What It's Actually Like To Live With Bipolar Disorder
There's more to it than just having "very high highs and very low lows."
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"Medication to keep everything regular. Not numb, not perfect, just manageable." Well said.
ItoshiiBaka This.
This is exactly what my medication is for me.
I agree
@John Blackburn My brain doesnt make enough seritonin to begin with and it is perminently damaging my will to live. At least my meds keep me stable and sane.
John Blackburn dude, you’re a fucking idiot
I wish more ppl talked openly about mental illness, because everyone deserves help
True, it took me 15 years to face my PTSD and Agoraphobia and admit I needed help!
Anastasia Blazhenova we do KZhead bans and censors us
100000000000%... to help we need to start by talking about it. It should absolutely not be stigmatized.
I tried in the work place a few years ago and it was used against me by supervisors. I don't think our society is ready and doesn't plan to be.
Then Stop Calling it a Mental Illness!
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporessss I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporessss
"I don't want to kill myself, and that's manageable." I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 when I was 19. Thank you for showing people that we aren't monsters. We are loving, breathing, feelings human beings who deserve love and compassion just the same as every else.
Alexandra Harr I was diagnosed at 21 and it’s interesting the similarities in experience especially with the ocd cleaning during manic episodes
Nobody thinks that...
@@TheGazelle85 are you saying that you've never experienced bias during a manic or depressive episode? Because making the generalized statement of "nobody thinks that" is incorrect in my experience. I have experienced that bias. I have been told that I'm crazy. You can't make a blanket statement when you don't know everyone's experiences.
Im sorry to hear that for both of you guys. Is bipolar 1 or 2 something you are born with, or something you develop?
@@TheGazelle85 in response to your statement, please read my comment above. Things will make much more sense.
the part about being scared to lose your creativity after getting help is so real. Your illness feels like it's you. I'm working through OCD and anxiety and I'm honestly scared to be left empty headed because all i know are obsesive thoughts.
Jay Kay I found out my creativity became more focused and I could focus on one thing instead of a lot of things at once, when I changed my lifestyle to deal with my bipolar . You won’t be empty headed , your full of who you are and are so special , don’t be afraid . Who are meant to be will be if you release the fear, follow your intuition in your healing with your mental state. Bless you
@@flutterbylesley3731 how did you heal yourself?
Hi i had obsessive thoughts, phobias high anxiety. I am much better now. It took me a long time to understand that the thoughts are thoughts not who i am. I distract myself as soon as i get the urge to think. I got therapy felt like never ending situation. Dont isolate yourself talk to the people who understand you also remember its step by step process. Its healing inside looking deep the causes. Also i took medications that helped me a lot. Took a break from stress and always stayed under positive environment. Became creative.
If you can put yourself in some creative classes where they make you super busy and help you create things its helpfull. Also for anxiety meditatiom is super helpfull. Reading books also helps in understanding also stay a little away from researching your symptoms. Hope its helpfull.
The good thing about being treated and not having obsessive thoughts is the possibility of filling up that space with books, movies, ideas, conversations, etc.
Bipolar 2 isn’t talked about enough. I can definitely relate to this especially the note on depressive episodes. They are usually longer and much harder to deal with than the manic ones which makes it so much more difficult
I also wish people knew that it is possible to be diagnosed with multiple mental disorders. My mum has Bipolar type 2 but also has a diagnosis of schizoaffective disorder.
Oh we do talk about it. But most people with mental sickness are seen as whiny, annoying, attention seeking, embarrassing, overwhelming, pathetic, and exhausting. At least from my experience with bipolar disorder is. No one listens, understands or cares. They laugh, shun, and scold at me. No one helps or cares about me. That’s the sad truth.
I feel like bipolar 2 is all that gets talked about. I rarely meet anyone with bipolar 1
@@enjay5696 I always get confused with how Bipolar 1 and 2 are described because they differ from my personal experiences. I know/have met 3 people in my life who have had Bipolar 2 and they've all been hospitalised for long periods of time because of manic episodes from their teens to adult years, but internet descriptions say Bipolar 1 usually ends up with more hospital admissions as a result of mania. I feel like people blur the lines between all the types of Bipolar.
ClumsyLee it’s hard to categorize the human brain that’s constantly evolving
Psilocybin saved my life. I was addicted to heroin for 15 years and after Psilocybin treatment I will be 3 years clean in September. I have zero cravings. This is something that truly needs to be more broadly used in addiction treatment.
Please does anyone know where I can get them? I put so much on my plate and it really affects my stress and anxiety levels, I would love to try shrooms
@Micheal Harris Is he on instagram?
@Micheal Harris Can dr.sporess send to me in OH?
Shrooms was the best trip I had. It was an amazing experience.
