Finding My Way Out Of Racism
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Very proud of you here. It takes a big person to admit past faults, especially ones like this. A brilliant video that highlights your growth as a person.
Mumbo!!!!
Mumbo! :)
True that
Wise words, it's nice to see support from X's friends
Hi mumbo
Really proud of you man.
We all are
Same here
👍👌
Yeah same
Or are you
**reads title** heh, this seems like an interesting vi- **realizes who uploaded it** _what_
AJ the guy same. I had to check the description to see if it was really him.
I thought I read it wrong until I heard the voice
Same actually. I don't follow X like i do the others so i was really surprised.
All I can imagine now is the Grian empire playing pranks on a nazi. And for some reason this makes me giggle.
@@animorph17 this is kind of messed up but it's also making me giggle. Thanks, I hate it.
Why do people dislike this, he’s admitting his faults and he is genuinely sorry.
Probably the Racists
haters gonna hate, even tho it's a completely positive and good thing
no he's not though he is using it to get likes and subscribes because its drama
Some people wish he didn't
chinglefoo I highly doubt that
Radicalisation is such a hard topic to cover, especially from the inside. I'm glad you managed to get out and are courageous enough to speak about it. Hopefully someone else will see this and avoid the same choices you made, or someone in will reflect on their position and work to extricate themselves.
👍
X is very mature to come out and say this and learn from his past mistakes. It’s honestly fairly inspiring that someone went down the wrong path but has corrected it and now has a successful life to show for it.
I love the fact that hermits ,unlike other Minecraft youtubers,the ones that killed Minecraft, whatever I'm not gonna speak about that,it's the fact you are very mature people,I learned a lot watching hermitcraft and I'm happy I'm not just watching people breaking blocks, Not to proud of the way I'm saying this,I actually forgot my original idea so that's why it looks like a 3 year old wrote this
Fucking libtards 😂😂
@@leslieharestad7483 Please, stay respectful. There is nothing constructive about that statement, and it only negative byproducts in the reactions it gives. Also, cursing doesn't make your point any stronger. It makes you seem more childish. Throwing about nicknames as though you are a toddler has never caused any good. If you are politically opposed, and willing enough to speak on it, then people here will gladly have a discussion. This video was made to reflect an issue important to X. Let him be proud of his achievement. And, if you become more mature, and you perhaps try to be more empathetic, then I'm sure you can be proud of yourself, too.
Who loves xisuma’s maturity.
UMadBro ? Yess
Irony of this comment coming from that username.
UMADBRO no IAM not mad
@Nocturn Adrift i think that generally when you simplify anything, in the way which you have put it, it would sound immature, here is a video where i think shows maturity. Xisuma says himself it's difficult / awkward to talk about these things (racism in this case) and to open up about it in an online video and in the reflective manner in which it was done shows maturity. I don't how you could have watched this video and thought how immature it was.
@Nocturn Adrift a totally fair view, i agree that with most things if you're spouting an opinion with no detail and a generally popular and accepted opinion, there's no effort being put in to that, maybe lacking maturity, but there is atleast a relatively mature intention. This video was more about a personal experience and wasn't just about racism. It also talked about how in certain areas of the internet there are negative places which you have to be careful of, also how different types of media can have positive effects on people (in this instance for Xisuma he spoke about being much more reflective after watching the film).
Xisuma, Thank you I am 16 and having the same tendcies you were talking about. The fact you made me realise my own mistakes and im going to work towards a new future.
Self reflection is good. I wish you the best in helping yourself and your future. :D
Perception of Chaos can’t say anything more than you already said.
Hell ye dude
some prejudice is natural, but when you act on them and don't reflect about them they become dangerous...also generalisation might be useful but has the tendency to end in untrue stereotypes thag can develop racist tendencies
hey dude just be careful with ideologies, now the racists call themselves progressives and hide in social causes stay clear from neo-communist groups like extinction rebellion and antifa
Xisuma would spam shit on 4chan is the funniest imagery that I can imagine. I'm glad that it's in your past, and we're all here for you.
Now that you say this I kind get this out of my mind
its not in mine :)
This isnt a meme and its from 6 months ago
Good notion, but try to keep it clean
4chan is rather tame compared to the other hate forums and chatrooms. When you're in 4chan, half of it comes from trolls while the other is legitimate, and you wouldn't know which is which.
The man who playes an electric guitar like a badass, makes minecraft videos and writes poetry. It’s hard to digest
UMadBro ? Yep a awesome man
Hard to digest, but I have HUGE respect for him for speaking about this. Everyone has a past, but not many people talk about it, especially when it’s something like this
- exercise a lot - plays electric guitar epically - good at minecraft - writes poetry difficult to believe these are the same people
Also really mature
*playes*
This is honestly surreal coming from someone as wholesome as X. Goes to show how people can change!
