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Very bad things will happen to all of us. And we know this. This video explores various ideas from philosophy that help us continue on, having both experienced tragic moments and having the knowledge that more are waiting for us.
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Not worrying about what I cannot control has become a practice that I both suceed at, and fail at.
Work in progress for me as well.
Something we all struggle with. I definitely struggle as well sometimes. It's part of being human.
I feel like just by acknowelging the fact we do not control much and we still struggle with its implications, it already feels a bit better
quite intelectual observation and expression of such paradox
Discipline. Consistency. Deadlines. Creativity. Reflection. Repeat. That's all pretty much anyone (well, 99% of 'em) can do.
I lost my wife a few months ago, house fire in the middle of the night. It went so bad so fast. We went to sleep together but she never woke up. It was so violent and so fast and from nowhere my life changed forever. I miss her so much It hurts every day. Please remember to hug your loved ones.
I hope this lightens the mood kzhead.info/sun/e7Gql7qQiqiteqc/bejne.htmlsi=9UgF7j7oepJAprM_
I am sorry for your loss, my friend. Please take care of yourself.
Jesus. What caused it?
I am so sorry that you are grieving the loss of your wife. I hope that you find the strength to get through this difficult season of your life.
I'll hug my wife more tightly tonight. It's a horrible thing you've gone through and I hope your grief isn't debilitating. May you find serenity in this pain and the will to live in spite of it.
Thanks for the encouragement, I just got fired from my job.
That's awesome 😎
You shouldn't have done what you did
One door closes, another opens. Godspeed friendo.
OMG 😅
You are on a greater path.well done.
I have anxiety disorder - I'm also highly sensitive to things. It sucks. But I often reach a place of absurdity. Where I feel so much of everything else that I cease to matter. And in an odd way it's peaceful. I matter to the people in my life but that is fleeting because they are fleeting. When you step to the edge of the void, sometimes it's fun just to dance.
Feel bad for u
'And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music.' 😉 And - oh - I love absurdity 😉
I gave you the name of a 'therapy' that would help you, but it got censored. No idea why. Here's the name again: saito therapy.
Cringey
Raw ass line
My mother passed away just five days ago. I found out via phone call with my step-father. I had just been with her two hours prior. I had hugged her, told her I loved her, and headed to my college campus, completely unaware that was the last time I would ever see her alive. All I can say at this point is that life goes on and my world and its struggles are wholly different from another's- something I find somewhat beautiful. No matter how absolutely devastating my life may be, people still laugh, people still smile, people still live, perhaps entirely unaware of the acute pain I experience. I have found comfort and solace in this idea. As well, I've acquired a newly-compounded sense of consideration for others. I can never know what others are experiencing, so I tread lightly, keeping in mind the pain I go through now and the potential pain another may be going through that I could never truly know. Life is so strange and beautiful. Hug each other, love each other. We can never really be sure what may happen next.
I am sorry for your loss, stay strong ❤
I am so sorry for your loss. Judging by your words, you seem like you are about as far along your journey as I am. Only difference is that I am 70 and you seem young. Congratulations on that. You are strong.
Stay strong ❤never loss hope
My condolences🙏🏽 btw what you just described there explains the word “SONDER” beautifully👌🏾
I envy your solace. Thank you for Your words have shown me what I needed to see.
This too shall pass. And then some other bullsh@t will come and take its place. It NEVER FUC*ING ends! Have a great day!
That's basically the gist of it, yes.
And yet our stupid species just keeps on reproducing, handing down the misery.
A wise man once said "Life's a bitch, and then you die."
@@Rattus-Norvegicusso f the world, and go get high(on plants not chemicals)
Damn straight
I came across a quote once, "Everything will be okay in the end. If its not okay, then its not the end." Absolutely true!
-John Lennon
@@travist4066 Awesome! Thank you!
I think I heard something like that too but more along the lines of "Endings are always happy. If it's not happy, then it's not the end." Well yeah I guess that's basically the same thing though. Also, one might say death is the end, but even then humanity will continue and the happy ending may still not be off the table yet.