I don’t believe you have 0 cravings lmao
"I don't want to kill myself, and that's manageable" Wow this hit super close to home. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when I was 17. Looking back through my childhood I had all the classic symptoms. The very low-lows, periods of mania, random explosive anger. I also ended up addicted to drugs because I was trying to find a way to cope. I am 18 months clean from heroin and I have been taking my bipolar meds as prescribed for almost 1 year. It's nice to know I'm not alone in this. 💕😊
Congrats❤ Im pretty same
I am really proud of you ! I have severe anxiety because of which I get 'depressive' episodes too and I can relate to how she felt- obviously I didn't have the same journey but it feels nice when people talk about these issues.
This is amazing thank you for sharing 💓
girl you are doing great !! You are right, you are not alone!
Congrats girl. More strength to you ❤️
Thank you in a country like India where people are not educated enough on mental illnesses.. it's an everyday struggle.
i can totally relate...
Ya, the education system should tell children but mental illness. *well, our education system needs to have a lot of things* I knew about myself like 10to15 days back but what actually I'm facing for maybe for 3 years but I'm still scared to ask for help and I don't know how to.
@@The_One_with_Vision Hi Mahima please try to get help..maybe not even your family is going to help you with this but still go and see a psychiatrist.🙂🙂
@@Alishahaha I know it's hard..keep going for yourself.🙃
@@The_One_with_Vision please visit a physologist counsellor or u can also seek help from toll free no. of physologist given by government. U can google to find more details.Please seek help and don't ignore it🙏❤
I’ve only ever experienced hypomania but dude, it’s out of control, it’s kind of fun but not in a good way, and ultimately it’s super embarrassing. Those episodes are a great way to lose friends and trigger self-hatred. Thanks for sharing your experiences.
Some of my lows are actually caused by what I did during my hypomanic episodes
@@jazminmascorro334 mmaav
@@verasalvador3370 I used to think that because I would have all this energy for weeks and push myself physically and hardly eat I would just naturally crash. For months. Like yeah, this is normal. Ever since my psych brought up the possibility of bipolar, I'm reevaluating so much in my life.
@@verasalvador3370 depression is made worse by the guilt you feel. It gets better if you forgive yourself and accept that it wasn't the real you in the hypomanic episode. And if you can find a book called Strictly Bipolar by Darian Leader, it's a great insight. Short but interesting.
Embarrassing ‼️ and other people don’t understand when I say that. But it’s like. I’m trying to stop all this impulsiveness and talkativeness so it sucks
I just hate the fact that when you actually manage to put your feelings into words and try to talk to someone and they just don't understand. Damn it they just don't understand like somehow the forget what English sounds like. And what am I trying to explain them.That's sad a bad feeling. The worst one.
It hurts even more when you're not the type of person to not reach out, but when you do that (especially to someone close and dear to you ) and they dont understand.
@@xlx077 I know. I understand that feeling.
I know this feeling and I hate it. I gave them hints and tried so many times to open up to them but when I talk I would notice they're not listening or someone is gonna cut in or they're in their head and after all I've said from the heart they would just reply huh? What were you saying? Or they will suddenly remember something and talk to other people about it, cutting me off midsentence and leaving me dumbfounded and dissapointed. So I just stopped trying. It was so draining. If they don't want to listen then ok fine. It's just so unfair that when they talk I always listen and give them my full attention and listen carefully to what they're saying and try to understand them. Even sometimes when I'm doing something and they would interrupt me I would stop and give them my full attention, resulting me not finishing what I had to finish. It's just frustrating and I can't even stop doing that. I guess I don't want them to feel the way I feel because I know it's horrible even though they're unconsciously doing that to me. Or maybe I'm just horrible at saying no to them to the point that I will sacrifice anything for anyone that I care about even if I suffer. Good thing I saw that it was so toxic for me and now I know that they careless if I'm not their friend anymore so I ended it. But we're on good terms now, it's just that I will not make them my priority like before. I don't have friends now but who cares? I have God and myself. My priority now is to help myself get better because no one else will.
@@youniversalbeyoutifull2843 it takes a whole lot of strength to tell your story to a stranger but I'm glad that at least you said it out loud. I have been there and I know there are lot of people like us. I'm happy to know that you are on good terms with your friends. I would also like to tell you that in past years I realised listening and understanding is a quality and not everyone has it . I tried to reach out to people but the didn't understand me but I always try to be there when someone is trying to reach out to me every if its 3 am and you finally manage to sleep after trying for hours and take that call and listen. And for myself I started writing journals. I did that for a whole year and half and it helps me to bring my feelings out. I find it easy when I don't have someone around to talk. And ofcourse praying and running few other things I like to do to help myself. I hope this message helps you in some way.
It's like you know what you are dealing with but don't know how actually to put that thing in words.