Yos
If anyone else in the world told me that Xisumavoid was once a /pol/ack, I'd have called them a liar.
@@harbl99 , i agree
3rror200 he’s still a racist fuck
Smileless how so?
Honestly, I used to have a huge "nice guy" complex. To the point while I would call girls sluts and posting hate on different Instagram accounts. But bit by bit I got out of it and I've been trying my best to never do anything like this again.
Good job. It’s not easy to admit things like this. Hatred is never a good look.
Neck beard rehab(I’m so sorry)
@@Clairevoyant101 Just stop. Thats implying hes still a neckbeard which he isnt.
brent1324 that’s basically what a nice guy is
@@Clairevoyant101 Idiotic labels don't help. He has taken positive steps to recognise his faults and do something about them. We all should both do that and support other people trying to. Throwing around vacuous phrases like "neck beard" isn't even remotely helpful (or funny). You should take a leaf out of his book.
I'm seeing a lot of people say things like, "I can't imagine X as a racist." TBH, I can-not because of anything to do with him, but because it's perfectly possible to be a sweet, well-meaning person who internalizes racist ideas, and those can end up consuming you if you don't recognize them. I was raised by a couple college-educated Oregon liberals and not only did I develop some crummy ideas, I internalized some ideas *they* raised me with without realizing they were doing it. I think anyone who thinks they don't have a racist bone in their body probably has some bones they aren't aware of, and the best way to improve from that is to accept that you might have flaws and look closely at your own worldview and biases. That's something X did, and it's insanely hard to do. I think the biggest risk factor for racism, or bigotry of any kind, really, is being convinced that you could never possibly have any issues and being hostile to the suggestion.
Incidentally, I think "The Pewdiepipeline" is a good video that goes into how radicalization of the kind X is describing works. (It's not saying Pewdiepie is a radical, to be clear, but it talks about how nazis use his community, and the controversies in his community, to exploit tension and try to bring young people on board.)
I did, he made so many little fucked up, extremely ignorant comments in vids n livestreams over the years....
This is the type of perspective I was looking here for. Thank you so much for it. As someone who is struggling with very deep, very strong covert racism, do you have any suggestions on how to address it? I’ve been reminding myself everyone is a unique complex person whenever an intrusive racist thought rises up but so far that hasn’t seemed to fix the problem at all just plaster over it. (I’m asking you because I really like what you said here and you seem really knowledgeable)
@@lusciouslocks8790 “If we just talk about the fact that we are different and acknowledge why we are different instead of pretending that nobody is different and still secretly thinking we are different we might finally be on the same page and be less different.” -vir das hopefully this helps kzhead.info/sun/q7lmqsyZoayXl2w/bejne.html
@@thelegendformula6695 thank you
It’s so hard to imagine X as a teenager. 🤨
Born as an adult
Iglokott lol
It's so hard to imagine X in general. Only Ilmango was harder to imagine, but now we have seen him.
This is the real take away.
Same guy with a mask but maybe thinner and lower
damn respect for X's maturity
I don't know how this two year old video got into my recommendations, but it's basically my own story. I've been having some difficult situations play out in my life over the last year or so, from quitting drinking, to losing friends, to accepting my own tendencies for anger and violence when I feel threatened. It was becoming too much, and just...knowing that someone I enjoy watching went through a similar niche shitshow to myself...it helped. Thanks for sharing this man. I know from experience that sharing something like this can be scary and people can be really mean about it. It was a very helpful little boost.
Once a racist, always a racist
Well said, I hope you’re doing alright now! Ignore the haters like the one above. They are not worth your time
@@SonOfMutadid you not watch the video? also, people can change
@@SonOfMutayou might have some hate pent up in you if you genuinely believe that
I heard this phrase "If you're not ashamed of your past self, you aren't growing" and I think it applies to you, it looks like you grown out of racism.
just wondering,, did you maybe perhaps hear said quote from a guy called dream? 👀
@@dumbass4885 yes, I did
@@dumbass4885 I knew I heard that recently too. Thanks for reminding me of the source.
I don’t really agree with this because you should be able to accept what has happened and move on. Just as you should not judge people who do bad things, you shouldn’t focus on shame or regret but instead focus on your improvements and how you can improve more. (You should still try to apologize/make amends to a reasonable extent).
@@patrickgilles4870 I meant like, ashamed of yourself, ashamed of what you've done, not in the sense that it depresses you, but it the sense that it's cringey to see your past self
"Competition is the law of the jungle, but cooperation is the law of civilization" -Peter Kropotkin
Kropotkin’s writings are a good source for hope in humanity and have gotten me through a lot
Mutual aid as a factor in evolution is one of the greatest works of our time
Gotta love Bread Santa
these comments are better than i expected
"...in the long run the practice of solidarity proves much more advantageous to the species than the development of individuals endowed with predatory inclinations."
