryan, there is no reason to feel embarrassed over crying. We all have emotions that’s just apart of life. 💗 we love you Ryan

Can we appreciate what Ryan is doing for us? The happiness, sadness, feelings, all of these emotions mixed into one video? This is the best that you have done, I love it so much

You know, this is one of the only challenges I would actually be willing to lose. It feels more like a reward rather than a punishment

this is my favorite ryan trahan video idk why

I feel u bro:(😢 when u remember The most saddest memory on ur life Its just sad bro i mean its like sad :( i feel u:( and i cry because of your story😢:(

When he talked about his grandma, I almost cried, I had a grandpa who was there for me, even miles away. Back in 2014, he passed away. I was told a story, my grandpa Alec, after he passed, my family saw him on the beach, waving. My grandma wanted to hug him one last time. Edit: It’s okay to be sad, just remember people always love you.

We need more men like you. you got so openly vulnerable, and my heart broke when you asked me not to judge you :( its not embarassing, its human, and its stronger than anything to show these parts of ourselves, let alone to this many other people. i appreciate when men are vulnerable. i appreciate when men arent afraid to cry. i appreciate when men are brave enough to be emotional in a world where its so easy for them to bottle up their shit and not talk about it. its what differentiates boys from men. well done

2:15 Nice job with the edit Ryan!!

5:43 its alright ryan were sorry about your memories giving you emotions. We all been through it before. your not the only one. We love your content, You're not alone..