I got diagnosed with bipolar since my teenage, spent my whole life fighting bipolar. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Mushrooms are very medicinal. This is why anybody familiar with psilocybin and any other kind of fungi will tell you, "They are alive." They have a very ancient wisdom. To my experience, all mushrooms have always said, "Pay attention to your life. How you think, how you feel, and what will you do with the information that you always knew, but now are seeing in this point of view." This is why mushrooms are so respected in tribal cultures. This mental health treatment works for me too. Half micro doses do the trick for me. At least a few days at a time with lengthy time in between. Never addictive. Thank you for sharing this point!
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Listening to her story makes me want to educate myself more.
Do it. Look up Boderline personality disorder too.
Any mental disease needs to be diagnosed if there is a category for every diagnosis, stereotypical behaviour could be treated, how many types of illness is there, suicide could be the result do what it takes to get rid of it, if there's therapy for it, take steps to relieve it, do you know what to do about it, ask for help⛔
i don’t know why these entitled bastards above didn’t say it to you, but bravo. your willingness to educate yourself is commendable, because a fool is not the one who doesn’t know something, but the one that doesn’t want to learn
My mum is bi-polar. It was sad to watch the mania and the inevitable depression. She's a beautiful woman and to see her suffer killed me. Thank you for this. Everyone deserves to be heard and cared for.❤ to you all.
thank you so much fo4 being so non judgemental. You should know your comment helped someone feel less dark....
Same here. My mum too is a patient of bipolar and she has long episodes... honestly I don't know whether it's bipolar or something else, cuz she lashes out almost every day but don't do any extreme steps like self harm or something just repeating same set of bad words for a long period of tym... well it's hard to stay with her cuz she shut herself from her children by not sharing what's and why happening to her.... it's really HARD 4 me...cuz I have been seeing her lyk this ever since I was born..
Avoid oil salt sugar nd eat less
I have bipolar 2, ptsd, adhd. I am 50. Mom is BPD. Your video hits the mark. That is basically almost how my bipolar played out. I no longer drink since 19 yrs ago. I take meds and have support. I am 50 yr old man. Not perfect but manage it ok. Thanks for sharing.
I was diagnosed with Bipolar. That's when I realized why I can feel good and then go into a deep depression. I will have all of this energy and intentions. Then I will feel so bad and depressed. I beat myself up for being depressed. I wondered 'why can't you stay happy? or 'why don't you just get up and do something?" I came to the point when I felt really energized and productive, I knew that a deep depression was going to follow. I thought that I was just doomed.
Mental illness can happen to anyone, it can be from so many things like DNA, environment, other people, so on. It just needs proper care like any other illness.
as a person who lives with bipolar.. the sentence u said "its not perfect... but i dont wanna kill myself.. its huge for me" is so true and i feel it. you are so strong and talented, and it was amazing to hear your words. I hope we both won't forget we can do anything we want even id we have bipolar. thank you!
Hi, I'm dealing with it always . I have therapy, doctors and phycologist. Very difficult at times.you know.feel Very Harsh about life now and then. Working on it 24 hours a day.😊 Hope your OK, we have to focus on good. And don't let them over do MEDS. YOU ARE YOU 😊 ✝️🛐✌️🤠👍🇺🇸💯%
I always suspect something but I'm scared that - once I make that psychologist/psychiatrist appointment and get diagnosed with something - it's gonna be the only thing I'll identify myself as. I'm scared that I will use that knowledge against everyone around me. (ie. getting criticized by co-worker but instead of trying to do better, I force them to understand how anxiety-inducing the task is for me). Am I the only one who thinks this way? :(
I would say you should try to see if a diagnosis is possible--once I was diagnosed I was able to get medicated and it's helped regulate things a lot. If you keep it to yourself, people can't look at you any different than before.
I get that feeling. It's what kept me from getting help for my own mental health issues in the 5 years since they started surfacing. I've been dealing with symptoms for anxiety and depression since I was 13, and 5 of those years was spent in fear of treatment. I still am, to be honest, and I think everyone's mental health journey is different; but personally, getting a diagnosis from an actual medical professional was so freeing. It's valid to feel afraid, but if you really feel like you might need more help than you're already getting, it's worth a shot. As for equating yourself to your condition and using it as an excuse to slack off, I think that's where therapy really helps. A good therapist would help catch those tendencies and help you become more aware of them and how you can deal with them in a healthy way. It's unavoidable to feel that way sometimes, but if getting a diagnosis or seeking help means that you could feel safer and more stable, go and try it out! Besides, being able to put a label on it helps people (at least, those who matter) know that you will have more off-days than the average person, and it helps them understand which is you and which is your mental illness or whichever problem you may be facing right now. :D I wish you good luck on your mental health journey! If you're really not ready for professional help, it's okay. I hope you have other coping mechanisms and support systems in place to help make things more "manageable" ^_^
This is what’s keeping me from going to get help. I know I can’t self diagnose, but I completely related to this whole video and I’ve been dealing with it since childhood. I’m 22 now.