I've noticed how easy it can be caught up in groups and ideas when you're confused or in a dark place, expecially when you're a teenager. I hope attention can be brought to this, so thanks for talking about it!
Yeah, it gives you a sense of community and group identity which is what you need when you’re lonely and miserable. Unfortunately things like this are easy to get into because it gives you something to project your anger onto, even if it doesn’t make sense. I luckily got out early and found better communities, but it can happen to anyone.
I agree with Luka when your in a dark lonely place even having some sort of group identity and community can lead you into doing bad things and being around the wrong people I am from the uk and this has happened to me and I was used basically to do a gangs dirty work
bansku
A lot of hate groups target people who are vulnerable.
I am personally from an ethnic minority and while I and many others try to shrug racist comments off by laughing at the stupidity of them, the comments do sometimes scare others as well as myself that some actually believe in these ideas. Thanks for making a video on this topic, as racism is NEVER ok and everyone should be aware of it.
As a jew i couldnt agree more...
@@geor349 jewdaism is a religion not a race
@@wyattrox03 judaism
@@wyattrox03if you look it up, its both! people can be ethically or religiously jewish.
@@puppy5078 the race is Hebrew the religion is jewdaism
I can't imagine x being racist
just your typical hamster er
i cant really imagine him hating anyone
Some people you can’t imagine being racist or homophobic or anything of the sort, sometimes *are*.
yeah same, he always seems so in control
Fuck! I was not expecting that!
I just turned 12, and X, through these videos, is very good at helping me know what, and what NOT to do and get caught up in in my life at my *fairly* young age. Thanks, Xisuma, for making sure I work harder at trying to better myself!
I'm currently 13, and I totally agree! As we are young I understand we very easily make mistakes and don't realise what we are doing. These videos X is making (at least for me) help very much at understanding what is "wrong and right". I really don't know how to phrase that last bit better, but I trust whoever reads this gets what I mean. xD
ok furry.
Garfreld.
Garfreld.
Garfreld.
Xsuma, it shouldn't matter who you were a few years ago, what should matter is how you deal with them- you dealt with this very well. I'm very happy for you .
Jack Callahan I think it’s matters greatly who someone is when they are young because it shows how much they have grown and improved into adulthood.
What I never got about nazis is that they dislike Jews as they believe they want to take over the world and set up an ethnostate and enslave others while wanting to take over the world set up an ethnostate and enslave/kill people. Fyi I don't believe in horse shoe theory I just find it funny how they project there self loafing self's on successful people.
*XI-suma
It matters most how people are in the present, and looking at their past can show you how they have grown and changed after time.
I feel as true as this statement is, its somewhat consiversaul
This video needs more views.
It’s hard to believe X as a teen and X as an adult are the same person. Glad to see you matured a lot.
This is one of the coolest things I’ve seen from a youtuber. And I think it’s extremely brave and extremely valuable. There are a lot of comments similar to “it’s ok, we don’t care about who you were, it only matters who you are today” and the world today doesn’t really operate that way, what with “cancel culture” and stuff. It is hugely important to understand that people CAN change and people DO make mistakes and forgiveness IS a thing. Not every person does change or learn from mistakes, sure, I’m guilty of that myself, I think we all are. One of the best themes coming from X here is that a person can always think for themselves, it’s ok to do that even if it can be frightening or risky to do so. It’s just really cool to hear someone with a voice detail their own human shortcomings and how they progressed. Thank you sir for doing what you do.
Northern Wealth Anarchy Perimeter perhaps ... there is a fundamental moral code within the human genome - if we were all executed for our “sins” there’d be no humans left anywhere lol.
I was 500th like
Thank you for talking about this X. Not everyone is comfortable with sharing their past mistakes, even if they already moved on and becomes a better person.
Thought the video was titled “Finding Out About Racism” for a second and was like ‘good for you man’
@JowJow what?!
“just found out about racism... that s-t sucks man”
If you disliked this video, congratulations! You missed the point.
Or you live in Australia
Nooo not like this
N word
@@1Orderchaos 😐
lol
I'm glad you came out of that mess. We love you, Xisuma!