@@thederpydude2088 😄 i think it means more like, in the end (your end) you will be in a place where you are at peace. No worries, no guilt, no anything. At the moment of passing from this stage of life to the next, you will know that everything will work out the way its meant to and everything will be okay. When someone passes (in a natural type of way anyway) you can see the peace on their face. When they finally know everything will be okay. Very few people know this in life. Im thankful that i am one of these few.😃
@@Aravis217me too. I just got fed up with myself and people who refused to see this and at least try to get happy. Now I don't try. I AM. YAY!!
Worrying won't change the outcome.
I just turned 47, lost both my parents, and a single mom. I wish this video existed when I was young but REALLY found this useful now. After you lose a parent, you think about stuff, when you lose both, you realize your own mortality. This is the first time I’ve felt soothed and at peace. ❤❤❤ THANK YOU
Being alive gives you the sense of being separated from the universe and is full of suffering in order to appreciate being one again with the universe upon your return.
Fuck yeah
Good shrooms then? 😆
@@judgeberry6071 lol yup.
perhaps separation is an illusion
@@i_accept_all_cookies definitely
Change will come as change does. Nothing is immune to change. I had depression for many years and after each hardship, loss or death, I allowed myself a little time to wallow in the adversity. Then the inevitable happens again - change. Nothing can last forever in a lifetime of change. Even suffering is tempered by change. Joy is a moment of not-sadness. Change can only free you from the present Now. ❤
Be strong ya wimp.
What are some things that helped pull you out of your lowest points?
I wouldn't say that joy is the absence of sadness. I'd argue that happiness or contentedness is the absence of sadness but joy is most definitely a feeling that arises in given circumstances.
@@JtothePrezJoy lives inside us all at all times. We just forget and rather than letting go, we pile on more crap on top to fix our "bad feelings", when we really need to just let the bad feeling go.
We don't get better or stronger as aging, we just don't give a shit anymore
No truer words were ever uttered. I quit giving a shit long ago and accepted that no, things will not be ok. And I don't give a shit.
@1122redbird exactly. I did come to same realization. I can not solve the questions about life as no one did or will. I don't need to, don't have to, and it's not necessary anyways. Live life as short as it is.
Some mature and some just get older. Your choice.
I swear that I have to be in the right state of mind in order to watch your videos🖐️
There's a HUGE gap between the have and have nots.
@luccubsol ain't that the truth 😂
Haha, I just stopped it after 90 seconds.
It’s the anxiety producing delivery of his voice. It’s really irritating, triggering no matter the subject he chooses. 😢
@@elsagrace3893 to me it gives me the tranquility and quiet that sinking into a dark well would give me
To those who have lost everything and are living at the mercy of others, we can endure, but only for so long. It's hard to keep trying and just keep getting kicked down, further and further. Thanks for the words of encouragement, but ...
Oh stop your whining.
Shoppenhauer said that this is a planet of pain. I disliked that view but It has proven to be very true. I lost my son 8 years ago………it was the most painful episode of my life but also the most transformative. 8,000 plus hours of study later and I have been given the gift of knowledge and the deepest love and appreciation that I never knew was possible. All of the info in this video was in my study-I now have numerous lenses in which to view this experience called life. Blessings!
Yes🎉🎉🎉😮
You know what we other parents fear so much. Greatest of respect to your journey, your loss, your memories of your son. Appreciate your sharing what is a profound experience I'm sure. 🙏
That's so funny. My greatest pain was knowing my parents would REJOICE if I died. I got beyond that though, and funny thing. They are begging for my company now. Narcissists🙄🙄🙄. ..
For some reason I cried when you said everything will be okay. I want someone to yell at me that everything will be okay so loud that I forget to hear the silence all around....
It IS OK. RIGHT NOW.
@@sunnyadams5842 🥺🫂
No amount of my words can not even begin to encapsulate the profound impact of your words. Thank you truly.
Wow... Sitting in a train from work and had to keep it together to not let a tear off. This video is beautifully narrated and touches on a deep note. Thank you! ❤
Cry already, would ya??! What's so great about not shedding a tear?? Feeling things is what being human is all about. Go ahead,- Wail Away!! 🤨😁
@@sunnyadams5842 You are correct - sheding a tear every now and then is healthy and necessary. But it has to be quiet. It's weird to start in a train all of the sudden while you go out to meet with friends. :)
One of the possible dangers of growing older is that everything in the present has the potential to link to a memory, and if your emotional compas is aligned "due gloomy," it increases any exsisting depression. Thank you for the reminder that enlightenment is not achieved but strived for, something to remember at any age.