Hey guys. I want to encourage you to get diagnosed. Please don't wait until things get unbearable. Once you get on that journey you can start finding what meds, therapists, and coping skills work for you. Also a diagnosis could help you find other people that are dealing with the same thing as you and you can learn from them. The sooner you do it the sooner you can get on track. Best wishes! ❤️
I struggled with the exact same thing. I openly told my psychiatrist about all my worries and beliefs and resistances toward this . I think that is really awesome to acknowledge. I think it’s wise as well because a lot of people could use mental illness as like an excuse when one messes up or acts a certain way to others instead of really trying to grow through the ups and downs of each individuals personalities and and struggles . Like if I needed help- using my bipolar as an excuse why I needed assistance etc. or not being able to handle a relationship and blaming it on my bipolar. Or even , being super joyful and always in the back of my head thinking “ I wonder if I seem manic or if I’m okay” . I think your conscious is recognizing you don’t want to do the wrong thing with you possibly being diagnosed with a mental illness or chemical imbalance and that is really good . I def recommend talking to psychiatrist about these worries- and your not alone. Your not gonna use your diagnoses wrong or only identify yourself with it -your going to be able to really learn a lot about yourself through the process . Don’t let the fear guide you. And also know we are human and we experience a lot of thing because of how we grew up or how we think so really find someone you can talk to to work thru everything inside. Bless you .
why cant i stop. this has brought me to tears for so long. i feel like i break things when im manic. i break peoples trust in me, i break relationships, i break my bones a few times but by far the worst part of all of it is that i cant stop.
It's so true😅😅😅
💕💕
This is beyond relatable. My heart hurts cause this is me.
its nothing to feel bad or hurt about, you just become if anything, more beautiful and amazing so trust me don't doubt anything
You are the lucky one who found the right treatment and has a positive outcome. My daughter, on the other hand, was not so lucky. She had a drug resistant condition. She struggled, and tried many different meds. Had little or no improvement. She ended her life a month ago at age 28. We loved her and tried very hard to help her to find the right treatment. We failed. I am heartbroken.
She failed. Stop blaming her actions on yourself.
@@ThatOneGuyWithTheEye no one failed. Everyone did their best. Mental illness is often hard af to deal with.
I am so so sorry. I believe there is something beyond this life and if there is, your daughter is at peace wherever she is and she is so proud that you fought for her and she knows she's loved and loves you too. Hold onto that 🖤.
@@kikib8434 Thank you for acknowledging it. I did try very hard to find doctors and help for my daughter. In some states, or areas, many psychiatrists do not accept any health insurance. That added another layer of difficulty! We must change that! Mental illness is no different from other illnesses, but only more difficult to treat and cope. My heart hurts when I think about her.
@@kikib8434 I sincerely thank you for your kind words! The only comfort I feel from this tragic event is to know that my daughter is resting in peace. She is no longer in pain. The truth I drew from her struggle is that as a human, we are unable to really know how others feel unless we experience it. So, I will not attempt to interpret other people's feelings, let alone make any judgement. Thank you again!
*The bassist from school of rock!!*
I KNEW SHE LOOKED FAMILIAR
I'm mostly conveniently cut out from people....... and thus have no contacts, no friends no communication, and the next stage is to feel socially so alienated that you fall for people you shouldn't fall for under normal circumstances, all in all you are making me sick this way....... and then it's my fault :)
@@fredericmoresmau9194 Um... that's sad but also how does it have to do with School of Rock? Wrong reply section dude.
@@fredericmoresmau9194 I'm a bit confused by your comment, but I do know that there are millions of lonely people who would love your company. Choose one or more!
@@fredericmoresmau9194 😬 are you alright man?
I live with BIPOLAR 1 and I have had full blown manic episodes ...I was diagnosed at 17 but I started showing it at 15 .I am now 21 and I really hate the scares Bipolar has lefte with .Manic left me with traumatic bond and difficult life ... I love my self , hate my past I feel I have had wasted time. Nobody speaks about how empty Bipolar can feel . It's hard to trust your guts when your positive , I always think am getting manic ... What a blessing to be bipolar
My sibling struggles with this. When they experienced psychosis was very eye opening for me and changed my view of the entire world. We used to say they were simply " in one of their moods." Fortunately Bipolar is not an end of the world and you can thrive just like my sibling. Much love and support to everyone suffering from this condition. You got this.
I have bipolar and went through this as well.
Thanks
This happened to me once. It's really hard to ever trust yourself again. Constant fear of going 'crazy' again. Feels bad
I understand my behavior when I’m manic or depressed can be undesirable to my loved ones.. but telling me to just go take my meds anytime I am in disagreement or upset is very irritating and counter productive I do take my meds everyday when I’m supposed to it’s like I’m being told to take extra doses because i experience the same emotions as them.. I understand it’s amplified at times but that’s because I am also battling alcoholism… I feel like I have to be happy all the time around everyone otherwise there will be hell to pay… it’s just hard..