MegaXLR +
Hey, so... I went down a similar path in the past when I was around 13~14. I was at a very low point in my life (I was depressed, I was being abused, and my self esteem was very, very low.) and, in my fear, uncertainty, and pain, I grappled on to something, anything, that could provide me a stable ground to anchor on. Unfortunately, I came across the wrong type of people along the internet. I latched on to many ideologies that I now choose to condemn, but no longer feel ashamed of (I decided the best avenue for me to go down was to forgive myself and move on to being a better person). Anyways, as I became more and more radicalized, I started to find myself thinking looking at the people around me through the lens of my new world view. For instance, I found myself flinching when a person, who was part of group that the ideology had deemed inferior, walked by. To understand how I got out of this, I need to give a bit of context. At the time this was happening, I was being abused at home and as a result I had started to show signs of the same abusive behaviors. Somehow, I managed to have the insight that this was bad and I ended up going to therapy to make sure that I would never hurt anyone the way my abuser had hurt me. During my time in therapy (I still go to therapy, btw), I started to study philosophy to try to build myself a solid code of ethics that I could reason through and rely upon in order to be a good person (one of my main goals). However, this new moral foundation that I had been building challenged the ideology that I had been subscribed to. Over time, as I continued to build upon my foundational principles and learn more about philosophy, I came to see that the ideology was wrong. But not only wrong, but morally contemptible. After 2~3 years of subscription to a far right ideology, I left never to return. Thank you, Xisuma for making this. I hope that helps others steer clear from the dangers of radicalization.
Nice essay. Keep it up!!!
I'm proud of you for not only realising you were wrong, but also acting on it and becoming a better person. If you feel comfortable answering, what ideology was it?
This takes a lot of maturity to admit especially for such an established KZheadr. Usually youtubers will only admit and apologize for their mistakes if they get caught and it becomes a scandal. This is proof that X is really a genuinely good soul.
Truee....
This; This is special. It's effortless to say racism is wrong. It takes COURAGE to say, "I was wrong." you could have kept this quiet and nobody would ever needed to know, but you admitted it. You have real steel in you my friend. Applause is in order.
The world needs an xisumavoid podcast! I appreciate you sharing this stuff. It puts into perspective how easily sometimes people can get influenced in these negative ways. I think more emphasis in general should be put on this rabbit hole, and on how to help people out of it. Well thought out as always!
Well the closest thing is his streams
American history Xisuma
X, I’m not gonna lie, this did make me see you differently, but in a good way. I’m reading through these comments and it’s just filled with younger people who are learning things about themselves by hearing someone else’s story. I’m glad to see someone acting as a good role model here on youtube - someone who can own up to their prior faults and reflect on why and how the mistakes of their past came to be. Thanks for making this video.
Once a racist, always a racist
@@SonOfMuta Progress becomes impossible if we alienate those we wish to see change and own up to their mistakes. Replies like this simply add nothing to the cause. I would encourage you to do better.
@@singerofsongs468 Once a racist sympathizer, always a racist sympathizer
@@SonOfMuta Do go on; I would love for you to explain what part of my comment makes me a racist sympathizer.
Idk why this was recommended to me now, but it was. Thanks for this. It gives me hope for my little brother. He’s going farther and farther down that rabbit hole, and I’m really concerned and don’t really know what to do.
I love your level headed nature in approaching topics like this, and even more so being willing to open up to the public about the past in order to educate them. I know I personally struggle with an ingrained distaste for the LGBTQ community, due to the environment I was raised in, but now that I am finally on my own, and can recognize those things in myself, Im to the next step of changing that. The last few months have been eye opening for me, as Ive finally started to become myself after getting away from my abusive parents, and seeing one of the people I hold in high regards in my life open up about similar struggles gives me the strength to continue on my own journey in becoming the best version of myself. We all love ya for how you treat the community and people in general.
@@quasicode6954 oooooh, homophobia and overall bigotry. nice /s
@@quasicode6954 Please try taking the time to listen to stories about transgender from trans people themselves. They have the most insightful perspective on the matter and if you follow your compassion for fellow humans you may just get an understanding of how something you don't experience or relate to may exist in another.
@@quasicode6954 we do not know how exactly the brain works. So could you please send me a link to scientific study supporting your argument.
As a member of the LGBTQ+ community, I completely understand.
@@quasicode6954 if you are anti-trans you are anti-science and anti-human
>Spends two weeks on /pol/ Sounds about right You either get out while you're still horrified Or you never leave
Which road did you take? Sounds like you were horrified and yet you used >
I had a really good friend who fell down a similar path. It was really painfull to watch. Like, I knew what was happening, and I tried to stop it, but it just happened anyway. He was gay, and our school didn't treat him well because of that. He was constantly in detention for things he genuinely had nothing to do with. And he got bitter. I tried to introduce him to communities he would be more accepted by, but I was too late. He discovered and began to idolize the extremist antifemenist community. He began to hate women completely. It made sense why, all of the women in his life he despised, the principal of the school and the source of all of the scapegoating was a woman, his mother was catholic and insisted his homosexuality was just a phase. I couldn't do anything to stop his hate because he had a good reason to be angry, it was just misdirected. I had a conversation with him, just before we both graduated, about whether the actions of a few individuals should represent the entire group that they are a part of. In the end there was nothing more I could think of saying to convince him otherwise. After we graduated I didn't really talk to him too much. He moved away and I haven't really seen him since. I still feel really bad about the whole situation. He was a really sweet and kind hearted guy before highschool. I wish I could have helped him better.