Yup. It's essentially when--after 60+ years or whatever--the JANK outweighs the good stuff! LOL. And that's just how it is for at least 90% of people on the planet; for every pivotal "good thing", there are at least 3-6 BAD ones. It all adds up once you've been around the sun a minute or two.
Seek the LIGHT. CHOOSE to be HAPPY. IT IS A CHOICE. Choose to LOVE GOD. Move that needle off of gloomy!! Heal your TRAUMA. Those uneasy memories are only hurting you because they are not truly processed. You have stuffed them. Get your flow back and you will be fine and dIe happy. Promise!!
just the reassuring title i needed in my recomended today lol
😂 same
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You are so good, SO GOOD. Thank you for creating.
Thumbs up for all of you, doing a great job with this channel! Your videos are so realistic, inspiring!
"11. Never say of anything, 'I have lost it'; but, 'I have returned it.' Is your child dead? It is returned. Is your wife dead? She is returned. Is your estate taken away? Well, and is not that likewise returned? 'But he who took it away is a bad man.' What difference is it to you who the giver assigns to take it back? While he gives it to you to possess, take care of it; but don't view it as your own, just as travelers view a hotel." - The Enchiridion By Epictetus.
Easier said than done.
What are your thoughts on right to ownership when it comes to subscription based models such as hbox max, netflix, etc. Where companies describe your actions as purchases but instead are really just forms of borrowing.
@@Ammut6well you just have a subscription to watch movies, they own them, when they remove movies or series you never owned them. So when you have a subscription you don’t really own anything either way, you are borrowing it with like your own options of when
I feel like im hanging on a thread as thin as slices up a hair, then below me is an infinity abyss of a sea, then people pulling my legs telling me is better to just come down, drown with them, then crowd of people running in hurry to cut the thread that i have been hanging on to with my right hand. The skies always dark and raining, screams of cries and shouts keep overlapping surrounding me. I woke up suddenly im in a ballroom full of happy people dancing and laughing but below me people are screaming and only I can hear them. God, if I can choose, I seriously wish to never born, what do I give to turn that way. I'm not suitable to be alive or exists
Everything will be okay in the end . If it's not okay then it's not the end . - John Lennon
Love the facepalm profile pic! 😉
@@VivBeyer1111 when words fail to describe one's dismay ,... there is always face-palm 🤪
This video was freaking awesome! As I've been saying for years: life basically sucks, so grab onto the good stuff.
I have shared this with everyone I am close too, thank you. It is wonderful to know that what you think and feel is felt by another. That it is possible to hold dichotomous beliefs at the same time. That your emotions thoughts and feelings are meaningless because you are intrinsically an eternal part of the all, and yet you and they are so meaningful, because you are creating and experiencing the expansion of the universe and conscious eternal love, life, itself. How magical ❤❤❤❤
It will be in MY simulation ✨💆🏾♀️✨ Love your work 🙏🏾
The title is what my inner voice says to me when i'm worrying about something
Good inner voice. 🎉
I love your videos, they never feel like dogma or sophistry/casuistry. Plus, the lessons are always explained with respect for nuance and that we shouldn't try to fully embody ideas unrealistically. Stay awesome!
Hi Robert! Amazing video as always! I was wondering if I could give you a suggestion. I have a friend who introduced me to your channel (she's been a subscriber for almost four years now) and she's been interested in Philosophy her whole life. She hasn't taken classes or gone to college to study because she is deaf, and unfortunately, the places she could go to attend classes have a huge delay in providing a sign language interpreter. Because of that, she relies on KZhead and books to satisfy her curiosity for knowledge and keep learning. That's why I was wondering if you could provide subtitles for your videos (because the KZhead-generated ones are quite difficult for her to understand most of the time). You could even have them on your website. Please don't take this the wrong way; it's just an idea. Once again, we thank you for your videos and the quality of your content! I hope you have an amazing weekend!