They say she’s weak but she’s so strong and brave for sharing her story and experiences + advice 💪
I was diagnosed aged 19 when I was in psychiatric hospital. I am 37 now. I worked and still work hard on cognitive behavioural therapy, I don’t drink, I take my meds, there are some black times still, but I’m happy I’m alive. I work as a police custody medic. I know myself well, I know when I need to ask for help. I hope people out there know that you CAN live with this. Happy and well and secretly more magical than most 😉
I am so proud of you and I cannot wait until I get to where you are in life. I'm 22, diagnosed bipolar 2 at 18, depressed since 12, and it's still just such a battle. I'm getting better but it's such a long journey of steps forward and steps back.
What meds r u taking and how many years ?
“Happy and well and secretly more magical than most” Amen sister. #bipolar1
I've experienced that a large issue with Bipolar patients is the denial of the Bipolar, so HUUUGE props for your acceptance, never mind public acknowledgement and sharing of your condition and experience. I am a daughter of a mom with a 26 year Bipolar type 1 diagnosis (Im 37 yrs old) and what the hardest part of this and any other type of mental or addiction condition is, is that that this affects those around the people with the condition as much as it does the person. Much strength to anyone reading this who knows or loves someone with any mental / addiction condition.
Heyy, so I'm 15 and suspect that I maybe bipolar so could you please tell me about the diagnosis process?
I could cry because of how I could exactly relate to her description of what it was like for her as a child.
sila çakmak go talk to someone about it i know it’s hard at the beginning and maybe they won’t understand you. But just tell them about everything you’re feeling. And get help. Go to a doctor. You will feel so much better to talk to someone who can understand you. I know i have something mental but i don’t know what it is and i tried to tell my mom about it but she can’t understand me, i want to go to a doctor but i can’t it’s too hard to not knowing what you have and why you’re acting this way. I wish i could talk to someone and understand me and tell me what i have. Wish you the best
sila çakmak Aa aa türksün galiba 😅❤️
sila çakmak bi şey değil canım aslında türk değilim sadece türkçe bilmiyorum Memnun oldum ❤️
When taken under supported conditions, psilocybin mushrooms can cause self-described spiritual experiences that generally result in positive changes in the person's attitude, mood and hehavior
Golden teachers has been my go-to mushroom for months, it has helped in my recovery journey
Let's be adults about this. These are no longer 'shrooms. These are no longer party drugs for young people," "Psilocybin mushrooms are nonaddictive, life-changing substance..
Hey.. I'm interested in trying emm.. where do you fetch ?
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''im asking for help everyday,'' and she realises she is never ever alone is such a comforting good thing to see,learn and should be adressed more by anyone
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I can't imagine how hard it actually must be, I send love to every bipolar out there you guys are very strong
This was a very comforting video. I have MDD and it’s really...not easy. Thank you for sharing, Becca. :) To see someone discuss this so openly and without disgust or judgment, it feels like a breath of fresh air.
It’s a massive misconception that BPII manic episodes are “easier” or “less severe”.
G P While engulfed by mania, I’ve always felt like my life is on fast forward and I can’t find the pause button. It’s scary and exhausting.
That is true. Hypomanic episodes, while horrible, are not as severe as manic episodes. Hypomania alone is found in BPII. This is literally discussed in the video.
Felt this so hard. I'm diagnosed with depression and anxiety, but because I'm more self aware than others diagnosed, I'm always told I can't possibly be depressed. It's debilitating and having children who one has depression and the other is on the spectrum, makes caring for them even myself at times harder.
Its terrifying, like a rollercoaster you can't stop, you make Bad choices that you wouldn't normally., and can end in Psychosis or worse...
Thank you. Some people needed to hear this.
I can't tell you how much this video helped me understand what I am feeling. I have recently been diagnosed with Bipolar and it's something I thought I might have but to actually fully have a name to it is scary but relieving. I appreciate your strength and transparency about your experience. This will resonate with me for a long time and you give me hope, so thank you for that
Thank you for saying what is so hard for me to place in words. I'm also type two with PTSD, and with little to no support system. Quarantine also shattered alot of my support when I was beginning to have any and taking the steps to reach for help.
Short, straight and to the point. Thank you for making this video and sharing your story. It helps to fight the stigma against Bipolar D.O. and mental illness.
Thank you Becca for sharing your story and strength with us.