That is one issue I have with the internet, it makes it too easy to fall into echo chambers where people have a toxic ideology but instead of realizing they’re in the wrong they find people online who agree with their beliefs. It’s very surreal thinking of someone as loving as you being able to be manipulated into those mindsets, but I think it shows that anyone can be slowly molded into a belief system, especially when they’re already having negative feelings due to life circumstances. I’m glad you were smart enough to question everything and mature enough to admit too. Not enough people are adult enough to admit they f’ed up in the past.
It happens on both side. Far right and far left.
I... this hits very hard for me. Thank you. Just... thank you.
Leo B +
Yea I think you stand for most of people
N-word
@@1Orderchaos did you ever grow up?
Mad respect my man,it's really hard to talk about stuff that even you regret.to talk something like this and come true with your fans for the greater purpose of other people not going down the same rabbit hole.nothing but mad respect for you my man
Hey man a lot of teen boys get sucked down this kind of hole and I’m glad you’re open about it and helping others
Yeah it starts by going to school with minorities and seeing how they act and not wanting any part of it.
@@MrSinister718 ^^
@@MrSinister718 edgy name, racism, it's an edgy 12yr old
@JowJow his nose is glowing
What an appropriate time to have this recommended.
Don't worry about it. We don't mind about what you did when you were a kid, we all had times like that. What matters is who you are today
This video was incredibly brave, especially in these very politically charged times. Thanks for uploading it and trusting you audience. People can change. I used to be so passionate about politics that I couldn't discuss it with anyone because I'd just lose it when they didn't agree with me; but through listening to your live-streams and your advice on listening to other people and being ok with them having their own opinion and not trying to make everyone think what I think, and all that, it's really opened up new doors for me, and I can now have very polite and lengthy conversations with people about politics without alienating the other person. I've learned how to listen, and effectively argue what I believe without being emotionally invested in getting the other person to agree with my point of view. Honestly, I can't thank you enough, and I hope your ideas continue to help others the way they helped me.
You can't stop racism by shushing and censoring racists. You need to have them realize on their own that they have been brainwashed, misinformed, radicalized. That's how Xisumavoid and others got out, not by people telling them that they're horrible people and not allowing them to have a public presence, but by questioning their beliefs. Daryl Davis is a good example of this. He deradicalized many KKK members not by shutting them up but by attending KKK rallies and actually talking to klansmen, making them realize that they had been duped, that black people are just people, same as them. To leave their echo chamber. I have a lot of respect for X for being able to deradicalize himself. For learning from his mistakes, and for realizing that he had a problem. I also have respect for you for changing how you think.
When it comes to politics listening is a very under valued and lost skill. People on both sides constantly disparage those they disagree with and refuse to even try to understand the reasons people vote for the people they do and believe in the things they believe. When we all listen to each other we end up realizing (For the most part extremist exists on both sides but it's foolish to thing that those people are representative of the majority (which all to often people do)) that we all want the same thing to make our representative countries a better place
Really late to this party, but I really appreciate you coming forward about this. It's not something you probably ever needed to confess, but you did. It takes a lot of strength to do that. As someone who grew up indoctrinated into homophobia due to being raised super religious knowing I myself was LGBT, I can really respect and appreciate the journey. Thank you for growing into the person you have because it has really helped me grow into the person I am.
0ddman0ut you are lesbian, gay, bisexual and trans all at the same time!?
Idk if it would work, but tell your family that when the bible says: a man should never be with another man, its a wrong translation from the phrase: a man should never be with a boy, and with a boy they mean kids in general.
@Randhel SIVA Yikes. That's exactly what xisuma went against here.