I agree eventhough I am not deaf....in fact youtube should make this mandatory for all videos....
Thanks for the encouragement, I was about to commit to it.
Today a friend told me he had to quickly leave res for home. The hum of anxiety spiked and I remained worried... expecting the worst. He just sent a video, in which he is having a nice time. Surreal sorta timing thia video.
0:45 that actually explains why i feel paralyzed in my life. i have crippling anxiety day to day and this kinda makes sense tbh..
well you being on meds for it is the wrong path to take. doctors played you and now you are down the rabbit hole. there is time for you to realize this.
@@YOUARESOFT.when did he mention meds?
@@Harxee he didn’t have to , I already know ….
@@YOUARESOFT. ?!!
@@Harxee well he didn’t tell me I’m wrong , I know the type , doctors got you all by the balls , stop acting so surprised
For some reason, this is equally reassuring as if everything was gonna be ok
Thanks for reminding me ☹️
I'm so tired of life why am i here? Why would i come to a place like this? Who are u people
who's responsible for all this?
Watching this while high. It’s word salad, but I’m terrified. Thank you. 🎉
Once you receive that one phone call, nothing matters ever again. All of the stoic, tao, and Buddhist beliefs fall into nothingness. Nothing ever matters again. It doesn't matter if it is going to be ok or not ok. Nothing matters.
To a point, certainly. After all... in 30-60 years, 99% of the people you have ever known (including yourself) will never be remembered, mentioned, recognized, spoken of, etc. That's just how it is. Well... unless you're part of the elite one percent, lol. And no one commenting on YT videos is (including me).
I hope you`re ok sweetheart.....sending you much Love !
True bro....😔
What do you mean? Please enlighten me.
Insane perspective: thank you.
I needed this video right now.
To be happy and see things go wrong means you loved something, youre doing something right keep going hun😊
I think an underrated response to anxiety, is the act of courage as delineated in “Courage to Be”, a short book by the German existentialist theologian, Paul Tillich. Stoicism tells us to, essentially, have faith in the “laws of nature”. Tillich would say to summon courage in the face of meaninglessness. Nietzsche’s message was the same, “He has heart who knows fear, but vanquishes it; who sees the abyss, but with pride. He who sees the abyss, but with eagle's eyes,- he who with eagle's talons grasps the abyss: he has courage.”.
I really enjoyed this touching and thought provoking video!💯
I’ve already been terribly depressed these last 3 or 4 months, oh well
Doesn't this put a smile on your face, friend?
@@arminxvs3372No, but the passing of time sometimes helps, just got to be patient. I admit it’s wise words though in the video. So intellectually I may hear wise words or good advice, however it doesn’t filter through to me whilst depressed, it’s understood but not felt. Feeling something so it really hits is different then just hearing wise words. It’s a knowing of the words that matters, it’s also an acceptance of self that I’m looking for too
Jesus christ, take control of your mind, develop a bit of spine, don't yield, if you carry on with your current path you're gone.
as long as you arent on meds you will be fine. if you are, then you are screwed
@@justmadeit2 If you want to accept yourself then let go of the desire to do so.
My results will be in 4 days, one year of work . This video came at right time
People always tell me “Don’t worry.. things only get better.” I know it’s a lie or cooing mechanism because there are gonna be far worse things to come in the near futures. Family sickness and death.. pain.. etc
coping*
death is part of the process. you are not alone in this, and dwelling on it will only hinder your life experience.
This is really what I needed there last few weeks I've been so anixety over my health and what could go wrong, how I could kust be done any second due to system inside and or outside. Being present, breathing and being happy that I'm still aware of the sunrise each day, the birdsong. The yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery but today is a present..
Wow. Thank you for this video.
Thank you for this video
Thank you, today is a terrible day. I feel a little better but I might still hang out with some C monoxides later. Sometimes the bad times are just overwhelming & I'm exhausted.
Get out in nature, PLEASE. Fresh air and sunshine and gratitude will fix you right up. Unless you want to keep being a putz 🥱😘oh and eat something delicious. Preferably something forbidden 🤣💕enjoy
Which seeker who has walked the diverse paths of life has not experienced circumstances that conspire to emphatically declare that 'All is certainly not well!' A person's sky constantly changes between light and darkness.
