Sarah Close - Did It Have To Be Her? (Lyric Video)

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This song is so personal to me, and it is also so healing to no longer hold it as only mine. When I first experienced the things I sing about in this song, I was in complete denial and felt so much emotional pain I couldn’t talk about it. I put on this persona to everyone and to myself that I was fine, and only my absolute closest friends knew how far from okay I really was. I first met Kingdoms around this time and we wrote an awful song about something totally made up. Fast forward a few years and I’m in the studio with them again and now that I’ve processed what happened, i tell them what was actually going on for me at that time.
DIHTBH? was made soon after and I can’t thank them enough for helping me write about something that I was scared to approach so honestly in my music.
For a long time I’ve felt like I gave away my voice and power and let other people narrate my own story and experiences. I denied myself from feeling anger and kept quiet because I thought that was the right thing to do, and in doing so, I hurt myself so much.
it’s been scary to be so vulnerable on a scale like this, but if I have learnt anything over the last few years it’s that vulnerability and honesty in who we are, and who we have been is a beautiful healing thing.
This song is yours now, i hope it brings you something and if it does I would love to know what. There is nothing I love more than reading a message from one of you with a story of how a song of mine has intertwined with your own life.
Written by: me & kingdoms @wearekingdoms
Produced by: me & JMAC
Mixed by: JMAC
Mastered by: Redredpaw
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Lyrics:
First Verse - Em D Bm G
I left a present for you underneath your pillowcase
You went to New York and got me to check in on your place
Called me up every day, said that you're having a great time
Forgot to say, she was right there by your side
Now looking back I wasn't crazy when I asked if everything's okay
Pre Chorus - D Em D C
Can't you see the similarities?
Same brown hair just a different city
So convenient that we're the same
And she's even got my name
Chorus - Em D Bm G
Did you really have to go and break my heart with someone just like me?
Did you ever think of how you'd fuck me up with insecurity?
And i keep on trying but not a part of me is okay
If you're gonna tell me something
Tell me this
Did it have to be her?
Did it have to be her?
Second Verse - Em D Bm G
I can't escape the feeling that i'm just not good enough
Cause in two weeks you threw away four years of all my love
Now you're begging for me but you feel like a stranger
Every sorry doesn't change that you're a traitor
Wish I could put you in my body so you feel every pain I feel
Pre Chorus - D Em D C
Can't you see the similarities?
Same brown hair just a different city
So convenient that we're the same
And she's even got my name
Chorus - Em D Bm G
Did you really have to go and break my heart with someone just like me?
Did you ever think of how you'd fuck me up with insecurity?
And i keep on trying but not a part of me is okay
If you're gonna tell me something
Tell me this
Did it have to be her?
Middle 8 - D Em C
Did her touch make you feel like you ever did with mine?
Did the guilt eat you up or did you push it out your mind?
I guess you never had to worry about getting us confused
Cause if you called me by her name
I wouldn't have a clue
Chorus - Em D Bm G
Did you really have to go and break my heart with someone just like me?
Did you ever think of how you'd fuck me up with insecurity?
And i keep on trying but not a part of me is okay
If you're gonna tell me something
Tell me this
Did it have to be her?
Did it have to be her?