Randhel SIVA I think that what’s going on here is that you are lacking understanding, good sir. Clearly you do not know of the struggles and experiences of transgender people, including things like dysphoria. I wish you the best. I hope that you can gain better understanding and be more accepting in the future.❤️
@Randhel SIVA I understand your sentiment to a degree when it comes transgender treatments. It indeed strikes me as somewhat odd how T is grouped in the same category as LGB, when LGB are essentially just different brain makeups; perfectly healthy and natural, whereas T is literal mad scientist fuckery in its purest form. Hormones are powerful things, and it's OK to admit that the idea of messing with the hormonal makeup of a person's brain scares you. It scares me a little bit. After all it is uncharted territory. And yet, that's how most science works - it's uncharted territory. If you want to be objective, humanity has been breaking the laws of nature for as long as we've been around, and there's no reason to draw the line here when you take a look at the pure scope of what we do as a species. We pollute the oceans and atmosphere, we abuse animals, and overall just kinda treat our planet like shit. And when I think about that, the idea of changing a person's gender starts to be put into context - it really is insignificant, strange as it may be. And in all honesty, I don't think the gender you're born with is that sacred or important, in the grand scheme of things. One of my childhood friends started transitioning a few years ago, and it's made her happier. And me, I believe in that. I believe, as humans, we should do whatever we need to do to be happy, so long as we don't harm anyone else in the process, of course. And transgender treatments don't harm anyone - literally nobody - so what's the point in arguing against it? It's their choice, not mine, not yours.
The alt right is surprisingly effective in hooking people in. Scary stuff
Wow, kudos on having the strength to come out and talk about this.
People are actually saying he’s unforgivable for this. Those people are so sad
So I've recently started to follow the Hermits since Season 7 started, I love every one of y'all. But Xisuma, you were a kid when it happened. They say communities and groups tend to prey among children to twist their views. Because well children are extremely impressionable between certain ages. Now, am I saying you shouldn't take responsibility for ones actions. Absolutely not, but it's sad that child are targeted by groups like these to make them hate, be violent and so on. I'm just very glad that after a bit you saw the tomfoolery and the sophomoric behavior and changed. It isn't easy to detach yourself from things like that in the real world. And I'm very glad it didn't leave the screen. But its takes a lot of mental energy, health and bravery to come out and tell your story. I'm glad you did though, and I'm glad you found the Hermits and are having fun. I have so much to say, but I don't want to type it out. Just keep being you Xisuma and always keep looking forward.
So, to help put it simple for the younger audience who comes from hermitcraft. He was used as a plug for people to prey upon. He started going into these groups and realized something is wrong and started asking questions about these things, he was met with hate for questioning there beliefs. he wasn't a racist he was prey and figured out he didn't belong to a group like that. So he left and became a better person
The past is time for growth, as is childhood. You’ve grown as a person, that’s what matters. You live in the now, don’t worry too much about the past. Love to everyone here, especially you X!
Thank you Bjorn, son of Bjorn
This means a lot, X. I've seen you grow just in the short time I've known you and I'm glad you're in a place in your life where you can talk about this. We love you dude.
this popped up in my recommendations. Thank you for sharing your story. This shine light on some new pespectives I didn't know I needed to know
Just saw this as a suggested video. I have to say that I'm extremely happy with your description of this. You have a very moving view on this and it is great to see that you were able to change your thought process and see that we are all the same people. Very proud to follow you sir.
Hey X I appreciate you talking about this, I also had a rather short run in with hate and it makes me feel better about myself knowing that people I admire also got caught in the same trap I did. Thanks dude I really appreciate it
I started down the same path about 2-3 years ago but I got out before anyone could radicalise me. Looking back on it I was really lonely at the time with no real friends in school and I hated the middle school I went to. I, for some reason, despite living in Norway, one of the safest and best countries in the world and also living in a very safe area, took out my anger on people that I’d never met and never will meet and they will also never hear nor see what I said. The two main reasons I got out was because I also, like you, questioned things and came to my own conclusions that these were wrong and that I was wrong. The other was that the loneliness started to take a real toll on me. While my high school was much much better and I had people I could call actual friends there, I still just went home every day, not going home with someone else and getting up to something. I was still really lonely and didn’t really see much of an escape from it and thought I could and would eventually fix it myself. The first semester of my second year of high school was particularily hard since I was already quite lonely and sad, I also had to deal with my grandfather dying of stage 4 cancer 3 weeks prior to school start. Then 2 months later my dad was diagnosed with early stage 1 cancer in the throat (he’s fine now and has recovered nw) on top of trying to take physics and the hardest math available. This really broke me and after christmas I had a physics test I was woefully unprepared for comming up that I just couldn’t study for. My mind was too full and one evening in early January this year I understood that I needed to clear my mind and fix this. Water calms me down really well, I’ve always loved the ocean and such so I went down to the river near my house and sat down and I realised I had to at least tell one of my internet friends all that I had in me because for the first time in my life I thought ‘I could just jump in the river and float away, slowly die of hypothermia in this ice cold water, that sounds nice’. I instantly snapped back to myself and realised things had gone way too far. I went back home and told one of my best friends I had over discord (I’d known him for about 8 months and later told my other friends, one of whom I’ve known for over 5 years now) about all the things I was struggling with and it felt like... idk, 50 kg of weight was lifted off of my shoulders when I told him about everything that was plaguing me, all he did was just be there. I think that people don’t do bad things because they are bad, they do them to somehow be included somewhere or get attention they desperately need from at least something. If you’re reading this and something is bothering you that you have on your mind or in your heart, please talk it out with a good friend, and if you don’t have that I can listen for a while, add me on discord Luka~#4337 if you need someone to talk to. You’re never alone about anything, be kind out there
Honestly, as a black person, you don't have to sugarcoat your explanation. You did it because it made you feel better; and because deep down you always saw people like me as lesser. I hate myself and I hate how some people treat me. I have come to realize that there is no reason to live in a world where you'll always be judged and hated regardless of your nature or actions. The fact that people hate me as an outlet to feel better about themselves just confirms my ideologies on how the world is, and how others think. You only “changed” because it stopped being a meaningful outlet for you. All of this just helps me reaffirm that life has no meaning, especially when you're hated based on how you were born.