My mother died a few months ago. She used to call me every weekend. I live alone and the phone has stopped ringing and no-one calls me. Life is strange.
Talk to a friend
That is pretty much how it all goes. Especially as you get closer and closer to crossed beyond the veil. I mean... sure, SOMEone is "calling", but it really isn't the individual(s) you expected. :)
Worrying (as opposed to planning and preparing) actually never helps anything.
In addition to controlling the way we interpret and respond to our experience, we can also control what we pay attention to. This is huge but we usually act like robots on autopilot. Those are the only 3 things we can control but we have to do it on purpose in order to make use of this purpose - Free will is an action. If you aren't really present, you have effectively no free will. I like the concept of anti-fragility or actually profiting from untoward events as opposed to resilience and robustness. Nice graphics.
I often have to tell myself that these are "the good ol' days" when things feel right because any moment it can all go away.
I do the same, whenever I feel like things are going well, I take time to remember all my surroundings to look back on when things are the opposite.
Just last night my brother was mrdered. The pain I’m feeling is inexplicable but i remain unfazed by the natural ebbs and flows of life
Thanks man , I been hearing you lately
Thank you ❤
Imagine a world. In this imagined world, upon reaching a certain age, individuals are presented with a profound choice: to evaluate the worth of their lives and decide whether to continue existing or to opt for non-existence. Our existence isn't a result of our own conscious decisions, but rather the outcome of our parents' actions, driven by their primal instincts. We are brought into this world not by our own volition, but by the desires of our progenitors. The truth is, we lack agency in our own creation; we cannot choose to exist before birth, and once born, the option to choose is no longer available. I believe that if we are not given the autonomy to choose our existence, we should, at the very least, have the fundamental right to choose our non-existence. This should be regarded as a basic human right, honoring our desire to escape the inevitable tragedies of life. Considering the possibility of infinite universes, it stands to reason that in at least one of them, governments would recognize and uphold this right for every individual. Unfortunately, we find ourselves in a reality where such recognition is absent. In the face of perpetual sorrow, could it not be seen as an act of mercy to grant us the freedom to depart peacefully?
I had panic attacks in last six months! I really needed that
those are the worst. i found praying helps.
@@YOUARESOFT. thanks for the advice! I wish you speedy recovery too !
I like the faceless animation! Worry is just fear. There's not a problem to be dealt with because it hasn't happened yet.
Just what I need
There are no happy endings. The best you can hope for is a happy beginning and a pretty good middle. Because in the end, you die.
Facts 💯%
This Sunday, Christians will celebrate the resurrection of Jesus Christ. That He was raised from the dead means that for believers, as Dietrich Bonhoeffer said just before he was hanged, "For me, real life is about to begin."
@@bobtaylor170 …You (or Bonhoeffer), are making the claim, prove it.
@@JeddieT read The Gospel of John. Read C.S. Lewis' Mere Christianity. Read N.T. Wright's The Resurrection of the Son of God. You're not going to find DNA level proof. But plenty of people were convicted or acquitted before they understood how to use DNA evidence. One thing which is hard to argue with is the behavior of the disciples, and hundreds if not thousands of other disciples whose names we do not know. They certainly believed that Jesus had been resurrected. They were glad to die martyrs' deaths because they did believe it.
"Before I start, I must see my end. Destination known, my mind's journey now begins." --DD1
HV been waiting thanks
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Those who love to preach the idea of uncertainty should experience to the same extend every bad thing i have experienced. So they can relate why taking control and to know is imprtant.
Absolutely captivating! Your exploration of 'The Paradox of Anxiety' brilliantly articulates the intricate relationship between awareness and its potential pitfalls. As a fellow creator delving into similar themes on my KZhead channel, I deeply appreciate the depth of insight you've provided here. Your ability to navigate such complex topics with clarity and wisdom is truly inspiring. Keep up the exceptional work
Thanks so much for this wonderful video!
Fantastic video, thank you.