Thank you for posting this, I too have bipolar type 2 and this made me emotional to see someone so much like myself 🤦♀️✊🏽
Thank you for your bravery and transparency! You show the human aspect to a condition that is so misunderstood in society and the media. I’m so glad that you have found understanding and healing through therapy and awareness. Absolutely agree that asking for help is so important. Thank you for the reminder that asking for help is not a sign of weakness. I needed that reminder today and I’m sure many others do as well. Thank you for sharing your story! ❤️
Becca, thank you for sharing your experience. I was misdiagnosed with Panic Disorder and Major Depression when I was 14. At 21, I remember losing control and that’s when my family helped me seek help & was diagnosed with Bipolar 2. Throughout my years, I felt like I had to make some sort of excuse to explain why I felt the way that I felt because I thought my own emotions weren’t enough. Mental health is important & I wish you all the best. Thank you.
Thank you for sharing. It's so important to make public aware espically for those of us moms who questions her children.
I'm so glad to finally see an accurate depiction of bipolar disorder. Thank you for this. ❤️
Her story sounds so relatable. I’m glad she found herself and found the courage to get the help she needs to live thru the fight it takes to be okay.
Thanks for this. I am also living with bipolar 2. So grateful when I got diagnosed.
I am so touched watching this video. She is so brave and so strong when having dealt with her bipolar II alone. It's so healing to see how amazing she's getting over it. Thank you so much for giving hope to others who may suffer from mental illness.
That really really helped me. I can totally relate to Becca and seeing, that a life and partculary a life as an artist is possible gives me hope. I'm really thankful for her to talk about it so truly and open. Thank you!
This is hands down the best explanation of Bipolar 2 I have ever heard. I resonate with my own BP from watching this, especially the part about how our sobriety is very important for recovery, thank you.
Hey, thanks for putting this together. The more we understand about managing symptoms and respecting rights, people might live fuller lives.
Thank you Becca 😊. I feel better after watching your video because I have experienced these highs and lows and have been afraid to call it bipolar. I am willing to seek help for myself and my two daughters. You presented the bipolar condition in a way that is not horrifying or terminal but hopeful.
Thank you for sharing for the whole bipolar community and for the world in general to understand this category of mental and physical pain.
I usually don’t click on these videos because acknowledging my bipolar disorder is mildly triggering for me, but hearing that you hit that absolute low point at the age of 19 really struck me, because I also hit that point at the same age. That’s when I was diagnosed. My parents and I suspected I had bipolar disorder since I was 13. My uncle has bipolar 2, we kinda connected the dots. I went to therapy and tried medications, but I wasn’t diagnosed up until I spent 5 days in psychiatric care. I finally received a proper diagnosis, Bipolar 1 disorder. It was terrifying; a final confirmation. Ever since then I haven’t quite been able to get back to working or doing anything for my future. It’s been hard to maintain relationships and find balance in my life, but the thought of being faced with suicidal thoughts or fatal burn out is absolutely terrifying. My diagnosis has altered my identity, confidence, and communication skills. Plus, I’m afraid that if I go back to normal then things will truly go back to “normal”. The good news is.. I’ve been free from suicidal thoughts for 6 months now! The longest I’ve felt free ever since I was 12. Ever since my diagnosis, it’s becoming easy for me to recognize when I’m entering an episode. It’s becoming easier everyday to identify my habits, improve, and find coping mechanisms. Even though not everyday is perfect, and I feel out of control, I’m going to keep fighting for my life. I love to see others fight this disorder. It’s always so relieving to hear I’m not alone. Thank you so much for sharing your story. 💖
As someone with bipolar, I appreciate you speaking so honestly about your experience. There's a lot of stigma around mental illness and sometimes it's hard to find someone who can relate to your experiences.
How brave of you. I struggle as well. Thank you for being open and honest. You are loved.
Well done for seeking help. Good on you girl. Stay strong. Thank you for being so brave for telling us your story. Sending you lots of love from Australia 🇦🇺🥰
this is a great representation of what bipolar || feels like. I wish people would stop describing it as “being really happy and really sad.” You captured the nuances perfectly. I am an artist and was terrified to lose my creativity, and I completely agree that it has improved tenfold with my medication. Thank you for being transparent and honest. :)
THANK YOU for this brilliant representative for those of us who struggle and survive💕
I got diagnosed a few months ago, and this video is a huge help. Now I can point to something to explain how I feel. Thank you🙏🏾💞
Thank you so much for this video. I recently got diagnosed with bipolar II and it has been a whirlwind since. This video was so validating and helpful. 💜
Feels like hell living with bipolar disorder, it is so exhausting especially without meds :(
Thank you so much!!!! This is beautiful.
I applaud your honesty and openness- so brave of you and will no doubt help many others 👏
wow you are such a strong intelligent young woman for speaking out like this, I am studying psychology at uni soon and i'm glad I have had this insight into bipolar thank you, I feel like bipolar is often represented so negatively on films/tv but its great to see a more realistic point of view I am glad you managed to find some balance.
This pushes me to be a psychiatrist a lot more than ever♡. I'll work for it. I wanna help people out there. ☹
God bless you♡ rooting for you!