@@slothful2039 Hey, I hope you come out the other side of what you're going through. I also felt like you as a teenager but now as an adult I've built a good life for myself and surrounded myself with people who aren't like that and I'm very glad I didn't die.
got recommended this two years later but I’m proud of you for admitting your past mistakes and learning from them!! you’re truly inspiring x!
X, thank you so much for posting this. I've long had a ton of respect for you and what you're creating online, but this is another level. These conversations are so important and sharing your experience is so valuable. You have probably more influence than you think and revealing this out loud not only helps people who might have similar experiences or thoughts, but also opens the door for other people who don't understand how or what is happening to see and be more aware. The key to solving these social ills is not yelling at others across ideological lines, but understanding human experience and seeing themselves or their friends in it. Bravo sir.
This is one of the best videos you've ever made. Props to you X.
Immagine how many people used to be racist, then changed, and get cancelled after 12 years.
So much love and appreciation for your courage to share this experience and the incredible growth you went through to now be an example for others. Your description of when that happened struck me, because I too was violently bullied and abused in school in the early 2000s, all the way into hospital. It lasted over two years. I deeply understand and feel the pain you must have been through. I directed the pain and despair inwards and towards myself and retreated from the world around me. You just had a different outlet for that. My healing process from that time and resolving the trauma, which I associated with the school environment has actually helped me understand the importance of quality education and the importance of good teachers. So the healing from it has given me meaning in what I want to do with my life, as paradoxically as it sounds. It's been 18 years for me since that period and I'm still not done healing. I hope you were able to heal the wounds in the time that has passed.
That is how it happens every time. They prey on younger teenagers who dislike themselves for whatever reason, give them friends or a family they didn't have before. Watch erasing hate and skin.
Holy wow, there needs to be very many more people like yourself! This genuinely made me cry. Too many times have I been put down just because I state my opinion on the internet. You’re a great person from what I can tell!
Must have been really hard to get this out, I have nothing but respect for how brave you are for talking about your past like that 🤗
thank you for being honest! your channel is such an inspiration to me. you're being super honest and you're sharing your previous mistakes to the public. that takes a lot of guts. I love how honest you are. even on your other channel! you are a really good person.
Thank you so much for talking about this. It's really helped alot and even though it was 4 AM when I watched this, it has taught me alot about different situations and different points of view. It was really brave of you to be honest about your past and I respect that.
"What is better? To be born good or to overcome your evil nature by great effort?"
Actually had a conversation about this today. An old friend of mine became very radicalized when we were in highschool and I never knew until she started talking about it when we were browsing 4chan. She had an incredibly volatile home life so I think she was a perfect victim for one of these groups. I didn't really understand it then so I pretty much cut ties with her but years later we reconnected and she seems much better. You have to be careful what you expose yourself to when you are vulnerable.
a female racist? Hot, can you hook me up with her?
Crikey that took some courage to do. I'm glad you were able to see through it, and pleased you are sharing you have a lot of influence on young impressionable minds, so I hope this will help them see some light.
This is amazing. Thank you for doing this. So many young people feel like they are stuck in those microcosms of racism and hatred. Having a role model like you showing that it is possible to get out of those circles, and mindsets is so needed and so important right now. You're a legend X.
I’ve never a met a happy racist. Many people turn to racism because they hate themselves and want to turn that hatred outwards and that hatred manifests itself as sexism, racism or homophobia. It’s really hard to turn the spotlight on yourself and particularly when you do so publicly. You should be proud of how you have grown as a person.
racist people are usually the victims of black bullying, violence, abuse. It's as simple as that. Not everyone can be raped and be cool with blacks like Fran Drescher is.
@@MrSinister718 true but it doesnt make it there are very few black people that hate a white person for killing their child for his handling a gun though I can definitely say there are some sadly we just opted out to hate cops
@@MrSinister718 Complete and utter rubbish. Firstly, most of the racists I've met have hardly ever had any dealings with anyone of another race. Secondly, why do they pick up on the fact that they are black rather than their height, nationality, handedness, interests? It's because they are already racists, like you. Sadly, racists are not clever enough to see past their own bigotry. You clearly aren't.