Aye, cheers for this
THANKS MOM
🤣
I use all 3 in my life all of them have been very beneficial for me i struggle with letting things go and i get caught up worrying about the past and future till i discovered buddist taoist stoic principals and mindfulness meditation i still struggle with it from time to time its an everyday thing to get better but im very very greatful for all of it
I used to think a lot about these questions in the past but it's much less painful to try to ignore them though, the less you care about things the less you worry about losing them, so you keep distracting yourself to not suffer before the inevitable comes.
Knowing the truth is comforting no matter what it is?
Another great video my guy!
Thank you.
DOES THE TITLE AND THUMBNAIL KEEP CHANGING AND THE VIDEO STAYING THE SAME OR AM I LOSING MY MIND?
I thought it was titled soemthing along the lines of “don’t try to have a happy life, become unfragile”
Wasn't this, don't worry everything will not be okay
I needed this
I learned exercising hard helps a lot. Puts anx in its place.
Your best yet 👍🏻
Good days and bad days, happiness and sadness like the sun and the moon. They come and go, all we need to do is survive until we see the good day come.
I was in a terrible car wreck 30+ years ago that left me disabled, and homeless. My life has been fear and fright since. Homelessness is near again, I'm destitute, and old. I watch wildlife run in fear as their habitats disappear, I watch as pets are set free or sent to shelters as their owners become homeless or die, I watch the oceans and their habitats decay, ... I was secure at one time, but broken promises, theft, and lies took everything from me. All life suffers like tears in the rain.
Yes indeed
Sending lots and lots of LOve you way precious soul ! ❤🧡💛
Wow. I always pucture that scene, when I think of life's suffering. Seemingly, my life seems to be punishment for others sins. Whether it be a family member, significant other or co-worker. My own sins, failure, or regret never seems to weigh in tandem. That's where my anger and rage comes from. I'm wrapping my arms around you, and holding your hand. You are not alone. I see you and heard you. Thank you for sharing courageously your thoughts. I wish I could offer you a guarantee or suggestion that would protect you. Did you try Veteran Associations or any Rental Assistance in your community? Even food stamp agencies have education grants.You're in my thoughts.
When the world is running down, you make the best of what’s still around.
Great song, too!
As a regular listener and overthinker just wanted to ask you about how these knowledge have affected you in your daily life? Also love your videos😊
A good question 😊
Ahh yes…the crippling paranoia and anxiety that I feel everyday.
Me too 😢
This video is amazing. You spoke to me
The bottom line is `What doesn't kill you makes you stronger' if you want to become stronger that is.
The past is gone and the future uncertain, there is only the Now. ♾️
Logos. I just learned of it only a couple weeks ago playing FF16. What fond mischief hath logos wrought.
What a video. thanks.
I lost both of my patents recently. Life was fine when I wasn't aware that they were gone. Oh well, someone will surely find them.
Thanks
The unease is supposed to go unnoticed? Sounds nice.
I know all of this. So do you and everyone else. There isn't anything new in world that hasn't already been said in some old book or script. Yet we still struggle. I know all of this and yet I struggle with not worrying about things I can't control. I am a private school teacher and my school is getting sold and it'll be demolished. I'm about to become unemployed in 3 months. The landlord called yesterday and he says he'll raise the rent by 300% or we get evicted. I'm gonna take an exam to get into a government school in my country but the 3 stage exam is in june and august and god knows when the results will come and I don't even know whether I'll get into a gov school or not. If I do, I'll have to move once again into another city. Everything is utterly a mistery and that's the cause of my misery. All of this unknown is making me paralyzed. I don't know what course of action I should be taking. Today I had a great dinner with my mom. I wanted to enjoy it despite everything. I looked at her and hugged her, thinking no matter what happens I just love her and it's ok. I know nothing's worse than losing someone you love and I try to live knowing that, but still it doesn't make those facts I listed go away. I'm still struggling financially and I have to support her, I have to find another job probably, have to find a house during economic crisis and no matter what job I find, it'll not be enough to pay both the rent and bills. I still have to take that test for a better position but I can't even collect my mind to study among all this.
And yet you will persist!! Much love and all the best❤
you just keep your head up and move forward. never stay stagnant. your new job you will be getting coupled with your mothers social security will yield shelter and food and clothing. the 3 human rights. which alot dont have . count blessings.
I kinda hope this title won't change. I like it .
Thank you
Excellent!
A broken heart is a loved heart