Goodluck👊
My sister has bipolar and i have dysthymia. I'm watching this to improve my knowledge in order to understand her and help her when she's down. I hope our life will be manageable
This is the best explanation of how bipolar feels that I've ever seen. Thank you :)
Thank you. Bringing awareness. Trying to support my Dad for over 35 years. Been hard to get him proper help and medication.
She seems like a kind and empathetic person. I hope she’s doing well, I really hope for the best for her 💜💜💜
Thank you for this, shows me that I’m not as alienated as I feel most of the time.
Hey I just wanted to say thank you for this, I can relate to a lot of it and it feels good to hear somebody put their experiences into words. I'm glad you're living a more peaceful life and you're here to share your experiences and wisdom with us. Cheers!
Thanks for the insight I'm currently getting evaluated for bipolar with my therapist. It's nice to know you're not alone. 🧡
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I have an adult child who was recently diagnosed with Bipolar II. You helped me understand a little bit more.
I've been diagnosed with bipolar type 2 and since getting on meds my life has improved 110%. I realized that before meds I was having container anxiety and panic attacks and my depression was also constant. I'm so glad more people are opening up about their mental health!
Just curious what meds you take for it. I am also bipolar 2.
What meds do you take? Just curious. I am also bipolar 2
I take wellbutrin for mine. It's amazing for me
I am so thankful for you sharing your life. I believe my 25 yr old son is Bipolar and I need to get him help, but I am lost. I have tried talking to him about seeking therapy, but he refuses. I will share this video with him and pray to God he doesn't go into a rage. Thank you so much!!
You NAILED it ... I've dealt with being Type 2 for almost 15 years ... and it can STILL be like driving the struggle bus! Thank you for putting this out there, that it might help others.
Quit drinking just before the pandemic. Almost 18 years of getting black out drunk mostly because I didn’t know what all meant. Now almost 2 years sober I’m finding this is all me. It’s All me. And I’m just getting into the diagnosis and medication phase. I honestly thought the alcohol was going be it bu things only got worse until the booze was a symptom of something bigger. Thanks ❤
This is almost my exact experience and story, all the down to getting diagnosed in 2017! I'm so glad to hear other folks succeeding.
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oh girl, this hits too close to home! I could be the one talking.. goosebumps and shivers. stay strong!
Thank you! Congratulations and good wishes. You’re a special gem - how beautiful to see you shine!
Just a friendly reminder that everyone struggles with mental illness in different ways, even those with the same condition! Thank you, Becca, for sharing how you experience yours! To anyone who has bipolar or thinks they have it, you don't have to experience it exactly like Becca does for it to be valid. Likewise for anyone who has GAD (like me) or depression or any other mental illness. :)
Very well said. Much love! ♥️
Until now, I still don't know what I have appart from sévère and résistant dépression and GAD. I have been told I was bipolar, borderline, diagnostics that have been refuted by other mental health professionals, got so many terrible médication treatments... I do not know who to trust anymore.
@@lilyjane1011 I have bipolar two, and all I can say is keep trying. You will eventually find the right psychiatrist and therapist. It can take time. I had a great therapist where I used to live. It took several years to find a great therapist where I live now. Ironically, Covid helped me find mine because I was able to use Psychology Today’s mental health professionals “finder” online to look for someone anywhere in the state, not just the area I live in. Because of Covid, therapy jumped online, which just wasn’t happening on a large scale. Keep trying. Don’t give up. It’s hard, but you can get there.
This video made me seek therapy and finish my master's, I was self sabotaging myself so much last year, I still am a little but therapy helped. Made me finally submit my work.
This is really powerful. MUCH LOVE
This is such a great video. I'm grateful to her for sharing her story ❤️ I am an adult woman living with BP2 as well.
Thank you for posting this video! It hits close to home big time. My older brother is bipolar 1 & mental health struggles within our whole family. I sincerely believe there is a major heiretitary factor to it. My oldest daughter is experiencing major depression & anxiety, to the point of pulling her from school. I clicked on your vid bc that is how she is experiencing symptoms as well starting at 13yrs old. She's going to be 15 in a few months. I have her in therapy as well as seeing a psychiatrist & on a anti depressant. I, as well as my 2 brothers & my sister, have struggled with addictions throughout our lives starting at a very young age...my daughter's age actually. & I've been sober on & off throughout my 37yrs. I've been In recovery for 10yrs now & I refuse to let my daughter struggle silently in her room & posb start self medicating or hurt herself bc I didn't get help when I was young. I think she has bipolar disorder, she has mania that last for days & is up ALL night to the next morning painting or drawing. I don't have a problem with her expressing herself in this way bc it could be MUCH worse but it's still so worrisome bc Drs & psychiatrist don't usually diagnose bipolar disorder so young. I know that her Dad & I are Expressing our concern to them but falls on deaf ears sometimes. My fear is letting it get worse & have her struggle even more before diagnosing her. My older brother has tried to commit suicide multiple times & is NOT taking his meds. He has a severe addiction & has been homeless living in the woods with his g.f, (running partner) who feeds off his erratic behavior & chaos. It's Soo upsetting bc he literally is one of the best ppl I've EVER had in my life & is such a special soul. He's just lost like so many out there struggling. THANK YOU for posting this & putting yourself out there to help others. I think helping others with your story is a way to heal your inner self & direct your energy in a positive way. Thanks girl for being brave! 💪👊💞💯
Hey..how are things with your daughter? Have you looked into herbs and vitamins or lithium?