I am happy I am a very aware person. This just gets me my mind straight when things are going wrong. And you seem to have developed something like that. As you talked about self reflecting. I love your videos talking about these topics. Keep it up!
Thank you for sharing this part of your past. This is a really important topic that is happening right now to many people, and it isn’t being talked about so I’m glad you’re bringing attention to it. Much love man, love your videos ❤️
Wow, X, this video is incredible. Thanks so much for sharing this.
When I was like 12 the same thing happened to me and I watched American History X and it really changed my perspective. One of the only movies that made me cry.
Something that a lot of us forget is that if our circumstances even a bit different, we could have gone down a very easy path. No one wants to admit that there isn't a type of person who becomes radicalized and that it could easily happen to anyone of us. Glad to hear your story on how you managed to escape it X.
Your an amazing person who is helping me so much through my addiction, Asperger‘s diagnosis and more. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so much for just speaking your mind and being a REAL person (something that, unfortunately, in this day and age is hard to come by). I appreciate your sir and love your commentary, you are spot on
Thank you for sharing X! It can be hard to talk about past mistakes, about growing past our worse tendencies. I've done a lot of things I'm not proud of, and sweeping it under the rug can be so easy. But that doesn't get me anything! Reflecting on my past, looking at the negative character traits I'm disposed to, searching my soul and being honest about what I find -- that is how I grow. I'm proud of you for doing the hard thing and facing this uncomfortable part of your life with honesty and openness. That is where healing and growth happens. I'm currently trying to face my own past and come to terms with what it means, to take the lessons and leave my old patterns of belief and behavior behind. It's good to be reminded that I can grow past my mistakes, that I'm more than the sum of my actions, and that I can choose who I'm going to be. Of course, we all wish we wouldn't have made those mistakes in the first place, but by owning up to them and addressing the underlying causes of them we can become better and stronger than we were before. Thank you for encouraging me to keep going. Mad respect, much love, keep doing the hard things!
Wow man. I had no clue of this. It is harder to get out of this cycle than it is to get out of it. Good job man.
Hey Xisuma, not sure how exactly I found this video, but non the less, I am VERY happy I found this! This puts an actual whole new level of thought with the people I hang out who do use racist slurs and profanity, I was fitting in and it felt good for a change. Seeing this now, it makes me feel like I've been incredibly stupid as hell for 2+ years, thxs Xisuma! :)
Thanks for acknowledging that that change and reform is possible. Love that you did this video.
Wow, dude. That's heavy. Thanks for sharing. It's important for us to remember that all people have good in them, even those we might see as the bad guys. Glad you got yourself out of that mess and to an honest place. Cheers.
We need to hear Xisuma's poetry! Also: really proud of you, man. It is a very brave thing to confess and well done on finding your way out of it!
You should never judge someone by their skin, but by their words and actions.
This is not so easy as many people think. I live in a country where xenophobia and racism are quite common and I had to do a lot to not to get into these things.
Not even that, free will is unlikely to exist and ones actions could be a result of their surroundings
Very brave of you. Thank you for coming out about this ❤️❤️
Great to hear discussion of growth! Everyone has the ability to grow!
It takes a huge person to admit something like this, ESPECIALLY a KZheadr because this can be used against him very easily in the future
whoa, you're one of my favourite hermits to watch, i had no idea you did content like this too. my respect for you grew even more 🖤 it reminds me of xanderhal, i think its very very important topic esp in gaming communities and needs to be talked about more
Thank you for sharing. You’re a great voice for your community, and its important that topics like these are addressed. You’re using your platform in a courageous and essential way.
Thank you SO much for talking about this and sharing your experience. What is important is that you learned and grew and that other people that have fallen down a dark rabbit hole can also find their way out.
Thank you for talking about this.
A lot of people are afraid to change their ways because they fear nothing will be different, they fear backlash in spite of the fact that they’ve changed. Very proud of you for being able to look back on that and move on.
Thanks for sharing, X. Glad you found your way out of a toxic situation. I share your hope that others can learn from your story.
Hey x, just went thru a tough break-up not that long ago, this video helped me feel like I am not alone. Thanks
Happy to see such character development, and that you could share this to the channel.
I think it’s awesome how you are willing to talk about this and not just hid it
I cannot even imagine a humble wholesome person like you to have had such a past. I am sooo proud of your growth X. You help me with my problems so much. Your videos brighten up my days. Keep it up
Similar thing happened with me when I was about 12, really proud that you are so honest about this now. You're such a genuine guy.