Its hard to have mental illness coz its not talk openly here in my place (Philippines). I have bipolar 1 disorder and i manage it but everytime i show my PWD ID, i feel low. Hope i can overcome it. I always put in mind that im going to be an inspiration to others soon despite of all of this. For those who have mental illness,i prayed we can overcome our fears,phobias,and traumas. Wish you all a happy life. Much love Hazel from Philippines.🙏❤💛
Every word you said! Thank you for letting me feel a little less alone.
Thank you for sharing your story! Glad you're doing better 💪
Damn this is eye opening I have every symptoms you mentioned, thank you for sharing your experience
I love this. I do think that it's also important to mention that when it comes to mania it is very individual. I was diagnosed at 18 and honestly, my manias were awesome. Sure I didn't sleep and i didn't eat but it just didnt affect me until afterwards. I was productive and I suddenly got better grades. But the dip afterwards wasn't worth it. I would never go back to not being medicated but I also in a way miss the mania part, I got very extreme ones and thats probably the reason I did not feel stressed or felt bad at all during them, i was simply not aware at all, I was to busy to feel anyhing negative.
Thank you for this. Looking at all the celebs who come out as bipolar and share their experiences really made me uncomfortable in a way just because I didn't understand it. I even got scared of it when I read its most probable to develop on your 20's. Now thanks to this video I have more peace of mind that people who had suffer from it are doing well with their lives. I consider it important to be aware of the symptoms. it truly is the silver lining. God Bless
Thank you for sharing and opening up. When all of us are honest about our challenges we help to de stigmatize them.
Thanks for sharing. It was very interesting and I think I understand the condition a bit more now. I hope you will always be able to manage it and live a as happy as possible life.
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I totally resonated with parts of your story and thank you for being so sincere and honest. Knowledge is power! From one artist to another, I thank you!
This is so amazingly important to share. Thank you.
Watching this video and the few others I have found is definitely helping me realize that no one is alone. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder just before I turned 25 so it's only been a few months and I'm having a huge issue with it. My fiance and my best friend are the only 2 people in my life right now who have been supportive. When I told my family they made some not so nice remarks about it and it's had me Ina rough space. To go along with my bipolar disorder I also fight PTSD and that's made it even more rough to actually live my life. I've been cooping myself up in my home a lot more than normal and barely touch anything related to my hobbies. Most of all though I've been scared because I had multiple times in my life where I tried to commit suicide but no one found out till I moved out of my parents home. When my fiance became closer there was a time that he had done everything he could because I had another moment of suicide thoughts that was almost real. I'm really glad that now knowing what I have gives me relief and the education of it all.
I was diagnosed when I was 15. This video was nice to see. I’m 23 now and getting my masters in abnormal psychology. It really makes my heart warm to see the community and positivity and sharing in the comments. I love you all and be safe :) ps: please don’t self diagnose it’s very harmful. If you’re questioning things and struggling, go see someone who can give you that diagnosis and put you on the treatment path to feeling better! If you think you have a mental illness ask for help:) and remember if you’re contemplating anything harmful seek immediate help!
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How did u get to the masters level , good job! Please guide me how u manage ur studies with all this
@@kanwalraja466 I’m actually now pursuing my PsyD or doctorate of psychology- clinical with an emphasis in forensics. All I must say is study hard, be passionate, be ethical, do not break any code, and be and through as possible. It’s hard when I work with kids, but that’s only during my adolescent rounds. I will be working in prisons and mental institutions for those with extreme illnesses. I work with the courts a lot as a threat assessor and expert witness and am in the middle of a huge experiment/ study for my doctoral thesis. Keep your grades high. All As, be compassionate, set boundaries, and let your patients know you’re here for them and that they are the priority. As for getting into programs if you want to learn more about the educational process, I’d be more than happy to explain.
I know everyone’s experience is different, but your experience is nearly identical to how I have felt since I was a teenager. I’m currently being treated for MDD, but recently had a week of just heightened emotions (the most intense yet) and people around me noticed. I felt really on top of the world, now I’m starting to feel the comedown. Talking to my doc tomorrow. Thank you for sharing this
as a person who does not have bipolar, this video is so informative. thank you for sharing your story.